Saint Jimmy(2)'s reply history at Help.com

its okay -nods-

I can’t find it >

-shakes head- no thanks. I’m kinda paranoid about adding people to my messengers, sorry ><

and I have a lot of reasons, and all of them are good ones, and I can’t tell ANY of them to people around here because it’ll make my life worse. I live in a very small town, and if I told one person, everyone would know very, very quickly, and I would get in trouble from my parents and my school and the few friends I have would abandon me. It’s just not a good situation any way I try to fix it >

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I know what it’s like when everything in someone’s life just seems to fall apart at the same time, I’ve had that happen a lot. if there’s anything I can do to help you, just say the word.

I think in a way that always puts other people ahead of me, no matter how bad I’m feeling. And every time I get about to go tell someone, one of my friends or someone I know online has something worse happen to them that’s worse and I just think that was I’m worried about with myself is really stupid and small, and I try to help them as much as I can while ignoring my own problems. it happens every time, and even now it happened and I feel stupid for posting this ><

and I’m going to try that, then put it on my guidence counceler’s desk at school after I get everything written in it without me being there or her being there so I don’t have to look at her face to face. I have a lot of problems with self confidence, which you guys have probably realized, and I don’t like talking to people face to face about my problems or anything like that >

what happened?

it’s different for every person, and every reason. talking it out with people who really care helps a lot, for me at least. try playing games online that are relaxing, or just listen to music that calms you down. try not to focus on any problems that you’re having and just try to coast through your life for a bit, if that makes any sense. if it’s day to day stuff, then you might need a bit more help, but I can’t think of anything right now to help that except ignoring it >< sorry

forgot to check anon. ****** >

I’ve tried to bring it up before, but I’m the kind of person who doesn’t like talking about myself to people when they’re in a good mood, because it’ll make them sad, and not saying anything when they’re already sad, because they have their own problems to worry about.

And I’m pretty sure it’s depression, but when someone tries to talk to me and help me, I just freeze up and everything I want to say to people goes somewhere else and nothing gets fixed. The guidance counceler at my school overheard me saying something to the effect of that I was going to kill myself, and when she talked to me about it, I wanted to say everything, but I froze and lied. I don’t know why. And now I can’t go back and talk to her because I feel stupid for lying in the first place.