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Hey! Haven’t heard from you in a while. Things are looking great right now. I’ve sold my bass, though I didn’t want to, and I’ve got a second job, so I’ve got money! And I’ve found a nice house that my friends and I are going to rent by October. Once I get this bastard of a school loan paid off, I can start classes back in January! I’m so pleased right now. And I see you and Kyle got back together! That’s awesome. I haven’t heard from you in a while, but I bet you’ll sound like an entirely different person…..maybe even downright giddy. That’s a pleasant thought.

I’m feeling so insanely super right now….except for my slight cold. We had a bad tropical storm land in Florida, which meant non-stop rain all weekend. And when I say non-stop, I mean non-stop. I had to work in the crap, and now I have a horrendous case of the sniffles.

Holla back, nigga.

Yeh I am, I’m moving into third year now. I’m moving into a flat with a few of the lads in my course, I can’t wait for it!

How you feeling about going to uni? You excited?

That’s cool, congratulations!! And that’s also cool that your back with Kyle! I’m very happy for you! Will he be going to the same university?

Ooh, I got me a job the other day! I’ve been looking for nearly 2 months! And I’m moving away from home in a couple of weeks! I can’t wait!!

Hey. Feeling a bit down. I guess I just need to vent to someone, and hopefully this won’t count as ‘talking’ to you since we’re back to the essays on help.com. :)

There’s a very strong possibility that I’ll be losing my job in a month. The hospital is beginning to think that they don’t need to spend the money on a valet stand by the E.R, and though many patients would disagree, it’s all about the money. Our boss is being very optimistic, saying we could prove our usefulness to the hospital by upping our service, but it says in our contract that we are not a ‘frontdoor service’. The hospital board is looking strictly at car volume, which is at an all-time low thanks to the crappy location of the lot we park them in compared to the regular lot. Why would someone want us to park their car in the middle of nowhere when they can park it themselves right in front of the building?!

Enough about that.

I’m ready to go back to school. I’m thinking about taking out a massive loan so I can go back without any problems at all in financial aid. I have a lot to offer the world, goddamnit. If I’m not back in school and doing well by next summer, it looks like the Army for me. Nothing like getting killed by a roadside bomb in Iraq. At least the pay’s good.

Ever since I stopped talking to you, I’ve been thinking about Kayla twice as much. It sucks so much; I miss her terribly, and I guess you were my escape from those feelings. I found a note she wrote me two years ago. It was very corny, but it made me cry:

“Justin…I love you. If you were a cookie I would put you in the freezer so I could keep you forever because you are way too perfect to eat and if I just left you sitting out, someone else would eat you..then I’d cry! And even if you didn’t get eaten then you would grow moldy and turn green, but if I put you in the freezer then I could just take you out and touch you and smell you whenever I wanted to. But I’m glad you’re not a cookie because then you couldn’t love me or touch me back. Nor could you buy me a black horsey with purple polka-dots nor could you bring me flowers and a huge teddy bear and a sheet for my bed. I love you. And if you were a cookie then I couldn’t feed you cookies because you probably wouldn’t want to eat them. Maybe I would feed you chocolate chips or peanut butter. I love you. Kayla”

The thing about the horse was an inside joke; when were first started dating she asked if I’d give her ANYTHING and I said yeah. She said she wanted a black horse with purple polka-dots….that spoke Spanish. And the thing about the sheets; the sheets on her bed were too big, and kept coming off in the middle of the night, so for Valentine’s Day, I got her a huge bear, flowers, and a new bed sheet. We were head over heels back then. Oh well.

Just feeling particularly down today, and I thought I’d share with you. I know how you love having a good essay to read, and we’re technically not ‘talking’ if you think about it. Anyway, I hope you’re doing alright. Talk to you some other time.

thanks so much for the advice ill work on it! and yes well get through this together :)
yeah there was a period of a couple weeks that i was so happy. i actually thought i was gonna fight it. whenever i worrie di kept thinking “everythings gonna be okay. anxiety cant kill me. i can do this. i can fight it. im stronger” and it worked! but then there was this one night when i was awake all night having an oongoing panic attack and i got set WAY back. but im trying toget back to that place when i was when i was happy.
xoxo

