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Same here. At one point I was depressed all day everyday and I was even suicidal at one point. Pretty much I got tired of all the bad stuff and decided to pay more attention to the good. I strongly believe that the key to the world getting better is for everyone to pay more attention to what’s right instead of what’s wrong. Yes it may be true that not many people try to do the right thing and even the ones that do can’t for one reason or another(either they are stuck or are held back by something). I guess we all just do the best we can, taking it one day at a time.

Honestly, I don’t know what’s wrong with the world today. Yes it does get worse everyday and it dosen’t seem like alot of people really care too much but yet they say that there needs to be change though, makes me wonder if people really want peace or not. Also I have also noticed that people also seem to be thinking of death alot as well, which is no way to be thinking.

It’s like everytime I look at the news there is always some sort of shooting going on, like earlier in the morning there was a shooting in my state and the news later about what happened in new york.

Alittle tired because I have been busy but otherwise everything’s good, but alittle sad because of the news that has been comming on though.

How are you Riv, I trust everything’s alright.

im okay i guess..
just bored out of my mind
and hungry too! =P rofl

Hey just wanted to say hi lol :)
what’s up

Hi!

“yea i feel one day we wont have our crappy downs, it will get better, im telling myself that everyday…”

Yea…Crappy part is that usually there are more crappy downs than ups haha, who knows? maybe tomorrow your life will change as you would like?
Thats why we cant think that it will “always be bad”.
=P

“i will always stress about something, im a over thinker!!…”

I understand.
I have that habit too, sometimes it messes me up. I try not to be one, but i know its hard.

Im glad to hear from you Riv, it also makes me smile to know that your family is doing OK.
Take care of yourself, and remember that you are not alone. At least you know someone that too feels alone sometimes and sad at other times (me!).

Stay in touch, keep them grades, and shout at me once in a while. Its good to know from you.

=)

Riv_ stay focused on why you went to school on the first place. Im glad to know you are feeling better.
Nothing less than a B IS great, so i congratulate you on that.

Me?
Im OK, same ‘ol, same ‘ol. Ups and crappy downs, but nothing that Im not used to already.

Nice to hear from you.
Keep taking care of yourself and dont let things stress you out much, bc you will be OK, you’re nice.

I hope your mom, dad, and brother are doing good too.

Later Riv_

PS:
Thank you for letting me know.
=D

What the hell…in two weeks I didnt check your shouts, and I just noticed you DID respond to my last shout but “shouted” the response to yourself.
lol

I thought you werent going to talk to me again!
=P

“no car to get to places… but i tried…”

Yea…I know that “no car”, can make things harder.

“but feeling lonely in my house.. thats weird… “

Why? Is it bc you dont feel accepted? what?

How are you feeling now?

“it is most definitely bc of where i am in life… but people always tell me “college/being young is the best time of a person’s life…” haha i highly doubt that!!!”

Eh…Me too…
I think it depends on how they define “best time of a persons life”.

“but im praying every night still.. hopefully it will work out… ill keep u in mind while i pray!!”

Thank you, and keep getting good grades. Dont go crazy nor lose it. You seem to be a cool, good, and nice person Riv_.
Keep it that way. Stay as you are and give me an update on how you are feeling.

Take care.

“Hmmm…any places close?
Like daycares?…supermarket? idk…somethin’ like that?
What do you think?”
no car to get to places… but i tried…

my friends are hot and cold… very had to read

yea i am always the single one… i dont mind bc i see it as, there are many situations in life were id rather be single,,, live life for me and no one else..

human are made for many things, but being lonely?… maybe i am to worried about what other people think..

but feeling lonely in my house.. thats weird… they (friends) haven’t done anything but normal girl cattiness… jealousy, gossip… etc

i just feel like i am fighting against the “world” my friends school work… basically life… and im tired…

it is most definitely bc of where i am in life… but people always tell me “college/being young is the best time of a person’s life…” haha i highly doubt that!!!

but im praying every night still.. hopefully it will work out… ill keep u in mind while i pray!!!

Hey riv,

“jobs on campus are hard to find, at least were i go to school…”

Hmmm…any places close?
Like daycares?…supermarket? idk…somethin’ like that?
What do you think?

“i feel abandoned by my friends…”

Eh…they suck then. Maybe they don’t do it consciously?

“but then i realized i do not need to be in a relationship to make me happy, fooling around is not on my top 10…”

Good to hear that bc I dont believe in “fooling around” either. It tells me you are not a slut and respect yourself.
Im glad you think that way.

“i just want a good friend to talk to…”

Me too.
I do have 1 or 2 people I may talk to but they all have families, kids, married etc…so you get the idea. Im “the single one”. Sucks most of the time.

“just dont like feeling alone… “

Me neither.
I dont think anyone does.

“i just feel unwanted in my own house (at school)…”

Why is that?
have they done something to you?

