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• My son is gay, how do i make him straight again
  

  Ignore the bible, in the case of changing sexuality, it fails
  it has blinded people into thinking this is wrong.
  Its also the main reason that half the world are against it, when it is simply LOVE.
  
  It is also the reason why i am in counselling, why people can’t seem to understand that sexuality is not a choice, its not a lifestyle its part of who they are.
  
  Love him, care for him, and help him. He will love you and care for you and help you 2 fold. Throwing your own son out because HE is unable to change something is selfish, unfair, and cruel!
  
  Try to see it from his perspective, as hard as it is.
  And you will see that all he wants is to be accepted, and loved
  - written 5 months, 4 weeks ago

• I feel like I’m such a bad person all the time
  

  “And then sometimes I feel like I’m not a person, I don’t have a personality, cuz all I ever do is reflect how I think everyone else would be happiest to see me. I dunno… is that being a bad person?”
  OMG DUDE!!!!
  i feel exactly the same, i just couldnt put it into words…
  i’m trying to find myself, as i have nothing that defines me as me….im just uncharacteristic, im just a part of everyone i meet and befriend.
  I think thats why i dont know how to think, coz its not my brain, its just a collaberation of everyone elses…and i feel like when im in counselling, im guessing, as i dont know myself.
  its so ****** up…
  i guess we just need to find ourselfs, or make a choice of who we want to be.
  i completely in agreement…and kinda shocked that there is sum1 as similar as me…thought i was alone.
  - written 5 months, 4 weeks ago

• How do you accept yourself when your body rejects you.
  

  That makes sense.
  But all i can assume is that it’ll go with age?
  Or forcing myself out will help?
  Just a feeling of losing control, and watching it fall away, and worsening is the scariest part.
  I hate being able to read people so well!
  but then I hate the fact that it feels that others are reading me.
  I feel like im acting the way i act just to please others, even at my own expense, maybe i snap out of that, and start treating myself (though that feels so selfish)
  Should i ignore it and hope it goes away/gets better.
  Or do i keep hacking at it, until i’m either too exhasted, i’ve ran out of options, or it starts to get better.
  (I need to sleep now, I wasn’t expecting a reply at all, but i’m so busy tomorrow)
  Thanks for your replies, i’ll check in the morning.
  *semi-smile*
  - written 5 months, 4 weeks ago

• i just want to SCREAM.
  

  Go for a walk away from the world, and let it out.
  Just remember to come back, take ear plugs, and leave when you’re ready.
  - written 5 months, 4 weeks ago

• How do you accept yourself when your body rejects you.
  

  I dont know why i cant accept it, some people just dont.
  I suppose i will one day come to terms with it, but that seems so far from now, and its hard to focus on that when I have everything else to worry about around it.
  I guess its the judging part of it, I feel exposed, and weakened, both physically and mentally weakened.
  And can’t look at anything optimistically anymore.
  As much as i tell myself not to, i still care, i still blush, and i still fear it, as much as i try and accept myself, the idea of knowing that someone will judge me, hate me, and see me differently, scares the **** out of me, and makes me feel small, afraid, and alone.
  I accept it happens, its just it hides this secret, and although it seems so closely linked to the blushing, i still want to run everytime it happens, as i’m scared of what people will think of me.
  How did you accept your severe blushing, because i can’t see myself ever accepting it.
  - written 5 months, 4 weeks ago

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