Hey np at all! :) its good to talk to osmeone who gets it sometimes… i mean my dad and sister have it but in a different way. i dont really get it. i think i might be worse than theyever were but im not really sure. they just dont like talking about it. and i dont know anyone else with it so i absically just talk to my friends. theyre very understanding but i dont think you can fully understand unless youve experienced it for yourself. I know! Everyone just thinks its like a little worry now and then but its not. it’s basically 24/7 unless you can learn to control it. I had to start homeschooling because of my anxiety and I hate it. Plus I moved to a new city so I don’t know anone here and my anxiety limits me to stuff. I can’t go out and join anything cause i freak out about it… So I basically only get to see people when my old friends come over. So yes it is damaging. It makes everything soo much harder. And i used to get teased a lot for worrying about little pointless things. Anxiety has made my life so hard :S but hopefulyl one day I’ll get through it fully! Yeah exactly the same with me! When I’m in a good mood I’m a really cheery person..the kind of person that is soo insane that you just stare at them and laugh! lmfao but when im anxious or depressed im not fun at all… i basically go paranoid about everything and have to stay home until it passes. It’s okay you can ramble if you want… I just did ;P hahahha
i know it is :( and i hate it soo much. okay thanks so much =)ive dealt with it for 4 years but it still feels ike its been at least 10 :S do you notice that? time seems to go slower now that i have anxiety.. that could just be me though lol

You too! And seriously I’m here to talk at any time!!! xoxox

Boo? lol. I’ve been working hard. Might lose my compy at work, so I’ll barely be on. I’ve already moved around all over. Nothing much else though. Starting a new film project about a parallel dimension…it’s interesting…but looks like a whole lot of really complicated scenes. How about you? Getting along ok?

Do stop in and say hi sometime;)

Aw, thank you!! :)

That’s really cool, hopefully you’ll get a job sorted soon.

I’ve been OKish, few things been going on the last few days that haven’t been great, other than that things have been grand though.

Haha, although I did get fired recently so I’m still looking for a new job! That doesn’t bother me really though.

Also it’s my 21st birthday tomorrow :)

Hey there, sorry to hear about your friends situation.

Hows things with you otherwise?

Haha, it wasn’t actually too bad at all. I thought we were all going to be laughing and what not but it wasn’t like that at all. It was very strange though!

That’s cool, well I shall talk to you when you decide to return :)

Take care

That would be very handy, local work and flexible hours :)

And I guess your Dad is right, it is a good skill to have but I reckon if I learn then I’ll want to get a car etc. and that will end up putting pressure on me to get the cash together for one, if that makes any sense?

Haha, oh yeh did I tell you I participated in one of Spencer Tunicks art displays the other day? It was . . . . . . . an experience to say the least :)

Well hell there.

Congrats on finishing your exams! Hope they all went well for you and you get the results you want :)

And that’s really cool about your ex. I’m very happy for you, hope it all goes well :)

Where you planning on getting a part-time job? I should probably learn to drive, I have no interest in it really though! Public transport is good and insurance costs lots so I don’t see the point in it for me!

That really made me laugh for about five minutes straight.

Hey, at least you didn’t wait two hours! Be glad I let you know somehow!

Those ARE sexy shoes.

There’s absolutely nothing wrong with being girly and….man-ish at the same time. I like to think that EVERYONE has more than one dimension to things that define them. My friends compare me to the Hulk. Normally, I’m a completely calm, complacent guy, but when certain things set me off, I lose my temper and won’t hesitate to run headlong into a fight to demonstrate a lesson in humility.

I’m a big weightlifting buffoon, but I’m not very good at most sports, and would honestly prefer to read a good book as opposed to do anything physical most of the time. Most people find me to be anything but ‘normal.’ I find it very attractive that you can be hard as nails and you still have that girlish flair to you, and I’m sure Kyle (or any guy for that matter) would agree. :)

You kind of sound like me. I like to look good too, but I do it to hear other people tell me I look good, not for myself. It’s not because I’m conceited, it’s just that I was picked on so badly growing up that now I love it when people think I’m good-looking or buff. Not because I’m full of myself, but because it feels great not to be thought of as a greasy fat kid. It breaks that old cycle of being insecure and shy; it makes me feel GOOD ABOUT MYSELF. I didn’t get that a lot as a kid. Bastard redneck bullies. I’m still a very insecure person. I know what you mean about accentuating what you have, or at least what you think you have.

