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Hi, thanks for the shout! It been a few months, i try to be happy and forget the past but the past memories keep on coming back. but i am feeling better than before (i think). thanks for caring. My feeling right now is indescribable. THANKS FOR CARING!!

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It’s really not that easy especially if you do not know what the outcome could be or even worst if you are shy. But since you guys have been friend, You could try telling her easily than when you are not. You can do it!
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I dont understand……what do you mean please ?

It has been 4 years - we are 5000 mile apart - she has a bf - new life and experiances. I dumped her all confused 4 years ago and now find myself in the pathetic position of telling her i still love her - now she has a new life and says that sure it was great 4 years ago, but now she has grown up and experianced life those feelings she had for me are just not there. We can be friends only…. when she told me this i took it OK - but this night is awful… I feel stommped, I guess much as she did 4 years ago.
Well 4 years ago i felt awful too telling her despite my love it could not be - but i thought it was the right thing to do - now it is my turn to have my feelings culled. We talked on and off, but not like this….. God help me !

Sorry to cry like this…. the words just pour out…

Is there any chance or is this dead ??? and if there is how do i do this ?

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HELP - please give me some empathy or something to help me integrate and move on cos I am so much pain right now.
I had a hell of a night - awful - I was ok talking to her - but the realities of loss sunk in and I’m crying and God seems so far away at the moment……