centerstadiu's shout trail with boogat0 - Help.com

Hey I to have been so busy here I am staring up a tree company all my time has been work work work other than this I am doing well thanks for asking! I hope everything is good with you? I am sorry to here that your sister had relapsed many of them think that recovery is simply a matter of not using drugs. Hey I don’t like telling you this a relapse my be the jarring experience that brings about a more rigorous application for your sister, its like her mind and body seems tired of it all, yet the dynamic forces of change or true conversion , deep with her may be working to give her the answers that will one day alter her inner motivations and it will change her life. I know for me if I do not use what I have in NA I will lose what I have. These times are often my greatest growth. Its like my mind and body seems tired of it all, yet the dynamic forces of change or true conversion, deep within me may be working to give me the answers that alter my inner motivations to change my life. You see many times in my life in recovery the old bugaboos has haunted me to step out alone and run my own life again it also has drawn me to depend on a power greater than myself and from giving and receiving help from others in act of empathy. Hey your will be alright she is still breathing there is hope wow she had 90 days! Dam it I will pray for her!
So Dear whats been up with you? are you alright now? And you should not hold on to stuff let it go let it be! what happened at school? Sorry if this is shout is to long we should keep in touch more often! Hey I will be coming up on 24 years clean! April 14! you now this date means more to me than my belly button birthday hugs to you! Hug me back soon!

Thanks for getting back in touch. Sorry it took me so long to get back to you, but I was having a hard time and had to leave school. I just got back on the internet. My sister was clean for about three months. I was talking to her almost every day and she was coming over. she went to net care and they helped her get and appointment at a rehab center but she relapsed and never got ahold of anyone. she is not even trying to talk to me anymore. Sorry this is so long. I guess I jsut hold this stuff in too long. How have you been?

Hey how’s it going? Any word on your sister getting better? hugs I hope your doing OK too!

I see cool Hey I don’t do well either with groups of people, I sit in the back of the room because the ones up front die first. Hope your classes are going well please give your self a break when needed!!! Keep in touch :-))

Thanks for the info on the meetings but I am in college with no car and I don’t do well in groups of people. I printed off some stuff from the website and sent it to her with a note to please at least look it over. You have been a great help. :)

Hey your welcome, also you should not feel bad about your sister being in jail you are right she needs to realize her problem and also she needs to realize she is hurting her self and the ones that care and love her. Well have a great day I am on my way to a meeting. Hey I did not tell you this you can sit in one of the NA meeting if you like it would hurt they have open meeting that anyone can attend hugs it would give you a better perspective of what is going threw your sisters mind take care hugs Gary

Thanks for everything.

Hey thank you your so sweet Just for today I don’t use drugs no matter what I don’t care even if my ass falls off if it dose I take my ass and I butt it in a sack to a NA meeting and they kick it the fu*ck back on! I cant save my ass and my face at same time! I just want you to know I would not be here in writing you this if it was not for god showing me the way to NA I have been chosen, I would be dead if I continued using drugs, it dose not matter what I used or how much I used. Today if any thing go’s in my body thats mind alerting an mood changing its a drug alcohol is a drug! You see for me and your sister being an addict its like one is two many a thousand never enough we use to live and lived to use very simple our life was control buy drugs. After I had a few years clean I found out the hole time when I was using drugs the drugs used us me I did not use the drugs my addiction took me places I didn’t want to be I suffered badly like your sister, how ever there is hope for her believe me your sister is not alone, as a result of the wreckage of my past the last thing I ever expected was an awakening of the spirit when I was in my active addiction I just wanted the pain to stop. Thank god on April, 14, 1985 I hit a bottom I was hopeless, useless, worthless, and helpless where your sister is right now I only can hope she has hit her bottom! You see for us addicts we cannot change the nature of the addict or addiction. We can help to change the old lie once an addict, always an addict, by striving to make recovery more available. God help us to remember this difference. Hey I just want you to know if you need me I here for you and your sister I live in Kentucky I have been all over the world recovering from the disease addiction I would not have it any other way words of wisdom if you pray why worry and if you worry why pray worrying is a lack of faith. I feel I probably should give you m number you may call me any time 24/7 I am here to help you in any way I can I am Gary and I am an addict we care and share the NA way and we don’t bite either hugs! My cell phone: 859-619-9685