This may sound silly, but I hate my back. It’s very wide at the bottom, and the arch/nape/small (whatever it’s called) is so steep from all of the muscle in the top half that shirts just kind of fall down loosely, making me appear wider than I am. I like wearing more form fitting shirts most of the time, not to show off what I have now, but to show off what I don’t have anymore, if that makes sense to you. I just got sick of being known as the fat loser kid, and I still want people to see how I look now.

I sound like a psychological mess, don’t I? Point being, I know exactly where you’re coming from. I’m sorry I was late getting on. I would like to talk to you again some time, if it’s possible! :)

I’ll try tomorrow.

PS. I’m not a huge homosexual.
PPS. I know about your skin (and it’s not as bad as you think. You’re still very pretty.), and I personally prefer wavy hair (especially dark colors), but where did you get the scars on your legs?

Oh, and what’s with the flower? I miss the old picture!

Pish posh, I’m sure you have remarkably high grades, my dear. You could totally charm your teachers into giving you high grades with your inscrutable wit.

I’m incredibly bored. I’m about to take on four jobs to keep myself occupied! Not really.

Ryan may be joining the Navy, which will rule him out as a roommate. There’s no way I’m staying in Lakeland, though. I’ll actually SAVE money by moving to Valdosta thanks to gas prices. Maybe you could be our third roommate? I don’t think our landlord will take pounds though. Poo.

That was a hint of perverse-ness coming back in that bedroom comment. :) Ooh, you made me shudder in ecstasy.

Have fun with ol’ Lizzie today, and try to enjoy your summer. There’s always something to do! I may be going white water rafting with my friends in a couple of weeks.

Byebye.

PS. I’ll be waiting on that masterpiece.

My poor cock.

Yeah, I agree about Kayla. I told her to pretty much leave me alone unless she had no one else. Her newer friends and current boyfriend didn’t know the Kayla I knew until recently, and if I talked to her more often, I’d know what they thought about her. We’re moving on, so that’s that.

I’m very glad about you and Kyle, too. If nothing else, you’ll at least get the closure you never got. And there’s still plenty of room for sparks to fly yet again. :) That was not a boring paragraph!

I know how secretive you are with your masterpieces, but by all means, let me hear one!

I’m not doing yoga. My legs are too sore all the time to bend them that much anyway. I am jealous of your skill, though. You’ve got a body built for bedrooms. xD

There’s no need for an apology. I understood what was happening. We’re pals again, which is good enough of an apology for me.

I’ll talk to you later. :)

Ha! We think Toki may have killed the cock. Can’t be sure though.

Yeah, I told Kayla to not come to me again unless she had absolutely NO ONE ELSE. It hurt a lot to see her, and it hurt even more when I had to explain to her boyfriend about her attacks (he didn’t know she had them). He accused her of drinking and cheating on him, which really pissed ME off, because he had a lot more to worry about than that crap. He knew she was distressed, and she needed him to be there for her, not accuse her of stupid things.

It seriously put a smile on my face when I read ‘I’m actually HAPPY.’ I’m very glad for you. :) Good luck on the exam, and I hope you enjoy your summer job. And a Wii! What a great way to start the summer. :D

I’ve been more reflective lately. My temper is steadily going away, thankfully. So now, instead of getting mad, I just think too much.

I have no school, so I’ve just been going to work and lifting weights. I’m actually going a little stir-crazy. I need something more to do; sitting around not being occupied makes me feel like a fat slutty bum. I’ve slacked on lifting here the past couple of weeks, so now I look a little smaller. :(

That’s good about you and Kyle. It’s GREAT that you can actually talk about your attachment and anxiety openly with him; maybe you guys could work it out?

It’s been great hearing from you.

Ooh, where to start? I have nearly three weeks of catching up to do in one shout.

