Hays for horses,and mice to snuggle in, and to cover your seeds to germinate… I have something I want to show you….but I get shy and worried it won’t be good enough. Ohhhhh dearrrrrr what should I do? LOL I finsihed something and want to put it out there. Yikes sais Greeneyes!
well, update, i have lost a total of 14 lbs thus far. i went to the drs today and it said 14.. woot woot.
i have no idea how im doing it.. im not doing anything different than before when we had our little outing..
i have been a bit happier as of late.. counseling is going well..
my pain level has gone up quite a bit more, my left arm is just about had it.. and i am now on oxycontin for pain along with taking the 3 muscle relaxers a day, i am now taking 3 nerve blockers a day as well.. im getting worse and worse as time is going by.. i see things slowly coming to a hault for me and it is very scary for me.
keisha graduated last saturday.. sadly, i had to miss it.. i didnt even know it was happening or i would have snuck to it somehow.. by the way, she is having a girl i found out on november 4th. im so very happy for her.
well, im off for the night. have a good night. shie.
i dont know… i have no idea what to do anymore.. the pain is unbearable.. i hate taking pain medication.. and try as hard as i can to suffer through my pain.. i have never ever wanted to be one of those people who had to depend on that stuff.. even now… every day im always a 6 on the pain scale.. and i just deal with the pain.. but as of late, im atleast an 8 or 9.. and i can barely move.. barely lift my arm up to scratch my friggin head.. i wouldnt care really if i was old… but damn.. im 34 years old!!! im not suppose to be like this ~tear~
as for the surgery.. as of right now.. they are saying i have to do the surgery over, yes.. but im not doing it.. i refuse..
i did a bit of research and the tumor i have causes pain down my arms, neck and upper back.. so im taking this to the neurosurgeon with me.. to show him.. i dont know what to do anymore… my hands are starting to shake a lot lately uncontrollably. even just holding a cigarette or trying to take a drink… my hands just shake.. and i dont know why but its driving me nuts!!! i feel my body shutting down little by little and its very scary for me.
but for now as i said, its a waiting game.. and everything that is happening, the tumor is doing to me is irreversable.. :(
im sure others were thinking it… but probably didnt want to say anything.. probably afraid to hurt her or something… but when the truth is there smacking you in the face… let the truth be told!!
how have you been? me, i have lost 11 lbs.. woot woot.. still drinking my soda.. lol.. just gave up all my junk food.. cookies, candy etc… thats it!! i mean, i still eat it now and then.. just not as much.. my pain is getting unbearable these days.. taking over my arms lately… my neck, back, both arms and now major cramps in my thighs.. not sure how to deal anymore.. i have been given pain relievers (narcotics) but even thoughs do not work.. it kind of scares me because of the not knowing what is going to be in a couple of years down the road.. :(
It’s a b**ch getting older, but of course you are not getting any older in my eyes, lol..
Love you, best wishes to your graduate, love you and miss you, b..
I got you now. I saw cheering up and yes I did read about having cancer. Phee Gee and I are thinking along the same lines. Don’t fault her for my mistake. She was just following on my footsteps. Next time I will ask if they want to hear a joke.
I see, did you read her concerns? I guess I am not thinking in the lines of jokes. I thought she meant some form of hope or cases where other women went thru this and it came out alright.
I checked out the animal shelter and they said that they dont need help right now. Thay said that in a few weeks one of the volunteers is moving so they may need my help. They said that they would call if that happened. Thank you I doubt I would have tried that if you hadn’t suggested it.
Sorry my internet stoped working. I like the volunteer ideal. I love animals I had a dog but when my dad passed we had to give he up. That I hated but I guess we had to.
I turned 16 3 months ago. As far as I know there arent any clinic here. My mom is trying to get me a medical card I was approved i just have to wait for it to arrive.
Your mom loves you and will want you to keep improving on your illness. Many have social anxiety disorder. Can you google it as well. What do therpist recommend for this condition?
What exercises do they ask you to do. Do you like the job issue? Can you volunteer somewhere, hospital, nursing home, child care. What about a animal shelter, walk dogs, who would be so glad to see you. I did that once. They were so happy to have someone spend time playing and loving them. They are lonely too, and I met some wonderful people. What about a vet clinic, volunteer there.
HUGS Hollow,
I lost my insurance too, we are really struggling with this economy.
Gosh that is a terrible thing to have happened. Im sure you were devestated and possibly very frightened. You were even younger then. How old are you Hollow? I hope you realize you are alright. Just have more trouble than kids your age. I am so happy you are talking to me. I will do my best to help you.
I would definetly feel better if your mom knew you were talking to me though. Can you do that?
What about a church that could help, or a clinic in your area for mental help? Here in my town if you are pressed for money they charge 5 bucks a session. You are a young man so they take it seriously, Child at risk thing. You certainly deserve the help with all you have been through.
She is trying to find someone for me to see but she is unemployed and we dont have incurence. I was covered by my dads. We are supported be my moms finace. My parents where divorced for about 5 years when he passed. I was alone at his house and i woke up and i was talking to him and he wasnt anwsering i walked over there and i hit him and he didnt move and i say he wasnt breathing i called 911 they got there and said he had passed away hours ago i had to wait an hour before my mom got there. I couldnt sleep for week after that.
I was seeing a therepist we moved and I dont have one here yet. I was making head way but then two things happened and I just fell back down maybe even lower. 1, that girl hurt me but I was slowly getting over it and I know that it wasn’t the end of the world. 2, my dad passed away and after that I just stoped everything. I stoped talking to anyone and i spent all my time just locked up in my room.
Yeah I can speak fine with you because really I’m talking to a computer screen. That’s easy but when I talk to a person face to face I get paranoid and think that they hate me or are thinking bad things about me. I know that they aren’t but I can’t shake that thought.
I marked you as a friend. One thing that I’m worried about is it’s summer here so I don’t no one here. School won’t start for like 3 months and I will be alone all that time because I don’t know anyone here. I don’t know how to just meet new people. I can’t even go anywhere because I’m only 16 and don’t have a licene yet.
I was making a joke and I am sorry. You’re the third person who tells me about it and I will watch what I say from now on. As a matter of fact, I will make it a point not to respond to posts. You know, some of that stuff is just spare of the moment, it’s not like I think about it. But, from now on I will. Sorry if it offended you again.
No it was not. The trolls are out and they’re starting out early today. They know what they’re talking about, they just want to get the attention of people and from the looks of it, they got yours. Sorry if it offended you.
Nothing really. The resone i don’t talk to people is i have sociel anxity disorder. I get nervous around people and i get paranoid. Im on medican for it but it just makes it so i dont have panic attacks
I feel the same way! You know I have an 18 years old daughter, soon turning 19 ad she is still at home wanting to go to university. She is a good kid. I wish we had that cup of coffee and just talked.
Gosh, great to hear from you. Talking about a beautiful person, that would be you my friend. Hope you and the husband are doing great. Take care and have a great day my friend.
Closed the post because the video would not work. Take care!
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