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• I feel like I’m losing my chance to commit suicide. posted (8 months, 1 week) ago
  My medication is just now starting to kick in, and I am feeling less and less. This still makes me r…

• Please let me die. posted (8 months, 2 weeks) ago
  I don’t even know what to write, what to think anymore… I just want to be dead. :(…

• Help, please? posted (9 months) ago
  I’m letting my emotions overpower me, and death is looking very tempting. I usually know how …

• I have trouble accepting help. posted (9 months, 3 weeks) ago
  Everybody wants to help me, so that I don’t experience suicidal thoughts, so that I don’…

• I’ve just figured out that a “win” against self harm is a loss for Sarah. posted (10 months, 3 weeks) ago
  I didn’t buy the blades. Was happy about it. Now, I am berating myself for being so stupid an…

• :) Very happy. posted (10 months, 3 weeks) ago
  I was at the art supply store just twenty minutes ago, and I DIDN’T buy any blades. I am so h…

• I hate seeing the scars I have created. posted (10 months, 3 weeks) ago
  I know it sounds stupid, but I’m adding that to my list of reasons as to why I should not liv…

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• I feel like I’m losing my chance to commit suicide.
  

  Lithium gives me horrible side effects. I’m at the therapeutic blood level, but sometimes when I talk, I sound inebriated.
  You are welcome to have all of my lithium. I already tried to overdose on it.
  - written 8 months, 1 week ago

• I feel like I’m losing my chance to commit suicide.
  

  I understand that the medication is “working,” and that’s what’s upsetting me. I’ve lost my chance to end my life, it seems like. I’m not actually taking all that much, just 750 mg or lithium and 2 mg of Abilify. Like right now, I know I’m angry, but I can’t FEEL angry. I hate medication so much.
  - written 8 months, 1 week ago

• Please let me die.
  

  No one wants to speak with me, they are all so disgusted. I feel so hollow.
  - written 8 months, 2 weeks ago

• Please let me die.
  

  I really do think I should give up… part of me says otherwise. I almost want to gauge my eyes out so that I don’t have to see this world anymore… it’s disgusting.
  - written 8 months, 2 weeks ago

• Please let me die.
  

  She won’t speak with me. But otherwise, I’ve been talking to everyone, especially since last time. It isn’t helping at all. I want to do something far more drastic this time. Hanging. I want to go with that.
  - written 8 months, 2 weeks ago

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