babacup's shout trail with Unnamed Desire - Help.com

I have been so busy lately that I get on here for only a few minutes a day. Like right now, I have to run to get things for Thanksgiving dinner. I am feeling a bit down because it will just be my husband and the kids here for thanksgiving. We are not going to visit with family. = (

How have you been?

how have you been?

good night and thanks for taking the time out to talk to me.

i performed one time in front of people and that was in a talent show. i was dancing to I Need an Angel or something like that by Ruben Studdard and i had just made the dance up. everyone clapped and stuff at the end and i did good but i was nervous and my leg kept shaking

my kids are in bed, and my husband is going out of town in the morning, so I am going to go make sure he has everything he needs. I don’t want to be rushing in the morning.

Good night.

Oh I know I hated being in front of people in high school. I still can’t talk in large groups without feeling really uncomfortable. But in something like the poetry club, you will get to know the people and then slowly you will feel more comfortable reading your poetry in front of them. Also, it will be a great experience.

It was like the teachers meeting I was in this sunday. The first time I went to one of those meeting, I felt sooo uncomfortable. I had no idea what to expect and then she had us each say a little about ourselves. I think she picked up on how uncomfortable I was. She gave my information for me. I felt relief but also self conscious. But now that I have been to a few of these meeting, I had fun. I know everyone now and we laughed a lot. When I had to talk, It was very easy for me.

Nathaneal is such a nice name.

well my mom has gotten a babysitter, her friends friend. and when im at school and shes at work then my mom sends Nathaneal to her other friends house.

the oroblem is i guess is that when everyone has to work they cant be late to work and picking me up would make them late. and the friend that my mom usually drops Nathaneal off to always goes to sleep and takes a long time to wake up and my mom had to work today so she didnt want to take that chance of me being left at school i guess

maybe i would do good in poetry club but if i have to read it in front of people then i dont think i will do it.

my mom works like 4 days a week then like 2 or 3 days off to work a 5 day week sometimes

I hope you get to go the the poetry club. I think that is somewhere that you could really show your talents.

My mom worked all the time when I was growing up. I didn’t have anyone younger then me in my family. So I didn’t have to be home to babysit or anything. I just had to walk to and from everywhere. I don’t think I even realized that everyone else was getting picked up by parents and dropped off by parents.

Do you have to be home to babysit? Is that why you can’t stay and maybe get a ride from someone else?

no i havent been getting involved. its like everything i want to do happens after school and i cant stay because my mom has to work alot and she wouldnt know who would be able to pick me up if i stayed. like today she said i could yesterday stay after school but when i called to confirm she said no. the day before that i asked her like 4 days in advance and she said ok then on the day of she said no.

poetry club at my school has meetings every thursday and my mom took all her thursdays off so i can go so maybe i will go this thursday and tomorrow is open house at my school so she can meet my teachers

im used to my mom saying no to me all the time and i dont know why but now its become a dissapoint when she says no even though i already expect it

my weekend was ok i couldnt remember sunday saturday was stressful and friday i didnt like because after the good day i had i got let down by mom because she said no

I have had a great weekend. We went to see the Ungli stick http://www.myspace.com/theuglistick play a concert in the park. It was a lot fun. They are friends of ours and they dedicated a song to my kids and they played a song they wrote for my husbands TV show.

Yesterday I had a long day at church. My kids are in a play so they had practice before church. Then I was teaching in the sunday school, then after that I had a teachers meeting. So it was a long day.

Today I worked on editing a podcast show my husband does. I really enjoy editing. I get to take my time and make people sound good by taking out all their mistakes.

How are things on your end. Are you getting involved in anything at school?

I have had a great weekend. We went to see the Ungli stick http://www.myspace.com/theuglistick play a concert in the park. It was a lot fun. They are friends of ours and they dedicated a song to my kids and they played a song they wrote for my husbands TV show.

Yesterday I had a long day at church. My kids are in a play so they had practice before church. Then I was teaching in the sunday school, then after that I had a teachers meeting. So it was a long day.

Today I worked on editing a podcast show my husband does. I really enjoy editing. I get to take my time and make people sound good by taking out all their mistakes.

How are things on your end. Are you getting involved in anything at school?

how is it going?

its been going ok i guess. how are you?

I feel like I have not talk to you much since school started. How is it going?

i just thought of it i dont really remember how but i figured that im not unknown and most people dont know what to call me so unnamed and people want to talk to me and i always want to help so desire. i really dont know it was long ago. if she writes a book i’ll make sure to read it then

My daughter loves your help name, unnamed desire. where did you come up with that name? She thought it would be a great name for a book.

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Let’s get you looking at the brighter side of life!

yeah im worth $0.00 and cant get a friend without them feeling pity or a guy to look my way or tough enough to do anything good enough for my mom yeah i have real value alright oil is worth more than me

You are of value and you need to challenge that thought.

