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Helo just stopping Bye to say Hi and to see if your OK.SEE YA SOON

Hello im still here,,,i want to thank you for your suport thru my hard times. its just knowing people like you exsits that keeps me goin on.i was the 7th born out of 9 kids so you got to have some ideal what i’v been thru,with too drunkin parents that were never home and left the older kids incharge that took full advantage of it i was in hell,screaming,yelling beetings sexial abuase you name it it hapen you could write a book just on the bl family so when do you think they will ever be ther for me,my sisters know im slowly dieing in bad pain but all they can think about is how many pain pills they can talk me out of .now i say none and now they hate mme .

They are nice with me at the moment and offering to help with afew things.but part of me thinks me n her are playing happy familys.I feel like if I tried to talk about what happened she would get angry n argue against me.she won’t admit what she did. but if I don’t then everythings nice with her.

Srnity I’m not sure what to think of my family, my parents at the moment.I’ve made loads of posts about them on here n problems I’ve had before.I fell out with them 2yrs back in May n started talking to them again recently and I like seeing my dad I can tell he’s missed me. I can talk to my mam but I’m afraid that she could try to hurt me again n I don’t trust her.tried to talk about the things she did to me to make me ill n she kept saying that she did what she did because of the way I was behaving.in other words that it was my fault when I had not done anything wrong.she was trying to brush it off saying does it matter,does it matter?as if we should move on.but I still feel funny about her. I feel like I’ve got to make sure I’m alright with her or they could push me away again n I wouldn’t see my dad.I want to get on with them but just can’t trust her not to cause trouble

I’m doing alright, how are you keeping srnityblu? I do feel better from the last time I shouted you. I felt upset last time. but was hard to stay on the net to even talk about anything cos I didn’t have the net properly. but i do now, got a decent phone :)

I’ve been keeping busy too.I’m a carer.it’s a tiring job.if anyone wants to lose weight I say, be a carer haha

Wishing you & yours a very Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year filled with an abundance of His blessings!

Love ‘n hugs, Shannon!

~ Kitty ~

Hi how have you been?Iv been doing a lot of soul searching lately.still very confuesed.Is my life really all that important?yea I have 3 sons but they don’t need me any more.they have there own lives know.so where does that leave me.

Hi! It’s always so nice when you pop into my shoutbox! Thank you! :)

All is good and He is great! I know you are surrounded by blessings!

Love ‘n hugs!! :)

That was such a beautiful message, Shannon. Thank you, my friend. :)

Hey Shannon I will catch you later, thanks for the FB add by the way.. I am going to sleep. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
xxx L

Serenity, I thought you were in Ca, but I think it is Canada now. I am in California myself, to bad you were not the same area.

Well I am certain that you would understand and get it as real, when I shared it with you since you had mentioned openly about your own. I have shared it to some and they have been luke warm about it, maybe they get it, a few were able to.
I am glad that you are here and we can share the things we have had happen to us, as it increases so much the fellowship of the spirit.
I wondered about what you wrote about what is coming ahead?
xxx
L

My dearest Sister, I just missed you on here! But I was on the thread you were on and noticed what you wrote about your own experience with the Spiritual side both bad/good. I would like to share that I have been in the Spiritual as well but only with the Holy Spirit when I sought Him out finally after having been brought up with Tarot cards by my Mother, and eastern philosophy. I sought Him out after 9-11 on my own, asking Him where He was and how he could have let something like that happen. I was mad and scared and had only a little children’s Bible given to me by my great Grandmother after attending some limited amount of Sunday School classes. My mother did not want me to continue as she was not a believer and felt it was bad. Anyways I saw that book perched up high on the shelf where I was sitting and said to God, YOU ARE NOT IN HERE, SHOW YOURSELF TO ME, He did not answer and I started to cry, I cried for a long time and felt empty when I saw the book again and decided to open what felt like Chinese language…kjv childrens bible. I opened and sat there sad, when it came over me, this feeling flooding into me, over me, of peace and light and absolute love :)I looked at the words and they became easy to understand like there was an illumination of them to me, like I was being lead to comprehension very fast. It was like eating and drinking for the first time ever and being absolutely parched and starved, I could not take it in fast enough. I stayed up reading the word for hours and hours and days and days unending within the leadership of the Holy Spirit comforting and healing me inside out. I was in the spirit for about 6 months time like this, I was taught and healed in many ways.
That is something that people will not understand. I came to GOD on my own broken and angry, no person showed me the way. It was by His Love and divine TRUTH that I believe like I do in Him, I was very blessed as He came when I called Him, and showed me the way. I just wanted to say to you that I have not met many people who have had similar events take place in there lives and when you wrote what you did I had to share this with you.
Thanks for always being so wonderful
xxx
L

That might help.. I’ll put it in my blog. :)

http://diaryofanormalwomengirl.blogsp…

Anyway… we talked some and I do feel a little better now. He thinks this is the end of the world, I can see how he would feel that way but he’ll get over it. I hope the sooner the better.

