em deucser evol's reply history at Help.com

Either the one in my closet, the one of me and my bestfriend, or my hand experiment one :P

I fear the loss of others, already happened. I fear being hurt, check that off too. I fear lies, I think that ones about to come out as well. I’m just so confused and upset i don’t know what to do with myself… I haven’t felt this way in so long now.

Done actually haha.

Not really, maybe 2 years. I just do it for fun.

Hey, I’m glad to hear your going for treatment. I knew your parents would get you help once they found out. I’m glad your friend told your dad though you may not be. Everythings going to be better once you get clean, just keep positive. Found out I can’t text you so thats a bummer, but you can add me on facebook (http://www.facebook.com/#!/Melissa.Franks1) and talk to me whenever on there since I get it on my phone. I rarely get on help.com but you can message me whenever there. Hope everything goes well for you, goodluck!

Yeah all I can think about is how I should have kept in more contact with my friend from mexico, he sent me a message just last week and i didn’t reply thinking I could do it later and then I forgot :( Feels like I’ve been punched in the stomach.
For my uncle they’ll soon bring back his ashes and I’ll get my closure when I see him put to rest in the earth but i’ll never get that closure with my friend. Your suggestions are very helpful, I think i’ll try one of them.

Thank you so much for your advice I really appreciate it!

A tiger would definitely be a challenge lol. I like surreal pictures also, I feel like nothing has to be perfect in them and no one can judge it because my limits are endless and theres no specific way its supposed to look.

[quote Konkidonk]It’s something we can think about till eternity but all that thinking will make us insane, simply because there is no answer. And that vagueness is what is unsettling.

*hugs*[/quote]
I think I’ll be the one to go insane… I’m the type of person who thinks and thinks till she figures it. Seems like I’ll just have to think and think until I die and understand. But what kind of life is that? Spending it thinking about death… Man and I thought I was complicated :/

[quote Animal i have become]jayde hows it goin[/quote]
Still in so much shock but i’ll be fine thank you.

@ kitten_ciao
No, I guess no length of time knowing what will happen can fix how it impacts you. Your right you’ll still have that helpless confused vulnerable feeling. What stage is it where your stomach feels like its tightened up and every time you think about it you stop breathing for a second? If thats not a stage well then I must be going through a different cycle :S lol.

Your right Kitten Ciao… I guess I’m still wrapping my head around the whole death thing ya know? It’s mind blowing how someone can be here one day and gone forever the next :(

I guess hard times just come and go. I guess i’m glad this all didn’t happen a year ago or else i’d probably have committed suicide under all this shock and stress. I just can’t believe their both gone. one whos just so young and his life was ended like a brake of a twig and my uncle who i’ve loved my whole life and never got to say goodbye too while he was dying. I guess i’m just saying to myself “what next? what do i do now?” I feels weird living on when people you care about can’t…

Thanks so much to all of you, I really appreciate your kind and wise words. I would usually comment to every single one but i’m just so overwhelmed right now :/
I just found out my boyfriend also still has a thing for his ex… Everything just keeps piling on. It’s been such a rough summer. thank you all so much though

[quote red fox]Beard frosting huh? Now that’s some good stuff…a perfect snack for later:P[/quote]
Oh its highly attractive ;D lol

[quote Mr.Anderson][quote ioh sen na ie’was]I just talked to him… He forgot :( Well thats a bummer…[/quote]

Happy Birthday.

See,there are bigger bummers here.You must be relieved.[/quote]

Yeah I’m learning recently that that wasn’t a huge deal compared to what else has gone on in my life this summer. I get over things and forgive people pretty quickly.

Uhmm it may be :S

Try putting it in a bag of uncooked rice for at least 2 or 3 days, longer if necessary.
My friend did something similar and rice worked for her. Try not to turn it on till it’s out of the rice, it could short it out badly.

I’m Mohawk native american and when I was a baby I was given the name “ioh sen na ie’was” by my great aunts. It means “Can’t find a name” lol. I think my aunts weren’t feeling too creative that day but in the end it ended up fitting my personality :)

[quote Times’ gone mad]I haven’t personally been through this.
My Fiance had his oldest Uncle pass away last Spring from a rare acute cancer.

We went to see him in the hospital, he really appreciated it. My Fiance says now, looking back, you have to spend the time you can with the people you love while you can. You never know what day will be your last day and if you love them—you should tell them and give them hope and peace. His Uncle passed away less than a month after our visit.[/quote]
I’m sorry to her about your fiancées uncle. I really wish i could spend a much time with him as possible but hes so far :/ thanks for sharing your story, your completely right when you say you never know what day will be your last. scary, but its life.

[quote erichardson]If you believe in God, you will know that death is the beginning of life with God. Baby I just lost my dad 9 mts ago to cancer. I know it hurts but spend as much time with your uncle as you can right now and let him know that you love him, hold his hand and just be there for him. YOu will always miss him though, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t miss my dad. But with the help of God you and your family will make it throught this. Be encouraged and stick close together[/quote]
I’m very sorry to hear about your father :/ Thanks
My minister says the same thing with us about how god will help our family get through this. This all is just starting to piece together now. It’s only the beginning for my family and the hardship ahead. Apparently my uncle had known for a year he had cancer in his liver, I suppose he had treatments done and what not but i don’t know the rest of the story, all i know is hes not terminally ill and everyones main concerns are what are his wishes right now.