¡ʎuɐɟɟıʇ's shout trail with Joey_PR - Help.com

tiff!

How are you feeling?
Whats up?

=/

“It got worse as the day went on and by the time I got off of work I felt like I was going to die.”

Whoa…
Whats up with that?

If you are eating right, then you may be having migrain side effects? Idk..

“When the heck are you taking me to the doctor?!”

You dissappear on me for almost a month and now its my fault? =(

And to answer your question…you should take those vacations and stay here. I can help with a stress free enviornment. =P

btw..didn’t you make a dr’s appointment for that? (w/mom)

“More text/calls from the ex. Ugh. ..Plus, my dad has been feeling sick. He’s been having trouble with chest pains/breathing. Also, the other day he fell outside, so a lot has been going through my mind. I worry about him 24/7.”

I can somewhat imagine Rene’e…bc I don’t ’see’ you often anymore. I hope your dad is doing OK.

Ex wont leave you alone tiff. He probably will (maybe) the day you meet someone new and actually start a relationship with that ‘new’ Mr. Fortunate.
If you do keep on answering and stuff…he will less likely go away.

On my side, I havent heard from my ex in more than month. I hope it stays like that because communication in those type of situations confuse me, time makes it die down.

“How’d that go?
I hope she enjoyed her visit.”

Went well, pretty fast.

“Okay. Will do. Lol. ” (jokes)

Where did they go?

“Just about the same. I freaking never work though, hardly.
It sucks.”

Crap.

How is your sleeping schedule?

“I need a new job badly, I want to move out, I have to (literally) buy a car”

That sucks.
How can I help?
Any chance of borrowing a car (moms’, dads’)?
Are you always stressed at home?

“It now seems as though my brother-in-law has lost all respect for my parents. He’s doing what he wants around here with no regards to them.”

God.

He’s strecthing out his limits even more. Idk what to say, I feel sorry for your parents.

“It was fun but we had car trouble on the way there, which was scary. Lol.”

you took the risk! lol
I would have been pretty concerned too…

“I hope you’ve been doing okay, let me know. How’s work, life, etc? And how are you feeling? “

Eh…more less the usual.
Getting some training for that new federal contract stuff at work and not much more. Basically the same routine.

Thanks for asking.

Gimme the latest of how you have been feeling, let me know how things are going..

when is it that you are going on vacation? June what was it?

Take care Rene’e.

:(((((((

Hi.

Last time I heard from you (text) you were not feeling good either, so its been quite some time now.

It’s still going on.
Today I was a bit shaky, and I woke up with a headache. It got worse as the day went on and by the time I got off of work I felt like I was going to die.

I don’t know why all of a sudden I am getting them so bad. I mean, yes, I understand I am stressed and stuff .. but not as much as I have been in the past, and they are like horrible migraines. So idk.

When the heck are you taking me to the doctor?!

You are eating, right?

Yes. :)

You feeling stressed out?

Yes, somewhat.
More text/calls from the ex. Ugh. ..Plus, my dad has been feeling sick. He’s been having trouble with chest pains/breathing. Also, the other day he fell outside, so a lot has been going through my mind. I worry about him 24/7.

My sister (from Miami) is staying for the weekend (memorial day weekend).

How’d that go?
I hope she enjoyed her visit.

You can send me your jokes anytime Rene’e.

Okay. Will do. Lol.

How is your work going?

Just about the same. I freaking never work though, hardly.
It sucks.

How are you feeling?

Well, I sorta mentioned it above. I’m under stress.

I need a new job badly, I want to move out, I have to (literally) buy a car ..because mine isn’t even drive-able, which I can’t afford. Ugh. My ex is calling, etc. It’s just overwhelming. :(

Your mom OK? Dad?

Somewhat.
^ I already told you about my dad. My mom and him aren’t really fighting/arguing anymore, but my mom isn’t doing too good either. She is under way too much stress and my sister and brother-in-law are just making things worse. It now seems as though my brother-in-law has lost all respect for my parents. He’s doing what he wants around here with no regards to them.

But yeah, that’s about it..

Thursday my niece and nephew (the oldest ones) went to the amusement park again. It was fun but we had car trouble on the way there, which was scary. Lol.
I’m just excited my vacation is coming up! (Which, I have now found out that Pedro gets to come.) That makes things seem a little better.

I’m done rambling now.
I hope you’ve been doing okay, let me know. How’s work, life, etc? And how are you feeling?

I’ll ttyl.

=)

“Now I get shaky at least every few days.”

=(

“Lol, both I think..”

=O

I thought so but wasn’t sure…I do remember that I did say once that a massage (for the neck) was what you needed.

And of course I didnt mind.

Still.

=P

“Her last day was Thursday, so she’s been out for a couple days now.”

Nice.
No early waking up. No home work crap. Time to chill with ‘awesome aunt tiffany’.

“I guess maybe take him to the vet (a different one) and see what they say. “

Yes. Thats a good idea, you can even discuss whatever options the new vet brings to the table (as to what you have tried, what tests have been done already).

“.. And where were you?”

Waiting for you to pick me up, (I’d drive).

=O

“Gosh, it’s been that long? :/

Kinda, but I did text you thursday (I think) and did recieve your text back. So its not since monday per’se.

=)

“I’ve sorta told you about my ex calling/texting.”

Yep.

“I’ve been getting bad headaches, Tylenol isn’t helping. I think my mom’s going to take me to the doctor here soon. My neck has been killing me as well. :(”

=(

Migrains?
=O

Sounds crappy Tiff, I hope you get better soon…you should go to the doctor. Last time I heard from you (text) you were not feeling good either, so its been quite some time now. As I told you before, Id take you to the doc and wait with you there..Id even ask him about your condition.

You are eating, right?
You feeling stressed out?

Tell me.

“How’ve you been? ..Feeling okay?”

All normal. Nothing new either. But happy to hear from you.
My sister (from Miami) is staying for the weekend (memorial day weekend). My family gets together whenever a close family member visits from out of state so we’ve been having gatherings and stuff like that these past days.

Emotionally…eh…I’m still deep down kinda sad, downish, etc…you already know. Trying to distract myself from the usual crappy thoughts.

You can send me your jokes anytime Rene’e.

Work is boring and sucks, they recently landed a contract with a federal agency (not sure what). Now we (the six of us) are required to clear a background check…so Ive been running around looking for addresses, people, phone numbers, etc. within the past 10 freaking years (info they require)…wasnt easy and it pissed me off a bit bc I lived in PA and Miami plus they ask when, where, who,…I have all I need (dont know if its enough), now I need to fill out their paperwork on tuesday.
Crap.
Especially ‘feces’ when (in my understanding) no change will reflect in my check.

