okei!'s shout trail with chunkymove - Help.com

hello Okei,

You thinking it’s time to let yourself love again?

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

If you’re not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It’s a chance you’ll take
It’s a chance you’ll win
If someone’s gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you’re not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you’ll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Oohh…
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it’s easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It’s a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

alas! i thought you will visit me, hehe.. me under the deep blue ocean..

but who knows one find day, i could go up in the land and meet you. who knows..

haha, maybe one day.

I’d never used the map function before, but I noticed you were in Italy. I zoomed in, and you were in the ocean. I was feeling random and asked you about it.

why? will you visit me?

do you really live a few km of the coast of italy?

cheetah? It was more an mighty tiger, but still, cheetah is good.

Just sent you an email to cherish account

Bad cheetah! Do you happen to know how to answer?

I sent you an email. You confused still?
Found me on fb?

bwahhhhhh!

Hey!

Hey Chunkyboy! Hehe. I am not much into internet (including Help.Com) these days. My fb is not much. To simplify your search my email is dcb_707 at yahoo.com. Hope you could find me and add me up.

Yeah me too. Fb and Help are separated. There is this thing called anonymity here that handles and accepts both the good and the bad of a person. I am just a work in progress still. Hopefully, the best is yet to come.

If you need anything, or need to tell me anything, just shout it out here. Take care my friend. May you find what you’re looking for.

hey, I just facebooked you and there are 77 to choose from.

I was going to see if you looked like your av.

hey, I understood all of that! I know you sometimes hide in hard to understand little sayings, but you let it slip you have a fully grown functioning brain in there, and so I wanted to hear from it :-)

” i am just fixing whatever i could in my life” I love that line, adding to my list of motvational ( but realistic ) quotes.

I keep my facebook and help.com seperate. Some of the stuff I write here is pretty raw, and I don’t like the idea of friends reading it. I know mostly that no one cares, but still, it make me feel more open here, which is valuable to me.

I’m still at chunkymoves at yahoo if you want to chat more though.

BTW, I know its hard to get, but I think that sometimes being useless is fine. I someone was only a friend when you were useful, then they are more a work college.

cheers.

hi chunky! humor is essential in our lives. kind of bitter-sweet existence for me.

i am remedying/ correcting errors i’ve committed in turning my back to the real world, and now salvaging what little left. i was successful in self-destruction, i am just fixing whatever i could in my life. there are times i am good, others not that good. but still rolling w/ the punches. rather than being stagnant and afraid of my existence.

thank you for being a friend to me especially when i am basically useless and hopeless. i will be forever grateful. nice to know you are fine and ok. you deserve it after all.

are you on facebook? my name is che hernandez. maybe you can add me up there. i am not much on the virtual world lately. i guess simply put, i just have to deal with the real thing. more so that i could be quite extreme at stuff.

take care!

I’m good. Just saw that you were online, and wondered how you were going. Been reading some of your later stuff and while on the surface it seems a bit of fun, I wondered if it meant there was a big breakthrough coming…

but now you’re offline again so, rahhhhh

hey. how are you?!

rahhhhhh!

i am not here for good though, just checking it out. but nice to see familiar faces here, like yours.

hmn. i quite like what you think. lol. well i could smile for now, so maybe that is good. that’s all. besides, i think you pretty know my life story so no need to elaborate.

how about you? should i welcome you back here?

you don’t know how you’re going? and you’re asking me what I think? hmmm

I think you going through the storm before the sunny day

idk, what you think?! =) of course, you are no nostradamus =)

how’s it going?

hi!

bedtime for me.

best of luck with your journey, and feel free to email me if you want someone to be stubborn to :-)

maybe thats a big clue right there.

a life vs your old life.

life is never static, always changing, so you can only have a new life now.

what sort of life do you want?

i need a life. i need my life back.

what that mean to you?

you could just not log on, but its more than that right?

hmn? i envy you cause uv graduated here.

so you have the skills and resources, but not a goal that aligns with you soul?

but you have envy - this might be able to guide you in the direction of what you want deep down.

are you angry at god for taking your dad away from you?

” i used to be powerful, go getter, achievement oriented, happy”

but you lots your belief and hope in your goals? your mind finally let you see that the future you were working so hard to achieve, wasn’t what you wanted?

thanks for saying I’ve helped, even it it was just to get you good and stubborn again :-)

you still love him? how long ago did he pass away?

u did actually helped me in reminding me how stubborn & determined i was. i was never like this helpless poor girl i am now (or i think i am now) i used to be powerful, go getter, achievement oriented, happy

u helped me, no question abt that

am listening, but I’m not perfect. My mind jumps about. when you said you were stupid over and over, when it didn’t seem that way at all to me, I guessed incorrectly about why you might be saying it. understood that its not important.

“its killing my time, killing my dreams, killing my being.”

whats the “It” here?

I don’t mind you being stupid sometimes, I just like to get some sort of encouragement that I am helping - or if not directly helping, then at least the fact that I’m trying makes you feel a little bit more loved.

It’s not trouble, I choose to write. If you need to laugh, then that’s cool, its a self defense mechanism. Sometime when your feeling strong, you can look into what ever it was that made you laugh. that or you can know that laughing at yourself is about all you need in order to survive is this crazy fuxked up world :-)

ru listening?
nobody called me stupid as a child. if they ever will call me, that wouldnt matter at all. cause im too stubborn to know myself well.

closure, for wat? childhood. maybe the trauma is still there, but the pain, id already forgotten. where does it hurt. in all of my life, on wat im doing. self-destruction isolation to nowhere. its killing my time, killing my dreams, killing my being.

heart attack. i was really close to him. i was a fathers girl. never loved a man as much as i love and admire him.

i am him in a lot of ways. his drive, ambition, his determination. but now all of that is waning. i am no longer tough.

who called you stupid as a kid?

how did you’re father die? When you think of getting closure, where does it hurt? Stomach, back, head, heart?

Sorry you had to go through that at that way to young an age.

lol. would i be crazy if i laugh this time. thanks chunky. idk. there are times, i am really stupid, and stupid, and stupid still
thanks for that. sorry for all the trouble.

am i helping?

If not, I really need to get to sleep, just want you to be feeling the old help.com love before I go :-)