Okay, Here’s the deal…I put you on my friends list, but you have not been back on. What’s the deal? You just stare at me and blink once in a while. That’s no fun.
OMG, it’s been awhile. How are you doing chameleon. I haven’t seen you in awhile. Just saw your back and i’t alittle surprising. Hope your doing alright.
Just wanted to shout you and let you know that whenever I get on help, I think about you; you were the first person that I “met.” I hope to see you around :)
Your pictures are great an even more so. Your eye caught my eye. I am new to this site and trying to learn its functions. I have sim things going on in my life and like helping people. It seems to be hard to get help on how this site wworks. How ironic
Shes alive…alive….mwmwmwhahahahahaah.
I am happy to see you around once more. The last time that you were here it was one of your sons birthdays. That was months ago. I take it that you have been concentrating on real life. I think I was still using my real name when you were last here.
While I’m sad that you won’t be back around much, I get it. I’m really really glad things are going well for you and your family and that you’re handling things. You’re really an awesome person, Cham. I hope you know that. If you do ever need to come back for any reason, even just to chat, I’m ALWAYS here lol :). My email is also open to you.
I wish you all the best, and a very Happy Thanksgiving!!!
rayz0r’s in college. I played WoW w/him for a bit then i talked him into finishing his Bachelor’s. I guess you can expect him to come on here randomly at some point. Unless something bad did happen to him. I wouldn’t worry for awhile though.
Hey,Glad to see your back!!! I made inquiries about you several times, as I was worried you may have been sick. All that really matters is that your back again. Love your replies etc. of course that avatar is the coolest one.Hope you remember me.You were my very first help that came to my aid, and I never forgot you. Peace and blessings your way always my friend :)
whoooo. how things have changed… I miss you terribly. i sort of don’t have a replacement Cham… idk i just wish you would come online and see how much we all miss you.
ok i know its been awhile sense i been on bit yes IAM ok and good news is i havent cut in a long time.. yeah give me ur email plz it would be alot easier
Thanks for the advice Cham. I appreciate you taking the time to understand and “listen” to my situation. You are right about what you said about the psych’s.
Today I felt much better, but I dont ignore the fact that I sometimes get “hit” with those emotions and feelings.
What I actually do is immediately identify why is it that I feel that way, what is making me feel so down…that way I get more less a sense of “direction” and try to work on it. BTW, I dont have the guts to physically hurt myself.
I like what you said at the end:
“I understand how you’re feeling and try to remember that you’re brain isn’t seeing things clearly. It helps me to remember that things aren’t as bad as they feel.”
I never thought of it that way…and its so true. Thank you.
How about you Cham?…any thoughts on why you felt so down today? why couldn’t you stop crying?
Thanks for sharng Cham. I appreciate your trust very much. You seem like a great and understanding person.
I have never tried meds. Up until recently have I thought about actually seeing a psychologist to see what his take would be, im just afraid he/she will see me as “just another patient”. I can tell you that I haven’t felt that social phobia you describe, it sounds very hard, I can only imagine how bad it can be. However, I have felt “left out”, as if some things are not meant for me but ‘yes’ for anybody else.
Its like if life shows me something that I would like, I go for it, taunts me with it, and then disappears with it…I dont get it.
I never imagined how hard it is to deal with these feelings, how bad it is sometimes for me to be alone with my thoughts….this sucks.
Today was one of those days at work where my thoughts were pushing me down (thoughts of emptiness, sadness, another weekend “feeling lost”…etc…they got me today), I was holding back my sudden urges of crying. I remembered what you said about: “I’ve felt like I’m breaking but holding together - like shatter-proof glass.”
Thats how Im feeling.
I add to that, the feeling of God ignoring me, its like I dont understand what He’s saying. I dont know…I’m gonna go and drive around to see if I can distract my mind.
Yeah…Im familiar with it.
I sometimes feel confused and that I just dont belong.
The negative emotions and things that didnt work out from the past (relationship wise) + my “expectations” just chain together and get me one after the other…thought after thought, getting me sad, like a chain reaction, until i calm down again and get ‘back on my feet’ sorta’ speak.
Im at the point right now where I feel Im in “AUTO-PILOT”.
Its weird and ironic Cham, because I can make people feel very good about themselves, making them focus on their positive traits, but cant seem to do it correctly for myself.
Quote:
“I told Malori a few minutes ago that for the last few days I’ve felt like I’m breaking but holding together - like shatter-proof glass.”
I understand. I get a feeling similar to that too.