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Thanks ^^. Actually I have to say it’s more like spellcheck had something to say about my grammar then I did…I sort of fail at spelling and without it most of my posts would be illegible.

Thanks so much though ^^. And I really am 15.

YOU ARE SO GAY.

I could have slept that extra hour.

CONTINUATION OF GIRLY SHOUT.

This is RIDICULOUSLY long.

Wow, you seemed to understand everything I was saying. And I was expecting a one line reply saying “Uhh… okay then.”

Haha, I get annoyed quite easily as well, by certain things, but I deal with it by being extremely sarcastic, and my cunning wit usually confuses/annoys everyone. I’m too small/”cute” to get into fights, but I do actually have hidden strength! I’m not sure if I’ve told you this, but I can pick up Kyle (IN HIGH HEELS) and I’m brilliant at arm wrestles. Maybe I channel my superbious brainpower into my arms?

I understood your third paragraph to a tee, because I’m the same. I really like compliments from other people; because I’ve been so used to feeling bad about myself in high school, I really embrace feeling quite good about myself nowadays. There are times when I look like a complete hobo (huge hair, glasses and no make-up), but when I make the effort when I go out I like when other people think I look nice as well. It’s one thing to believe in it yourself, but it sort of gives you an extra ‘buzz’ when someone says, “Your hair looks nice today”.

I like to look good for myself above everything though. I like to look in the mirror and say, “My hair looks great today.” I find that I don’t have that many physical features I’m entirely happy with, but I try and make the most of it. For example, my legs are really slim, but have scars below the knees. So I just wear tights or socks up to my knees as a “feel-good” method. And you know about my skin, but I like my eyes, so I like wearing quite a bit of mascara and eyeliner. About the scars: my family used to go on holiday in the Caribbean every summer. And I used to get bitten by mosquitoes all the damn time. It’s INCREDIBLY itchy, and I scratched in my sleep.

The paragraph about your back wasn’t silly. Everyone calls me a bloody stick insect, because clothes appear really big on me, and I look practically vertical. I have to wear fitted t-shirts and shirts now, just to show that I HAVE breasts, no matter how small they may be. I get away with being extremely short and skinny, by wearing tight-ish clothes, skirts and high heels. God, the effort we put in! Ah well, life is short, so you may as well try to feel good about yourself as much as you can.

You don’t sound like a psychological mess, because I feel the same, and so does Lizzie and Kyle. I think a lot of people have these insecurities when we’ve had a lot to deal with when we’re younger, in terms of appearance.

Here’s another thing on my mind. I always feel incredibly lonely. Not depressed or anxious, but just lonely. I feel quite different to most other people my age, who would rather go to parties and drink themselves to death as their form of fun. This sounds quite pretentious, but sometimes I feel my thought processes are more elevated than a LOT of people I know, who would rather talk about superficial crap. I’d really love to share my interests with someone I can see often, like playing the piano for someone or playing video games or watching TV or listening to heavy metal, just for the interaction. I suppose I really want a good friend. Lizzie understands my personality really well, but I’d love to have someone in my life to share interests too. Kyle is the only person I know in real life whose personality really matches mine, yet he lives so far away. Ah well, when I’m in University, I’ll meet people who I do get to see on a regular basis who I can connect with. And because my parents won’t be able to stop me, I can always see him over the weekends. It’s just the wait I suppose.

This has been extremely reflective. Thanks for reading it all. :)

WARNING: This is going to be an extremely girly shout.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately, and suddenly realised there is a lot to myself, and in the last few months I forgot a lot of who I was. But recently since I’ve been feeling better I have also been feeling better about myself.

This might seem slightly vain, but I actually really like my personality. I like being the girl who listens to heavy metal, reads serious books, watches violent movies, makes perverted jokes every two seconds, and would rather play video games than go shopping.

But then there are days when I feel ridiculously girly. I’ll try to explain. I spent nearly all of high school hating the way I looked. I didn’t like my skin, how my hair took ages to straighten (so I just tied it up most of the time), the scars on my legs etc. I literally didn’t leave the house unless I had to. I hated going out.

