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From long hard personal experience, rehab, etc,,IF yyou are not on xanex,klonipin,ativan or valium,,,,painkillers gotta go first. if you take a lot, you will need a doctors supervision. Adderall, if you have been o it for a long time and are taking more than prescribed,,,very very addictive,,again, despite what they may tell you, you will need medical supervision. If you are taking your adderall and then have to suddenly go w/out for half the month, it will eventually become impossible to function. You need a psychiatrist at your county mental health offie, and you need to get into therapy w/ someone you trust. Deal with these things immediately. I came extremely close to dying,,,do not allow yourself, underany circumstance, to be put on xanex, valium, klonipin, or ativan, unless it is from a dr for withdrawl. If you get a script for that, you’re done.

Go tell your parent(s) or, if you must, go to the ER. They will admit you. You will have your whole life to pay it. Or , do nothing and you know what happens. You are very far along.

I doubt there is an honest person, over age 15, that hasn’t felt just as you do, on many occassions.
Most of us go through at least one major, personal depression(and a multitude of shorter ‘down’ times)at some point. But, there are usually events that are traumatic, that closely preceed these things.

If you have a problem, or many, that you are not dealing with,,head-on, and decisively, you will not magically be fixed. It will continue, and might seem to have lifted, only to return in a more severe fashion. If you learn at a young age to never be scared, unless your life is in imminent danger, then all the garbage on t.v. news, or some bully at school, or even cancer,,will bounce off of you. Worst thing that can happen from being a polite, honest, fearless hman being, is you will not ignore your importance here, nor will you miss out on the beauty of a place you think you hate.

Think about that, work very hard at cutting off your negativity, every second of the day, for two weeks. Then, do two more, and you will be a completely different person in one month.

It’s(life) very simple, really. = )

feh12,

I am relieved for you. The post I originally replied to certainly expressed your need and feelings of acute panic, as to how to fix the problem. I am all to familiar, being predisposed to anxiety and taking alprazolam(’xanex’) for 10 years to combat it, with the crisis that occurs when a miscalculation, or, much more frequently in my experience, an overzealous, undertrained nurse puts me in an emergency situation, on a weekend, etc,,and the fear that comes from knowing your brain will begin shutting off it’s cognitively adept, appropriate reasoning skills and thrust you into a place that, w/out the meds, is physically and mentally incapacitating, and can cause, as I learned in May of 2007, G.M. seizure to occur(I am only speaking of benzodiazapedes;Klonipin, Xanex, Ativan, Librium, Valium).

Fear, from fear, is not mathematically rational(i.e.,it does not take two negatives and make a positive).

Best of luck, stay ahead of the game on the meds, and never add or continue a med that you, or someone close (in a less subjective role) cannot clearly recognize has helped in specific ways, you to feel better. Obviously, don’t discontinue any med w/out consulting your Dr., but don’t just take meds. I see so many people, in our self-help groups and around our [surprisingly outstanding) County Mental Health Center, who are blatantly over-medicated;often to the point that they don’t even know what they are on..

1-800-424-3727 is AstraZeneca’s phone# for a program that provides free ,your seroquel, if you are uninsured. If you receive medicare or medicaid, they obviously don’t cover the ridiculous price of the meds. I want you to call a number for Partnership for Prescription Assistance, at 1-888-477-2669(website www.pparx.org). It does not matter who manufactures the meds you need, because most of the major companies are involved. That website will guide you to where you need to go. You just type in the meds you take.

Some of these programs require you enter the brand name and then they will discount it, through one of the many pharmacies they work with, by 25-50%. It depends on the pharmacy. But, if you can’t get the name brand for free(I received my most recent scripts, for very expensive mood-stabiizers, at a one time, co-pay of $10. They send them every three months, and getting the form downloaded, filling out the one page, and taking it to the Dr. , who faxed it at that time, allowed me to drive to the pharmacy to pick up the first month(the rest will be mailed)immediately.

My point is, I don’t want to pay a penny. These filthy, money grubbing, bastards have no justification for the prices on meds for bi-polar or schizophrenia, beside te fact that people w/ those conditions rarely have insurance. But they have to have meds. It’s heartless and cruel.

1-888-4PPA-NOW will be able to give you a list (if the internet does not make sense or does not offer your med ,at this site. I called, regarding my anti-anxiety medication(Alprazolam XR) because I could not find the XR,CR,ER whatever on the site.Just the regular (which is super-cheap as generic, the reason the Dr. switched me, in my opinion. I mean $8 a month vs. $82 for XR,which is less affective???). The man gave me three other programs direct websites and mailed an application to me that will go to several other organizations that do this thing.

And, if you haven’t already, the first thing i would do would be call Costco, and get the price of the generic Seroquel, if one exists yet. I don’t know how new it is, but if it doesn’t have a generic, it will soon. The price may astound you. And, Costco has to let you, by federal law, use their pharmacy, whether you are a member or not.

Whatever you do, realize that the government will not help you. They are in the process of cutting childrens benefits, they’ve been cutting into adult benefits for years. All so they can jack up the price of prescriptions, while you lose healthcare benefits/insurance because the companies cannot afford to pay the prices of the prescriptions, when you are only giving them $20 co-pays. It’s a mountain of forms, red tape, and tricks,,to keep you confused wile in line, for months and years, to get your own **** money back. Remember paying in so if anything happened, you would be covered?

Then one day, you become disabled, can’t work as much or at all, and you go show up to get all that money back,,and they just laugh and give you a stack of forms. There is a very special place in hell for these people.

Please e-mail me w/ any questions and I will quickly reply. You have two kids and a part-time job. Sorting through this should be made as easy as possible on you. And,,,I think you mentioned your kids were on Seroquel? I have no idea what the reasoning is, and it isn’t my business, but I cannot imagine any child (w/ the exception of maybe 1 in 10,000),needing to be on any anti-psychotic medication. Of cours, they are now trying to crossover use it for bi-polar sleep issues. This is simply a way to inject the ‘anti-psychotic/schizophrenia’ meds, into the more publicly acceptable,’mood-stabilizer/bi-polar,’ world. I am30 years old, 140lbs, 5′7″ tall with a history of prescription use (ritalin)beginning at 15. …I took 25mg of seroquel, prescribed for sleep, but at a much higher dose, by my Dr. I felt like someone dropped a ton of bricks on me, slept uncomfortably, for 12 hours, and spent the entire next day walking into walls and feeking like crap. Be very hesitan to let a Dr. try to do this thing where they find a medicated parent and convince them that genetics have handed down the condition. All we are doing is developing a new generation of mindless, obedient, slaves who are robbed of their individuality before they ever havea chance to develop it.
Just my opinion. I am not a paranoid, conspiracy theorist;but I am one of a minority that think for themselves and see the bigger picture. History is the greatest predictor of the future.

-Patrick