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• Plz help family of 7! posted (1 year, 3 months) ago
  !!! We have been trying to play catch up since my husband got laid off for the summer of 2007. we ha…

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• I want to die.
  

  I am so sorry that you feel that way. I have felt this way before. I won’t say I have felt the same way becasue everyones circumstances are different…& I hated it when people would tell me that. The reality is there really probably isn’t anything that I can say (or anyone for that matter) that is going to pull you out of your “funk”. BUT…I have battled depression for 6 years now. After about 4 it started to get a little better. I have been locked up in a psychiatric unit n 2 seperate occasions…once on my own…the nest it was by police escort because of a suicide attempt. Fortunately, I survived. I was one of the lucky ones who got to come back. But a lot of times…you can’t come back. I have 5 kids (2 step…3 of my own) I used to think that my 3 would be better off with their father because I just wasn’t emotionally capable to handle it. I thought my kids would be better off without me dragging them & everyone else down. I began cuttng after 3 1/2 yrs as a way of release (of the inner pain). I was on every different kind of depression med you can think of. They would work for awhile & then I would level out & would have to start over again. I GET WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM!!!
  
  Pray. I know it sounds corny & you’re probably thinking…yeah right. Believe it or not it will help you feel better. Do think about your child. BECAUSE NO ONE CAN TAKE CARE OF YOUR CHILD LIKE MOMMY CAN!!! Sometimes it’s just a change in a persons way of thinking. Even if it is just something small. That’s a start. Eventually it will come full circle. It probably feels like the weight if the world is on you holding you down on the floor of the ocean & you’re not making any progress to get out from under it…like it would be easier to just give up. (I did)…BUT I PROMISE YOU IT DOES IT GET! It won’t be miraculous & all at once (I wish it was that simple) but it will. Try not to think of everything all at once. Just deal with one thing at a time & go one day at a time. I prob sounds corny but it really is true. Get rid of “abceses” (bad people that bring you down & not try to help you up) in your life. I HAD TO LEARN THAT ONE THE HARD WAY!! It seems that even though they don’t realize it (these people) they’re really only making matters worse.
  
  I wish you all the best!! I really do! Like I said…I was lucky enough to survive my suicide attempt (AND THAT WAS THE SCARIEST THING I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED!!)..But not everyone can be so lucky!!! Take Care.
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• Friend to Friend;Weak into Strong: I’ve said
  

  That was beautiful!!
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• Anyone know anything about down comforters?
  

  My sister had a ralph lauren down comforter!! it was absoloutely fantastic!
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• Plz help family of 7!
  

  yes it is
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

• Plz help family of 7!
  

  No we are staying with a friend
  - written 1 year, 3 months ago

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