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Thank you all for your wonderful and uplifting comments… I have wonderful news!!! I finally sold some of the stuff I’ve had listed and it made up half of what I needed. Then my boyfriend surprised me yesterday by giving me the other half! I went straight to the cashier’s office and paid the balance and immediately then I went online and enrolled in my classes- I was even able to get into a class I need that’s full. My professor put me on her list so I could get in. Thank you all so much!

Absolutely!!! If you can dream it you can achieve it- you can write about the plight of animals and the environment in fiction or nonfiction or both. You can begin your own nature compound somewhere in the world preserving nature and the animal life. You can do like a combination cable access/web show/travel channel thing and be the Samantha Brown of animal and environmental travel- sort of like the Crocodile Hunter but safer. You can take what you know and love and volunteer to teach children (community school or library program) basics they would need to grow a love for nature and animals… you can run a visitors farm and have people come to help sustain like an organic farming situation while paying for the chance to get away from the city- then you can blog or write about it to drum up support. You can write for nonprofits that need support and attention or anything!!! I hope you find what’s right for you though- it is important that we have something left tomorrow…

My younger sister (directly under me were like that) and I do mean violent- I spent a lot of time trying to get away from her- she broke my door twice before I gave up fixing it… the last major incident was 5 years ago… then my grandparents got really sick and we had to pull together and they had to let me take care of them… Now we get along much better… but back then I would start dreaming out for what I wanted with my life… I thought about colleges, majors, traveling, who I wanted to be, where I wanted to be it… everything to make my life bearable… I love my parents dearly, but they dismissed the problem too easily also… sometimes it’s hard for parents to think there could be something really wrong at home or something that really need a lot of work or attention… they can exasperate the situation at times by making it a non-situation… Anyway good luck to you and your sister and know that one day it will pass.

Thank you- I went back to the school again today (by chance) and I saw my adviser (who I thought was avoiding me) and she recommended someone in the financial aid office I had never met or heard of that may be able to help… she also let me know that the fin aid office is not to be trusted and that they handled it wrong because my record showed that I had been in touch with my professors and that I hadn’t dropped out- they just ignored it… not very comforting, but I am determined (more so now)… I have a bit of hope and I’m hanging on to it… :)

lol- thanks! You’ve brightened my twilight hours a bit so there’s my prize! :)

I think that with anything it is not clear cut- you can argue that it is true and you would be right… you could argue the opposite and that would also be correct- I think it is not the quote but the mindset behind it that determines the truth for the listener and the quoter…

I think that your situation is heartbreaking, but it is also apples and oranges… I do not have your life and you do not have mine so we cannot compare one another’s pain… that was not my whole life or current existence in this post nor is it yours… I am venting but i do not want my life reduced anymore than I want to inflate it… I came here because the site’s name is help. I wanted to know someone was out there and I want to here it will be ok but not at the cost of my sanity… when I say I am tired I do not mean I need a nap… I have hit my point and I know it. I also have health issues I did not disclose and so much more that I don’t wish to think about- for now I want to pretend that my biggest problem is getting back to school… that there is a silver lining somewhere that I can achieve- that my life is my own and not so many others… I am 23 (24 next month) and combined with my father and the many deaths and health scares in my family I haven’t breathed in 10 years… I don’t want to compare problems- I will always feel worst for the other person no matter their issue (that’s my nature)- I will always want to solve their problems (taking on more than I can chew even if it is only in my mind). I start thinking about cures and solutions and doing research and wondering if that’s where my focus could be because maybe one day my research could help or inspire and feeling like a cad that I didn’t think of that before or doing search after search to find a solution that may have been missed… No- I can’t take that anymore- I came online just to hear that sucks but it will be alright because I don’t trust my voice anymore…

It sounds like you are under an extreme amount of stress… that may be why you have problems thinking and feeling jumbled (I understand the same happens/is happening to me) and the same with the friends… all I can say is you’re not alone.

Thank you, but in this case i am also honor bound to finish and fast for my grandma and my great- aunt. They want to see me graduate (the first), but they are 95 and 89 respectively. Time is not an option for me… my sisters are teenagers, but they still require a lot of my energy and of course money to care for them… I’m just out of my mine worrying… I’m afraid- the school may not go anywhere but whose to say where I’ll be tomorrow or if I’ll be? I can feel my brain shrinking…