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How can I start something like this???? How can I ask people whom I don’t know to help with something that is not their problem or concern? I have all these thoughts running through my head. My main concern is probably the shame I feel in asking for help. Our story is very long as it has been a few years since we have been stable of any kind. The problems started when my husband had his second heart attack while I was deathly ill at the same time. With no insurance our credit scores went downhill and are now irreparable. During that time we had a car repossessed . That was a few years ago and now things are worse than I can imagine.
My grandfather just passed away, a day after that horrible experience Ford Motor Credit froze my bank account and withdrew all my money for my bills (which was a lot for us) and it totaled about 800.00. My husband and I went to Wyoming to say good-bye to my Grandpa and when we came back my husbands boss fired him. He is now trying to work for some friends hanging sheetrock and with a old broken back injury and 4 heart attacks under his belt he really shouldn’t be doing anything but staying home. I am desperately looking for any kind of work at the same time.
I am SO SO SO Ashamed of writing this and cry day and night even though I know that my tears will not change anything. I can only think that I am just a waste of space and if this is how my life is going to be for any more time I really don’t care to be here anymore.
For the last year we have struggled to try to keep or heads above water . We have gotten rid of anything that would bring in any money. We are down to living in a 27ft 5th wheel in friends back yard for over a year now. I took a small loan out against our truck and now not being able to make my payment on that we are running the risk of losing our only vehicle.
We have no money to buy groceries, pay any bills, we can’t even afford propane to heat our travel trailer or cook. I am as close to homeless as someone can get. I had went to the state to ask for help after my husbands 4th heart attack a few months ago and the state wouldn’t even qualify us for food stamps so I had to go to local churchs and ask for food. I am SO ashamed of myself, My husband tries so hard to take care of us and degrades himself for our situation. I don’t know what to do but to see if strangers could maybe lend us a hand. I am only asking for enough money to get my bills paid anything we receive above that I will donate back to someone else that needs help here. Anything from a penny to a dollar would be a god send.
Since I have lost my grandfather everything has started to go farther downhill and I feel as though I have reached hell. All of these things happening to us makes me question god and makes me so mad at him that I don’t know if I want to believe in him any longer. How can he make someone suffer and be so stressed that they don’t even feel like they are worth the dirt on the bottom of your shoe?
My story goes on and on one terrible thing after another. These are some of the worse things that have happened and I don’t want to have to tell everything because I don’t want to bring other people down.
I can only hope that someone will read this and be able to see the truth in my story. I am not trying to scam anyone. This is the last thing in the world that I want to do, but as of right know I see no choice.
Thank you for the help-please don’t judge me.
I do have a pay pal account which is (email removed) and you could also send any form of help to my po box
PO Box 774
Leesburg, AL 35983
Thank you for the help
Sadie