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• Quickest and easiest way to commit suicide.
  

  Yes i have a good husband in some ways but in other ways he could be better. his mother, 17 yr old daughter, and his gay ex wife is alot of our problem though. his ex wife is a peice of trash. she has tried everything she can think of to split us up. she even went so far as to order movies, send them to my house in her name and then called the law saying i ordered them. the police told her there was nothing they could do since i never had them in my possesion. she told my husband. “i was hopeing they could do somethin cause i am looking for any way i can to f–k her up” this woman is awful. she left my husband after 12 years of marriage for a woman. on top of that when my husbands son was 1 month old she stole my husbands jeep with the baby in the back, drunk, going to go buy crack, and the law got after her. she ran from them and wrecked, when the cops drew theyre guns on her she grabbed the baby and held him up as a shield so they couldnt shoot her. needless to say she went to jail and later to prison. when my husbands son was 7 months old we met. i have been the only mom he has known and he is now 5. she has been in and out of his life for the past year now. she cant stand it that he calls me momma and loves me. not her! its her own fault though but she blames everyone but herself. she wants me and my husband to split up so she can try to get back in this house. even if we wernt together my husband dosent want her. especially after the stunt she pulled when my son was a month old. my mother in law is a whole nother story. she is the anti christ! she looked at my 11 yr old son when he was 8 and told him she wished he would die and go to hell. i wasnt here when she said that or she wouldnt have teeth. she also stole 2 acers of our land. it was on a deed in our safe. she broke in our house while we were gone and forged my husbands name on it and had it put in her name. thats just the beginning of the things she has done. she hates my son because my husband spends time with him and he loves him. and she hates me because he loves me an isnt stuck up her butt all the time anymore. she went so far as calling the law on my husband and saying he hit his 17 yr old daughter in her face. he was arrested for that but the charges were later dropped. thats not the point though. that is so low of her to do. she is the weirdest person. she even asked me one time if my husband was good in bed and how big his penis was!!! is it just me or is that way out there. i was dumbfounded and i didnt know what to say when she asked me that. i cant find a job and she is throwing it up in my face telling me how sorry i am. her words dont bother me though. i wont let them. i do feel worthless but it is not because she says i am. i just need a break from all this mess.
  - written 7 months, 1 week ago

• Quickest and easiest way to commit suicide.
  

  I feel like i am worthless. i cant even get a decent paying job. i cant take care of my son, and well…. i feel like the world would be a much better place without me in it. at least my son would go to live with my relatives and they have the means to take care of him like he deserves. he is such a great kid. i just want him to have the best in life. he has the biggest heart and is an all around great kid. i am going to miss him so much but he will be better off without me. i just need to get up the courage to go home.
  - written 7 months, 1 week ago

• Quickest and easiest way to commit suicide.
  

  Like i said i am sorry to throw out my prolem on anyone. maybe my mother was right when she said she would have been better odd if i was never born. maybe i should just grant her wish. i wont be bothering you all anymore. i just thought ifi talked about it that might help me. sorry to have wasted your time. god bless you all and i hope he will forgive me…..
  - written 10 months, 1 week ago

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  M just going to say my name is skyler. i,m 28 years old and i have nobody to talk to about whats been going on in my head. i dont even know wht i am writing on here but here goes anyway. about 4 years ago i let my brother move into my house with me and my son. i didnt meet my older brother tilll i was13 yrs old. i guess ifelt sory for him. well after about 6 months of him staying wit h me he started acting different. i was working 12 to 14 hrs a day and from what he told me he had found a job working with a man that does roofing. i came home one day to find a yard full of police and i freaked out. i didnt know what was going on. my brother had been caught breaking into peoples homes. they searched my house and in the basement they found little things my brother kept for himself. they took me to jail because the things were i my home even though i knew nothing about it. i could understand if thet had charged me with having the things in my basement but ohhh no i was chrged with felont breaking and entering just like i was there with him. he was charged in 7 different counties and every county they charged him in the charged me in too. they knew he was a hibatatual felon and i had never been in trouble before. also i had a small child. i went to jail 5 times in a matter of 2 months. needless to say i am a felon for something i didnt even do. i lost everything i had because of this. my car, my home , anything that was of value. i almost even lost my child. my bother went to prison where he is serving a term of 15 years and i have been on supervised probation for 4 years now. i have to pay back 27,000.00 and have felony record for the rest of my life. what hurts me the most is i cant find a job because of this. i feel like a complete failure to my son. i cant gve my son the things he so deserves. who wants to hirea thief ya know. even though i hd nothing to do with it all people see is what is on a paper they are reading. i feel like my son woyld be so much better off living with someone who can give him the things he needs in life and deareves, he is a wonderfll boy. he is 11 years old but acts like a little man. he is always telling me its ok momma as long as i have you thats all i need. he wanted a new pair of shoes because his has seem better days but i didnt have any money to get him a new pair. i shovel horse crap and feed them for 60 dollars a week. thats what i have to live on. the school was going an a field trip and it only costed 25 dollars for my son to go but i didnt have it to give him. i have never felt so horrible in my whole life. i was 2 weeks away from going to blet to become a cop when this happened. now i am shovling horse manure. i try so hard to not let these things get me down but when i look at my son i feel like the biggest peice of dirt on the planet. i am now married to a great guy but it dosnt vhange the fact that i cant take care of my child without him. they say good things happen to good people but i am still waiting for something good to happen to me. i have made mistakes in life and i have paid dearily for them. some times i just feel like the world would be better off without me in it. if i had any other kind of criminal record i might be able to find a decieny job but nobody wants to hire a theif. even one who isnt a theif. like i said people only see whats in black and white on paper. npbody willgive me a chance. people wonder why most convicts go back to prison,,, probily because nobody will give them a chance to change their lives. of course others dont want to change. i just want to make my son pround of me and be able to take care of hin like he deserves. sorry to have wasted your time everyone but i just needed to get things off my chest…
  - written 10 months, 1 week ago

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