Hey! Sorry I had to leave so fast some crazy stuff was goin on here and I had to go. Anyway I just read you post and I’m sorry to hear about your father. Losing someone you care about is never easy and it hurts like no other. It sounds like maybe that place you were talking about would be a good idea for you! It is scary to think about but you don’t have to do it alone. By the way you sound, you and your mother seem to be close? Thats good to have someone to support you! Have you talked to her about it yet? Sometimes waiting gets hard when your dealing with depression. Could you go any sooner? I know I don’t really know you or anything but I don’t want to see you hurt yourself and the way you sound you don’t want to do it either! IF you ever need anything just holler at me send me a email whatever! I’m always on the computer and I check my email like everyday! Email me if you want at sidewayshole at yahoo if you ever just want to vent. I feel a lot of the ways you described so I do understand what it’s like to go through this. I hope to hear from you soon!!;)
I know about it being hard to pay for it. If you can’t afford to get the expensive stuff, but canned beans and lentils, or even bags of dried beans. They’re much cheaper, but don’t taste as good unless you have a lot of seasoning, but its protein. =)
I’m on my school’s free lunch program too. =)
See, that’s why you need to make sure you don’t live off of cheese and PB&J. Buy some Boca Burger patties, those taste really good and have a lot of protein. Or Morning Star - that’s another brand of vegetarian foods that are really good. And if you can’t get any of that, eat a lot of raw vegetables, they have protein in them too, but you’ll have to eat more of them to get what you need.
Don’t let the teasing get to you, its just not worth it. Just don’t tell people if you really just can’t handle it.
I hope I can help. =)