It was only when I went to college that I could be myself, and found that no one judged me based on my appearance (I wear quite ‘different’ clothes to most other girls). I think subconsciously I take into account how I look every time I leave the house now. It sounds ridiculously vain, but although I’m not entirely happy with every aspect of myself, I really enjoy dressing up and accentuate the parts of myself that I do like.

For example, the other day my mother bought me these shoes:
http://www.matalan.co.uk/pages/produc…
(The ones on the left.) I’m sure you agree that they are extremely sexy. But when I’m going to see Kyle in two weeks, I’ll be wearing those, along with some black over-the-knee socks, a skirt and a shirt. :D I just really want to look nice since it’ll be the first time in 4 and a half months I’ll be seeing him. It’s the whole girly thing again as well; looking good helps a girl feel good about herself. (Even if it IS to show off. :D)

I don’t know why I even told you all of that! I’m sure you fell asleep. That, or you’ve turned into a big homosexual.

I changed my picture to a rose when I wanted to keep a certain level of anonymity. I may change it back later.

Thankyou very much :)

Its nice to meet you too :P

There tiny :D

But its all good!

Which post is good? x

Excellent!

My feet are awsome. There only a size 3/4 :D

Bonjourio. I am utterly bored to death in college, and the college magically let me on this website. Usually it blocks absolutely EVERYTHING. I’ve just had my last exam, and I’m currently waiting for Miss Elizabeth for two and half bloody hours until she’s finished her exam. I HAVE NO MORE EXAMS. It’s quite strange that I’ve left college. I don’t really like the summer holidays, since I usually feel extremely alone and bored. I quite liked being at college. I really hope I’ve got the grades to get into University, considering I wasn’t exactly in the best mood during the exams. I need AAB, and I’m sure I’ve got an A in English, hopefully an A in maths, and hopefully the B in music (I just had a three hour music exam now). I completely gave up with further maths; it was way too difficult and if I’m lucky I’ve got even a C.

Haha, when I’ve composed something decent I shall send it to you. At the moment I’m focusing on practical work, rather than composition.

What a subtle bedroom comment. I’ve heard THAT before.

:)

Haha, I’m sure a ghost hasn’t killed the poor cock.

I don’t mean to stick my perfectly shaped nose into other people’s business, but I really think that Kayla needs to sort out her anxiety issues above anything else. She needs that to be her priority and needs to put it before her boyfriend. If you can help her then that’s great, but she needs to learn not to fully depend on you, to see if she can compose herself, and if she can’t, THEN talk to you if no one else can. If her boyfriend thinks she cheated then he obviously doesn’t know her very well, or doesn’t fully understand about her panic attacks.

I’m really glad Kyle and I are okay now. Last night we had a 5 hour conversation on the phone, and because there was no unresolved tension or anxiety from either of us, we could be ourselves and re-kindled the friendship. He’s quite busy this holiday because he has a 5-day-a-week apprenticeship, but we’ll try and spend some time together this holiday. (It’ll be quite difficult since I’m not allowed to see him anymore, so he’ll have to keep coming to Preston.) But when I’m at University, we’ll definitely get to meet up more often. Also York University is closer to where he lives than Preston. It’s just really nice, because we do get along so well, and I was scared it was completely ruined because of tension. What a ridiculously boring paragraph I just typed!

I’ll probably be occupying myself this summer with my piano. I’ve been really getting into it. Actually, everything I used to enjoy I lost interest in for a very long time. But now I’m getting back into everything again. It’s a great feeling. :D I’m hoping to achieve my grade 8, so I’ll have a lot of practice to do.

Ooh, it’s boring not having a lot to do during the summer. You should do yoga! I’m sure in no time you’ll be able to get your legs behind your head, like me. :)

Glad you are okay. I was going to write to you, apologising for my bitchy behaviour.

“You remember the one-foot cock?” I didn’t exactly think about the bird at first. Trust ME. I think that Kayla knows she can count on you, so whenever something is going wrong she’ll go to you straightaway. I’ve learned the hard way that depending on someone when you’re upset about something is putting yourself in a very vulnerable position. She needs to learn this. And I loved how utterly blunt your post was.

I’ve been doing really well lately. I’m actually HAPPY. I’ve just had a load of exams, and my last one is on Thursday. I’m going to get a part-time job this summer, to get out of the house a bit more. My sister and I got a Nintendo Wii on Saturday. YAY.