How is your work going?
How are you feeling?

Your mom OK? Dad?

Nice to see your shout tiff.

Take care, and let me know how things are going. You know the rest.

:/

Heart racing and all?

No, not really.

How often do you have them? (shakyness).
=(

Idk, just depends. I never really had problems with it before, until here lately. Now I get shaky at least every few days.

I still owe you a massage…wait…or was it you that owed me one?

Care to clarify?

Lol, both I think..

When does your niece finish the school year?

Her last day was Thursday, so she’s been out for a couple days now.

Has pedro ever had that?

Nope.
But Chico is getting worse. :( Idk what to even do. I guess maybe take him to the vet (a different one) and see what they say. My vet just keeps trying the same thing over and over and it’s getting frustrating.

“I’d drive to Missouri on friday, come back late sunday, work during the week, wash, rinse, repeat.”

.. And where were you?

Let me know how you are feeling Rene’e, and how your tuesday rolls. Stay in touch.

Gosh, it’s been that long? :/ Sorry.

Blah.
I’ve sorta told you about my ex calling/texting. I haven’t heard from him in a few days though, which is good.

Besides that, nothing really new. I’ve been getting bad headaches, Tylenol isn’t helping. I think my mom’s going to take me to the doctor here soon. My neck has been killing me as well. :(
I’m just falling apart. Lol.

How’ve you been? ..Feeling okay?
Lemme know.

Ttyl. :)

=D

“Well, I woke up like 30583 times during the night and I was thinking we were late for school.. and I had dreams that her dad was like upset with me because she was late for school. Lol. :/”

=/

Heart racing and all?

“If you were meaning any dreams about you ..well, I can’t tell.”

=O

“Yes.”(Boss/assistant sounding pissed)

bah…
her bad.

“I know the basics of it though, and it’s because my sister and brother-in-law buy tons of crap ..(waste their money) and don’t help out, and don’t have money to save.”

Your dad has all the right to be mad.
IMO, as long as mom and dad dont put a ‘pushed down’ stop to it (or work something out with your sis and bro-in law) then your parents relationship is going to keep on taking the hits.

I feel bad for them (your parents), they seem to be taken advantage from. All they wanted was to genuinely help.

“Sounds good to me. (Carry out dinner and a movie)”

Consider it done.
All we need now is a rainy day and a time.

“My mom got me some vitamins today, not sure if that would help anything ..but maybe. “

How often do you have them? (shakyness).
=(

“Just deal with it, I guess.”(neck pain)

No.
I still owe you a massage…wait…or was it you that owed me one?

=S

Care to clarify?

“I try and talk to my mom about her beliefs without making her feel as though I’m attacking her or something? Idk.”

Yea, its the same with that co-worker I talked to you about. Whenever there is a discussion, we (the rest of us) just look at each other and let her talk away. Eh…its no use arguing w/her.

“Sunday was good.
I was busy. My oldest niece and I went to the park for awhile, hung out, etc. “

Thats nice. Keep on doing that stuff, its good for you.

When does your niece finish the school year?

“I didn’t get much sleep last night .. because I couldn’t fall asleep and then had to wake up early. ..”

Did you wake up cranky?

=O

Any thoughts bothering you that couldnt let you sleep?

“How’d your day go?
How about work?”

The day was rainy, pretty crappy weather.
Work is boring.
=)
Nothing new.

“But within like the last two weeks, he’s been really itchy. Idk what else to do anymore.”

Poor chico. I dont know what to suggest anymore either…

Has pedro ever had that?

“Today it was in the 80s and tomorrow it’s suppose to be around the same.

So, ..you can’t use that as an excuse anymore.
:P”

I won’t argue with you.
I’ll have to admit, beyond a reasonable doubt…you’re right.

And I add:

“I’d drive to Missouri on friday, come back late sunday, work during the week, wash, rinse, repeat.”

=P

“Btw, I just realized there is a way to text my phone that would probably be easier.”

Have you been recieving the recent ones I have sent?

=S

Anyways, I will use your suggestion now.
Thank you Tiff, you do know you can text me anytime, so I wont say it.

I hope your neck is doing fine right now and things at your work ease up a bit.

Let me know how you are feeling Rene’e, and how your tuesday rolls. Stay in touch.

Take care and thanks again.

:)

Any dreams?

Yes.

Lol, I have been having the strangest dreams. Yesterday my niece stayed the night here and I just took her to school today. Well, I woke up like 30583 times during the night and I was thinking we were late for school.. and I had dreams that her dad was like upset with me because she was late for school. Lol. :/

If you were meaning any dreams about you ..well, I can’t tell.

Did she sound pissed?

Yes.

Did they ever get to talk to your sister and husband?

My mom said they did, but I honestly don’t believe it.
I mean, I hate being mean .. but seriously. My mom does’t want to hurt their feelings, so she will casually mention moving out .. but she won’t push anything. I mean, I could easily understand that if they just moved in, but they have been here over a year.

My dad and my brother-in-law got in a small argument the other day. I wasn’t here so I had no idea what really went on. I know the basics of it though, and it’s because my sister and brother-in-law buy tons of crap ..(waste their money) and don’t help out, and don’t have money to save.

Carry-out dinner and a movie?

Sounds good to me.

I thought you were having them everyday…
It still is (in my eyes) something to worry about.

No, not everyday.
My mom got me some vitamins today, not sure if that would help anything ..but maybe.

What are we going to do about it Rene’e?

:( I have no idea.
Just deal with it, I guess.

Some things dont make sense to me either =/

Me either.
I try and talk to my mom about her beliefs without making her feel as though I’m attacking her or something? Idk.
None of it seems right to me though.

Let me know how your sunday goes Rene’e…let me know how you feel.

Sunday was good.
I was busy. My oldest niece and I went to the park for awhile, hung out, etc.

Today was good. I didn’t get much sleep last night .. because I couldn’t fall asleep and then had to wake up early. ..So I’m a bit exhausted.

How’d your day go?
How about work?
:)

Whatever happened to chico’s allergy? Still the same?

Actually, for quite some time there ..he was doing great. But within like the last two weeks, he’s been really itchy. Idk what else to do anymore.

btw…How’s the temperature there?

