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• Right well im just looking for some advice because im sure i cant be the only girl whose been through this.
  

  Girlfriend, HELLO!! ofcourse he’s kickin it with her, as for him dealing, how can he deal and use? It’s impossible, he’s got to be doing more than he’s selling, and as for this girl? who keeps his ****, either she’s retarded or doing as much as he is, who would risk going to jail for a coke dealer unless their getting something out of it. Some money, some sex, some cocaine, some attention, something, you can best believe, if I’m willing to risk that stuff getting found in my crib, I got to get something out the deal. C’mon this man trust her to hold his stuff, (without using it?) Most dealers don’t leave their stuff with someone who’s using it, because they’ll go in it, so maybe she doesn’t use, or maybe she’s getting paid, or again, she’s retarded, but there is definately something going on between the two of em. Let her have him, I mean, why would you want a guy who is constantly dumping you, sells dope, and got some other chick? I mean I can understand a person that uses it because they can’t help it, stick by him and try and help him, but not only does this dude use it, but he sells it. Where do you see him 5 years from now, I’ll tell you, if he’s using, that would explain the anger you deal with, if he’s using within the next five years, (if not sooner) he will have become his own best customer, doing all the **** up., owing his supplier, and knee deep in something he can’t get out of. The more dope he does (especially if he has access to it) the more consequences he’ll bring on himself, nobody, I mean, NOBODY!, does cocaine and controls it, it’s just a matter a time when his whole world is gonna come crumbling down. Nobody lives a life comfortably, when it includes dope in there somewhere, he’s going to start messing up, overdosing, he’ll get raided, you see these are some of the consequences of one, who deals with cocaine. If you are okay with him snapping on you, or being in constant contact with another female, or getting high, or dumping you when he feels like it, then that’s all on you. If you are not okay with that, love him from across the street, sit back, and watch what I tell you, nothing, I mean NOTHING! GOOD comes from having any dealings, with that ****.. If you must connect with him at all, tell him, to get out while the gettings good, he can stop using (when he’s ready), but he doesn’t have to go to jail for it. If he’s using, he really needs to stop selling, it’s impossibele for there to be any success out of it, it’s not gonna happen, you better tell him, or lose him, for your own good.
  - written 1 year, 10 months ago

• My life is falling apart because of substance abuse,
  

  Hey girl, I’m not sure what the substance is, but I know you think it’s crazy, because you can clearly see, the problems it’s causing, and yet it continues. I’m going to tell you what worked for me, I’ve been clean for 9 years in February, and I struggled almost 15 years on cocaine, in and out of rehabs, in and out of 12-step meetings, clean for a few months then relasped, it went on for what seemed like forever, but one day, I woke up FED UP, and over the years I had woke up feeling that way, but this imparticular morning, I was literally FED UP, tired, and I meant it when I told myself “that was it”. After being awake for a couple hours, the infamous THOUGHT passed through my head, the little voice that tells me I want to use. I sang out loud, I tried to think about something else, I called someone and talked to them until the thought passed, and it did. It wasn’t long until the little voice was telling me I wanted to get high again, then it dawned on me, that’s all it is, A THOUGHT!, ONLY I COULD MAKE THAT thought A REALITY. Only I could go out and buy it, Only I could use it, so I decided to struggle, and ignore the THOUGHT until, it passed, and you know what? It did. I continued to do this until, the THOUGHT, became weaker and weaker, until a couple weeks passed, and I hadn’t used, it became easier, and more effective each day, until a couple months went by, and I had months clean, no meetings, no rehabs, only me and my spiritual struggle with the temptation, once the THOUGHT lost it’s power, (and it will) years had passed, and my struggles had nothing to do with using, I was dealing with everyday problems that everyone else dealt with. Try it, it may work for you, but the key is this,You have to be sincere about stopping, Only you can do that drug, YOU!, and if you really want to stop, YOU can do it, I did. Remember, “it’s mind over matter, it really is”.
  - written 1 year, 10 months ago

• WHy do I feel so alone inside?
  

  Ya know I typed in the search box “why do I feel so different from others?” and your post popped up. I feel exactly the way you do, maybe I’m lonely, I don’t know, i have friends, well associates anyway, family, I don’t know, I don’t feel this way all the time, I have my good days, but I feel you. Everything you said. Could it be depression maybe? I’m told that was my problem, don’t really care anymore, I just try to make do, and talke total advantage of those good days, ya know? when your mind refuse to shut-up, or go in the direction you would like for it to go, fight it, take charge of it, because God knows, my thinking (in the past) reacting to it has gotten me into situations, I would rather have not gotten into, obsessing for hours, about nothing. Surround yourself with understandiing people, read, pray, but by all means, know, that they are only thoughts, seek help for something that may shut off your mind, I am so like you. Good luck.
  - written 1 year, 10 months ago

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