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• They won’t stop harassing me…They won’t stop hurting me…..I want to sing…God how i want to sing….how i want to be all….but posted (4 years, 9 months) ago
  won’t stop harassing me…They won’t stop hurting me…..I want to sing…G…

• I want to be strong. posted (4 years, 10 months) ago
  I want to have faith that I will make it. I want to be strong. I can’t cry anymore. I need to …

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• They won’t stop harassing me…They won’t
  

  lol…if only it were that easy huh…it is VERY hard living in Jamaica…i love this place…but you need to know people of a higher position to get what you want where you want….to get a visa i have to be interviewed…and that too costs money…everything hear costs money….too much…sometimes i can;t afford to buy burger king lol….i am good at hiding myself….and i will keep hiding…i need to hide. i dont trust anyone….i can’t. it is hard. I have these episodes where i start 2 scream and shake…i don’t know how to stop it…!! i dnt kno! i hate crying! i am always crying! i wake up with marks on my hands at times! what is wrong with me….i pray everynight…I pray….alot…i am trying to be the greatest servant to God…
  - written 4 years, 9 months ago

• They won’t stop harassing me…They won’t
  

  Ive tried suicide….but i hate marks on my hand…i don’t want any attention….people will think i am crazy…i have already overdosed three times but no success…i am afraid of death….but sometimes i can’t deal with it….i write a lot of poetry and music…ive been writing since i was 10. it helped for a while…then it stopped. but….i feel like…i have to be depressed…i need depression…or i cannot feel at all…i need to be sad..or else…..i can’t think…i dont understand…..
  - written 4 years, 9 months ago

• They won’t stop harassing me…They won’t
  

  but my mother spends alot *
  - written 4 years, 9 months ago

• They won’t stop harassing me…They won’t
  

  I;m 19…. i am old enough to leave….but spends alot of money on my older sister….to go away to places..and uses it on herself to go away also….i wanted 2 go 2 college….in the US….but she said no….she says i belong to her….but at times she says she can’t wait to get rid of me……It is hard living in Jamaica….there are no options for me to make money to go away…there is no one i can stay with….i live everyday with a smile on my face and faith that maybe something wont ruin my day…. am always told what an embarrassment i am…what an outcast i am…..they always make fun of me..my family….i am never accepted…..all my friends have left me and gone away to college….
  - written 4 years, 9 months ago

• They won’t stop harassing me…They won’t
  

  ye its not in the US..i am in Jamaica…for 10 years…well…ive been beaten to the point where i can’t stop throwing up….i also had to pretend as tho the scares on my face were because i fell on the road….and i am Bipolar….i get angry so easily….i hate everything almost everyday…and i can’t stop crying…everytime i come home my ‘family’ complains about me….they curse me every ******* second! i am always a failure to them…i don’t get it…..I do want to do music…it is my life….i have written so many songs and they havent heard one….I’m always angry…and i lash out at everyone…i can’t deal with this anymore….i don’t know what 2 do anymore. all i know now is to live like i don’t even exist.
  - written 4 years, 9 months ago

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