hey hows it going, is today a better day i hope so:) if you need to talk im here:) oh and wow! i cant believe it my classes the professors they are actually good! i mean my math teacher actually made math interesting and made me laugh a bunch now thats a teacher you need to look for in college, anyways just saying hello and how are you:)
its not annoying not at all we all have our problems and i am more than happy to help make you feel better in any way i can, i got school tommorow too! gotta get up early but im so excited i lol actually dislike being out of college! well anyways i wish you well, and have a good sleep, hope to talk to you soon:) goodnight
and you know i just realized something jessie if he completed you made you whole then you wouldnt be feeling this way. everything with a deep meaning always has that meaning because you give it meaning, and just as well you can take that meaning away, i say i want you to be happy jessie and to be honest it just doesnt seem like that is your path, i mean what do i know but you dont seem happy with him, and your real love through thick and thin good and bad will love you no matter what and always strive to please you and make you happy, ill be blunt he is being selfish thinking about only himself, so what if you say something to upset him you know what your a great person, you could say whatever you want to me good or bad, pos or neg, mean or nice and you know what because i know that your such a great person i would let it go, i would understand that maybe your upset and i would try my best to help you:)
there only no one else if you tell yourself that there is no one else, your mind is a powerful tool use it! and hey letting go is a part of life it sucks yes its hard but you have to do it in order the learn and grow and hey! dont say youll never get to experaince it you never know life is so full of variables you just cant determine what will happen next, maybe you wont get to experaince what you planned instead maybe youll experaince something 100x better!:)
i swear i keep posting to myself! lol
actually im not real im a robot lol, wow really? well thank you that really made me smile, im wishing that i didnt live in cali right now
stupid me posted to myself :)
your right i dont understand, but i have seen situations like yours so at the same time i do, and ill say and i dont want to hurt you by saying this or upset you but from i have seen it doesnt ever go back, and dont tell yourself that! you can find happynes the same if not better! then what you used to have with him, it just takes patience, and strengh and i can tell you are a very strong woman, ask yourself why is he treating you like this and also think about this outside of emotion this can be hard to do but if you try you can do it, logicaly it just doesnt work he is hurting you and he doesnt stop, your happiness comes first, you may now feel like half a person but that isnt true your you and nothing can change that, youll find someone better! you just have to be tough, and trust in god, you can find someone that not only completes you but adds to you!
well you need to take the power back, a better example ill use, my mother and my step dad, oh thank the heavens above earth he isnt around anymore lol, well they were together for 4 years, and bryan never changed always abusive to her and me, violent and complelty incompetent anyways he always did the same shit over and over again and when my mom finally thought she was done with him he’d come up telling her what she wanted to hear and like your…guy he would weave his web i of course saw through it so it drove me crazy! that she fell for it every time, and you know what he never changed no matter how much he promised he never changed, it took my older brother knocking him out to get my mom to leave him, all i can say is well lol dont knock him out even though it sounds like he deserves it lol, but try and try again, if you stand tough and tell him no and stay firm he will get the message jessie you dont deserve to be treated like that your so much better, your such a wonderful person who deserves to be treated good, i know one thing if i was with you i never would treat you like that ever! and any guy with common sense would treat you the way you deserve!
i know that kinda thing can be hard, but listen if he isnt making you happy, and isnt doing everything in his power to love you and make you happy then ill be blunt here he doesnt deserve you, its hard making decisions like this but your to good of a person to let this happen to yourself, ill be honest you need someone better for you more loyal and loving who will treat you the way you deserve, be strong if you dont want him in your life, if you feel that way then maybe there is a good reason that you feel that way, you need to be strong and stand firm, hold your ground! i a couple of years ago dealt with a similar situation and while i then somehow was better at conversing than i am now it ended badly really bad but i kept letting it cycle because i didnt know what else to do, but i decided that hurting myself was wasteful and that i must make a final decision for my own sake to be strong and resolute, and ill say it was not easy!
well its not the worst mistake, i mean hey stuff happens and you certainly wont pay for it for the rest of your life, unless.. well nevermind that, but anyways your a great person and great things will come to you, so what if you made a mistake everyone does, hey ill say i havent made the best of decisions myself but i figure that each one happened for a reason and that was there was a life lesson i needed to learn from it.
but one thing for sure and thats do not let anyone walk all over you, you are too great of a person to let that happen:)
hell ill just say it even though ill probably be totally wrong and sound like an idiot lol, my impression was that things got with u and your (boyfriend/friend/fiance exc… lol) close and that wastn intended but i could be and probably am wrong.