I’ve been feeling a lot more calmer these days, and I’m not so ridiculously tense or panic about tiny things as much. Kyle and I are good friends again. We talked about my attachment and anxiety last Friday, and now that he knows I’m okay, we’re actually having really good conversations again, without me suddenly getting worried about something. He’s coming to Preston in two weeks, so we shall see how things go.

How have you been lately?

I don’t know to be honest. We can if you want to.

That’s cool, I hope you enjoy it where ever you decide to go. Let me know where you decide on :)

And if I’m ever in a place that sells grits I’ll be sure to check them out!

I’m just home from the gym there, workout is still going well. I haven’t toned up or anything yet obviously and I’m not all that worried about that, I am building up a bit of muscle though which I’m happy with. My gym membership ran out the other day and I can’t afford to renew it at the minute but fortunately my friend just got a job in a gym so I can get in there free!

no problemo :)

ur welcome. whoever girl u be with, pretty much every other girl wouldhave a reason to know shes lucky!
xx

awww really? i think its sweet.

i read a comment a bout what u put bout love and sex. i think its nice.

ur a sweet guyx

Wehey I have three zillion and 72 in the US (actually two now - you and Shakeybritches) - keep in touch Regards Mas

You shouldnt have blood pressure at your age you should be running on rocket fuel - anyway I gave you a shout for my friends list - you’re honest and loud - I can tell you off lots - lol - Regards Mas

Nah I’m not a guide, I just hang around the city and convince tourists to go on the tour. It’s a pretty sweet deal. Valet parker eh? I’d say that pays pretty well in tips does it? That was a crazy thing I noticed when I was in the states, tips are basically compulsory for everything!

I just checked out the link there, there is a pretty damn unappetising picture of grits on it. I hope it tastes better than it looks!

If you have never been outside your country before (or at least been when you can remember it properly) I think you should try to get out of the states. That said though, America is so big going to different places in it is pretty much like going to different countries because their so different.

How long are you planning on going for?

Wales is a cool place. I’ve only been there for a weekend but the place I was in was really nice. It was quite like Ireland, a lot of beautiful countryside. I guess pretty much every country has that though, just depends where you go within it.

Haha, yeh I know what a Southern accent sounds like. I work for a city tour company, my job consists of talking to tourists for the day so I meet a fair few different nationalities and dialects. (I’m even starting to be able to tell a Canadian accent from an American accent!)

And I’ve heard of grits . . . . . . just because I’ve heard of them doesn’t mean I have the slightest idea what they are :)

I live in Ireland. I’ve been to Liverpool and Blackburn in England, only for brief stays though, I’m a fan of Liverpool Football Club and my brother is a fan of Blackburn so we try to get over and watch a few of the games. I haven’t been in ages though. A good friend of mine is in university in Chester which is either just inside the Welsh border or just inside the English border, I can never remember which. I’ll be going over to visit him at some stage next year.

How did you end up choosing Wales as your first abroad trip can I ask? I don’t mean any disrespect to it, as I said it’s a lovely place, it just seems a bit random!

Yeh I’m Irish. I’ve been to Boston before that was pretty cool. I’ve been to a fair few places around Europe as well, last Summer me and a few friends took a month out to just go travelling around. We went to about 10 different places, it was a great trip!

What about you? You been to many places?

Good luck in the remainder of your exams by the way. Hope they’ve been going well for you :)

Sweet, I’ll keep that in mind. Generally the weekends are easier for me to get to the gym because I am nearly always free at a good time for it so I might try to just alter the workout you gave me a bit, try to narrow it down a bit and then up the tempo of each day as you suggested. Thanks again man.

That’s cool that your nearly finished up for the Summer. You have exams coming up or anything?

Email alert. :)

Forgot to include a hug.

*bone-crunching hug*

For some reason I thought I was going to see a video of a hoover or something.

But yes, I cared very much. I was going to be online for about 15 minutes whilst my mum is elsewhere, but you’ll probably read this later.

