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I’m doing well. I’ve stopped being sad when I’m sober. Its not like I’ve stopped doing drugs, its just that I’ve stopped doing them as often…and I finally have a real group of friends. For the first time I’m with people who I can stand to be around without being wasted. Its nice :)

thanks for the encouragement, we went to the movies last night and out for drinks tonight! You might be my new best friend :)

Logan

Just want to say…you really helped me on a post i made about 6/7 months ago. And i wanted to say thankyou. You and a couple of others really changed my life for the better.

Help! broken wings needs emergency help-now.and pez lives nearby.can you contact pez?

Boo :D

Hey how’s life

i’ll be looking for yours, then. unless you want to give me the reader’s digest version.

December? no… I am quite new here a week or so. maybe in December I addes another post. can be. I am living in Germany, originally come from Israel. am about to turn 28 soon, just broke up with a 2 years b.f. that’s why I am here, trying to move on. and am planning to continue with my Master studies in psychology soon

how about you?

everyone has a story.

you don’t have anything about yourself in your profile. and you’ve been on the site since december?

you look like a fun girl (at the pic) and a good person :)

i’m originally from atlanta.

not trying to flirt; i’m old enough to be most people’s dad on this site. it’s just funny that every time i see the photo of one of you british users, she’s stunning. i suppose when two of you put up the same photo you’re secret image library will be exposed.

why is it that all you brits are pretty? do you have an image library of good-looking women to draw from?

did you ever find an investment property? i have a similar problem here. i’m renting, since a divorce, and haven’t bought yet because i don’t think the market has quite bottomed out.

Thanks and no I dont know what they are gonna be, but its my choice.

Im doin real good. I Am expecting twins in june! I have been taking a few night classes and found a really awesome job working at a teen community center. I am happy!!! never thought that was gonna happen, but so glad it did. So moving to the mountains? Well sounds nice and peacful. Not gonna have internet?! I would die!!! I am addicted. Its good to hear your doing well, take care and goodluck with the move.

been a long time. How are you?

No not really, well I don’t think so, it’s out by Dundrum and Rathfarnham, sorry I’m slow to reply, was just off ordering food.

Ballinteer, sorry bout the late reply

lol are we that predictable :P

Dublin Ireland, we’re neighbors ;]

Oh, thanx :]. How old are you if you don’t mind my asking?

21, why do you ask?

A troll is someone who posts fake stories on forums to get attention.

And if this guy is real, last thing we need to do is encourage him. There are enough stupid people reproducing in the world as it is now! ha ha.

Jane, he’s a total troll.

Im getting better, dealing with stuff. but things look good and I dont feel so crazy anymore. almost normal. :) hope you are well

hey
how are you? Ive had a crazy 2 weeks. things are looking up I think.

ypu know what I want to get myself committed yesterday and they told me I dont meet the criteria, to be an in patient ha ha ha. Funny I cant help myself and apparently nobody else can either. Im just cant believe it. Ha ha ha ha ha. Looks I guess I just get to be insane forever!

Im gonna be going away for awhile. Im committing myself to the hospital. I dont think I can make it on my own anymore. Im afraid, scared. I dont know what else to do.

monday

im falling through the darkness I dont know what to do anymore. I cant stand the crazy in my head. I hope your feeling better with what ever it was you were down about.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Everything sucks! I cant take it much longer. Hope your doing better though.

I broke down today. I had a bad couple of hours and let it shatter me. I am very drunk, I tried so hard not to drink. I let stupid things and people influence me. I lost my will power. you asked what happen to my counselor, well I got a new one I don’t like so much. vale is still around but I am pushing her away as fast and completely as I can. I don’t want her to see me, I cant have her around me. I am not good for her, I’m not good for anyone. I have to many problems. I’m to crazy. I bring nothing but bad to anything or anyone that I touch. I have a lot that I cant deal with. I keep lying to you and every one else saying things like , “I believe I can get through this, and I think everything will be ok again”. I don’t think I am gonna make it, I don’t think I will be ok ever again. I can pretend real well though. But I’m tired of pretending, tired of going through the motions. I’m tired of repeating this cycle over and over and over again. I cant sleep, haven’t in 2 days almost 3 now. I just cant do this anymore. Why couldn’t I just be normal. why couldn’t I just let go of all my hurt and anger. why cant I just live. I just wanted it to stop. the hurt, the anger, the crying, the sadness, and the pretending. I just wanted peace with everything. I don’t think this was how it was suppose to be for me.