and… i dont think that youll pay for this mistake for the rest of your life unless you allow that to happen, i went to church today, i havent been to in quite some time and i gained further resolve from what i heard today, and thats, let go, never allow a mistake or injustice to pull you down, stay strong and break through those walls, anyways i hope im not upsetting you if i am sorry i dont mean to upset you, if you want we could talk about something else i cant help but feel like im just rubbing it in.
that is true, but i trust that you are honest with who you present yourself to be and thus i responded according to my perceptions of that, but though i dont know the half of it i have seen my share of similar situations, and ill say no mistakes are without solution, are without a way of being repaired, everyone makes mistakes that is how we learn, and maybe you are paying for it, or maybe you are making yourself pay for it, trust in yourself for the right answer and as well god, pray for this and i will as well pray for you, this mistake of which i have somewhat of idea as to what it could possibly be is just a mistake dont make yourself pay for being human, your life is ultimately in your hands and no one elses so you choose your path and choose your pain so to speak, with a strong will and belief in god you can overcome anything, any hardships and you can learn from them grow from them, so what if you made a mistake you know what its just another lesson you needed to learn:)
that is true, but i trust that you are honest with who you present yourself to be and thus i responded according to my perceptions of that, but though i dont know the half of it i have seen my share of similar situations, and ill say no mistakes are without solution, are without a way of being repaired, everyone makes mistakes that is how we learn, and maybe you are paying for it, or maybe you are making yourself pay for it, trust in yourself for the right answer and as well god, pray for this and i will as well pray for you, this mistake of which i have somewhat of idea as to what it could possibly be is just a mistake dont make yourself pay for being human, your life is ultimately in your hands and no one elses so you choose your path and choose your pain so to speak, with a strong will and belief in god you can overcome anything, any hardships and you can learn from them grow from them, so what if you made a mistake you know what its just another lesson you needed to learn:)
ahh but do you? it may now at the time bieng seem that way but i assure you life is full of changes, and who really knows what could happen, but dont ever let him walk over you, thats and please dont be mad at me for saying this, thats not a relationship if he just disregards your feelings like that, your a very special person and a very good person who deserves to be treated as such, and again things now may seem like it wouldnt feel right with anyone else but you cant possibly know that untill with someone else dont cause yourself to suffer based on that thought, your an incredible person and i have no doubt that you could easily find someone else your personality is just well drawing if that makes sense, if a guy truly loves you he wouldnt treat you like that, if i loved a person i would put my own needs after theirs, i would make sure they are happy, and i would never be rough with them or call them names even if i was angry.
hmmm well the choice is always yours know that, but god! why would he do that! i mean common calling you that just isnt right, go with what your heart tells you, what you feel right dont jump into something just cause you feel like you cant live without him if it means dealing with stuff like that he should treat you with respect and admiration i wouldnt ever treat anyone like that and i wouldnt stand to be treated like that, even if it doesnt work out and it hurts know that there will always be other chances, other experiances that will come along, but sorry:( i wish you didnt have to have such a bad weekend.
Hey, saw your posts about your b/f and getting engaged. Congrats! Reading your earlier posts were like hearing about how I felt and sometimes still feel. the emotional rollercoaster,and just wishing to be strong enough to move on, or just not to have met them, but everything happens for a reason, you obviously both did some learning, and its came good in the end, mine came good for sure, guess good things come to those who wait. I really hope things work out well for you… and you get to be the old couple having been together and loved for years and years
I noticed you have a firm belief in god. Please I was raised roman catholic but due to becoming an undertaker I learned many faiths. I remained faithful to christ always and I still do though I have watched a video you can view here http://zeitgeistmovie.com/ and I have not been able to disprove or deny what has been shown. Maybe you can, please watch it.
It was pretty good how about yourself? Hows things with your fiance? Everything continuing to go well? Oh and share that video with anyone else you come across hehe, I think it’s really nice :)
as you stand before the brightly burning sun you see
your shadow trailing behind, shall you recede into the darkness hiding forever unseen or stand strong and face that what gives you cause to fear
just a little monologue i came up with so what do you think?
yeah good idea, i realized well kinda already realized but well more realized that my most importing thing in life right now is to pursue my career i mean hey it aint easy becoming the top scientist for the gov!
ahh but you are since your a girl,(are you?) lol just kidding but thanks any advice helps but ehh im not worried about it anymore i got my career to think about as priority maybe after that i can worry about this stuff and hell who knows maybe something will come along
lol good point but clubs what kinda clubs? and ick drinking no thanks yeah no dont like partying, yeah but my prob is i dont really know what to say if its a stranger moreso then if i know them so thats why i prefer to have a setting where i get to know but i guess that really apparently isnt working so well lol
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