Mini-Profile
I am a 29 year old married female. I majored in math in college, and minored in computer science. I suffer from depression in episodes, which means one week I might be down and out but the next I might be happy. I also have social anxiety but I really enjoy meeting and talking to people on the Internet. When I’m feeling happy, the world is a wonderful place to live in. When I’m depressed, I am absolutely not functional and will stay in the bed for days at a time. For those of you that understand, you know that this is not something I can just snap out of. I’ve suffered from OCD since college in my early 20s, but I didn’t start to suffer from depression until late 2004.
I’m deeply spiritual, but I do not follow any particular religion. I’ve spent the past three years looking for a spiritual teacher. I know that when the time is right I will find him or her.
I signed up with help.com to find financial help, as I am now completely disabled and unable to work. I worked as a statistician since graduating college in 2002 until 2/25/08 but I have missed so much work due to severe depression over the past three years that I am having to retire from work and get on disability. The disability process appears to take months if not years, and I am extremely frightened of what the future holds for me. I do not want to lose my house, as it holds both my husband and me and my two dogs and four cats. All the animals were at one time homeless but some of them have been with me since 1998.
I am not looking to ask for money that will make me rich, I am just seeking someone who can help me feel secure that I will always have a roof over my head. I can’t even begin to explain how scared I am right now, and I know that if I were to feel more secure I would feel less stress and could focus on treatment for my mental illnesses.
I have been seriously putting in a lot of hard work to beat my depression, ever since it started. I have put myself in the hospital twice, I have gone to intensive outpatient therapy three times for a number of weeks each time, and I have struggled and pushed myself to get feeling better. I have been going to both a psychiatrist and an LCSW for a number of years. I did not leave my job because I was unhappy with it. I truly enjoyed what I was doing and feel that it was what I was called to do in this lifetime. I did not leave because I was lazy. I left because I had used up so much time off that I was in “leave without pay” status and I could no longer attend work regularly. My bosses have been very patient with me, and have put-up with more than they should have to where my attendance is concerned.
My husband works but he does not earn enough to take care of the mortgage or bills. He is very stressed out because of my depression and worrying about finances, but he is very supportive of me and is always by my side when I’m feeling ill.
If you or someone you know could help me, please get in touch with me.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Where did you grow up?
Louisville
Where do you live now?
Louisville
What is the highest level of education you have attained?
Bachelors
What subjects did/do you enjoy the most at school?
Math
What kinds of jobs have you held? Industries too!
computer consultant, statistician
What hobbies are you into?
fractals, internet, blogging
What causes are you concerned about today?
polar bears, homeless animals, animal abuse, wildlife
Which religion (if any) do you follow?
All