Very nice! Today it was in the 80s and tomorrow it’s suppose to be around the same.

So, ..you can’t use that as an excuse anymore.
:P

Ttyl.

Btw, I just realized there is a way to text my phone that would probably be easier.
I can’t remember the e-mail address thing I gave you? But I do think it was sort of long .. anyway you can use this one if you’d like:
__(my #)__ @ txt.att.net

No spaces, of course. :)

=)

“I slept in late and honestly didn’t even hear my phone.”

That made me ask…Any dreams?

“Probably pissed them both off, because seeing as how I didn’t go in .. the main manager did. “

Did she sound pissed?
She has no right to get upset. Its her own decisions that get her pissed off then, not your fault.
She’s not organized.

“He gets upset/frustrated because my sister or brother-in-law won’t watch the kids ..and they’ll be tearing up the house or whatever ..and once my mom gets off work - he’s grouchy, she’s grouchy, etc. It just crazy around here. :(”

It makes sense. Did they ever get to talk to your sister and husband? I dont remember you telling me…I do remember something about your mom feeling bad about making them move out, but that was when your bro-in law was not working.

Its either working something out with them seriously, or your mom and dads escalating arguments.
That sucks. Are your brother and law and sister there when your parents argue?

“I hate getting out when it’s raining and stuff.”

I agree.
Carry-out dinner and a movie?

“if it keeps happening or if it gets any worse, I will make an appointment with my doctor.”

?
I thought you were having them everyday…
It still is (in my eyes) something to worry about.

“Eh. Yesterday it was hurting a little, and when I woke up today it hurt more. :( I took some Tylenol earlier .. but I don’t think it has helped much.”

What are we going to do about it Rene’e?

“he transmission in my car is going out ..so I might be getting a new car soon.”

I had that happen to my previous car… That sucks.

“Today (Sunday) is my mom’s birthday, but since she is a Jehovah’s Witness, she doesn’t celebrate it anymore, which sucks ..”

I never agreed with that religion, one of the girls at work is in that, and it kind of bothered me everytime she started talking about her beliefs. Some things dont make sense to me either =/

“Let me know how things with you are going, and how you’re feeling. “

I just finished watching this movie called “Defiance”…drama/Nazi era….I recommend it.
Mowed the lawn today but was sort of pissed while working at it cause I did not want to do it. Today I hated the lawn.

=D

I was relieved when finished.
Im glad I took that out of the way for at least 3 weeks.

Im OK right now.
Hoping to get better but idk how I will feel tomorrow…eh…you know, the usual. Im also involving myself more in helping out my sister (the one that lives in Miami) in showing her how to use some computer programs. She’s coming this next weekend, we joke a lot too, so that’s gonna be nice.

Other than that…nothing else is new.

Let me know how your sunday goes Rene’e…let me know how you feel.

Whatever happened to chico’s allergy? Still the same?

btw…How’s the temperature there?

Thank you Tiffany, your second name is one of my new favorite words as of 5 months ago, and dont tell me that you did not know that.

=P

Take care.

Hey. :)

eh..probably because she “needs” you to cover some work for her or something?

?

Hmm. Idk.
Today the assistant manager did text/call like 3 times. I slept in late and honestly didn’t even hear my phone. I saw she called like 20 mins later when I woke up.

She wanted me to come in from 1pm-9:30, but I already had stuff that I had to do, so I said no. :/
Probably pissed them both off, because seeing as how I didn’t go in .. the main manager did.

Key word = “shouldn’t”

OMG What!?

=O

Idk, lol. That’s just what I thought.

why do you think they are arguing a lot now? ‘Cause what?

Because of my sister and her family living here. It’s stressful on everyone .. but I think even more so on my dad because he is home all day. He gets upset/frustrated because my sister or brother-in-law won’t watch the kids ..and they’ll be tearing up the house or whatever ..and once my mom gets off work - he’s grouchy, she’s grouchy, etc. It just crazy around here. :(

I was referring to the atmosphere…much of society, the news, that kind of stuff.

Oh, I see..

There are good people, but they arent easy to find.

Yeah, I know what you mean.

But what else would’ve you done? If its raining a lot, I do barely anything.

I don’t know .. nothing I guess.
I hate getting out when it’s raining and stuff.

What?
How could you not know that?

Lol, Idk.

Let me know how your day goes (saturday) rene’e, keep me updated on that shakyness you are having, its doesnt sound OK to me.

Today was good, not too bad.
I did have a little bit of the shaky-ness, though it wasn’t as bad as it has been. I think if it keeps happening or if it gets any worse, I will make an appointment with my doctor.

How has your neck been doing?

Eh. Yesterday it was hurting a little, and when I woke up today it hurt more. :( I took some Tylenol earlier .. but I don’t think it has helped much.

Heart still OK?

Yep.

I guess besides that, nothing much has been going on. The transmission in my car is going out ..so I might be getting a new car soon. That’s good, I guess, yet I can’t really afford it.
My parents said they would help, since I really don’t have any other option.

My ex also texted me the other day. Just the same ol’ stuff. :/ Today (Sunday) is my mom’s birthday, but since she is a Jehovah’s Witness, she doesn’t celebrate it anymore, which sucks .. because I don’t want her to feel as though I don’t care by not getting her anything, yet if I do, she said it’s basically ‘disrespectful’ to get her a gift, knowing it’s a birthday present and that they don’t celebrate it ..or some stuff like that. I don’t even know.

:/

Let me know how things with you are going, and how you’re feeling.

Ttyl.

Wink wink
=D

“She was extremely nice to me tonight, which was weird .. but I guess I’m not complaining.”

eh..probably because she “needs” you to cover some work for her or something?

?

Lets see.

“Hahaha.(Joey FTW!!)”

Aww yea.

“I just sort of figured since you don’t text me, I shouldn’t text you.”

Key word = “shouldn’t”

OMG What!?

=O

“Nope, I’m not taking anything ..except Tylenol when my neck starts hurting really bad.”

Idk Tiff, that may be something your body is low on?

=(

I’d take you to the doc and wait there.

“Lol, no. That is incorrect.(”Hot” Red)”

Exactly…”pink” is incorrect.

=D

“But now it seems as though my mom has just given up and doesn’t care sometimes. “

=(
why do you think they are arguing a lot now? ‘Cause what?

