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Hiya

Lol.

Yes, thankfully. Well they WERE until they got dragged around the garden !

Lol
I hope they’re clean…:P

I’m fine thanks. Coping with a dog with hyperactivity and attention-seeking disorder which manifests itself in whizzing around in circles with my underwear from the laundry basket in her mouth…..

Its ok. I just got yours. How are you?

Hiya! Ugh.. this is so slooow tonight! Sorry, I only just got your shout.

Hi.

Already got £5 in a butterscotch tin :)
Night night x

That’s brilliant already. Put the equivalent cost of a ciggie in a jar each time you manage without it.. it reminds you where you’re heading! Good luck ! I have to go and commune with my duvet now before I end up with qwerty on my forehead. Nite nite x

Well I cut down from 7-8 a day to 4-6 a day. Im gonna try on three tomorrow. Mainly because Ive only got 6 left.

Go for it. Take it slow though.. cut down gradually. One less a day is the way to go or it can make you moody. But worth it, because your hair and skin will look fabulous after a couple of months.

Yeah, Im thinkin of quitting on friday. A because I have not much baccy left, and B because I want to save whatever money I get instead of smoking it away.

Sounds like it was fun. Less baccy and more choccie is definitely the way to go though…

Lol, so would I if we could. We went there over the fields, no shops :( but we got out of the feilds just behind the shop so he got me a tango, we went to his, his dad gave me 2 pizzas to take home for dinner, and before we went home we went to the shop again so Scott could get someone to go in for some tobacco. Got me choccy when he decided to go in for a video :)

I’d have had to stop off at least three times en route…

Lol
Same here. Scott and me biked to Sileby the other day. I had to beg him to get me some Cadbury when we went home xD

Me neither.. too fond of my chocolate!

YEAH!!!
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Im not plannin to go mad, and lose loads. Id just like to be a good healthy weight for my age and stuff. and wear nice clothes. Not a chance in hell Ill be anorexic or anything. I love my chips too much

Yay. Move over angelina.. here comes paper-aeroplane!

Yep :)
Im hoping to get 2 bonuses out of it - Something to do instead of harming myself
Use it to lose at least 2 stone by christmas so I get get nice clothes
:)

Good :) The bonus with all the biking is that you look fab after it too!

I am happy with just Sarah knowing. I dont want a lot of people to know about it.
I biked 5 miles yesterday, in 1 hour. I still hurt though. But I had made up my mind to do so anyway. No more now. No more broken promises.

She’s right about the bike. It’s an excellent idea. If Sarah tells your tutors things and tells them it is confidential, they cannot tell your mum. You don’t have to worry about that. If you want them to know, asking her to tell them is the best route.

I am not telling my tutors about my harming. I dont trust them not to tell my mum. Sarah wont tell anyone, and I trust her. Sarah knows about it, she said excercise is good. I have a bike now, so she said if I feel like harming, just get on my bike and go somewhere. Cuz it “releases the same good feeling as I get from hurting myself”

Hi there. Don’t worry. You are not far off the mark at all and your tutor will see that. Considering you’ve had a tough time lately, I’d say you did really well. Talk to your tutor. You may find that you only lost marks because of small silly errors.. in which case it’s not a case of not being able to cope, only one of knowing how not to make them next time! I think you need to put your faith in Sarah’s judgement of your situation because she knows most about it really.. make sure your tutors and Sarah all talk together. Have faith in yourself. You can do it! x

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I talked to Sarah. She wasnt mad at me. She wants me to go a whole year. I went si months. I should be able to. But I think Im failing A levels already. I for 45% on my biology test, and I needed 50% to stay on the course. Im worried

okey dokey :)
night night Mums xXx

If you saw how explosive my cooking can be… you’d understand why they’d refuse me entry to a chem lab! You should get some sleep. Busy day tomorrow! Nite nite x

lol, why?

if i dont respond sometimes, ill have gone to sleep :(
might have to go in 10 actually

Wow! I don’t think they’d even let me ON a chemistry course in the first place! :)

Biology Statistics, and General studies. i was doig chemistry but i think ill be kicked off that course. i want to pick up ict

Good idea. What are you studying at school? I think you may have told me once, but I have a memory like a sieve these days!

kinda no
still hurting
but am gonna talk to someone at school whos a part time cop, about the threatening

things better than last time we spoke though I hope?

could be better. things should look up tomorrow :)

hi there, I’m doing fine. How are you?

hiya Mums how are you?

yeah i have school but im 16 and him and my sis are 13 so they go to the secondary school i went to, and i go to rawlins

My pillow is yelling my name. I hope you get some rest tonight and things are better for you tomorrow. Take care x

You don’t have school to do this week?

well my sis is in the same school as him, they see each other at the bus stop. but im going to stay home and hang out with scott for a few days

Good. You stay home and stay well and safe. Problems have a way of working themselves out given time and space sometimes.

well i legged it home first thing and her and her bf went over there

I think you’re right. Today was a weird day. Tomorrow will seem a lot better. This stepdad guy seems out of control so stay away for your safety and tell your mum what happened. My guess is he is a panicker and doesn’t understand cutting either.. so blames the first person he thinks may be responsible. He doesn’t realise no-one is. But tell your mum anyway so she can keep an eye out for you. Don’t worry about repairing things with your friends just now.. thing is, they usually get repaired just by themselves. A little time out will help you all I think.

Mum his step dad never msned me.
i went to calums house to see him for like, 10 minutes, his stepdad pulled up in his car and i have always been scared shitless of him, so i legged it while he was swearing at me. i swear, if i hadnt have ran, hes have hit me..he said to my mum he doesnt have a problem with me..but why else would he talk to me like that?
im going to talk to Sarah about the cutting. i think today got too much for me

Well, find something you enjoy doing and leave things as they are for tonight. Remember that you can take control of the cutting. It doesn’t control you. Focus. If you still have the msn message from the step-dad, save it to a file somewhere and in any case report what happened to an adult at some point. Maybe Sarah could help with that?

he doesnt go to my school. and im not into pampering stuff. :/

His stepdad said that??? that’s outrageous. Listen, it’s clear there are things going on over there that are beyond your control and you don’t need any additional stresses like that in your life right now. Just let things calm down and if you need to, talk at school maybe. Take a break for a while from all this and do something calming like having a pamper session. Ask sis to join you and both of you enjoy a man-free evening for a bit.