I’ve been doing pretty well. I need another job so I can save up a little more money, and Red Lobster (I don’t know if you have those) told me I wasn’t good enough to work for them. :(

Kayla randomly showed up at my house two weeks ago having a panic attack. Her sister’s boyfriend had been cheating on her, so the two of them trashed his house while he was at work. Then her sister got arrested for it. Kay panicked and wound up at my house, much to the dismay of her friends and boyfriend. She hardly remembers how she got to my house, but I took care of her. I REALLY wish I hadn’t seen her, but I knew I needed to be there for her. Being a ‘nice guy’ is a double-edged sword.

You remember the one-foot cock? It’s dead. We found it in our backyard yesterday. We have no clue how it died, but there were feathers all over the yard leading to it’s body. Weird.

I did turn into a little pervert for a while. Even made a new post about it out of sheer frustration. But I think I pinpointed the exact cause, and I’ve been less inclined to get a hard-on every time I think of girls. :)

Well, it’s not much compared to how we used to do it, but this should occupy you enough for right now. How have you been?

I think I’d like that. I can’t just forget about our great conversations.

So….are we never going to talk to again, pal? :)

Im ok, still working through things you know. Its funny i havent spokem to you in over a month i think. I hope your exams went well and your feeling better these days

thats a nice flower, i dint recognise you lol. How are you doing?

Haha, that’s true I remember you telling me not to worry about it as well :)

And that is a long way away. Do you not need your results before finding out whether you got into certain Universities or whatever? That’s the way it is here anyway, as far as I remember our results come out around Julyish but I could be wrong!

I was relatively confident I had passed, it was just that one exam that I was a bit worried about!

How many more do you have left in the week?

When will you get your results?

How long do you have left?

I’m getting on well. Been sick the last few days but I’m getting better, hoping to be back at work by Sunday. I got my results from my exams recently, I passed everything. I got 5 B’s and 2 C’s which I’m happy with.

I’m glad to hear your exams are going well so far. Hope they continue that way :)

Well hello there!

How did you get on with your exams?

Hows things with you?

Another beautiful day at school. I’m ready to go home. I have so much on my mind I can barely function. I just want to pass out dead right now. Meh.

Only two more days!

Hello, lady.

I just returned from the wonderful city of Valdosta, and it appears as though Ryan, Mello, Josh and I are going to live together in some college-sponsored apartments. Yay!

I hope you’re feeling pretty good. I felt better after we talked earlier. Know that everything I said, I meant. I don’t talk for the sake of hearing my own voice, and I’m no coward; I’d never just up and run, and I think you know that about me.

I’m always here if you need me.

*brutal tackle hug* you earned that.

Once you feel like coming back to help, you’ll have this to read. :)

I’ve been worried a lot. I wish there were more I could do, but there isn’t much I’m capable of except hoping for the best and, even though I’m not sure what I believe, praying. Yeah, I prayed for you. Weird, huh?

I am SO SORE. My back is killing me. I should stop lifting; it’s going to kill me one day. I ran a dick-load today. Hopefully, I’ll look like the model I am when I come to England. Get me some English hoes, babeh.

You probably predicted this but, ‘just kidding’.

HA.

I miss talking a lot. You’re one of the most unique individuals I’ve ‘met’, and I have faith that you can beat this, with or without help. I want you to rely on no one but yourself. I honestly believe in you.

I’m going to keep it relatively short, so I can tell myself that I prevented some measure of anxiety for you. :) Go me.

*gentle hug*

-Your dearest little Justin.

This is a power clean, if you care.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NgEElV…

G’day mate.

I’m glad you’re feeling better! I’m at work now, and I really wish you were online so I’d have something to do. Meow.

I don’t know why I meowed.

My brother’s graduation was very very hot. We only had four reserve seat tickets for my family, and my sister, parents, and grandmother were going as well as me. So I sat in the general area. Darn. Thank God Mello was there. We have some nice pictures; maybe I’ll send one your way. Then you could see how short I really am, compared to my bro.

A letter, huh? What did you write about? Sounds like a good read.

GAH. I’m ready to go home already. I agree with you about seeing the world. There are so many things I want to see in my lifetime. You know what? We should go on a world tour. That would be awesome. I want to go to Asia, Europe, the Pacific Islands, everywhere. We’ll even go to America for you. Then you could have grits, catfish, and barbecue. Wait, you’re vegetarian. Aw, boo. You’re missing out.

