Your idea of facing anything if your thin could be based on control. Being thin is something you can control so if you control your weight you can control the world around you which is why you think you can face anything if your thin.
Your lying awake at night is because of the human instinct for food. If you are full you will sleep but your not full you are hungary so therefor the hunter gatherer instinct sets it.
I am no expert but i have experience of how you feel. Get professional help. It is not just you that suffers, your family don’t know how to help you but professional eating disorder people can help and help get you on the road to the happy life you deserve. - written 5 months, 2 weeks ago
if you are under 17 your really need to tell him the truth. Eventually he is going to find out no matter what age you are. Depending on your age you could get him into real trouble.
Be honest no matter what, a relationship can’t last on lies. If you like him as much as he seems to like you tell the truth. - written 5 months, 2 weeks ago
start talking to people about why you are angry and then you will be able to let go of the past and stop being sad about things. If you are identifying that people think you are stuck up it means you are aware of how people MAY see you and you can do things to put that right. email me back if you want to talk. - written 5 months, 2 weeks ago