“It’s basically the same with you. I do tell my niece some stuff, but I don’t want to overwhelm her with my crappy problems, so I try and not mention things. I know she has her 15-yr-old problems to deal with, lol.”

lol

I have spoken to close relatives, one of my sisters, mom, and a friend of mine…but I dont get into details as how I feel too much because of the same reason you just mentioned.
I dont want to worry them that much. Its not that Im going to hurt myself y’know?

I am working on myself again though(excersisng, trying to think differently).

“Why is everyone around you so negative?”

Its not that people are negative around me (my close family members aren’t).
I was referring to the atmosphere…much of society, the news, that kind of stuff. There are good people, but they arent easy to find. I can say that Im one thats pretty much trying to look the other way and stop focusing too much on those type of surroundings.

“You should text me when you are feeling crappy. I will send you a joke! :D”

Go ahead.
Share some sugar.
I
dare
you.

=P

“Lol. I know, I am lazy. ..Feels sort of like I waisted today though, because then I went to work and now all of a sudden it’s almost 1am. :(”

hahaha
Its funny how you described all that.
You know, that happens to me too…that feeling of “wasting a day”. But what else would’ve you done?

If its raining a lot, I do barely anything.

“Well, I didn’t know that, but I’m glad. :)”

What?
How could you not know that?

“How’s work been going?
How are you feeling? :/”

Work is crap, boring.
lol

Im feeling OK.
Thanks for asking. I felt better after writing my previous shout.

Guess what?

I have to mow some lawn here at my house. Its been more than a month.
=O
Its been raining these past weeks so its kinda high.
=S
thats going to suck.

lol

Today was some supermarket and ‘nada’ else.

Let me know how your day goes (saturday) rene’e, keep me updated on that shakyness you are having, its doesnt sound OK to me.
How has your neck been doing?
Heart still OK?

Let me know.

=)

:P

Do what you plan to do, its up to her whether she will talk trash or not about you if she were to be contacted as reference.
There is not much you can do on that, I guess.

Nope. :( Not really.
She was extremely nice to me tonight, which was weird .. but I guess I’m not complaining.

Joey FTW!

=D

Hahaha.

Where did that come from?

=S

Idk. I just sort of figured since you don’t text me, I shouldn’t text you.
That’s all.

If you do go, tell him your symptoms and plls you are taking (if any). Maybe its a side effect?

Nope, I’m not taking anything ..except Tylenol when my neck starts hurting really bad.

Its not that they (parents) have a problem with me, its that it wouldnt be healthy for me.

Yeah, I don’t blame you.

Pink? Let me get this straight…to me its “Hot” Red.

Lol, no. That is incorrect.

Tiff, did they always have arguments like those before your sister moved in?

Barely.
I mean, yes, they did have small arguments. But now it seems as though my mom has just given up and doesn’t care sometimes.

I was thinking yesterday about the fact that you are actually the only person I talk about ‘how I feel’ to.

You act like that’s a bad thing?

I mean, yes, I think you should be able to talk to more people about how you are feeling besides me.. but I am glad at least you tell me.

It’s basically the same with you. I do tell my niece some stuff, but I don’t want to overwhelm her with my crappy problems, so I try and not mention things. I know she has her 15-yr-old problems to deal with, lol.

To summarize, I would say: How can i feel better when I have no positive input from around me (words, eh…crappy thoughts, actions?) and most of what I “hear” (news, mind chatter, etc…) is negative/pessimistic.

That’s how I feel, constantly.
I feel like I am stuck, like my life is going nowhere fast ..and it’s too late to fix it. I know I’ve probably told you that before though.

Everyone in this house is usually mean or hateful because over half of the time, someone is ticked off. Therefore, everyone is in a bad mood = negativity.

Why is everyone around you so negative?
You should text me when you are feeling crappy. I will send you a joke! :D

Let me know how you are feeling and how your day goes rene’e.

Good.
Boring, though. I woke up sort of late. It was storming really bad late last night and today ..so I woke up around noon and laid in bed listening to the thunder for like an hour. Lol. I know, I am lazy. ..Feels sort of like I waisted today though, because then I went to work and now all of a sudden it’s almost 1am. :(

btw…just so you know…You make me laugh sometimes and there is always something you write that makes me smile, be it something funny or something sweet you write, you know that?

Well, I didn’t know that, but I’m glad. :)

I hope your day went nice. How’s work been going?
How are you feeling? :/

Let me know. Ttyl.

=D

“okay.I can do that.”

=O

=P

“Like she will leave those little rude notes or do whatever, but when she actually sees me, she is completely fake acting.”

She’s confusing, i understand what you mean. She’s basically a hypocrite. Ha!
Do what you plan to do, its up to her whether she will talk trash or not about you if she were to be contacted as reference.
There is not much you can do on that, I guess.
=/

“I gave her all of my info at the beginning, and now she really doesn’t like me. Who knows what she could do..”

I dont think she will do anything to you.
The only thing she might do, is in regards to that reference thing in the resume.
She probably wont even be contacted.

“If I enjoy whoever I see in the morning, I won’t be cranky. “

Joey FTW!

=D

“I didn’t know if it will still cool to text you or not, so I just haven’t been.”

Where did that come from?

=S

“I swear, one day I will get you on one.. :O”

“No neck pain though, ..well, not at the time when I feel shaky anyway.”

Idk tiff, that shakyness deosn’t sound good to me. You should get those blood/urine tests dr.’s do to see if somethings below normal level. If you do go, tell him your symptoms and plls you are taking (if any). Maybe its a side effect?

“:(
You okay?”

Idk. I dont think Im feeling “normal”, its more like too unmotivated, and working on trying to better my positive thinking about my own self (all around).

“You should go.”

Thats what my mind tells me, but I cant find that “push”. Today I was going to go but I thought about the traffic to get there. Its hell at 6pm from where I live at that time, plus it would take me almost an hour w/o traffic, imagine with it.
‘Service’ starts at 7:15pm, I would not make it in time, plus it was raining today all day, (all week basically).
So I stayed home. I noticed they transmit their messages live via internet (their website), but I know its not the same.

“My pastor was so worried about talking of other things and singing instead of actually going there to help us learn about God. I know that probably sounds awful, that’s just my opinion on it though.. :/”

I know what you mean, nothing wrong.
The church I want to go to is the only one that has captured my attention except for that other one I went a couple times with my ex to. That ‘other one’ is close to where she lives, to where I will not go for obvious reasons (her parents never miss a date there, she’s not much of a regular but her mom usually takes the kids with her). I dont want anybody to think Im going for the wrong reasons.
And I dont want to put myself close to them again. Its not that they (parents) have a problem with me, its that it wouldnt be healthy for me.
NO.

