Hello, thanks so much for the adivce on my post. You say to get professional help but I’m inbetween doctors right now and If I make an appointment I have to tell my dad why I’m going and he’s just going to think its stupid and I’m wasting time. Same as my grandma.
I’ve tried telling him, beleive me, but… it’s veerryy difficult. He’s the sort of person that jokes about everything and he thinks I’m just trying to get attenton but I honestly can’t take this anymore. I’ve always been the good straight A student, especially in math, now I’m down to a C! All my grades are slipping, and it’s driving me crazy! I want to fix it but I don’t have the attention span to do anything anymore. Just walking in the hallways at school is difficult because I’m so afraid that people are looking at me, or making fun. The whole situation with my mom is wierd and its always an argument or sad thing to talk to her.
I’ve been moving all my life so I haven’t got any best friends or close people to talk to, everyone’s very distant. I’m not particularly close to any of my family memebers. I can’t see a future for myself, or having a family or anyone that would love me. Honestly I just want to dissapear, it would make life much easier on everyone.
Sorry to write so much but I think I need help, and I’m terrified that I’m not going to get any and I’m going to be stuck this way forever or just do something drastic. Thank You so much for listening, I really appreciate it.
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hi hello there :).
wow i was just reading your post and we have a lot in common. Im the same age have a love and science and am going through something very similar to you.