I’ll be up here for four hours, so hopefully in that time you’ll come online, or I might just hang myself in front of this stone podium that’s actually made of wood.

I’m glad you couldn’t muster a tackle hug today. My back is still sore from power cleans on Thursday.

*gentler hug than usual* That ought to do it.

PS. I don’t even know what a crumpet is, to be honest.
PPS. Yeah, you’d look awesome in a tux.

*gentle hug*

Just in case you feel like a piece of poopy on the ground in the morning, I thought I’d leave you a good ol’ essay to read.

I’m so bored. There are so many things I could be doing, but I’m too bored to get around to doing them. One of my friends is coming into town tonight from Kentucky (he moved there for college), but I honestly don’t care if I see him or not. I just feel really blah. Mello wants to go eat at a buffet, but that would be detrimental to my body if I were to partake. I’m trying to drop twenty pounds by August. I can do it! I’m pretty sure Ryan’s banging his girlfriend, so that’s a no-go. Hippie/Josh is sleeping. It’s times like these I wish I had a girlfriend (in America). :)

Took me a good long nap earlier. MMM. When I woke up, the dogs were curled up on my chest and head; I tried to move them off, but they both growled at me, so I just left them there. I couldn’t get up for hours.

Now I’m sitting in my room, listening to some old Weezer songs. Want to hear something stupid? Sometimes I catch myself bouncing my pecs to the beat of a song. Pecs = male booby muscles. It’s kind of silly; I’ve been caught doing it before, and it’s really embarrassing when I don’t realize I’m doing it. WOO.

I had a dream about you, during my nap. A non-romantic one. Matter of fact, you weren’t even a main character. I was at a concert with Kayla (weird). It was a classical music concert. The curtains drew back, and you were sitting at a piano, garbed in a black tuxedo. Go figure. Kayla and I were talking to each other, but your song kept distracting me. It got to the point where I got slapped, then I woke up. Odd dream.

Soooo. My brother’s graduation is tomorrow. He’s going away for college. I’m kind of jealous; I really want to travel and get away from here for a while. I was thinking about joining the Peace Corps. Frrrreeee travel all over the world. But it would severely interfere with college, and we can’t have that now, can we?

Blast my ballsack. I want to make this longer for you, but I can’t think of anything good to type. I don’t really want to waste your time too much, only a little. Meh. I guess I’ll end it here.

*hugs gently* Good morning, I guess :)

PS. Have a crumpet. *gives crumpet*

Absolute rubbish.

Ha! i’m british!

Oh dear. I’m on MSN if you’d like to talk. If not, give me a shout back, and we’ll just do that if you’re too anxious.

I have a new picture I’ll send you, if you send me a new one of you. Ooh, it’s a good one! I’m eating Cocoa Pebbles! With Ryan and Mello!

Well, thanks for the notification ahead of time on the earache. I’m terribly sorry! You probably have so much smart-ness in your head that it’s starting to bubble and leak out through said ear. Quit studying; you’re only fueling the fire.

I know! Get online and talk to me all day! Foolproof.

I have no idea why I’m nanny shark. I just named myself something different.

Thanks for earlier, brief as it was. I felt a lot better afterward. I got an A+ on my history paper, an A+ on my history test, and an A+ on my Industrialization research project. Freakin’ sweet! Good way to end a bad day.

Hmm. How can I fill up your monitor space this time? Let’s see…

Ah. I changed my workout plan. I’m sure you’d love to read all about this! I’m going to try to go for more definition. Higher number of reps and lower weight. Instead of having practical, useful muscles, I’m going to have well-defined, useless, aesthetic ones. Bleh. I figure it might help me get laid, at any rate, ha.

After careful consideration, I’ve decided that I’ll probably get my hair cut tomorrow. I was going to grow it back out again, but I can’t take it! It’s way too hot, and too much trouble to fix. I look like an idiot when I don’t try to look ok, at least as far as hair goes. In fact, in all of the pictures you’ve seen of me, I hadn’t fixed my hair. I just hate spending time on it. I’m glad I’m not a girl.

I love wasting your time in the mornings.