I’ll watch the televised version on monday (its at 11pm-mondays) and see if I give it a shot next wednesday. They give services on sundays, but I wouldnt go on sundays. I prefer a day of the week.

I dont like the one my sister attends on sundays. Good people, but I dont feel comfortable there.

“The pink one? :/”

Pink? Let me get this straight…to me its “Hot” Red.
I was calmly “wowed” by that one the 1st time I saw it.
I have been ‘wowed’ a couple of times already, your fault though.

=X

“I don’t like that one much. Lol.”

Well, its only one of my personal favorites and I liked the sunglasses-hair and color combo.

2nd row, 3rd pic…Thats another one.

Yes.
Buy a ticket, get here.

“My mom and dad have been fighting a bit. I honestly think they are going to get divorced.”

Sad.
I felt bad when I read that.
Tiff, did they always have arguments like those before your sister moved in?

I do remember what you told me about your dad and how much you care for him. I hope it all goes well on the stress test eventhough I believe doc is going to tell him to take it easy, which is a little difficult seeing how things are in your house.

“Let me know how you’ve been doing. I hope you’re still not feeling all crappy-ish.”

Eh, more of the same. Nothing new, rain, and a little more afternoon rain.
Idk Rene’e, I was thinking yesterday about the fact that you are actually the only person I talk about ‘how I feel’ to.

Yea, people around me assume Im “OK” or “normal”, “a little depressed” or just a little “reserved”.
But I dont feel like I used to…I would say: I dont feel “as OK as before, emotionally” (years back).
Unmotivated, feeling useless, feeling that “all that for what?” and I take it on myself, its like my mind is wired to think pessimistic and I consciously know I shouldnt…so its like a battle, and the pressure heats up.
To summarize, I would say: How can i feel better when I have no positive input from around me (words, eh…crappy thoughts, actions?) and most of what I “hear” (news, mind chatter, etc…) is negative/pessimistic.
Eh…sometimes Im OK, other times my days just suck and I feel I waste them.

Something like that.

I usually dont talk about how I feel when I feel like this. I always try to “walk it off”.
Thanks for caring.

Now…
Let me know how you are feeling and how your day goes rene’e.

btw…just so you know…You make me laugh sometimes and there is always something you write that makes me smile, be it something funny or something sweet you write, you know that?

Take care Rene’e. I appreciate the time you take to shout back.

Keep me posted.

=)

:)

Chapter 3 second paragraph states that you owe me “Phone answering”.

Lol, okay.
I can do that.

But how is the tension at work? Does she look at you bad and stuff or does she treat you “normal”?

That’s the thing.
She always acts as though nothing has happened. Like she will leave those little rude notes or do whatever, but when she actually sees me, she is completely fake acting.
I hope you know that I mean by that. She is just totally two-faced. :/

Go for it, check it out and let me know.
That way when I get like 65 y/o, you can take extra care of me WITHOUT having to clean up my crap, plus I’ll share my social security.

Lol, righttt.

That means she has lost “important” things before and has not cared enough to look for them.

Well, yes, but it also means that for some reason, she really didn’t need that paper (I-9 forum) with my ID # and social security # on it .. because if it was “so important” she would have asked me to re-fill another paper out because she ‘couldn’t find it’.
That’s why I think it’s so weird. Maybe it’s just because I do not trust anyone, but she makes me paranoid. I gave her all of my info at the beginning, and now she really doesn’t like me. Who knows what she could do..
:S

Should I make a note of that?

Maybe, but it’s not necessary.
If I enjoy whoever I see in the morning, I won’t be cranky.

Like for example, the other morning I felt like crap and didn’t want to wake up .. but 3 seconds later my niece walked in my room and was calling my name. Instantly not cranky anymore. Lol.

If its to reply back, a text is fine, its all about knowing you’re doing OK Tiff.
I understand.

Alright then.
I didn’t know if it will still cool to text you or not, so I just haven’t been.

Now Im even more afraid of ‘em.

What!? No way.
They are so much fun. At the amusement park we went to, I have now rode every single roller coaster there. Omgsh. I love it. Lol.

Plus, I bruise easy ..so it’s just me I think? Lol.

I swear, one day I will get you on one.. :O

Anything specific triggering it? Thoughts? A habit? When does it happen?

Does your neck hurt when it happenes?

I have absolutely no idea.
When I was younger I got tested for being diabetic though, since my dad is. Nope.
I may have to get re-tested or something, idk. My mom says it’s because I don’t eat properly. Lol.

I’ve also been getting headaches more frequently. I’ve had one for the last two days, but they go away. So idk what’s the deal with that. :/ No neck pain though, ..well, not at the time when I feel shaky anyway.

Na, Im still kinda sad Tiff. Its deep inside me, I got emotional crap along with crappy sporadic thoughts sometimes.

:(
You okay?

Today I was thinking about going to a church which I see on TV, but its at another city like an hour or so away. Idk exactly.

You should go.

But Id have to basically drag myself, since I have been losing (if not lost already) interest in a lot of things. Im looking for motivation basically.
Sucks.

Sort of the same with me..
But honestly, I think I would LOVE going to church if the one I had been previously going to wasn’t so boring.
I mean I do not find the Bible boring at all, but I hardly learn anything. My pastor was so worried about talking of other things and singing instead of actually going there to help us learn about God. I know that probably sounds awful, that’s just my opinion on it though.. :/

Thank you for letting me know how you have been Rene’e.

Yep, no problem.
.. Your turn.

The dogs doing OK?

Yep.

btw, did your niece enjoy the amusement park too?

Yes. Her and my oldest nephew (her brother) loved it.

PS: I know I told you already but…43things, 1st row, 2nd pic

The pink one? :/
I don’t like that one much. Lol.

..

These last few days have been okay. Not anything too exciting.

My mom and dad have been fighting a bit. I honestly think they are going to get divorced.
My dad has also been having trouble breathing. Idk if I ever told you he had a triple bypass? But yeah. He isn’t in the greatest health and I am worried. He is having a stress test done on Friday so we will see how that goes I guess.. :/

SO..
Let me know how you’ve been doing. I hope you’re still not feeling all crappy-ish.

I’ll ttyl.

“:O”

hahaha

=O

Yea. You know.
No hard feelings btw Rene’e.

“But .. when I log onto Help.com through her computer, it’s extremely slow and it freezes sometimes, so it’s a pain.”

