Chameleon's shout trail with Fever Dream - Help.com

rayz0r’s in college. I played WoW w/him for a bit then i talked him into finishing his Bachelor’s. I guess you can expect him to come on here randomly at some point. Unless something bad did happen to him. I wouldn’t worry for awhile though.

Hey Fever, have you heard from Raymond? http://help.com/user/212501-rymond
You were one of his 6 friends and he dropped off the face of the earth about 3 weeks ago. Before that he shouted me all day long every day so I’ve been really worried that he got hit by a bus or something.

Hah, i sure could use a hobby >,>

lol dork :P
I’ve done that too, I think we all have shouted ourselves. At least we don’t answer ourselves! lol
Yeah it’s getting silly-late here, 3am, but the petition post is just too hard to leave! lol

I just noticed the last 3 shouts i wanted to go to you were instead shouting at mah self.
sorry =/
But yea, I don’t know what time it is here, But as i remember it was a few hours ahead of you =P

lol
What time is it where you are?

I figured that was the best way to start small talk xD
I’m bored right now, normally i would be talkin to mah ex lady friend or be doing something with a friend, But now i have neither.

I would have killed several men if given the chance. Lucky for me I wasn’t, or I’d be in prison now.

I almost killed a man once.

lol I feel like everyone’s mother honestly.
I think I fall into that role so easily with others because I always have a mother’s state of mind since I’ve spent half of my life raising 3 sons.
And my god, have I ever seen my sons hurt by girls. Girls can be the most wretched backstabbing heart stomping monsters. Good women are the rarity nowadays, unfortunately.

Thats really good advice. . .
I swear you’re like the mother i never had. . .

Yeah it’s lessons like you’ve had with girls that make men hold back on giving their whole heart over until much time has passed. I mean MUCH time. Like a year. You can give part of your heart but not the whole thing, save some for yourself so you won’t be damaged too badly if they turn on you. Be halfway suspecting that will happen until they’ve proven with time and loyalty that it won’t.

i was with her for the whole summer until 11am today, which was a couple months =/

God that sucks though. . .
I mean cmon, i read what i said again thinking differently. and i just wowed because of the amount of suck on that. . .

Ok I posted what little I could with what I knew of your situation. Leave me a shout if I didn’t help and I’ll try again next time. Good luck hon.

Would you care to help me?
with my most recent post
I’ve had a lot of them lately =P

Yeah I haven’t posted but been logged in. I’m almost always logged in but often doing other stuff online or afk.

Is it just me or have you not posted in 13 hours? but have been online the whole time?

Oh I am proud! *Yay!!* :D

i got the first real sleep I’ve got in 4 days last night ^,^
Until last night i had been running on about 9 hours. It’s been kind of a rough week. I figured you would be proud :3

Well when I vented I did it through privnote.com so the mods never saw it ;)
It’s a great way to send mssgs here that you don’t want everyone to be able to see. You just send the link and the message can only be read once.
As far as when I fell apart on a friend, she was very supportive. I hate feeling weak. lol
Now I’m going to go boss you around in that post and then go to sleep :P
Shout me tomorrow if you can :D

Were they cool with it n’ stuff?

lol
Yeah I’ve had a couple of vents in shouts - they’ve helped :P
And the other night I fell apart all over one poor soul on my friend list.
I do have my weak moments but I try to keep them as hidden as I can online.

Surprisingly i get the best help from stuff like this =P
Posts are overrated.

Yeah we both need to get some sleep.
I’ve been on forums where I’ve let my mask down. But for some reason I haven’t really done it here. Like I kind of promised myself I’d never make a post. I am still not sure why. It just feels like I’d be crossing a line and then I’d fall apart, and be unable to help people because I’d be such a mess. lol

I suppose. . .
i think the only reason i have the mask in real life so much better than here is that, IRL i care about people significantly more. Be strong for the people you love, kind of thing. lately i have lost a lot of my talk-a-tivity-ness, too. Not that I’m not a master of the social aspect of life in general. I can small talk with people like there is no tomorrow. But lately I have lost a lot of my will to do that.

Oh yea. . .
Sleep. . .
Right. . .

