It’s changing slowly and I do believe I am on the right path, but it’s hour by hour that I live.. I am trying to make that positive change, to take my own words/replies & the many things I read on here and aply them to myself.
I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster, in the fog on a cold day - it’s exiting, terrifying, unpredictable.
I don’t remember what post it was exactly…I don’t think you were the poster though, I believe I was responding to the poster. But anyway, everyone’s reaction to medication is different and I know a lot of people who dislike it aswell.
I respect your point of view on it with valid reasoning.
Hey Skyy I saw your replies to me in the post regarding the Christian Counselor. I’m glad your on the same page and that your waiting for that right person who believes as you do. Its imnportant that we seek God’s will for our lives first what we seem to want and need may not always be right for us. We need to trust in Him no matter what.
Yeah! They are so cool! By looking at them you never expect they’d be the “lone wolf” type. And the “firefox” is their nickname, which is funny because I edited the icon on my friend’s computer to be Mozilla RedPanda and he thought it was the newest thing. hahaha
The person I replied to is my friend and they did read it all, they contacted me to let me know.
You can call me whatever you like, I have pretty tough skin:) And I try not to assume people are implying anything other than the words they say. Ego is a foolish problem.
skyy:) I actually enjoyed talking to Da-11. I thought he might enjoy some challenging conversation. I didn’t expect him to become insecure and defensive. You have more backbone than I expected:) and yes that is a good thing.
Since this morning! I think they heard I was about to jump off the London Tower and felt sorry for me! I’ll take it any way I can get it. It’s good to be back!
Thanks for the offer, I may take you up on it. Things are going better for me this week.
After someone has died in my family, we have the traditional services and it can get a bit sad at times. But after mass we rent out a restaurant or catering hall and have a big party, with all the friends and family, have some good food and drink and celebrate the person’s life.
My grandfather died not to long ago; he was the first person in my family to have died that I was close enough too to really feel a loss; it was very sad, but the party afterwards helps to cheer you up and have good feelings about the situation instead of bad ones.
This is a bit morbid, but I’m board … The instruction I have given to my wife is that upon my death I want to be cremated and placed in an urn (or some such holding device). Then I want her to through a party of some kind where my remains should be treated as the guest of horn. I also want her to decorate the urn with things like a hat and sun glasses a flower lay that sort of thing. And the urn is to be placed at the head seat at the head table. Then I want my wife to state to everyone at the part for them to have one last really good time ‘on me’ (or she’ll say ‘on my husband’). I than want my family to order me a meal they think I would have liked and make sure someone (or more than one person) eats it and she is to make sure there is always a drink in front of my remains, of which I expect someone to drink the drink on my behalf and then order me another one for someone else to drink on my behalf. Silly right?
If you read my shouts with Mitzy you will see that she wants me too because she is on here on her own and can;t get to them all. And all I am doing is removing something offensive to help another user.
I’m not sure. I might be scared of the dark. Or it’s general life restlessness and chemical imbalance. But nonetheless I’m conscienscious enough to say hi.
I’m doing great, I’m a bit tired; with out trying to sound to much like a looser I got a new computer game that I have been playing; and since I don’t have much time to my self, with work and family, the only time I get to play is really late at night when I should be sleeping.
But I don’t play computer games to much, every few years or so they come out with a new version of this game I like so I get it and play it for a month or two (depending on how hard it is) and then wont play a game for the next few years. So ill live.
You stay positive by acting positive, even if you don’t feel that way. Its funny but it works. Smile right now for no reason just smile; if you notice you get an uplifting feeling for no reason all except that your smiling. Now laugh for no reason, the bigger the better; what you will find is that you also feel good about it for no reason.
Its all chemistry; when you perform actions like smiling and laughing your brain is not only telling your face muscles to contract and your lungs to inhale and exhale; your brain also releases the endorphins associated with good feelings. It can’t help itself, for your brain fake laughing is the same as real laughing, it has no way of diverging the stimulation between each scenario.
So acting positive is the first step in feeling positive.
fashion show bootcamp? Now that’s one bootcamp I want to attend
That’s cool about going to Miami and the wedding, I hope you have fun.
They picked you because your gorgeous; that’s all those people look at when picking a model. Shallow I guess, but if you got it baby flaunt it. Also I imagine things where worse in your head then in realty. Same thing happens to me; I hate talking in front of large groups of people and every time I do it I always thing I have done a bad job. But then afterwards people come up to me and compliment me on how well I did and say things like I have a talent for talking in front of people. I don’t see it, but then again I guess I am over analyzing it from my prospective. I have done it enough now though that I have learned to just shut off my own thoughts of inadequacy a little better then before and things seem to go better I think. With time, the more you do things like this you to will learn how to do this.
But congratulations for making it, that’s so awesome; I wish I could be their to see ya do it. What are you going to model? Something revealing :wink wink: or something conservative?
Oh and for the future; im off and on this thing spotty, because I’m here mostly from work so just because I don’t respond to you doesn’t mean I’m mad or don’t like you anymore. It just means for what ever reason I could respond.
See ya latter, Oh and remember when you become a supper model, I expect a cruise on your yacht
Thanks for your perspective, Skyy. I tend to not trust people easily myself, but I know that many here have learned not to trust at all, which keeps them isolate.
You want to know something weird; I had a dream about you yesterday. It was weird though, it was like I was talking to you on here, but then you where also in the same room on another computer, but I could only see you from the back. And I have no idea what you even look like from the back – I love dreams, how their all weird and silly. The best time to dream is when you wake up in the morning and then go back to sleep. When I do this, I remember I’m sleeping and then I can actively change what I’m dreaming about.
awesome! yea i have one friend that i have indepth conversations with ALOT. like once a day we have some form of a deep chat. then i have others that i do it with often. just depends on what is brought up or whats on our minds.
yea i get what your saying about people not thinking for themselves. its a shame. i love having intellectual conversations with people. i have surrounded myself with friends that are able to do that. its quite fun what you learn about people if you just listen to their thoughts and opinions