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[quote bluflames83]im sorry ash :(
i dont really understand the demon thing :/
the more i think about it, the more i think john will be okay. you have broken up so many times before and he has avoided suicide and stuff. he’s older now and yeah, he’ll be okay..
maybe for a couple days, or at least a day you should not walk with him.. the thing is it’s only going to make him think of how things used to be, instead of moving on.. make sure him and derek are going to play airsoft this weekend or something so john’s not alone..
with the mumbling and stuff, that’s understandable, to some extent he needs some time.. maybe a lot of time..
and your posts aren’t rambling :)[/quote]

I didn’t walk with him today because I needed to stay after school to help some teachers with a play.
So.
I really can’t avoid walking home with for, it’s only like 3/4 of a block we walk together. That isn’t so bad.
I could’ve gotten picked up but my dad changed his work hours to end at 3 and school gets out at 2:15.
My mom can’t drive and my brother gets home around 2:45.
It’s no use, and I cant really avoid it. SO. Eh.

[quote darkscorpia][quote AtheistDad]Ask them whether it is their discomfort with their own megre sexuality that makes them act like imbreds.[/quote]

nice one[/quote]

Say it just like that. ;D
They’ll never see it coming.
(Y)

^ Amen.

Why would you do it in the first place?
NONSENSE.

[quote AtheistDad]Write ‘i am a fish’ one thousand times on postit notes, and cover your house in them. Then dance around town naked 4 times while swinging a large haddock about your person. Then fall asleep in your local furniture shop and declare you are revolting and forming your own state.

If she still likes you, shes a keeper.[/quote]

THUMBS UP!
:D Made my day.

Monday, today obviously.
He was so distant and non-talkative.
As I expected.
It’s a bit weird.
I walk home with him after school for like a block.
Silence and I could tell he was upset.
This morning, I could tell he’d been crying earlier or last night.
;/

We where walking and after some silence he was all like,
John: You don’t have to wait for me any more after school.
Ashley: … ;/ Ohkay.
John: I mean, if you don’t want to you don’t have to anymore. I don’t care.
Ashley: I still will. I want to. You’re still my friend.
John: Yeah.. *goes inside and mumbles*

Gahhhhhh. That made me feel so much worse. D:

WTF. FML. ~_~

[quote Commander Ikari][quote .ashley[INDIAN.BOB]]HELL FROZE OVER.
ITS OVER.
@_@ FOR GOOD, I SHOULD SAY.
I did it… AGAIN. YES. AGAIN. Don’t ask why. I couldn’t really tell you.
I need support on this. D;[/quote]

How did it go down?[/quote]

*pokes at very newer post*

[quote bluflames83]ashley! : )
.. I wish i could drive over to your house and actually talk to you…
i know you love him, but he seems a little dangerous, after finding out about all this suicide stuff..
the thing is, we’re kids and dont know anything, i feel like ive seen this scenario before, somehow..
you broke up, give him a week or so, or if that is too long, a couple days to be by himself or with the guys to hopefully get his head straight..if he can.. then you can go back to being FRIENDS.. i think john would be much better to you as a brother, but at this point he might expect to get back together with you because it happened so much before.. i guess i mean that you can still be friends, but he has to stop loving you first, and he’ll need support while he’s getting over you, so maybe talk to some of his friends after a couple days and ask how john’s doing, see if they’re helping him at all.. if you can, arrange for him to have someone else to talk to about missing you, just until he’s over you, then you can slowly start being like a sister to him.
.. there’s two or three girls who are like sisters to me, one who i never see any more, and i tell them tons of things i wouldnt tell anyone else, and they wont skrew me over.. i trust them more than i trust myself, they’re cute, but i sort of trained myself to see them as sisters, people who i can trust.. maybe try to do that to john?? one of those girls is an ex girlfriend : ) so it can be done..
.. he seems really clingy, and thats a lot for you to handle.. the truth is, even though it hurts, lots of people break up and get back together a lot when they’re teenagers.. this girl who sits next to me in old testament can tell me like every week that her boyfriend dumped her and she needs a hug, and then two days later they’re back togther..i dont know what the point of that story was..
.. ive rambled enough ; ).. sorry..[/quote]

I wish you honestly could drive over here to, as well. D:
Gosh.
So, close yet so far away. @_@ *sigh*

He doesn’t tell ANYONE how he really feels. I have to pry it out of him constantly.
If he does tell me something, as if he’s “fine” I know he’s lying.
He just doesn’t want me to worry about him at all, or “any more” as he puts it.
One of those times, where you might have heard me post somewhere that he dated my friend? Right. SO, (long ago, I made a post about selling your soul to a demon or whatever). Blah blah. Got deleted for //trolling//. Anywho, he didn’t tell me he was planning on taking his life. It came back, wanting to cause no harm but to check up apparently. It told me the things he would never tell me. Especially this.
And then, it went away. I confronted him,(over msn. ~_~), about this and he was shocked as how i found out.
So… he’s very secretive.

Yeah. I asked his good friend Derek to watch and talk to him. But, right now, not to mention me so much.

I’m pretty sure I can try to see him as my brother.
Worked out before with some other guy I had a crush on. Now, we’re good friends.

:OO That’s NOT rambling.
Rambling is like all my other posts. ;o Probably are my other posts.

