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well I ended the friendship. There wasn’t anything left to salvage. It hurts like hell & I …nvm.

I am all kinds of confused by this. The bad grammar makes it hard to understand.

The best gifts IMO are the ones that come from the heart & do not have a dollar value on it. =)

Yeah well I guess a lot or most of us want that.I doubt I will ever find such a thing, I kinda give up on wanting more.Men like to disappoint me. All I do is get hurt & there is no way in hell I would ever join a dating site. lol

Okay person above me stole my idea. lol

Yeah & when that person is hardly around its worse. Its hard to concentrate on anything else when so many things remind you of that guy.

Nope I’m not on any medications at all. It has only happened twice within the past few years but if it were to happen a lot then I woould be worried & see a doctor as it could be a neurological disorder.

Yeah we should.heh

Its really hard to let go when that person brought so much to your life in positive ways.

I am at work now & I am trying not to think about it but its really quiet here so I cannot concentrate at all.

When he disappeared in Feb. I thought he was back to doing what he was before & I was so scared. I know now that he was with a girl & turned off his feelings for me with no care at all. If he cared like he said he wouldn’t have put me through that. Its all just words.

How can people treat someone that way & feel great still? Ugh I feel like I am going to throw up

Thank you Maximina. I will do as you suggest & I hope & pray that I can get through this. *hugs back*

Without trust there is nothing.

oh YAY typos up there that I made & cannot edit. (there is no way to edit on this site…right?} Those typos are bugging me now. heh

Okay his second reply:

“I hope and pray that our friendship will outlast these circumstances. As you said, everything happens for a reason. You will without a doubt find someone who deserves you. Love him unconditionally, as I am well aware you are capable. Love is not something you keep in a box. Love as freely as you can, with the care you did with me. Did… nothing has changed. We are still friends, as always.

Everything does happen for a reason, and G-d put you in my life to see me through a very difficult time. I hope I will be able to return the favor someday. For some reason, our relationship is meant to be as it is, and not as it isn’t. That might make you sad. Don’t let it. Our relationship is beautiful.

I am sorry it took me so long to come clean with you. I hope you will forgive me.”

I wonder what the “Did was supposed to be.

I’dgive a summary but I cannot thing straight.
Here is his first reply:

“I cannot tell you how much of an impact you have had on my life. You are an incredible person and I would never want to lose you in my life or at least on my buddy list, as you have been.

I have met someone. I am sad to hear that you have been crying. I do not wish to say goodbye to you, though. That is, unless you don’t want to talk to me anymore. I think that would be a real tragedy.

So, please don’t take this the wrong way. I still care about you and I always will. I hope you will still be my friend. You have been so much more than a friend to me. I think the timing must have been off or something.”

Should I paste his replies in here? He has answered but still regardless its so weird to me.

[quote Maximina]Honey I am so sorry for your pain. Please hang in there and know that in time you will be ok. Many of us have felt a similar pain as you are feeling. I promise if you hang in there and take care of yourself you will be ok! Know that you deserve better and don’t allow him to have control over your life. It is time you take back control! When he told you he loved you did he mean romantically? Have you ever had anything with this man besides a friendship?[/quote]

He said he was in love with me & he said many other things. We have always had a friendship but it was not like just any regular friendship. He wasn’t ready for anything serious because of certain things he was going through & I waited. I proved to him I wasn’t like the other girls or people who would abandon him but I guess that wasn’t good enough. A week earlier before he disappeared we were supposed to meet up & the things he said to me you do not say to someone you think of as JUST a friend.He even told me one time he wanted to work on a relationship with me. I dunno what happened.