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• I’m going to kill myself tonight.
  

  well…… this must be your lucky day, “itsover” and “mrwalker” my number is Removed personal info,,,, its a mobile and i live in england,,, so i think the code is “001″ for England???? anyway take a chance and call me, your both prepared to take the ultimate risk and try and kill yourself, why not take a chance, ive read both your messages and i am desperate to talk to you both…. not cos i think i can help you,,, no i think we can help each other???? ps im not a nut…lol.. just call.
  - written 5 years, 6 months ago

• I’m going to kill myself tonight.
  

  god… look at us, we are all normal… eg everyone is crazy,,,, were a product of the age of the gross, we have 2 much of everything…cavemen didnt commit suaside, because they strived to survive, all we have to do is try and earn money? and the truth is, life is to hard to cope, take for eample politics??? industry??? global ecomany??? we are surposed to go to work everyday, and learn these topics to enable us to become what todays socisty would deams “GREAT” well educated ritch popular and so on,,,,,, this cannot be humanatys destiny, i cant ecept this is the soul purpose of the human race? my life is intended for far greater things, im in the persuit of my own cause, and im compleatly lost????? even if i did decide to go off in to the wilderness and try to get back to bacis, it would be destined to fail, as ive seen the bright lights of the city,,, so if i dont belive in fighting for humanity and it cause ???? what do i do? cant go back or forward?? truthly my brain dosent have the capasity to retain this train of thought constantly so i can resolve the issue, and it a re-occuring battle that leaves me frustrated and at times like i want to lash out at the wourl for being so scary and cruel,,, with god as my witness,,, let me follow the path of the ritchous the brave….. STOP… are these asperations im writing right now the product of my warped upbringing, its almost as if i want to discover what a humans true esseance is so i can emulate it. i think ive lost the plot,,, i am mad,,,, maybe one day ill find someone else out there that wants to persue life from a different angle, probably not.
  surprisingly enough im english well educated and pretty hot,, even if i do say so lol god save us all…. not that im reliougs.
  - written 5 years, 6 months ago

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