Thanks :) I was with my friend all day, which I REALLY needed. I feel a bit better from earlier since I’m not panicky or whatever that was… thanks, and sorry again for just randomly shouting you again! I still be TERRIEBLE, and if there was a way to make that go away, that would be awesome. But there’s not I don’t think…

Hello, I’m sorry to shout you randomly I just shouted any random person. I don’t feel like making going all public right now. I just broke up with the guy who loved me more than anything, I just want to die. I don’t know what I’m asking for just desperately reaching out… I’m sorry.

hi lots of time hase past.IWISH i had something good ‘but I dont.my girlfriend is getting ‘andmy health is no better;and the worst of all is i gave up on god;because have never done anything that could make him so mad to make my life such a living HELL1111 i WILL BE SO HAPPY WHEN ITS over for good

Hi srnityblu how are u? Haven’t spoke to u in ages

Shannon Hi I hope all is well, I really need to ask you for prayer. I take some medication that is new and it makes my leg jump like crazy, I hope my doctor will know what to do.
I am dealing with being sad as well, yet I think it is circumstance. I trust in you and know your prayers are real thank you for you kindness always being a rock of a friend…
God bless you real good.
Love Lisa

srry for a late reply :)
am fine wbu?

Kudos to you for homeschooling your daughter; a learning experience for both of you! What I’ve found in life is that there are many more people trying to pull a person down than raise him/her up.. so you’ve gotta be the one to do the ‘raising’. Another thing is to always try to cultivate a sense of humour about things. Too many grim people in a seemingly grim world out there and could seriously use a bit of brightening up. ..Willy.

It’s a heartening thing to see people doing what they can to pursue God =)

Dear Shannon thank you so much for the wonderful shout, and all the prayers I really need them. You are a shining Sister to me in Him and in very dark moments you light and encouragement permeate completely in those places.
You seem to have the ability to make me feel more grounded and less afraid. Fear certainly does have torment indeed, I find myself locked into battles in my head over worldly worries, my worry gets the better of me lately.
Anyways I am trying to overcome this in small ways..
Sending you Agape
Your Sis in Him
Lisa

hi:)

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Hi Serenity I see you have been on here but I just missed you. Thought I would reach out again to you.
I really appreciate any prayers you have said on my behalf, I have to attribute to friends whom I have asked for help from… for these small steps forward. My depression is not who I am, I am living in spite of it and continue to do so in His mighty grace and support and love from my Sister/Brother in Him.
Enjoy you being around hope to chat one day again.
xxx
Agape

Hi Serenity I see you have been on here but I just missed you. Thought I would reach out again to you.
I really appreciate any prayers you have said on my behalf, I have to attribute to friends whom I have asked for help from… for these small steps forward. My depression is not who I am, I am living in spite of it and continue to do so in His mighty grace and support and love from my Sister/Brother in Him.
Enjoy you being around hope to chat one day again.
xxx
Agape

Hey Serenity :) I noticed you changed the avatar picture and thought I would come by and say hello to you. I wanted to thank you for the wonderful support you gave to me back in Oct/ Nov. w/ your prayers and concern, I was touched most of all by what you wrote to me.
I like that you are doing mentoring and counseling because it is something that you are doing very well indeed.
Life is good, getting better daily… God provides in all things needed.
I am doing better with my depression now, they finally found a medication that helps me. I just wanted to stop and say hello, hope that you are well Sister.
Love Agape

oh my gosh, this doesn’t sound good. You know what? Sounds like she’s not worth it. But friend, God is worth living for so don’t let her take away your joy! Find a way to tell her to leave in a way that retains your dignity. She’s a cling on and maybe needs guidance and help to figure out a place to go to…Maybe help her find an apartment?

hey how are you doing,good I hope ,I havent been ableto write as much lately because I got this stupid girlfriend now and she thinks Im on hear looking weman,can you beleave that?I havent even thought about that.thats the last thing on my mind.all I think about is when and where Im going to die,and yes she knows about my problem I dont think she thinks its realy going to happen,Most of the time she makes me wish I was dead,Iv told her to get out but she wont go,she driving me crazy Iv thought about just killing myself and let her do whatever she wants,life realy sucks right now death sound soooo goood rightnow

hey beleive it or not Im still here.sThank god spring is here the smells & sounds of birds make me feel so good.I love this season the winter makes you remember just how great spring & summer is,If Im going to die its this time of year I want to go.Its the best time new begianings and ends

I had a great Christmas but am suffering greatly right now due to drinking too much New Year’s…. thank goodness the office is closed tomorrow.

Wishing You A Happy Blessed 2011!

Wishing You a Very Merry Christmas & a Blessed New Year!

Hi Shannon ..
Thanks for the shout you sent my way, I have tried to reach you on email but it does not go through. I have opened up my email to you as well if you have some time to write me there I will be able to get your address from that.
I wanted to wish you a Merry Christ Mas and hope that you are well. Thank you dear friend for the support that you have given to me during this past few months I have been out of the country and dealing with my depression/anxiety, it has been really nice to connect with you in that way. I hope that we can chat or keep in touch a little more in the coming new year.
May God richly bless you and keep you well
Love Agape
xxx

Hello Shannon Thanks or the shout it is always nice to hear form you.
I just open up my email to you as well so you, I have yours but not sure if it is correct s r i n t y b l u @ …
okay well I will try it and see if it works
Take care dear
Love Agape

Hello thanks for your concern,I think Im going to be OK.I couldnt figer out what to do on that link you gave me ,Im going to put it in my folder untill you can tell me how to use it OK. and how you like my new name? Im tired of being a mind freak

Hi Serenity I just wanted to thank you so much for the wonderful things that you have shared with me in the shouts from a little while back.
I am doing much better now, I was brought home and taken off some of the medication I was on which was making my symptoms worse. I feel like I have been able to be hopeful for the first time in a ling time just recently.
You are such a inspiration to me thank you for the wonderful gift of love from above you gave me during the horrible darkness I was in.
I send greeting and love and peace in His name Sister
XXX