self help books are a good idea. and thanks for e-mailing me back. i really appreciate all the advice and support you’ve given me and keep giving me. thanks for not getting annoyed with me
I don’t know, the days are going by and its not getting any easier. I try to go out and do things but all I see is couples or friends hanging out and I’m so lonely and all alone. I just want some one. Everyone always says to me you must have friends, everyone has at least 1 friend but I don’t have any.
I don’t think it will get better. every once in a while I have a good day then everything just falls apart again. Sometimes I wonder why I even get up or take a shower or get dressed. I’m not going anywhere and no one’s coming to see me. I’m just alone, constantly. I just keep hanging in there but nothing is changing
Hey Buddy Cattail!!! *hugs* the beach was great! first we had to drive 5 hours to get to port….uhh…something…i forgot… then we had to wait 2 hours in line to get on the ferry across to galveston, and we passed texas city, some cargo ship, a ship that SANK because it burned up…O_O, and we got there, got a motel and stayed there for a couple of days. :D and finally Monday’s almost gone buddy!!!i can see tuesday from here!!!
awww thank you, thats very kinf of you. I was getting a little worried about you hun as you had vanished, so im very relived to hear your ok :). Hugs I hope your surviving with a smile, well as much as possible.
Glad you are ok. I was talking to him again but nothing changed like he said it would. Even though he told me he wanted to work things out and be with me, it wasn’t the truth. He just wanted to treat me like shit and have me around in case he wanted to hook up. so I told him two days ago that i am done. And he hasn’t tried to contact me so I guess he doesn’t care anyway. I’m really gonna try to stay away this time, even though I’m already having regrets
Hugs hello cattail, i havent seen you around lately, so a little worried about you. i hope you are ok hun and resting well, Bug hugs. Let me know how you are and take care my very good friend :)
Hello cattail, I hope you are ok and feeling well and rested. How are the naps going? I have missed you my friend. let me know how you are doing when you get the chance ok :). Hugs you
I always find your name very comforting, im not sure why……. maybe because i have always had cats all through my life, or maybe its because i assosiate the name with the really lovely and nice person behind it :).
Lol ill go with the second definatly hehe. Thank you cattail, i knoe your not even there to reply tonight, but even writhing this to you has helped and comforted me on a really bad night. Hugs… Take care hun
yes i know the feeling. when im at work i long for the weekend to sleep. But then at the weekend i stay up later and wake up by my body clock at the normal time. So i actually end up with less. Crazy huh
Nothing is going well. I really feel like I’m making an effort to go and do things and try to take my mind off everything. But honestly, I’d rather just shut myself alone in my room and stay there. It’s too hard to do anything. It’s too hard to pretend like I’m happy so I won’t upset other people. I have an aunt in California and a sister in Miami who seem to care and both of them I never see and hardly get to talk to. And I don’t like talking to them about me because I don’t want to burden people with my problems. It is extremely hard for me to open up to people. Even on this site i feel bad that people have taken time to try and help me and that I am not better yet. I want to help myself but i can’t imagine ever looking at myself and thinking I deserve better than some one who treats me like shit.
I’m ok, I left for a few days. I’m really sorry if you got worried. I’m not trying to worry anyone especially the people who are helping me. Maybe people are right in saying that it is impossible to help me because my thinking is so distorted. I don’t know. I kinda started to count on you to be the only person that could help me and I’m sorry for that. It’s putting too much pressure on you and you have your own life to worry about
i dont know hun lol. But if i find the solution ill let you know. Thank you so much for catching up and talking to me cattail, it has made my night. I needed a friendly voice tonight as i was going out of my mind a bit :s. Thankyou, your a great friend
I hope you feel better and get a good night’s rest!! I have to get ready for bed already so I can do it again tomorrow!!! *yawn* Work-eat-sleep, work-eat-sleep… that’s how it seems during the week!!! It must be very late there?!! *hugs* to you… I do hope it’s slowly getting better and these bad nights are fewer and fewer?!
god bless the weekends hey lol. I know what you mean about the always tired though, i seem to do nothing but sleep and im still tired. Or though better that than having to think about things at times lol. dear oh dear i feel 100 too. Do you think we would get a discount for buying 2 zimmer frames at the same time :P. Hugs cattial, i missed you