My life is crap. Im falling apart. I cant see any good right now. I ran into someone it wasnt good. I dont think I can handle anything right now. I have lost my mind and am going off the deep end.

I think im falling backwards. havent slept in two days. cant stop shaking. I started smoking again, and doing everything I can to not breakdown and have a drink. I feel more broken then ever, I need something to make me feel numb for a bit. I think I am going over the edge. Dont know what to do, just needed to vent.

sitting staring out the window when I get to tired of being online. I just cant think of what to do. Had a doctors appointment yesterday. I seen my babies dont know what they are yet but there are 2. Im having a real hard time believing it. sorry sent it to myself first.

we are ok I guess, kinda takin a break. see theres a pos thought, been alone a whole 36hrs and no suicidal thoughts yet!

Home now. Its funny I finally get home and settled and everything is back to the way it was before I left. thinking positive just doesnt seem to cut it anymore. I feel like I havent done anything productive for myself.

lol, cant reme what i asked u now but im pretty blah to, llol, ru still in the bahamas?

blah. U?

You shouldnt let that guy get to you, and deter you away from this site but i guess if its that bad what else can you do. It was nice talking with you, you really have helped me. Thanks again and maybe if and when you come back we can chat some more. I seem to never run low on problems! Take care.

hey pez, glad ur feelin so much better and looking forward, i dont think im going to be on here to much anymore, i have been arguing with some guy called hotdog on a post and he has wound me up to the point where my blood is boiling! He says im harrassing him and hes not goin to stoop to my level etc etc. no one has made me as angry in ages!! I thought it was the opposite way around if u ask me! Grrrrr!

Its a new year!!!!!!!!! I cant believe what ive been through and where im heading. I think 2008 will be better then the last. i mean what else can go wrong in my life right. Ive been to hell and back. My new years resolution is to think about my choices before I proceed. Ive done a few things in the past couple of days that were extremely fun in the moment, but when they were over I didnt, and dont like myself very much. I think I can be better then what I am now.im trying to maintain a positive outlook for the coming year,month,day. well back to the party I go, I hope you had a good new year.

It’s Ron , and it’s my pleasure !!

I’ve added you as one of my friends ,I hope you don’t mind ?

Oh im going. I just hope she comes back, I dont wanna go alone. Ive spent to much time alone the past months. Wanna go? jk. I think I see her Im gonna go see if I can fix this mess ive created. lets hope I can pry my foot outta my mouth. I just need to remember to think then speak!

I dont even know where to start looking this place is huge, plus with my luck if I leave this spot she will come back and think I left. I suck at apologizing. I tried texting her cell she wrote me back telling me to go to hell. I really suck. I think I might be going alone. I think my life would make a great movie!

I dont even know where she went now. I pissed her off. I dont know what my problem is I just dont have any people skills. I speak before I think. I wouldnt be suprised if she left me here and went home.

She thinks Im gonna ignore her and try to find other girls to sleep with in the bahamas. it doesnt help that I flirt with every girl I come in contact with. Im a jerk and keep telling her shes right I only want to go to the bahamas to meet girls and im only taking her in case i dont find anyone. Im only being sarcastic but im a jerk. but she is just annoying me with her attitude about it. its probably cuz we are both tired and cranky.

as long as I have my cell and my laptop i can be online, well as long as i have a signal on my cell anyway. Im a jerk thats why we are fighting. Im just a jerk.