Ew…I know how much a freezing computer sucks.

“So. What do I owe you? Lol.”

Chapter 3 second paragraph states that you owe me “Phone answering”.

AND! I’ll have to check the what other chapters on the “Book of Justice” apply on this one, to see what extra violations ocurred.

=O

“Maybe that might not tick her off as badly? Idk.”

Sounds OK to me.
But how is the tension at work? Does she look at you bad and stuff or does she treat you “normal”?

“My mom said we will go and talk to the school sometime soon and see what they say about how much it will cost and see if I really think I would enjoy it, and we will go from there.”

Go for it, check it out and let me know.
That way when I get like 65 y/o, you can take extra care of me WITHOUT having to clean up my crap, plus I’ll share my social security.

Awesome.

“She also didn’t even graduate HS,…”

There you go.

>=(

She has no idea how to differentiate personal feelings vs work.
She seems to not know how to treat employees and encourage them in the workplace.

bah…

Someone should re-assign her to another position and get her out from being a ‘boss’.

“She called and asked where I had put it and I lied saying I left it in her folder at work “

That means she has lost “important” things before and has not cared enough to look for them.

“and if I don’t get 8 hrs of sleep, I am cranky. Lol.”

=O

Should I make a note of that?

“Next week I am only scheduled 6 hrs all together. It was the same for this week until she changed it last minute. It sucks.”

Damn right it sucks.
To me its her fault it does.

“I just try and hurry when I haven’t replied in a few days .. :/”

Hurry on what?
If its to reply back, a text is fine, its all about knowing you’re doing OK Tiff.
I understand.

“One of them because last time I went on it, I got a huge bruise on my knee. It’s a wooden roller coaster and it jerks a lot.”

=O

Now Im even more afraid of ‘em.

“We were there for about 13 hrs. Lol. It was soooo fun though. :)”

Awesome.
Im glad you had fun and enjoyed it Rene’e. You deserve more happy moments like those.

“? Lol. (Id do more but you live out of state [meaning far from PR])”

What?

lol

“but for the last two days it’s been more noticeable .. I’m really shaky. I have no idea why. :/”

Anything specific triggering it? Thoughts? A habit? When does it happen?

Does your neck hurt when it happenes?

Thats curious.

“How’s work? How are you feeling? How are you sleeping?”

Eh..
Bah..
and face up, with anything covering most of my face except for my mouth and nose. Sometimes I sleep totally “comforter covered”.

lol

Na, Im still kinda sad Tiff. Its deep inside me, I got emotional crap along with crappy sporadic thoughts sometimes.
Today I was thinking about going to a church which I see on TV, but its at another city like an hour or so away. Idk exactly.
I like their televised messages, the pastor says his church is one of no specific religion, they are just christians. I like his messages, they ‘tear (watery eyes) me up’ when they get me, idk.

But Id have to basically drag myself, since I have been losing (if not lost already) interest in a lot of things. Im looking for motivation basically.
Sucks.
The times I feel OK is when Im distracted or I feel something good from whatever is close to me at the moment, or be it something I can do for someone else.

So yea.

Thank you for letting me know how you have been Rene’e. Its always nice to hear from you.

The dogs doing OK?

btw, did your niece enjoy the amusement park too?

Let me know whats up and tell me more about that ’shakyness’ you are having.
Also about how your day at work goes and how you are feeling too, Tiff.

Keep taking care of yourself.

PS: I know I told you already but…43things, 1st row, 2nd pic =

Flirt.
=P

:O

Someones bill is going up.

=O

:/
Yes, I know. I’m sorry.

I get busy, then when I do get online ..it’s usually through my mom’s computer since my laptop’s wireless mouse won’t work. I hate using it without a mouse sometimes .. because it’s harder to copy & paste and whatnot.
But .. when I log onto Help.com through her computer, it’s extremely slow and it freezes sometimes, so it’s a pain.

So. What do I owe you? Lol.

Crap.
So its a definite ‘go’?

Yep.
What I figured I could do is maybe find a good full time job (for now, at least) and just leave saying that I am sorry but I just need the money. Therefore, it doesn’t look like I’m just being mean and quitting. Maybe that might not tick her off as badly? Idk.

Oh! And, I think I may be going to college in the fall. :D
I’ve been looking up stuff and I am *really* interested in becoming an LPN, but in all honesty, I don’t know if I’m smart enough. My mom said we will go and talk to the school sometime soon and see what they say about how much it will cost and see if I really think I would enjoy it, and we will go from there.

Its like as if she ‘owned’ the store.
Are her parents the presidents or something?
How did she get there?

Yes, she does act as though she owns it.
I have no idea how she became manager.
I mean that isn’t to sound rude or anything .. but she hadn’t worked there that long and she *still* doesn’t even really know what she is doing. She also didn’t even graduate HS, so I mean, idk. That isn’t meant to sound awful, but gosh..

And remember how I was telling you about that I-9 form or whatever? Well, she made it seem extremely important ..and she said she needed it by the end of last week. Well, I took it home and did not fill it out. She called and asked where I had put it and I lied saying I left it in her folder at work (I know, shame on me..) but she said okay. She has not ‘found’ it yet (obviously) ..and she has never once asked about it again.
So, it couldn’t have been that important. It makes that whole situation seem 10x more odd.

I know you know this, but I had to get it out again. I dont like it when supposed “men” act like this, and I dont like it when you have to be putting up with that crap. Especially you being the nice and ’sensitive hearted’ person you are.

I know. I agree.
I am not talking to him anymore, ever. Seriously. I am done with his crap .. When he pulls stuff like that, it makes me realize even more how glad I am to be on my own.

“By what times (your time) are you more less going to sleep btw? “
(As in off to bed.)

All depends on my schedule.
Tonight I am going to sleep early, because I have to open the store tomorrow and if I don’t get 8 hrs of sleep, I am cranky. Lol.

But, my schedule has been hectic. Next week I am only scheduled 6 hrs all together. It was the same for this week until she changed it last minute. It sucks.

The “take it slow with me” that I mentioned was meaning: “You still multitasking on me?”

=O

No, lol.
I just try and hurry when I haven’t replied in a few days .. :/

You gonna ride the rollercoaster?
=O

Lol, of course.
I rode all of them except for two. One of them because last time I went on it, I got a huge bruise on my knee. It’s a wooden roller coaster and it jerks a lot. The other one because we were in line and then they had problems, so it was down for awhile and by the time it got back up, it was sort of late and I didn’t feel like it.