My hippie friend and I were talking about what trip we may go on either at the end of the year or next year, and he actually suggested backpacking in Wales, right down the road from Preston. How about that? That would be pretty funny. What is there to do besides backpack? There is a slight chance that we may meet in person. How about that.

Soooo. I think I’ve given you enough to go on before another beautiful day at college. Leave me something funny, or else. I’ll be out of class by 4:00 my time, and I don’t have history, so maybe we’ll talk on MSN if you’re there.

*hugs gently* Maybe we’ll talk tomorrow. If not, leave me something good in my shoutbox.

PS. Where’s my picture? You obviously think I’m going to let up on this.

Ah, yeah, I’ve been there. I’ve had an underlying depression for about 8 months now. I just don’t “feel” like doing anything, even if I used to love it.

I’m getting better tho…forcing myself to do some things. Hopefully, doing fun things eventually conquers my negativity and I get back into a routine.

Glad things are improving though. Eventually I’ll see you floating on a fluffy white cloud of happiness….and then I’ll just point and laugh. I mean a cloud, come on!

Lol, sorry…been working too hard. I think my mind starts to frazzle the closer it gets to Friday.

That’s one thing to cheer about..What’s your weekend plans?

Haha, that’s quite alright :)

You also said your exam “went really went”, but it was followed by a happy face so I’m presuming it went well so well done!

I’ve been good, been working 5 days a week so keeping busy enough which is good, Summer can get boring doing nothing everyday.

It’s good that you’ve been taking good breaks and relaxing, that always helps during exam times. When do your exams finish up?

This is almost like old times again; you and me leaving extremely long shouts on a daily basis. I didn’t realize how much I missed it. And I understand that you need alone time. I didn’t mean what I said the way it came out. It’s kind of odd how we talk about ‘alone time’ and I live halfway across the planet from you.

Don’t worry, down here you’d probably sleep naked as hot as it is. Socks? Psh.

I’ve never been drunk, nor do I want to. I’ve seen very good guys turn into real dickheads when they’re drunk, and I like being in control of myself too much. I smoked for about a year, quit, started again, then quit again for good…..actually I did have ONE last weekend, a rum-tipped cigar. And I agree with your assessment in regards to drugs. I didn’t include illegal habits.

I’m trying to maintain a good mood, but Kayla called me today for no apparent reason. I think she’s split with her boyfriend. I have a question for you; what would you do right now if Kyle asked you back out? Is there anything that would make you think twice at all? I don’t know how to feel right now. I almost didn’t answer her call. As of this moment, at 8:02 PM (1:02 PM) I feel like crying, but I refuse to let myself. I’m not going to let this get to me. It’s just that……GOD, why?

I can’t help but notice I didn’t get a trademark tackle hug tonight. Well, no gentle hug for you.

PS. Quit making excuses. Just send me a damn picture.
PPS. *hugs gently*

In that case, good luck on your music exam as well. I’m sure you’ll do groovily (I know it’s not a word).

I hope that the meds help you regulate your moods. :) I love it when you’re happy. That doesn’t mean I hate it when you’re sad, though, just hard to talk to, since you don’t like talking in those moods. Crap, that came out wrong. I don’t hate the fact that you don’t talk……..eh, never mind. You get me.

HOW CAN YOU SLEEP WITH A DOOR OPEN? *shudders* That would drive me nuts; I’d keep staring at it expecting someone to walk through. In opposition to your being cold, I’m always hot, but then again, I do live in southern Georgia. I hate my room; it gets really hot because it used to be the carport when we first moved in to this house. The ventilation is terrible! Couldn’t sleep in socks; I love the feeling of cool sheets on my toes.

I don’t look that old! I have no idea why that girl asked me that. You’ve seen pictures of me. Maybe it’s just because I look and act very mature….

Thank you for agreeing with me as far as the booze goes. Bleh, I HATE drinking. It tastes bad, it’s high in calories, and it makes you do stupid things. The only thing worse is smoking (which I actually used to do). Nasty.

Now now, no need for tantrums, dear. *warms milk*

I listened to your voice clips this morning; they made me laugh. Odd thing is, they aren’t even that funny (except the American accent one).

