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why?! :(

im not strong! honestly! and yeah i can disregard her behavior but my face won’t! it will flush once she does what she always does!!!
i dont care about HER i care about myself!! i don wanna be that weak person who hides under the sofa!!!!!!!
why on earth does she do so to me?
i was thinkin of preventing seeing her and not goin to that gathering again but ive changed my mind!! i wanna face that.. i should win!
im tryin to train myself not to be so coward!! but i dont know how PLUS im chicken!

she’s in her late 20’s!! 7 years older than me, she’s the clown !! lol i mean she always tries to be funny (SHE’S TOTALLY NOTTTTTTTT)and she’s talkative!!! humm she has 4 kids!
i see her every weekend in some social gathering i go to!

insomina u mean i stare back while im talkin?! SHE STARES IN AN ANNOYING WAY even when im not talkin to herrrrrrrrrrr!
once i talk she turns and stare!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I SWEAAAAAAARRRR

that’s why i feel like there’s somethin wrong with meeeeee!

summer!! thanks buddy!!

hii Saggezza!! well everytime i move…or talk (NOT WITH HER) she stares!!!! like she doesn move her eyes from ME!!!!!!! that makes me feel that way + she kinda holds laughing back and tries to comment in a sarcastic way!! like she tries to speak the way i speak and stuff like that! i HATE HER!! she tries to make fun of me! WHHHHHHY? i havent hurt before !!!!!

she’s someone i have to meet every weekend!
I HATE HER!

Thanks sweetie!! yiu make me see things differently!!

i will definitely keep us guys updated!

Thanks again!!

Take care

Lilies *hugs* your words are healing my pain :’(
thanks!!

well im dying to know what they think cause that would help me change the things i should change!!

and yeah they laugh at me!! the way i act when i get shy maybe or anxious !! and that makes it worse! my face start to flush and blush!!

i will definitely find a way!! cause I WANT TO CHANGE!!

ill never give upp

thanks a lot honey!!

appreciate it !!

*Hugs*

well.. i meant that when i meet ppl for the 1st time they get excited to know me and stuff like that but after a few times they start to change…maybe they notice that im weak and awkward!!!!
:’( i guess ,, im not sure!!

they start make me feel inferior and laugh at me in front OF ME! and i cant stand for myself .. its so PAINFUL!!!!!!!

specially becuase i know im better than them!! I PROMISE I AM!!

i mean im good looking. smart..but myabe quiet with ppl i dont really know!!
they probably think that being quiet is a gusture of being weak!!

well they’re right !!!!!!!!

im so freaking WEAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :’(

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they make me feel that im weak!
and they laugh at me! even if i were with me (painful to death)
i’d like to know why!
cause everytime i meet new ppl they show me how intrested they are and they really wanna get to know me but after 3 times or so they start to change and make me feel inferior!!!!!
im a good looking girl and i guess that’s why they want to get to know me at the beginning but when they see how weak i am they start to change!!

i really want to know how they perceive me! and how i look like when it comes to social life!!! maybe they think im such an awkward weak s h i t :’(

im not sure though!!

u r nice

yeah!! of course!
and i know NOT all ppl are mean!! i told you im sure i have a problem! not people!

cause what’s going on is so unbelievabl!! i had lived in a forgien country for about 13 years and after i moved to a total different country this thing happens to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHHHHHHHY ME?
WHY
?
i swear i promise im just as good as anyone else! so why ?

i mean why i cant stand for myself!! why do ppl treat me this way after meeting me several times?

i want to be stronger and more scure!!!! :( i can’t even tell you how painful it is :(