Hey man

Things are going good :) Just back from the gym there, had a decent workout. Actually, I’ve a question for you now that I think of it, I’ve been having a bit of trouble getting to the gym 5 days a week, usually I go 4, sometimes just 3 just due to I don’t have time for it. If I miss a day would I be better with a completely different program, leaving out that days workout for the week, or do that days workout the next day I go?

Hows things with you?

Hey you.

It just less than 7 hours since we last spoke. :) I haven’t had that much sleep since I went to bed (about 3 hours), but it’s better than nothing. When I woke up I started writing a huge letter (3 pages so far) and I felt a LOT better. Heh, I write all the time.

That story about your bouncing pecs was a serious “What the fuck?” moment for me. I was seriously worried about your mental health for a few moments.

That was quite a strange dream. Though I’d imagine I’d look quite the babe in a tuxedo.

Hope you have/have had (depending on when you read this) a good day at your brother’s graduation. You can always start travelling after you’ve finished your course at college. Education comes first! But I’d also love to travel. The way I see it, there’s a whole world out there, and I want to experience it all.

I just took a citalopram tablet and started trembling. I felt like this yesterday as well. Damn side effects. :)

I don’t know if I will go on MSN today, just because I think I need a day to myself. My head’s a bit hazy today. Sometimes talking to other people by typing depresses me; I’d rather the communication to be ‘real’ like on the phone or in person. But sadly you live in bloody America.

I’d attempt to tackle hug you, but considering I feel like an unmovable lump, it wouldn’t be very effective. Just imagine me pathetically stretching my arms up from where I’m sitting.

*pathetic arm-stretch hug*

P.S. I don’t like crumpets.
P.P.S. I’m sleepy.
P.P.P.S. I’m still sick. Damn cold. Damn queasy stomach. Damn aching body. I sound like an old woman.

Rant alert.

I feel extremely down, but seeing as I have no one to talk to, I might as well write it all down, and who loves reading long essays filled with ranting? YOU.

I’m guessing it’s just today I’m feeling like this, and hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow, but in the meantime…

I’m ridiculously tired. I’ve hardly been sleeping properly, possibly because I’ve been so anxious about my exams. And oh my God, my crappy exams went terribly. I had two exams - the first didn’t go so badly, but the second sucked cock. It was awful. Plus I feel really sick (my ’sniffles’ have turned into a huge cold, complete with a sore throat and wheezing), and I was hungry. Not exactly the best conditions to do an exam in.

I also feel incredibly lonely and emotional. Yesterday I was in a good mood; I was content being by myself. Actually since I’m getting better I’ve realised how content I am when I AM on my own; I only ‘needed’ people to cheer me up when I felt tense. But today I just feel a bit alone. I really miss him today. I guess it’s just “one of those days”. I probably will be okay later on.

At least I’m home alone and can deafen myself with heavy music. I think my ears are blocked; the volume is really loud yet it sounds a little bit muffled. But I can certainly FEEL the vibrations of the bass.

Your workout plan sounds intriguing. I only paid attention when you wrote the word “laid”. Shame on me.

I don’t know what your hair looks like but my advice is to go bald. Honestly. It’ll really highlight the shape of your head. Girls dig that.

Oh God, you don’t want to meet me. I’ll probably scare you and your hippie friend away. Seriously though, it’ll be quite cool. I know I’d be really shy and just stare at you for several hours, refusing to talk.

P.S. I definitely can’t take a picture now, considering I look god-awful.
P.P.S. Sorry this hasn’t been that funny. I’m a little bit down.

I’ve been doing work for a solid hour, but I thought to inform you that I have earache. :( It HURTS.

Why the hell are you a ‘nanny shark’?

And yeah, this is why I love long shouts and emails, sometimes a lot more than MSN. It’s nice to have a good conversation on MSN, but some (okay most) days I like having a long essay to read in the morning. :D (I always read your shouts in the morning when I wake up, but never get time to reply to them.)

If Kyle asked me back out, I’d definitely want to make it work again, but I’d make sure he actually wants a relationship, before he suddenly feels distant all of a sudden. And I want to get better first before getting into a relationship as well.

What did Kayla talk about? Or was it just a casual conversation? Don’t tell me if I’m being too nosy, I want to make sure you’re not too upset by whatever she said.