Oh? REGULAR hugs? Hmm. *hugs..regularly*

PS. Just take the picture. I demand it. I need more pictures.

And nobody said I was falling for you! That was a joke…because you’re funny….

You know what? I don’t have to explain myself; I already did on MSN. If anyone’s falling for ANYONE, you’re falling for me. HA. Win/win.

Eh. I’ll shut up now.

AW!

I’m sorry you have the sniffles. Try not to kill anyone, as that may prove distracting to you and others around you during your exams.

Ok, here are my sleeping habits:
1.) Can’t have an arm or leg hanging off the bed.
2.) Can’t fall asleep face down.
3.) I love to snuggle a lot, but when I’m about to fall asleep, I need my space. After I’m out, like I told you, I’m fair game to anyone who wants to snuggle up on me.
4.) Door to my room has to be closed.
5.) I don’t talk, kick, or snore either.
6.) I can’t sleep in a shirt; sometimes I wake up and feel trapped because it’s wrapped around me oddly (sometimes I can’t sleep in anything at all for the same reason).
7.) The shirt would be wrapped around me oddly probably because I shift positions a lot as well (I have a queen size bed).
8.) No fan/noise = no sleep for little Justin.
9.) I like it dark, but not dark enough to where you can’t see your hand in front of your face.
10.) I like having a wall or something solid to my back, for security reasons. Not a requirement, just a preference.

That’s it. I wonder how long I can make this shout?

The duck/elephant thing did make me laugh, so mission accomplished there, pal.

Today in class, a girl that sits next to me asked if I was a father. I told her no. She told me I looked like a really good father-type, to which I responded that I hate kids. She guffawed and turned away, which pissed me off, so I cracked my neck really loudly to make her cringe. Oh yeah, I got her.

Somehow, my teacher got on the subject of drinking and going to bars. He asked the class where we went to drink and socialize. When it was my turn, I said I don’t drink or go to bars; I thought they would all have heart attacks.
‘Why don’t you drink? Did one of your friends die in an accident?’ -guy in class.
‘No, idiot, I just don’t want to. I like to be in charge of myself. It’s not that I hate alcohol, I just choose not to drink.’ -me

‘I hate people that think they’re better than me because I drink.’ -girl in class
‘Good for you. I don’t hate people that drink either; like I said, I just choose not to. I’m better than you for different reasons.’ -me

So…

Good luck on that exam tomorrow, bud. There is a very good chance that I won’t be on MSN at all; busy day. I’ll miss you! Thanks for the insult/compliment. If that’s the way this works, then you’re a freak-nasty slut. :)

You and your tackle hugs. *hugs gently*

PS. Just take a new picture, dumdum.
PPS. This is the longest shout EVER.

While I’m thinking about it, email me another picture. I demand it.

Why Opeth, why…..lol, today is an interesting day. Lots of running around and meetings going on, people upset, and my Reece’s melted in my desk drawer…it’s not a peanut butter cup, but a peanut butter splash rather…ikes..

Shutting off a lot of emotions is hard to do. I wish I was better at it myself. The hard thing for me is figuring out which emotions I’m being unreasonable with and turning those off. Sometimes I just feel like something needs to be done. Maybe I’m justified in it, and maybe not. However, sometimes the people involved matter, so it’s a tough one.

But if I dwell on it long enough, I just go numb. So do a lot of negative things happening in your life? And is it mostly people that cause it, or do you just “feel” a certain way “just because you do?” It goes either way for me…lol

Looks like I may be in psych for the entire session today; I’m on a ten minute break right now. If I don’t get on MSN by 10:00 your time, leave me a shout, and I mean a GOOD shout.

Make me laugh. A lot. I want to wake my parents up with my laughter!
You crack me up. I think I’m falling in love, ha.

I can’t tell you how many songs do that for me. And just because I’m no metal elitist, madam, does not mean I cannot enjoy a good black metal song! I wish I spoke German so I knew what they were saying.

This song gets me in the mood for sex: http://youtube.com/watch?v=3fhz0m17y0…

And here’s one from Dethklok, the most famous metal band that never was: http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZRJCXymlWxg

Good luck on your finals! I hope you do well on them. They sound complicated; I hate science.

We have completely different hugging styles. *hugs gently*