Willard already is.

its ok dont be sorry you have more important stuff to do and its not a life and death emergency so go do what you have to do

people seem to forget that im nothing of value

Well, it does not sound like you are doing to well right now, I am sorry I can’t stay and talk. Can I invite WIllard to talk to you.

i think ill challenge it when im dying and change it when im dead

challenge it by trying to live a little longer changing it by saying it would be smart if i died now

problem solved

Well catching it is a start. Challenging and change it is what we need to keep working on.

I have to get off here. We are having a Wizards of Waverly place party for the movie tonight. I need to get the food ready.

i couldnt do that i could catch it not challenge it try changing it then it comes back the same

its a new school and its a whole lot bigger than my previous school and its been 3 days and i have yet to make any new friends im not really excited but not bummed out either

How is it being back to school? I know daughter is happy to be back. My son is not happy and my other son is in between. He doesn’t hate it but is not exciting either.

I am mostly on the computer in the morning and for a few minutes in the evenings. So I have a feeling we will miss each other a lot.

Right now I am making cookies for the kids so I have to go.

hi

sorry i worried you. i’ve been going to school its my second day been getting lost and stuff

i dont know about talent or what part of me is strong exactly and not much to say about my intelligence

i dont know about me being a light but sure i guess

tell your kid happy belated birthday sorry i missed it

im not able to get on the computer much so im sorry for causing worry

What’s going on with you? I am worried that you have not been here.

You are smart, you are strong, you are talented, you are going to get through this hard time you are going through.

Where have you been the past few days? Even if I am not on line, give me a shout and let me know how your doing.

I just did a sunday school lesson plan on being the light of the world. I used the lite bright to get the meaning across. I thought of you when I did it. How your light is hidden with in you so deep that not even you can find it. I really want to help you find it.

You are like a lite bright right now, your light is cover by that paper that makes you dark. We need to poke some wholes through your paper so your light can shine.

have pleasant dreams then

he did get a lump but it went away

i think she had a drink it sounds like she got drunk though

have a good night. I am going to get some sleep tonight, so I will not be on later.

It could be dreams or maybe even teething pain.

I am on a different computer and having a hard time with this keyboard. That is why it is taking to long to respond,

I have to say it is weird that I thought you were a boy all this time. I am going to have to get used to the fact you are a girl. Now I do not have a picture of you in head. Before I pictured you like my mom’s step son. I guess a new image soon take its place.

have a good night. I am going to get some sleep tonight, so I will not be on later.

It could be dreams or maybe even teething pain.

I am on a different computer and having a hard time with this keyboard. That is why it is taking to long to respond,

I have to say it is weird that I thought you were a boy all this time. I am going to have to get used to the fact you are a girl. Now I do not have a picture of you in head. Before I pictured you like my mom’s step son. I guess a new image soon take its place.

have a good night. I am going to get some sleep tonight, so I will not be on later.

It could be dreams or maybe even teething pain.

I am on a different computer and having a hard time with this keyboard. That is why it is taking to long to respond,

I have to say it is weird that I thought you were a boy all this time. I am going to have to get used to the fact you are a girl. Now I do not have a picture of you in head. Before I pictured you like my mom’s step son. I guess a new image soon take its place.

my first guess was a bad dream. i have to go

I’m sorry to hear that. Did she get drunk or just have a drink?

I’m sorry to hear that. Did she get drunk or just have a drink?

Toddlers love to climb. It is very normal. That is why it is so tiring taking care of them, they are exploring everything and your need to pay attention to them at all time.

They are going to fall a lot at this age too. Most head falls will be okay, it depends on how hard he hit. You can usually tell if it was bad by any lumps or bruises that form. Did your brother hurt his head?

There can be so many reasons a baby wakes up at night crying. It could be because he is wet and does not like the feel of a wet diaper or pull up. It could be because he is not on a good sleeping schedule. He could be hungry if he did not eat good that night. There are so many reason and it would depend on so many different factors, it would be hard to know why he is waking up, with out knowing his personality and his schedule.

If you had to guess, what do you think is causing it?

my mom did drink today

you probably thought i was a boy because everyone else did and i just went along with it. i like guys

he likes climbing stairs and chairs. is that normal? if he falls head first is he still ok? and he wakes up crying sometimes what does that mean?

As for advise about your brother, do you have any direct questions I could help you with. Any concerns you are having?

All this time I thought you were a boy. Do you like girls? If so, that is okay, I am just trying to think why all this time I thought you were a boy.

im not a guy im a girl

because my brother is 1 and i thought you might have advice or something on how i should take care of him

my kids are 10, 8, and 6. The 6 yr old will be 7 August 23. Why do you ask?

Good night. I am glad we were both online tonight and we got to talk. I think you are a really good person who is having tough times. You are going to get through this and you are going to live to be a great man.

do you mind me asking: how old is your youngest child?