I think it’s wonderful that you found this place then, a place you can be YOU and let your emotions show. It’s freeing somehow, isn’t it?
God I’ve got to go to sleep soon O_o
I barely talk in rl. I am WAAAY guarded now.
I use to not be this way. Only the past few years have I clammed up in defense.

It’s just the way i act and the things i do. The way i say something not what is actually said.
You would never think i would be this emotional of an actual person if you met me in real life first and on help.com second =P

Really? You do better in person than in text? Wow. I can hide so much through text. But in person I’m an open book.

Believe it or not I’m 10x more stable in real life. My mask doesn’t work so good with text =P
But I’m getting better at dealing with raging hormonal emotions. 1 thing at a time, ya know?

Oh I just fake it well. It’s easier to fake it over the ‘net. ;)
You’re right, being a teenager is harder because at my age I’ve learned how to keep the mask on better. :P
I’d never go back to the teenage years. Im a basket case enough without having raging hormones and SCHOOL SOCIAL STRESS wreaking havoc on me!

Thanks a bunch.
Same goes for me with you, but some how you seem significantly more stable than me.
Which makes me think i can throw down, Being a teenager. As my list of mental disorders and one up your ass. xD

Omg I so know what you mean!
Anytime you want to talk, I’m here.
I’m usually logged in here, unless I’m sleeping. I sometimes go afk though and stay logged in, but if you shout me I’ll always notice that first when I get back ;)

sweeeeeet.
Thanks.
and thanks for talking at me while i can’t sleep. Lately my life has been pretty crazy. it helps sooooo much just to talk to someone when ya need to. ya know?

Well I have been on them and now I’m not so I know what you’re talking about ;)
Although….if I had my way I’d be back on them. But they did hurt my health, and my husband didn’t like the way they changed me. But god I felt better emotionally.
I totally respect your stand on it though :D

Don’t get me wrong, i understand i need for them in some people. And god knows by now i should probably have been on some by now, But all the same i never really even considered getting on them for plenty of reasons.

Yeah that’s the preferred way. People can’t always fix their own mental problems though…’cause they’re using a broken brain to try to fix itself with :P

nope,
I don’t like to take any kind of drugs at all, not even low dose aspirin =P
I like to do things myself. and that includes feeling better / dealing with my problems

Well….I would guess therapy/meds would be the cure for overthinking. I have OCD and anxiety disorders and meds helped me when I was on them. Have you ever been on any?

I’m not gonna see her in person for about a week. =(

you wouldn’t happen to have any other cures for overthinking wouldya?
Relationships have been ruined in my past by it. Even though I’m pretty sure this girl would realize what was going on before i could anything stupid. All the same, i could always use the help. =P

Are you gonna get to see her in person tomorrow?

Yea i know whatcha mean. I’m a billion times better converser in person. And believe you and me I’m going to try to see her as much as possible.

It is normal.
When you don’t get to be around the one you have feelings for it gives you time to mull everything over and overthink it. You replay your encounter in your head a million times.
Spending more time together helps. Not just phone time, I mean really together.
You can’t see their facial expressions over the phone, which leaves much up to interpretation. ;)

Double post!!!

I’m worrying about things theres nothing to worry about, And I’m having trouble sleeping now.
I can guess what’s next =x
All the same, I’m still going to worry that this whole time she doesn’t actually like me. Which means i over analyze everything she says or has said about her and i. And interpret it like its the worst possible out come for me no matter what it is.
Please tell me that’s normal. D=

I’m worrying about things theres nothing to worry about, And I’m having trouble sleeping now.
I can guess what’s next =x
All the same, I’m still going to worry that this whole time she doesn’t actually like me. Which means i over analyze everything she says or has said about her and i. And interpret it like its the worst possible out come for me no matter what it is.
Please tell me that’s normal. D=

Draw her a picture?
lol I dunno I’m just trying to think of ways to get your feelings down on paper somehow so you can sleep ;)
That’s so sweet that you’ve talked the whole time the past few days. I just love young love :D God I’m a sappy wimp :P

Little soon for long letters. .
I’m sure I’ll talk to her tomorrow, The past few days we’ve talked basically 100% of the time we were awake.

Ohhh I see why you can’t sleep ;)
Will you see or talk to the girl tomorrow?
If so, maybe you could write/type her a nice long letter tonight? Maybe that will make it easier to sleep?