~*Bleeding_Heart*~'s shout trail with bookworm16 - Help.com

Hey, how are you feeling today?

Stopping talking about how you feel isn’t going to solve anything, it will just make things harder. Why have you stopped talking about how you feel?
And why will you get kicked out of school?
Really try hard not to cut. If you have the willpower, you will be able to beat it, at least for now.
Night, and come talk to me tomorrow! x

Just getting to feel worse daily and im scared that 1 day i go to far and kill myself… I dont want that… Not hurt ppl more then i already am… I stopped talking about how i feel… Well basically hardly talk anymore though i used to talk way too much way too fast… I just dont know anymore… Want to lay in bed… Ill get kicked out of school anyway…Well im off to bed i guess… Not that i will sleep or hardly sleep but still my parents say in bed at 10… Ill be on tomorrow if i have the time… The way i feel now tells me i have the entire day… Well ill see… Ill try not to cut but already know ill fail… The urge is getting horrible… When i see my arm i want to cut… So i have bandage on all day… But not when i go to bed… Then the urge is biggest anyway… But i really have to go im already late lol

Things not going too well then? Feeling kind of the same minus the fever and eye.

Eehm well not really feeling anything… But before i felt VERY sick lol… Got another fever and something with my eye… But i basically feel like crap… Just want to disappear… And that noone will miss me… Feel like cutting my arm and see all the blood dripping out… How are you?

Hey, how are you feeling today?

Of course you can, don’t give up!

I didnt feel so bad in weeks…so i doubt if i can hold the urge inside…

s’alright, I understand, as long as you don’t do anything :)

I know but cant think straight now

Don’t think like that. Things will get better. I know it sounds hollow and meaningless but it will, just hold on.

I am seeing a counceller… Still doesnt help me… meds dont either… im doomed

I know it may not be what you want, but maybe you should see a counsellor?

I know it may not be what you want, but maybe you should see a counsellor?

I have no clue…just dont i dunno dont feel like living but also dont feel like dying

I know it doesn’t feel like it but the fact they have taken away everything sharp is a good thing. Do you know why you are getting more depressed?

Well im getting more depressed daily…Or so i feel… Stil have the urge to cut but my parents got all my knives and everything sharp…

Glad you don’t cut anymore, further than I’ve got. What’s wrong?

Pretty bad actually…but atleast i dont cut anymore

Hey, I haven’t talked to you in ages! How are you?

Ok. Well if you love him that much maybe you should try and make him believe you. It always helps to have someone on your side.

Ppl say that…but i love him and wont leave him

Then maybe he’s not the right guy for you.

He doesnt seem to really believe it

Can you not talk to him and get him to help you?

yes he knows

I forgot to ask, does your boyfriend know how you feel?

Just give yourself some time, but at some point you will have to face your feelings. And when you do … I’ll be here to help. =)

If i think now it will end bad

Well maybe what you should do is just think for a bit?

i dont know what i want anymore

But it was a temporary solution. Everytime you feel empty, do you want to have to hurt yourself, or would you rather try and find out the problem so you can resolve how you feel without having to resort to hurting yourself?

It helped the feeling of hurting mself disappear

If your parents know how you’re feeling and don’t want you to see a doctor, go anyway if you think it will help you. You need to put yourself first and get the help that you need and deserve.
You feel empty, but hurting yourself isn’t going to help. Deep down, you know that as well as I do.

I feel empty and also like crying… I dont know why…And what should i say? my parents dont even want me to see a doctor

Ok. Well, how long have you been feeling like this? Maybe you just need to talk to somebody, explain what you’re feeling?

No i dont

Look, so we can talk easier, do you have AIM?

I dont know…dont feel anything atm…Like im empty

If you want to talk, I’m here! x

I dont know… I just feel so bad

Oh, why!?

Eehm i hit myself on my head with something…So not too good

Hey, how are you feeling today?

ty ^^

Ok, night. If you ever want to talk, I’m here. xxxxx

I write read everything…it doesnt help..sometimes only…now it doesnt… Im going to bed i guess its 1:16am maybe ill feel better tomorrow

People feel like you do in their early teens, so ignore people when they say you are too young to feel how you do. I’m only 16. Have you tried writing instead of hurting yourself?

im 17, 18 in a month

No problem, I know how it feels and I’ve got people there to help me so I can help you. Heck, maybe we could help each other! How old are you by the way?