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• Just one of those days where the world comes crashing down. posted (1 week, 1 day) ago
  I know it’ll get brighter again. I know its just a bad day. I know that I am strong enough to …

• I can not be helped because I choose not to help myself. posted (8 months, 2 weeks) ago
  I do try though. I have been here many times before. Sitting here staring into my computer screen th…

• Just part one of a story I’m working on and only a story. posted (9 months, 3 weeks) ago
  Wouldn’t mind some feedback. Nothing wrong with constructive criticism. I spent most of my…

• My Christmas story. posted (11 months) ago
  Many nights i spent here in front of my computer. Sitting staring, hoping, hurting, and waiting. Wa…

• Im done. posted (1 year) ago
  I am not writing for advice, pity, or attention. I am writing to clear my head, to get jumbled thou…

• I have come to a point where I need to let go of this place, it has been a security blanket. posted (1 year, 2 months) ago
  It is time that I say my goodbye. I am grateful to this site, and the people here. I hope to keep i…

• Think me to be whatever you want me to be. posted (1 year, 3 months) ago
  Your right. I must be a liar. For you want no explanation from me, you have your own reality your o…

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brokenwingsdontfly's Top (5) Replies by other users' votes

• (2 votes) I can not be helped because I choose not to help myself.
  

  I hear whats being said. I think about it. I know these things. but yet I still feel like Ive failed. I have realized though, that failure is not a bad thing. It means I tried. You can not fail if you never try. So I guess Id rather fail a hundred times knowing I tried. Then just sitting here doing nothing. I just find it difficult to keep trying at times. But I do keep trying. I just feel like I should know who I am by now. or know how to handle me at least. I dont know. Today is a new day and after rereading some of my old posts I see where I was and where I am now. and Im way better off now. still struggling but made it this far. I know that with each new day, I get another chance to keep trying and keep fighting. So what I broke down and drank, got high and cut. but that was a different day. today I make the choice to not do those things. and if something happens that changes that I got tomorrow to try again. I am gonna go back to the mindset I had awhile back. I will not let myself be defeated by myself.
  
  - written 8 months, 1 week ago – voted for by Max, Marylou

• (1 vote) I miss having friends.
  

  I know what ya mean. as kids we dont think about it, we just do it. And just like that we shared a toy and made a friend.
  
  As an adult we over think it. I always wonder what will they think of me. and you cant just be honest and say I dont have many friends wanna be mine. People would just think your crazy then. I dont know about you, but over thinkin it is my problem. plus where do you meet people to be friends with. And its not like we can just sit and wait for them. If you figure it out, let me know? I will do the same for you….
  
  - written 10 months, 4 weeks ago – voted for by Puck You

• (1 vote) Complete this sentence: You know you’re addicted to help.com when…
  

  when you have to pee so badly but cant leave your desk because your waiting for a reply or shout
  
  - written 1 year, 6 months ago – voted for by ambrutellow

• (1 vote) I am no longer going to let myself be defeated by myself.
  

  OK so I am on another up and I want to keep it that way! I know only I can change the way I think. I know the only thing holding me back is me. I fear that I will fall again, but I am gratful for the chance to get up again. I have a new appreciation for my bad days, they make me appreciate the good ones so much more. I am looking forward not behind. I can not change the past only learn from it. I can get through this. I can get through anything. I have a long hard fight ahead, but have the tools and resorces to win this time. I am going to be ok, I am going to be happy. I look forward to having a life again. I look forward to living! Someday I will look back on this part of my life and be gratful I got through it. I AM NO LONGER GOING TO LET MYSELF BE DEFEATED BY MYSELF!!!! Today is a new day, and things can only go up.
  
  - written 1 year, 8 months ago – voted for by Sans

• (1 vote) .
  

  Ouch I can only imagine how much that would hurt, I know the smell though. When i was 12 I burnt of my eyebrows off and it was all I could smell for a week. Hint when a spray paint bottle says do not puncture, drilling into it with an electric drill just to get the ball out, NOT A GOOD IDEA.
  
  - written 1 year, 8 months ago – voted for by Sans

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• I can not be helped because I choose not to help myself.
  

  I hear whats being said. I think about it. I know these things. but yet I still feel like Ive failed. I have realized though, that failure is not a bad thing. It means I tried. You can not fail if you never try. So I guess Id rather fail a hundred times knowing I tried. Then just sitting here doing nothing. I just find it difficult to keep trying at times. But I do keep trying. I just feel like I should know who I am by now. or know how to handle me at least. I dont know. Today is a new day and after rereading some of my old posts I see where I was and where I am now. and Im way better off now. still struggling but made it this far. I know that with each new day, I get another chance to keep trying and keep fighting. So what I broke down and drank, got high and cut. but that was a different day. today I make the choice to not do those things. and if something happens that changes that I got tomorrow to try again. I am gonna go back to the mindset I had awhile back. I will not let myself be defeated by myself.
  - written 8 months, 1 week ago

• I can not be helped because I choose not to help myself.
  

  Thank all of you for taking the time to not only read my post but to give such heart felt replies. It means a lot. I will think alot of what was said through out the replies. I have a lot to think about in general. question is how do i get back to fighting. right now i dont feel the desire to fight it. but it needs to be fought. im drained. I dont really know what to say or do at this point. thanks all for coming to my post
  - written 8 months, 2 weeks ago

• Just part one of a story I’m working on and only a story.
  

  thanks for the feedback I appreciate it. and it is just a story. inspired by a someone but thats it.
  - written 9 months, 3 weeks ago

• Peace out
  

  Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  - written 10 months, 3 weeks ago

• I miss having friends.
  

  I know what ya mean. as kids we dont think about it, we just do it. And just like that we shared a toy and made a friend.
  
  As an adult we over think it. I always wonder what will they think of me. and you cant just be honest and say I dont have many friends wanna be mine. People would just think your crazy then. I dont know about you, but over thinkin it is my problem. plus where do you meet people to be friends with. And its not like we can just sit and wait for them. If you figure it out, let me know? I will do the same for you….
  - written 10 months, 4 weeks ago

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