I’ve been paying double rent for almost two months. Fortunately my old rent is really cheap. I’m almost ready. Next Tuesday now. But still sorting and packing (I’m downsizing, but I’ll be paying more …)
Hello Florie, thank you. :o) I wished i could help her better. We both know we want to be here 24/7 but that is not possible. So wrote and wrote without even looking back, i was scared to write what was in my heart.
Hello Florie, thank you for dropping by. I lost him 3 weeks ago. But i know he is fine and resting now. And that he is just right here with me…in spirit.
Oh florie dear, i wish it’s going to be that easy. You remember my email to you days back? and you know i cannot say the details or things will get complicated the more i explain and English is not my first language so i think i have some difficulty explaining. lol
Lilies, your last post says you are trapped due to an unhappy past. But that doesn’t make sense. The past is … well, “past.” At least past enough not to trap you. Today is a fresh day. Or tomorrow, where you are … Tell yourself when you go to sleep, “Now I return to my Real Self. Tomorrow I will wake up Happy.”
I made my email visible to you if you should want to write to me. I’m sorry something bad from your past was dredged up. Tonight when I was doing a little clearing out (trying to get ready for my move) I came upon some old letters and a photo of myself at about age 32, and I cried because I was so innocent then and much bolder and braver than I am now. What happened to that person? I feel like I’ve put on barnacles. It feels sad. I would like to be as awake and open as I was back then. I know that somewhere inside I am that same person, it’s only because of habits and hurts that that part is covered up. So I am sending you a hug, and I wish it could be warm but these words on the screen are very flat. But I know that whatever has happened to you, or whatever unpleasant thing you’ve remembered, inside in the very center of yourself you are as pure and happy as the day you were born. We just have to find that place, over & over again. It is there, I know it!