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• I always feel like i’m alone in everything I do and no one can help me.
  

  Paypay_1: Sorry about your situation : ( But in part, I think your doing the right thing on the outside! Thats what I do too. Inner demon suck, wish I had and answer for you but can only relate from my experience. I mean looking at other’s answers, find a friend, go see a doctor (unless they are good), or Jesus; deffinatly not written by people whom have really been here. Phuckit had a good idea, yeah maybe not running but doing something else, I gotta a good job (or did things alone) which I like a lot and it gets me through the days. Nites and weekend are another problem. If your young, time may find an answer, no garuntees. Funny, we really don’t know how our lives affect others, though. I mean, I’ve lived my adult life without human companionship or love. But through my lifes journey, I have at least improved other peoples lifes. Never though I’d have that effect. I’ve hooked people up, gotten them carrers, showed them really cool experience. But yeah, had to detach myself from thinking I’d be accepted/wanted by others. Guess, I just am an outsider and live life through there eyes. Guess, thats where I find joy in life and recognize that there is beauty all around me. Slow deep breaths. In the end, know one will help, unless your lucky. And feeling numb is part of it. But helping others, for me, has been a percious thing. Box of choclates…
  - written 4 years, 8 months ago

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