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• Life is a game of swings and roundabouts… posted (1 year) ago
  I started off a flappy Christian, was abused for many years as child. Ended up a self-harming suici…

• I have just accepted that the ‘god’ i’ve been worshipping and loving endlessly, doesn’t exist. posted (1 year) ago
  . . And I’m HAPPY. Doesn’t help with the whole reporting issue (see ‘there’…

• It seems I have a lot post about at the moment! posted (1 year) ago
  I have found myself with need to vent, and to ask your opinion. I have recently been in contact wit…

• Why won’t my last post show up on ‘help me with’ on my comments? posted (1 year) ago
  …

• There’s this guy I know… posted (1 year) ago
  thing is, he and I have history. He groped me when I was 15, and then he started a relationship wi…

• I don’t exist. posted (1 year, 4 months) ago
  I need to talk. I don’t know who to talk to. My husband is now working full time, something h…

• is it I, Lord? posted (1 year, 4 months) ago
  Three visible signs, two ‘miricals’ and several tearful hymns later… How do I …

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• (1 vote) I don’t know if i can keep waiting
  

  If he is pushing you away, I think you may need to find out why. Calm yourself down, compose yourself. Find a peice of paper and a pencil and write all your feelings out, not neatly though, just scrawl them on the paper. Write line over lines until you feel that you have nothing left to write. Then go fix yourself something good to eat. Don’t think about him, just enjoy being with yourself. When you are calm and comfortable, sit on the internet for a while and search google for ideas of questions to ask him and note them all down. Think what his responses could be, and write them down. When you’ve done this, go back to the ‘feelings paper’ and start again on the otherside and do as before until empty again. Then leave all thoughts of it for a week, no contact, no thoughts.
  
  After a week, arrange to meet somewhere neutral, where neither of you are at a comfortable advantage. Stay calm and just talk. Try to keep your feelings out of it for now, and try and figure out how he feels. If he’s not opening, just be patient. Show him you are a good friend and stick with it. Don’t swamp him though. Just let him be and encourage him to open up by asking him the odd question.
  
  - written 1 year, 5 months ago – voted for by Florimouse

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• Life is a game of swings and roundabouts…
  

  [quote Finding My Feet]Everyone messes up..God doesn’t expect perfection from us, he knows that we’ll mess up..
  “your grace it shines on me” & “take me as you find me, all my fears & failures, fill my life again”
  its whether we learn from our mistakes, & repent and ask for forgiveness that is important, if you’ve done that things will only get better.. I have messed up & often wonder how I can praise him.. yet he would rather we repent & praise him than ignore him because we feel unworthy.[/quote]
  Thank you for your kind and sensible words. I feel much more at ease.
  - written 1 year ago

• Life is a game of swings and roundabouts…
  

  “I assume that other than the shame you are you again; that the spark of life is in you once more?”
  
  Yes, the spark is there. I am there. I just feel that I let God down by turning Him away, but having read your response I am comforted.
  - written 1 year ago

• Life is a game of swings and roundabouts…
  

  [quote Da⌐11][quote bramblejelly][quote Braad]god is a god of forgiveness. your faith will be tested, if you did things and are truly sorry, then pray and you will be forgave.
  
  god loves you and wants you to be happy, even now![/quote]
  
  Having my faith shattered like that..
  
  I am ashamed. I feel like a hypocrite. I feel I have no right to be a vicar anymore. How can I stand up in church and preach on having faith in God when I failed to so spectacularly? the evil one pushed hard and he broke this stem, and the flower was looking like it was going to be stunning.[/quote]
  
  So your contention is that you as flesh and blood are suppose to be stronger then the evil one? And that because you aren’t stronger then he is than you are worthless as a person?
  
  He’s the evil one for a reason sister because he is very powerful and very manipulative. In fact to think you could be more powerful than he is a bit narcissistic. Your shame means that you think you are more powerful then the evil one, but your not, not even close.
  
  The question is what happened during those ten hours and how do you feel about the subject now? I assume that other than the shame you are you again; that the spark of life is in you once more?
  
  It would seem to me that the evil one was making a last ditch effort to regain control of what was once his property before you made it official that you where not through confirmation. What ensued was a battle between it and you with gods help. Sure for a time he had the upper hand, once again he is very powerful, but in the end god and your self vested him and regained control of your sole.
  
  You should not feel ashamed because of the battle; You should feel honored that god felt you worthy enough to not allow your sole to be taken, that he fought for you. You should feel proud that you where able to hold on to who you are instead of giving in to such evil power.
  
  Struggle is not the sign of giving in; struggle is the sign of not giving up. That you feel ashamed, that you are struggling with your faith now, that you feel ill at what happened is only confirmation that you are not giving up god in your life and that you continue to fight for him even during the most darkest of times.
  
  That is something to be held high, not something to despair upon. Continue to be gods servant get your conformation, show the evil one that no matter how many times he comes for you that you will not be broken from the path toward god. That is what god wants from you and that is why he will always be with you when the evil one decides to try again.
  
  Don’t give up now after the battle has been won, that would simply be handing victory to the evil one. Stand up in defiance, put away the feelings of shame, and walk with god.[/quote]
  
  Thank you my friend, thank you dearly.
  - written 1 year ago

• where were you when terrorists attacked new york ( 9/11) ?
  

  I was in a charity BHF charity shop in the town neighbouring mine, when the shopp assitant said “well will you look at this”, and then turned the t.v round as the first tower fell.
  - written 1 year ago

• Somethings not right.
  

  I know how you feel, i’ve been there and got the t-shirt so to speak (or the long sleeved jumper).
  
  Pookie is right, speaking to your doctor is a good idea. Although with a therapist, don’t expect it to work first time round. I mean, it might, but it also might not be the right time. And yes, the icecube method can be quite good, especially if it’s physical pain you’re seeking.
  - written 1 year ago

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