Blah, I have two exams to revise for tonight, (both maths!), but hopefully we can talk tomorrow.

Hope you’re feeling okay. I’m going on medication tomorrow, the doctor rang me up today to ask if I felt more depressed or more anxious, and I told him I felt more anxious.

Hmm… this has almost been a normal conversation for me! I didn’t write anything remotely stupid or hilarious, as per usual. Let’s see… did you know that when eggs and aubergine mates olives are born? It’s true.

*double tackle hug*

Heh, I know what you mean. I’m amazingly talkative and amazing when I’m happy, but when I’m a miserable lump I’m extremely moody and unresponsive. It’s the way I am when I’m sad nowadays, since I want to help myself. But you have to understand there are times when I just like to be alone, regardless of my mood; I just like my alone time more often than most people.

I’m only scared of anyone walking through the door if I saw a horror movie beforehand (which I don’t do anyway, so no worries). And I HATE having cold feet.

I agree about the drinking thing. I’ve been drunk twice, and didn’t enjoy it one bit, seeing as it made me feel very depressed and I did really stupid things. Apparently I’m funny when I’m tipsy though, so there we go. :) I’ve tried smoking and it didn’t do anything for me. I merely choked, thus discouraging me to try it again. You’re wrong, the drugs are worse than smoking and drinking.

Your voice makes me laugh every time I hear it. It’s not even that funny, but American voices always remind me of TV programmes for some reason. So I can just picture you on a sitcom.

I had my first exam today - it went rather well methinks. :D I was almost dying before it; I woke up at 6.00am and couldn’t get back to sleep because I was panicking so much.

Well, back to revision I guess. :(

P.S. You don’t NEED more pictures of me. God, you paedophile.

hey you on??
sorry i sorta dissed you yesterday
i had to go to my 7th period class

Hello woman. I won’t be able to go on MSN either tonight, since I have a music exam tomorrow. :( Bleh.

I just went to the doctor’s. I may possibly be going on the antidepressants. I explained how I am prone to panic attacks (you know how often that happens!), and because I have a permanently underlying anxiety, the antidepressants may help counter it. Because I have the underlying anxiety, there are times when it builds up and I can’t handle it - hence the panic attacks.

Enough of this depressing conversation. :D

In response to your list of sleeping habits, I agree to number 1 (which is why I need a big bed), number 2 (I feel suffocated) and number 9 (I need a night light or lamp on). I completely disagree with number 4; my door HAS to be open a crack else I feel too closed in. And I disagree with number 6, but then again I’m always cold. I also have to sleep with socks on.

Haha, people think you’re a father. How old must you look!? I shudder to think.

Good for you for defending yourself against the douche bags who criticise you for NOT drinking. If people want to drink that’s their problem, but if you don’t then that’s your choice. At least you only have to put up with them for less than 2 weeks.

I’ll miss you toooo. *emotional sob followed by a full-blown tantrum on the floor, complete with flailing limbs thrashing about*

Talk to you soon, you wanker. *hugs*

P.S. I can’t be arsed taking a picture. Make do with my current ones!

So here is my shout, guaranteed to make you laugh. Well now I HAVE to make you laugh, seeing as you’re falling for me. Oh, the pressure.

I gots sniffles. :( I keep sneezing and blowing my nose, with watery eyes and an altered voice. God, I’m gorgeous. Tomorrow I’m probably going to kill someone with my bloody viral infection.

Since you said good bye to me, I simply sat here, browsing the Internet and looking up mindless crap, instead of revising like I should be.

I’ll tell you about my sleeping habits, seeing as you have nothing better to read. I stretch and move around a lot; I hate being restricted, which explains why I have a double bed. :D Go me. I have to have bears in my bed (not real ones), else I can’t sleep (or another person). I dream something really random every night. I don’t snore, kick or talk in my sleep.

Well, wasn’t that interesting? I’m sure you wanted to know all of that.

Why do ducks have webbed feet? To stamp out fires. Why do elephants have flat feet? To stamp out burning ducks.

Erm.

*stares at Statistics booklet whilst thinking of something more interesting to say*

Hmm… you’re a wanker. I love calling people that. Think of it as a term of endearment; the more severe the insult, the more comfortable the friendship.

