Neutra's shout trail with gypsy-corner - Help.com

Hi there, hope you haven’t forgot about me.

Alright, i’ll see you later. Thanks for speaking with me. Goodnight and have a good day:)

Yeah i have actually…but tbh i don’t take the news probably as seriously as i should…i mean they only show a little bit of this and that…there might be tons of things out there that people don’t find worthy of covering ya know? The world is to big to just simply give an hour her and there to tell its story!

I’m gunna go to bed tho gettin kinda tired! Goodnight hun i’ll talk to u soon! Have a goodnight:)

Thanks, I will, one day. If you want to as well then you should do it too. The only thing is things seem to be going slow in the world at the moment, from what the news says there isn’t much going on, have you noticed this.

OMG! That would be amazing!!!! I’ve always honestly wanted to travel the world! There are so many places out there!!!! I love ur plan! You should totally go for it!!!

As soon as I find a way to leave where I am, im going to travel the world and save as many people and places as I can, kinda get myself known. It’s mostly still work in progress but someday. Either during or maybe after I may do something big like work for national geographic.

HAHAH i don’t blame you thats a good chuck of time to be doing the same thing over and over and no i havent heard! Whats ur plan?

Sounds better then my old job. I use to work in a furniture factory a few years ago, alittle boring but it was alright, just couldn’t stand doing the same exact thing for eight hours strait.

Myself, well apart of my name is Oni, I don’t really like my real name, in fact as soon as I get some money im going to change it to something better. But I kinda like Neutra though, as I think that describes more of me.

Just out of curiosity, did you ever hear of what I plan to do one day.

Yeah its pretty cool! I work as a nursing assistant right now and its pretty cool most days get to meet alot of new people and stuff. Its just ahrd fro me to go into work on days i feel completely horrible…like kinda i can’t even take care of myself let alone 20-30 other people ya know? but idk hopefully things will work out…..whats ur name btw? My name is Amanda

I see, you probably will someday. I myself am debating if I want to go to college, I was but stuff didn’t work out right so I have to wait. But it’s the best feeling though, seeing someone doing good and are still alive knowing that you had a hand in assisting them, yes I think you’ll like it.

yeah maybe! LOL I do like the medical field I was thinking about going back to school to become a nurse soo maybe we’ll see…i just want to get things straight before i try to go to school. I don’t want to fail anymore at things

I know something you would be good at. You could be a hero, save lives in some way.

NO not really! LOL its fun for the moment but none of that is what i want to do in my life…honestly idk what i want out of life if anything at all

Hmm, I see what you mean. I write lots of stories, just things that seem to appear in my mind. I haven’t really decided if im going to do more with them like publish them, because im sure people will be quick to criticise, but then again it’s not really about their opinions.

What about music, wouldn’t you like to be a song writer, share your emotions with the world by sound.

NO, i just like doing it…i don’t want to ruien it bringing business into the equasion honestly

I saw your post but I didn’t quite know what to say. Sounds like you have a career in pictures, if you don’t mind me asking have you thought about doing something big with it, like be a professional photographer.

Hey thats fine np! things are ok i guess not feeling the greatest right now kinda confused but idk…

Sorry for the long pause, had to do something real quick. Everything’s pretty good, alittle slow but good, how are you doing?

Hey hun whats up?

Hey

But to be honest there are going to be many rough days ahead. Some may be three times worse then the last couple you experienced. Some days you may just want to just stay in bed the whole day. One thing though, I hope you see that they are a good thing. Each time we go through something rough we get stronger each time. We are better people now because of what we went through. And I see that there are alot of things that you really want to do right now but can’t for various situations. But just know that you don’t have to feel this way alone. Me and the majority of people here all feel similar one day at a time. Honestly your not alone.

I have to go soon but I want you to know that if you just keep holding on it’s eventually going to get better for you. They say that what we go through is the measurement for what we will recieve which means you going to get quite alot later on, might not be tomorrow but it’s comming. I really seriously do hope you feel better.

Yeah i get what ur saying. Thanks

It’s the same principle, some people like extreme sports like skydiving, they can’t let fear of dying hold them back. But they do try to be safe however.

Sometimes to get what we want we do have to take that special step forward, a “leap of faith” kind of thing. However we shouldn’t try to force ourselves immediately though. We should do whatever we have to in order to achieve what we want but only when we are ready. If you want to do something unusually extreme(so to say) only take the step when you are sure that you are ready though.

Yeah that makes sence. ALOT of sence honestly. I wasn’t really talking about like things in genreal being afraid of but rather like dying…i’m afraid to try anything drasitc again because they might not work out again

Yeah, it’s tough in the beginning, almost lost my mind once. But it dosen’t bother me anymore not as much anyway.

Yes, honestly your not bothering anyone, not me anyway, I actually like this sort of thing. Actually this is how your suppose to be. In order to help fix a situation you have to explain the whole story to understand it. Also you can’t fear failure. You can’t stop trying to accomplish something that you want just because a few “what if’s” may happen. If people only thought of what bad may happen then we would never get to do anything. That’s like astronauts wondering if “what if something goes wrong with the launch or in space”, if they did that they we wouldn’t get to see the great beyong. What im saying is don’t let a few bad maybes hold you back. You have to put it aside and don’t be afraid.

Where I live, there are always murders where im at all the time on the news. If I let that got to me then I wouldn’t had gotten my job when I had it and got to see the amazing sights there are. On top of that there are giant bears that live here to, but if I feared running into one then I would never get to see the greatness of the changing seasons, you understand.

Thats a long time hun 4 years. That is hard to go through.

And yes pretty much yes that is what I want. I mean i have a few people online from here that help a TON but i feel like i bother them…like they are the only people i talk to about stuff and i feel like sometimes i go to much and i don’t want to make things harder…they say i’m not but i still feel like i am. I just hate this all around. If i wasn’t so afraid of things not working i probably would of went through with things by now.

Hmm, honestly you sound alittle like me. I wish so bad I could move out where I am and move on with the rest of my life. Over four long years it’s been, with the first having no internet or no one to speak with, no one.

So there isn’t anyone to speak with, well there are but they just don’t feel what you feel on the inside. Like they say that they know how you feel when they really don’t. What I see is that you just want one person who understands how you feel but you just can’t seem to find that person, something like that?

I’ve been getting this way for awhile now and its just getting to be to much…my mom’s husband is getting to me alot and idk i just feel so alone, even when i’m with people i feel EXTREAMLY alone. I’d love to like move out and stuff but i don’t have any money OR anyone to move in with like to share rent so i’m kinda stuck

Was today rough, someone did you wrong, what do you think it may be, is there something that you want to do but feel that you can’t do it right now and it’s something that you really want to do.

terrible honestly like idk i can’t hold it together

So how do you feel right now?

Hey sure thats fine

Do you want to talk here sometime. I think I can help you if you want it.

Merry Christmas! Hope you have a good one hun!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays
from Neutra