We were there for about 13 hrs. Lol. It was soooo fun though. :)

Dont worry about the driving Tiff, you will be OK.

I was.
Lol. I was so proud of myself, I had absolutely no problem getting there or back.

Thats about it from here.
I’d do more, but you live out of state.

? Lol.

Let me know about your emotions tiff, how are you feeling?

Eh, pretty good.

Heart OK?

Yes. All good there.

Let me know how things at work flow and how the amusement park day turns out.

Work is about the same.
I still feel uncomfortable there though.

Besides all that, that’s about it. Something sort of weird has been going on though. It’s been happening for awhile, but for the last two days it’s been more noticeable .. I’m really shaky. I have no idea why. :/

Oh well.

I hope everything with you is going good. How’s work? How are you feeling? How are you sleeping?
Let me know, please.

I’ll ttyl.

Someones bill is going up.

=O

“Why’s that?”

Because IMO it wouldn’t help you feel better. And I would feel better making someone feel better.

Win win?

“If I don’t, it will look as though I haven’t had a job for a year and a half. So, that’s even worse. :/”

Crap.
So its a definite ‘go’?

“The assistant manager (who is friends with her outside of work) even said that she will only hire someone who she likes.”

=O
Its like as if she ‘owned’ the store.
Are her parents the presidents or something?
How did she get there?

“Man, I can totally see how he has ‘changed’.”

I saw it coming rene’e. Expect more sporadic crap like this from him.

Listen…if he were to care about you he wouldv’e left you alone by now.
Why?
Because when you love someone truly…you want whats best for them. So he should have accepted “you not wanting to be with him” as “you knowing whats BEST for you” and left you the heck alone the moment you seriously made your decision clear to him.

As you can see, someone like him is someone selfish, insecure, and immature (to say the least). HE is the example of the typical “guy” who really wants what they want no matter how much they negatively effect the other person with their cussing, cursing, guilt crap, manipulative intentions, etc.

I know you know this, but I had to get it out again. I dont like it when supposed “men” act like this, and I dont like it when you have to be putting up with that crap. Especially you being the nice and ’sensitive hearted’ person you are.

“?(you missed my last question)”

The question was at the end of a shout (2 shouts ago), it stated:

“By what times (your time) are you more less going to sleep btw? “
(As in off to bed.)

The “take it slow with me” that I mentioned was meaning: “You still multitasking on me?”

=O

That was it.

“We are going to go to an amusement park on Saturday which should be exciting ..and hopefully relaxing. I’m just a bit scared about the drive.”

Nice.
Have fun Rene’e, let it get your mind off things and enjoy it.
You gonna ride the rollercoaster?
=O
Dont worry about the driving Tiff, you will be OK.

“Let me know how work has been going for you, how you’ve been feeling and sleeping, etc. The usual. Lol.”

Im OK, excersisng and working myself up again. Nothing new has happened, no ex callin’, nada, all is normal. Im sleeping with a messed up schedule, but these past couple of days Ive been falling asleep pretty good.

Thats about it from here.
I’d do more, but you live out of state.

Let me know about your emotions tiff, how are you feeling?
Heart OK?
Let me know how things at work flow and how the amusement park day turns out.

Thanks for the shout.
Take care Rene’e.

=)

Hey.

Im not that happy, but honestly, I cant put a sad nor worried face when I see you are sad or worried.

Why’s that?

Idk if you would include the one you are at right now.

What do you think?

Yes, I have to include it.
If I don’t, it will look as though I haven’t had a job for a year and a half. So, that’s even worse. :/

She seems to do things in a more ‘personal’ than ‘professional’ manner.

She does. That’s exactly what she does.
The assistant manager (who is friends with her outside of work) even said that she will only hire someone who she likes.

He’s not over you Tiff.
He doesnt take you seriously.

Well you will not believe what he did today..
First of all, let me mention that he called and woke me up at like 3 something am the other day and was rambling on about how he is such a different guy ..and he is now committed to God and all this stuff. He asked me if I was coming back ever, I said no and hung up. It wasn’t to be mean or hateful, I just simply said no and hung up the phone..

Anyway, he didn’t call/text for like two days and then all of a sudden out of the blue he sent me a text today like screaming at me because someone had told him I had pictures up on Myspace with my new BF. It totally pissed me off and I told him to never text me again. ..About 5 minutes later he said he just saw the picture and that whoever that ‘asshole’ was talking about wasn’t me.

Damn straight it wasn’t me. Goodness.
Secondly, it was none of his business anyway.

Ironic, huh?
Man, I can totally see how he has ‘changed’.

Rene’e…you missed my last question on my previous shout. Take it slow with me.

?

As you can kind of see, today didn’t go to well.

I feel so exhausted.
Tomorrow I am picking my niece up from school (the oldest one) and doing some shopping. We are going to go to an amusement park on Saturday which should be exciting ..and hopefully relaxing. I’m just a bit scared about the drive.

It’s 45 minutes away and I’ve never driven there before. ..But I’m going to try. lol.

Let me know how work has been going for you, how you’ve been feeling and sleeping, etc. The usual. Lol.

Ttyl.

Hi Tiff.

“I’m just not that happy.. :/”

Im not that happy, but honestly, I cant put a sad nor worried face when I see you are sad or worried.

“What do you think it will be then?”

I’ll let you know when the plane lands.

“what if they call her and she gives me a bad reference? Or even if I do actually put in my two weeks notice, she could still say bad things..”

If she calls and says something just to make you look bad, then she’s a bad person. What I do is not include jobs where I have lasted very little or left, (in my resume).
Idk if you would include the one you are at right now.

What do you think?

With the two weeks notice…she’ll can probably say crappy things too (regardless), since she will just maybe voice her opinion on how you were as a employee (her point of view) if the company that were to hire you decided to give her a call.

Crap.
You dont deserve that.

“..Sorry, maybe I seem paranoid, but I do not trust her. “

And to top it off, she’s a “manager”. What the f$%K.
Im sort of pissed because it bothers me the way she treats her employees…the way she ‘manages’ the store. She seems to do things in a more ‘personal’ than ‘professional’ manner.

“He’s still been texting and even called earlier today and woke me up.”

He’s not over you Tiff.
He doesnt take you seriously.

eh…
Not surprising.