I think this pointless message is sufficient enough to constitute as a few minutes of ‘worthy’ entertainment.

*tackle hugs good bye*

I only have blurry webcam pictures, or pictures with certain people. Je suis desolé. :(

hey ya there???

Ever listen to such an amazing song where you feel completely lost in it, and never want to break out of that moment?

The metal version of “Rock Me Amadeus” by the band Sturmgeist is awesome.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?…

Ta-dah! It’s probably not that epic to you, but it’s one of those moments where I feel completely serene. :) So it’s a good moment for me right now, and I’m appreciative of it.

I’m also learning about relative velocities and impulse and momentum for my bloody Mechanics exam on Friday. I haven’t had any exams yet, but my first one is on Wednesday. Ballsacks. :(

*tackles hugs* I’ll try not to hurt you too much.

not a child!! lol i just mean u dont have to find a girl the same age as you do you??

what about a younger girl??

lol hmmm well if i was you i’d go for the 16 yr. old look much cuter ya know =]

im 14 although most everybody i run into thinks im 16 or 17 lol

famous band?? lol i tried that once i was the lead guitarist to bad the singer was horrible =]

im starting high school next year & im scared to death lol!!

hmmm sounds cool when will u be finished with college??

so what r u getting ur bachelor’s degree in?? just curious =]

Thanks a lot. That made a lot of sense. I’m just a little afraid of commitment after all of this nonsense I’ve been through.

I think I feel something for someone I know, but I don’t think it could or would ever work out, and I’m positive it isn’t mutual.

Oh well. Guess I’ll keep fighting the good fight! Thanks for the advice.

Hi Justin, thanks for the shout. You have a tough question. I’m not sure I have the wisdom you need, but I’ll give it a shot.

When I was much younger, in high school and college, I thought I had found my soul mate. I became best friends with a girl in high school. I had a secret crush on her, and put off telling her how I felt until college. I can’t say we finished each other’s sentences, but we were both into writing and poetry and grew very close. When we went off to college, we visited each other, and predictably began dating. But that wasn’t to be. Turning the friendship into a relationship ruined the friendship. She broke up and broke my heart.

I had my heart broken a couple of more times in college, but I never felt that spiritual bond with those girls. And in my twenties I know I broke one or two hearts myself.

I determined in my twenties to wait for the woman “that God had for me”. The standard I set was that she had to love Jesus, have a heart for the poor and be attractive.

When I was 35 I fell very much in love. That’s a really long time to wait, so you must be thinking, wow, sans found someone who filled all three criteria. And you’d be wrong. She met only one of them. She was attractive. Yes, she was a good person. Yes, she was spiritual in her own way. But her dedication to God was not much more than lip service, and her regard for the poor was in theory only. That may sound harsh, so let me add without false modesty that my own failings are equal to hers.

Although we both fell deeply in love, I would now admit that it was at least 90% sexual attraction. And that’s not what is essential for someone to be your soul mate. As the attraction faded, I became disillusioned and cynical. I all but lost my faith in God and in myself. Having my son, and later my daughter, was all that kept me from giving up on life. Their mom and I have been divorced for almost two years.

So to answer your questions.. Yes, I do believe in soul mates. Yes I believe in love. Falling in love is a wonderful and powerful thing, but is also deceptive. It’s what keeps our species making babies. When two people become sexually active, they greatly increase the odds that they will fall in love, whether or not they are soul mates. Reason and objectivity go out the window. A person in love can rationalize anything.

Some people do find soul mates. For some of those, it’s also the person they fall in love with. I believe you have the potential to become soul mates with, not just one person on the planet, but with any one of millions out there. There are that many woman living today, Justin, who could understand and click with you as never before. When people tell you that God has that “special one” for you, well maybe he does if you believe in fate. That’s not how I see it. Finding the one love of your life is not at all like looking for a needle in a haystack, but more like looking for the straw that feels right, and then working to keep love alive through the tough times.

You’ll find her if you keep looking.

you and your banana peeling hands…

ello mate.. im like in the next room.. haha.. what the heck are you doing boy

dude ok i just read that thing about im not the brightest bulb in the bunch, but you listen to me mister.. i don’t know what to say, but ” Your mothers a whore” hahahahaha