“i just feel lately my life has been getting worse and the loneliness has been getting deeper and deeper without warning…”

Well, keep in mind that you are in school. Studies should be your first priority. Dont pressure yourself or depend much on your “friends”.
Its not a bad thing to maybe be a little distant from them and do your own thing, live the way you want. Don’t be trying to prove yourself to anybody either, try to be comfortable w/yourself.

“i feel childish posting stuff about myself like that…”

I understand bc I have felt that way.

“but i have no one to turn to but people like u on help.com… “

Thank you for keeping in touch.
=)
I turn to this site too, the couple of friends I have here.
So dont think its bad, I think it does help.

“my family would b ashamed bc they would think i would of learned from other members who have taken the wrong path in their lives…”

They’d be proud you made it through college and became a professional. They surely are happy you are attending college.

‘i know what to do, i know what is right, but i do not think i am strong enough to fight through it… “

Tell me, “fight through what”?
Whats holding you back?
The way your friends are “acting”?
Could you tell me a specific thing?

“but im trying and i pray that it will get better… thanks for the concern… “

I believe you are going through a tough phase because of your immediate surroundings, I dont think it will last forever..so don’t worry much about it.
Keep focus on the primary reason you went to college for.

Me?
Im OK, dealing w/my own crappy thoughts and crappy emotions most of the times, y’know…the same ‘ol.

Thanks for asking.
=)

Take care riv.

“well.. the whole i am poor thing doesn’t help my well being… “

I understand, my job is enough to just pay the rent and cel phone, few groceries, and gas.
Im not rich and Im single (less I spend)(no kids, yada, yada). Gets me at times and I feel stuck.

How do you feel about the idea of a part time job?

When I was in college, thats what helped me pay for books and college stuff.

Second,
abandoned by what people?
any specific person that hurt you?

Feeling lonely?
Me too, and a bunch of other people.

Dont tell me you are pressuring yourself
by “wanting to be w/someone” just bc your friends have people to fool around with.

?
Gimme some input, take it easy riv.
Let me know.

I have to be honest w/you, I was surprised you were going through that harsh stuff.

How are you now?

Riv…

WTF is that of becoming an alcoholic???

(I just noticed you made a post about it!)

Talk to me,
whats happening?

As long as you don’t sell yourself, its all good.
=O

Good to know you are serious about college (good grades). I was, so you better keep at it!
=P

Im good, thank you.

Glad to hear from you, take care riv.

Wow…I thought you were gone. Sad to see you had to sell some of your stuff.
I am glad to hear from you.

How are you feeling?

How are those classes coming (A’s, C’s, B’s, what)?

How is your mom and dad? Brother?

My xmas was pretty good, I did not want it to end.
How was yours?

Thanks for the shout.

Very handsome guy?
Why thank you.
Im not sad in the pic lol, Im “serious”.
=P

Take care, hope to hear from you.

http://img224.imageshack.us/img224/15…

Yea.

“but i am really sad and i couldn’t think of who to turn to then i thought of u!! “

Thats sweet, but I never heard the ringtone when you thought of me.
=P

No word from my ex, and I dont call. I wont, especially if her situation is the same and nothing has changed. I walk my talk.

Country Music is for you.

Take care Riv_ dont be sad.

Whenever you feel that way think that I too am most likely sad at that moment, therefore you are not alone. I care too!

=)

Yea, it was nice. Family at home as usual, a little chocolate cake and quality time.

=)

Yup, first black president, that sounds good. I was hoping for him to win. He actually won the hispanic vote.
We had elections here too, that same day. PR is like an unofficial US state, w/the same importance as a US one. Basically everything is the same.

Im good, I was a little stumped because my ex called 2 days before my bday and when I got a hold of her she said she called just to see how I was doing.
I was lost and had a little trouble overthinking, since we hadn’t spoke in 6 months (I dont keep contact w/ex’s). Anyways, that was that, she did wish me a happy bday before we hung up and have not spoken since. I dont think I will call her though.

You still OK?
Still having problems w/that educational pysch class?

Take care Riv and keep practicing your next dance moves to Country Music!

PEACE!
=P

Thank you
=)

I will turn 30 the day you go and vote, guess its time for a change!
=P

All good w/you?

hahaha
I was being sarcastic when I mentioned Country Music.
ewww I dont enjoy it either lol

Now go practice!

I hope you Ok riv_.
=)

yea, C- was the lowest I would go and I actually passed a class w/one.

It sure wouldve been 10X better if you would’ve shown everyone your “Country Music” dancing skills.
=)

Good luck at school riv_, always good to hear from you.
Take care.

“yea the wedding is tonight actually i couldn’t go bc of my grades… i wish i could!!! it would of been 10 times better wit me there haha “

hahaha
What the heck would you do to make it 10 times better? lol
Dance?
=P

Good thing you are atleast thinking about passing the classes. It’s not good having to dedicate another semester for a same class..nasty!

