Mini-Profile
Why am I here, and what do I like. Well, I’m not sure where to begin, how far to take it, how personal I’d like to, or will be, or how to answer that without some rejecting me, or otherwise simply not likeing me, or whatever the case be.
So, here goes nothing.
I’m a single male, age 39, currently residing in Ohio. I first stumbled upon this site while looking up things “SPANKING” related, so I figured what the heck right? I mean it can’t hurt.
So, as you might guess, I’m here initially because I’m truly seeking “Help” in areas all things SPANKING. More specifically, I’m still in search of that truly special someone who’d not only accept this, and other sensitive lifestyle issues, or likes that I have, but hopefully one who’d indulge me in living this kind of life with.
Although my experience (which is more in my head than of actualy happenstance) with another side or part of it, the whole Dominant area(s) of such a controlling woman, have yet to be experienced, I seek, want, and need that as well.
By nature, I am one who’s SUBMISSIVE and just the thought of being Dominated, or otherwise controlled by a woman, in certain ways, is extremly pleasing, wanted, needed, and admitantly, NEEDED, as well as the SPANKING itself.
I’ve known about my love, longing for, want, desire, need, and even deserving of, SPANKING ever since childhood. But like many like me, have had very little experience with being, let’s just say satisfied with it. I’m well aware of some of the misconceptions some have, and one might get, esp. when hearing my side of it all, but also know just how important, how real, and how desperately I need, want, and deserve it, in my life.
True enough, like some, or even most who enjoy this type of life as I do, get a certain sexual pleasure out of it, when given in an erotic manner, in the right circumstance, with the right woman. But what I’m also talking about, want, and need, as well as DESERVE, is not just the playful slap on the rear as if to tease. What I’m talking about is the type of SPANKING, Dicipline, Punishment, and correction, given in such a manner it actually makes one (me) CRY. Not just cry as in a little drops of tears, or a silent to mild whimper, but the type of severity given that actually breaks me. One given so HARD, and so Long, that it makes me Sobbing, soaking wet, and litterally begging to be shown mercy. But the type of woman I seek, want, need, and hope to receive such a SPANKING, PUNISHMENT, Dicipline, and just plain old BEATING from, would also be one who would not STOP simply because I wanted her to. She’d be the type of woman not only not afraid to take control of me, while taking matters into her own firm hands, but that would show, prove, and remind me that SHE IS THE BOSS. The type of woman who’d not stop, until she said it was time to stop, or she thought it was enough.
My love of SPANKING is such, that if, and when given correctly, by that one special woman who’d understand, accept doing it, and like doing it, as well as want to do it, would prove to me beyond the shadow of a doubt, that she indeed not only means business, but that she truly cares for, about, and indeed, LOVES me. She’d do it not because she knows I like it, love it, want it, even need it, but also because she know’s it’s the right thing to do, she likes to, and it makes me a better person when she does.
My problem in all of this, besides being so cursed, as it sometimes feels, with this deep seeded desire, want, and need, is that I have only ever experienced it, ONCE, in my life, in such a caring, loving, totally awesome, relationship.
And to make matters worse (for me) is that besides having only experience this once, in this manner, but it has been far too long since. Almost ashamed to admit, it has been over 8years since that experience. I’m so frustrated at not only loving it so much, wanting it, and needing it; because I’m so lacking the Dicipline in my life; but of not getting it, or even feeling like I can make it happen, or of finding it, that I’m at my whits end. I sometimes even truly feel like giving up on it all, much less the idea of actually having a woman love me perioud.
Well now that I’ve spilled my guts out, and ripped open my chest, to you, exposing everything (well nearly everything) in an attempt to just allow you to know me, I should probably change the subject and move on.
Despite whatever preconceived notions, thoughts, or ideas you have or may have about me, esp. after reading that, I assure you there is a lot more to me than that, or that meets the eye.
I have other intrests, hobbies, and things I’m good at or can do as well. It’s just (currently) very hard to talk about, much less think about, anything else, because of my deep desire to just love and be loved by another woman.
Some of my other intrests and or areas of experience, besides those of SPANKING or the similarly linked, include such things as:
Computers, and nearly all, or anything computer related; from building them, fixing them, rejuvinating them, etc., to something as simple as just installing software.
Besides my love of, and passion for computers, surfing the net, chatting, email, etc., I also have a great passion for MUSIC in all it’s forms.
I love watching Music Videos, or just listening to Music. Although I haven’t had the pleasure of too many concerts, I’ve been known to appreciate those as well.
My love of music ranges from, some, classical, jazz, and easy listening, to my more prefered and usual, of either Heavy Metal, Hard Rock, or the like. I’m particularly intrested in, and typically look for the “abnormal” if you will, to the new and up comming band(s). Like most, I typically listen to, or watch videos, of bands that reflect my mood or feelings at any given time.
I envy and even relish, bands, or Musicians, as there able to do the one thing I’ve tried so hard to do nearly all my life, that is to just express themselves, but not only that, but to have others hear them, listen to them, and even appreciate them in the process.
Though I’m no musician myself and suspect I never will be, I’ve been known to pick up a Guitar (esp. 6-string Electric, or Bass) and or beat on some Drums from time to time. Sadly enough though, just as my lack of a relationship (in the manner I’ve already spoken of), I currently do not have any instruments.
I also have a strong passion for DRIVING. I could get into a car (driving fast, when I can get away with it) and just drive, with no where in mind. It’s amazing how calming, soothing, and relaxing the open road can be at times. Experiencing it on a Motorcycle has also been a dream of mine, I hope to someday make happen.
Besides all that, if there was anything else I could say here, to you, or anyone, is that if and when you allow youreslef to get to know me, you’ll find out that (though very different than most) I am truly an amazing, kind, caring, accepting, nonjudgemental, openminded, and loving person.
My goal is, always has been, and always will be, to just treat others the way I’d hope to be treated in return.
Well, thank you for stopping by and taking the time to read this and getting to know me, if even just a little. I’d be happy to, and will, share more to all, and any, willing, or wanting to know more.
Have a great day, God Bless you all.
Richard
Where did you grow up?
Detroit
Where do you live now?
Cincinnati
What is the highest level of education you have attained?
Some College
What subjects did/do you enjoy the most at school?
Computers
What's your favorite sport or sports?
Baseball
What kinds of jobs have you held? Industries too!
Fast food, Warehouse, and various Entreprenure related.
What hobbies are you into?
Computers, Music, MOVIES, Driving
What causes are you concerned about today?
Homelessness, others
If you claim a political party affliation, which is it?
NA
Which religion (if any) do you follow?
Not religious per say, but very Spiritual.