Hell froze over.
Its over.
@_@ for good, i should say.
I did it… again. yes. again. don’t ask why. i couldn’t really tell you.
I need support on this.

[quote Dominique Francon]My friend ended up with this guy… and their relationship wasn’t healthy. He was so clingy- that she tried breaking up with him like 4 times before she suceeded… and she had moved away about an hour…so it was long distance- and they only had contact when they were “together” or she was “consoling” him…

So, it’s hard… I know it is.

The truth is, it’s your choice to date him. If you aren’t ready for it to be over- it never will be. (unless he ends it)[/quote]

That’s like this.
Except he lives 6 blocks away. :O

OH. SH!T.
He’s the first one at school in the morning and I’m like the 2nd one.
Oh god. We both wait outside and talk.
This is one of the reasons why I hate school..
Because I can’t avoid this. DD:

[quote Dominique Francon]oh wow… too many conversations… summarize.[/quote]

I’m not capable of Summarizing. xD
I think every little thing is important.
So, therefore it’s impossible.

Ohkay. More convo.
Not going to send it.
@_@
Getting annoying for me.

Read it.
He seems ohkay. SEEMS.
He probably won’t eat or sleep for a few days knowing him.

** ^FROM ABOVE^ **
ashley, (6:14 PM):
Obviously not if this keeps happening.
~___~
***** at me.
DO IT.
˜jôhn˜ says (6:14 PM):
I’m not going to do anything like that…
Im really sorry.
ashley,(6:15 PM):
You probably just want to. ^^; But you won’t.

For?
˜jôhn˜ says (6:15 PM):
I don’t.

For trying to make it last any longer.
I knew it was going to end anyways…
What will be, will be.
It’s been fun, dear…^^;
ashley, says (6:16 PM):
You DO know that I still care and am not abandoning you all alone, right?
˜jôhn˜ says (6:17 PM):
No.
You have no reason to.
Go on
just go have some fun, stay with your friends, and you’ll forget me eventually…^^
ashley, (6:19 PM):
I figured you thought that.
~.~
You know, ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD…
I won’t forget you. ;o You’re still my friend too.
Geeez.
And you probably figure I want nothing to do with you and never want to talk to you again and whatnot. Right?
˜jôhn˜ says (6:20 PM):
Sure…^^
Why don’t you just do it??
Just forget about me
Now, we gotta work on getting you somebody special…^_-”'’
ashley,(6:22 PM):
GOD ******* DAMMIT.
~____~ Will you just stop that right now?

Now, I’m still worried about you and all that stuff. ;o
Knowing you, you might try something. T__T
ashley, (6:23 PM):
Something.. you know what I’m talking about too.
;o
˜jôhn˜ (6:23 PM):
**** off.
SHUT UP.
If I say I won’t, will you not bring it up?
ashley, (6:25 PM):
@.@ You say a lot of things…
I’ll bring it up as many times as I want to let y know you shouldn’t do that.
And I still care, whether you think so or not.
Assuming you think I don’t. I do.
˜jôhn˜’: says (6:25 PM):
Well.
I can’t stop you.
Do What you will.
˜jôhn˜ says (6:26 PM):
But, there’s no reason to even talk to me, you do know that?
ashley,(6:26 PM):
You’re angry. ;o
And I know you are.
So don’t even deny it…
˜jôhn˜ says (6:26 PM):
I’m not angry.
Not in the least.
˜jôhn˜ says (6:27 PM):
I’m sad.
but not angry. ^^
ashley, says (6:27 PM):
I can talk to you if I want.
You can block me if you want.
˜jôhn˜ says (6:27 PM):
I’m never gonna block you, idiot!
˜jôhn˜ says (6:28 PM):
You can do What you wanna do.
˜jôhn˜says (6:29 PM):
I’m still here if you ever need anything…
at least that I can promise you.
ashley, says (6:29 PM):
The question is, how do you even still talk to me..?
I mean. Really.
~___~
No need to.
˜jôhn˜: says (6:31 PM):
Yes.
There is.

Question on #5.
Am I supposed to say, “I’m sorry. I’m bi-polar. This isn’t going to work. I’m confused.”

I tried that one on the 2nd break up… *cough*
——————-
ashley, says (6:11 PM):
I’m sorry..
^^;
˜jôhn˜ says (6:12 PM):
Go ahead and do it, dear.
It’s all good…
ashley,says (6:12 PM):
@__@
Wow. I really have issues if this keeps happening..
˜jôhn˜ says (6:12 PM):
No, no.
ashley, says (6:12 PM):
Mad at me yet?..
˜jôhn˜ says (6:13 PM):
It’s fine.
Don’t worry about it
It’s fine…
I’ll be alright in time.
You’re probably fine…

[quote xxdr.qwertyx]haha i was joking but this guy sounds a little strange[/quote]

You have no idea how right you are.

[quote xxdr.qwertyx]Tell him to meet you at subway at 3:00 and don’t show up.[/quote]

Oh no.
The dude has a few suicidal tendencies. That would be horrible.
I’d imagine he’d throw himself infront of it.

[quote Dominique Francon]Depends on how clingy he is. If he is a person who is halfway independent he’ll probably agree. If he is very committed he’ll probably ask to work on it… chances are he’ll say something like “took you long enough”[/quote]

Clingy. Really clingy.

That will work? o_O