How bad are the grades?..D’s?
=O

cuidate chica
=)

“i am trying so hard but my grades are not looking ot good….”

=O
for real riv?
Is it all subjects your having trouble with or a specific one?

Nice to hear from you, as long as you pass them classes…your good to go.
I just remembered…did the wedding pass already?
Take care.

Im cool, good, working on myself.
Thank you riv-

oh,
“…but anyway i will have the translation for u by tomorrow!!! :) …”

You dont have to tell me
=)

BTW,
how’s school going?

sup riv,

You feeling OK?

Alright.

Take care chica, get some rest.

Tip from me to you:
“Dont cut classes”.

Spanish major and cant figure it out?
=O

Im good. Bored, and about to log off.
Im also shocked that your house mate is majoring in Spanish and doesn’t know what it means. She cut classes?
F!

Let me help :

“vas” = in this case it means “are”, but it can mean “go” or “going”.

example:
Spanish:
Tu vas al cine? (”to-vahs-al-see-neh”)
English:
Do you go to the movies?

“o” = or

“no” = No (Obvious)

“me” = (”meh”)In this case it refers to me
(joey).
“vas” = same as above (the first “vas”).

“a” = (”ah” but pronounced very short). In
english this would be: “to”.

“llamar” = (This one I leave for your housemate as homework -you can help-).

Ill be expecting you figure it out.
Gimme them A’s.
Class dismissed.

Glad to hear from you riv_.

riv is studying hard wrote:
no because of what u wrote… “vas o no me vas a llamar?”…

Oh. I see. Let me know if you have trouble translating it.

You Ok today riv?

rivera riv the #1 wrote:
“I really wish I could read spanish at this moment?!?!!?”

What is it? School work?
I can do you a favor and help translate, not all of it just half so you can learn
=P

riv.
Before I forget…
vas o no me vas a llamar?

Thanks. The cup also has like a plastic bubble under it w/water and a mini-princess figure in it. Pretty cool.

You’re a good person too.

I expect you to pass your calsses and eventually graduate with good grades, I know you are responsible.
I hope your roomates dont get their hearts broken by their boyfriend type guy.
Stay like you are riv. I know we dont talk much anymore but I hope you are not sad. You know Im around, count on me if you need to talk or something, OK? Shout it.

Take care and I hope you have a happy week!

Rain stopped, went to walgreens bought some milk and basic crap. Saw a little disney princess plastic cup with a stray (nice) thought about my niece so I bought it for her. Felt good. I know she’ll like it.

Dammit riv this loneliness sucks lol. I even feel awkward going out alone.
how’s you relationship w/ your roomate?

Very good to hear you are great.
Homework is crap. Keep them good grades, Im looking forward to seeing them.

Im good, waiting for the rain to clear a little to see if I can go to walgreens, I dont like driving in the rain much.

well i found them online but nowhere around the city. i have been really busy with school and crap.

Como estas?

Im good. Thanks for asking, now go back and do your homework (eewwww!).
:P

aww yeah!!

i am going today to the pet store today, so i can scope them out.

where you at?

kissing gourami’s?

take care.
And remember, dont bring too much luggage.

Yea.
You told me that last time. (”I cant explain” or “I cant right now”) Its OK though, just be good and dont do drugs.

Whats wrong? You have been sad too much time and you havent told me why.

I now you are not loca. You are funny and nice.
Its a shame you aren’t comming to the wedding with your mom!
Gimme A’s.

loca,
you good?

Im good. A little occupied and right now sleepy, but good.

Your neighbors? which ones?…the ones at your moms house or the townhouse you’re staying at?

how are you doing in college riv_?

Hope you still OK, Take care.

Riv_
long time no see…
whats up with u? all OK?

QUOTE:
“i wish someone knew i was sad… but no one does…”

I know you are sad.
I hope you get better.
You falling again on feeling down riv_?

And dont be calling me pretending you are another person or pranking around ’cause I dont like that, I just hang up.

Thanks for wishing me well the rest of the week, I hope yours gets better too.
Don’t pass out!
Keep on studying and get those A’s. Take care riv_, shout out if you need some help.
Later!

You are on a emotional rollercoaster that sucks. Call me and lets talk.
Is it because of what happened with your roomate?
You were happy when school started. Whats goin’ on?

As of me ….well, I’m doing…uh…weird. I actually do not know exactly how I feel right now, Im calm and like in neutral.

My friends wife from Jersey called me crying tonite, she dreamt that I was depressed…was sick of life, crashed my car against a wall and died.

My insides shook riv_, my eyes teared up. She has no idea of how I feel (I never tell her) and I told her that yes I do feel at times depressed and empty with no motivation and that I fight it everyday, and also told her that yes I have felt depressed years back, but that I don’t have the guts to hurt myself.

It was weird, not even I dream of that stuff.

How’s your family doing?

I hope you feel better by the time you read this. Take care rivi_rivera_riv_rav

Hey rivera..

You OK?