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It’s always hard to leave a safe place, and maybe it goes way back in the brain when females who left the safe places were extreme targets of prejudice… rape, attack, leaving the children untended.
I’ve gone through periods in my life, (pun un-intended) when I wanted nothing more than to hide away in my space, safe and dark, smelling nothing but my own smell.

I’ve had a few moments in my life when stepping outside caused a complete reaction of panic and the whole world moving in and out of focus as I fought to breath properly. I’ve never been diagnosed with agoraphobia, but I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety.

Your question about the feminine hygiene product delivery is more interesting to me… women have been dealing with this issue for years and years. Historically speaking.

In a more recent context, my mother refused to believe and therefore would not buy the pads and tampons I needed when I started my period.
So I used toilet tissue, paper towels, wadded up old rags, whatever I could find, just like my ancestors. I made excuses to clean myself frequently.

Prayed for the end of every bleeding.

If your girl can’t step outside her house, can’t let people in to relieve the gaps, she’ll find a way. Some way to keep order.

That’s the whole thing about agoraphobia, I think… If you can keep this corner of the world ordered and safe…including monthly blood, then she has a chance, doesn’t she? To make it all safe.

That’s the whole thing, isn’t it?

She just wants to feel safe, doesn’t she?

And there are **** few places a woman can actually feel safe, aren’t there?

Home, children, Moon.

Home, man, moon,

it’s all a mystery.
you can feel the cold cold wind rising.
cold vs hot vs healthy vs order vs chaos

we can’t save
ourselves until we
save everything.

there is no satisfaction guaranteed
till we till again, watch the world, taste the dirt.

eat what we raise, vegetable or protein.

feel the sweat run free on an august day,
shiver when december comes.

wonder,
as we wonder now,
is there enough to get us through the winter
howling down upon us
i can feel that wind and I’m scared.

Are you?

I hurt. I feel like no matter what I do it makes no difference to anyone, I’m an annoyance