“How was your day?
I hope you’re feeling okay. Lemme know. “

Day was rainy.
All else is normal, nothing unusual.
Trying to fonish up…whoops!…I meant ‘finish up’… =) the laptop Im working on, the keyboard I ordered arrived today and the laptop is working fine. Im in the process of formating and configuring the whole thing to see if I give it back by wednesday.

Besides that…Im OK, starting to excersise again, 20 -30 min workouts. Nothing major, but idk…I used to work out more before…Im trying to get back at it.

Rene’e…you missed my last question on my previous shout. Take it slow with me.

=P

Let me know how things go. Dont get to worked up on whats going on at work Rene’e I know its unfair…something better should come up.

Tell me more.
Take care Tiff.

Hey.

but…the sad face?

I’m just not that happy.. :/

Nopey can do…with all do respect Miss Missouri, I decide what the cost will be.

=)

Hahaha.
What do you think it will be then?

I’d do it if its a place where its all good and Im the one thats just leaving because of a better opportunity. Only if its a place Id use as reference.

Yeah, but the bad thing is.. If I just simply quit .. when I go and try and get a new job, what if they call her and she gives me a bad reference? Or even if I do actually put in my two weeks notice, she could still say bad things..

Keep me posted on all whats happening.

Blah.
Today was odd. I had to go to work and felt extremely uncomfortable. To add to it, my manager all of a sudden brought up something. She said there is this I-9 form that she filled out when I started, but she didn’t do it correctly and now she has to re-fill it back out and send it in. It’s called an Employment Eligibility Verification ..or something. But I don’t know exactly what it is.

What makes me feel uneasy about it is that 1) I started in February. There has been paperwork before that she has had to re-fill out and correct .. that was forever ago. Why now does she now realize it was ‘incorrect’?
And 2) If I do fill it out, I will have to give her my social security # and drivers ID # again ..which I do not feel comfortable doing anymore, especially since I know she was pissed at me yesterday.

..Sorry, maybe I seem paranoid, but I do not trust her.

Besides that, not much has been going on. Same situation with my ex. He’s still been texting and even called earlier today and woke me up.

Blah.

How was your day?
I hope you’re feeling okay. Lemme know. :)

Ttyl.

“Hi.
:(”

Hi tiff,
but…the sad face?

=O

“Maybe add one more because it took a couple days for me to reply again this time? :/”

Nopey can do…with all do respect Miss Missouri, I decide what the cost will be.

=)

“That would leave either my mom or me to take care of the kids. “

True.
I actually thought about that after I replied. Kids!

“My brother-in-law doesn’t watch the kids unless he is ‘told’. Seriously.”

what?!

>=(

Thats “how much he cares for them”?!

Opportunist.

Im pissed.

“She said that her and my brother in law were looking at those, but couldn’t afford it because you had to have one thousand dollars for the deposit or something ..and they didn’t have that kind of money. Sorry, but wtf!!!”

I dont get it.

I dont want to say what I thought,
maybe the day we join accounts … i will.

But I get your “wtf?!”

lol

“They have been living here OVER a year, they pay no bills. How do they not have that money!?”

=O

Only she/him can answer that question.

“There are a few days when I had received like 6 or 7 texts in only a few hours.”

Thats almost harrasment.

Im starting to get a clearer pic of why you feel so frustrated.

“She has already hired someone in my place, I believe. “

Crap.
She’s probably pushing you out, its an emotional thing now. She’s kind of pissing me off too.
So immature, no work ethic.

Keep doing your thing Rene’e, try and not make her see your are frustrated or pissed, and leave when you feel you cant take it anymore.

“I’m sorry ahead of time for rambling on about it, but goodness sakes.”

Im listening.

“Oh, and just so you know, we do not get printed copies of our schedules.
Nor have I ever gotten a paycheck stub, which I have already complained about. “

OMG.

“I felt it wasn’t fair, so I called the district manager and let her know what was going on.”

You did good.

I cant believe this crap.

“..Though I personally feel she doesn’t deserve a ‘notice’. I should just quit on the spot.”

I dont think she should be noticed either. I dont do that.

=S

Even though some people ‘require it’…yeah right.

I’d do it if its a place where its all good and Im the one thats just leaving because of a better opportunity. Only if its a place Id use as reference.

“Let me know how things are going with you, how you’ve been, etc. I’ll ttyl. “

First of all, you need a more than 30 sec hug Tiffany. One of those “you will be OK Rene’e” reassuring hugs, Id say it to your face with a smile. Yes, to make all that negativity around you slip like butter. Then id invite you to some ice cream and late afternoon beachfront.

=)

Me…eh…Im in the usual, apparently hating the xtra time I have alone on the weekends, trying to work with that. Im also having a lil trouble closing my eyes when laying in bed too, but Im sleeping OK.

Let me know how you do these upcoming days Rene’e. Keep me posted on all whats happening.

Take care.
Let me know.

By what times (your time) are you more less going to sleep btw?

Hi.
:(

About 3+ hugs will do.

=O

I think that’s fair. Lol.
Maybe add one more because it took a couple days for me to reply again this time? :/

Why didnt she stay?
Brother in law was supposed to step up!

I’m assuming her reason for not staying was that she’d be in the hospital and her husband would be going to work. ..That would leave either my mom or me to take care of the kids.

My brother-in-law doesn’t watch the kids unless he is ‘told’. Seriously. Sometimes he just leaves without notifying someone or asking if one of us will watch the kids ..and he will just leave, while my sister is at work.

As far as them moving out, I don’t see it happening anytime soon at all. My sister and I were driving back from the store the other day and we drove past some apartments. She said that her and my brother in law were looking at those, but couldn’t afford it because you had to have one thousand dollars for the deposit or something ..and they didn’t have that kind of money. Sorry, but wtf!!!

They have been living here OVER a year, they pay no bills. How do they not have that money!?

For 1, im assuming my texts/calls dont annoy you to that extent.

=O

No!

It annoys me when my manager and/or the assistant manager texts me because they should be actually calling me anyway, and furthermore they text way too often. I can see a text here or there, but I have actually went through and made a log of when they have called and texted. I only went back as far as April 15th, because looking through phone records are a pain in the butt. But since then .. every *single* day, at least one of them have texted me once or called.

There are a few days when I had received like 6 or 7 texts in only a few hours.

I love getting texts and calls from my friends. I don’t consider either of them my friends.

She’ll be screwed if/when you leave.

No she won’t. She has already hired someone in my place, I believe.

Reason for me thinking that is because she had no reason to hire 2 people when the last girl quit, but she did .. and now BOTH of the new girls are getting more hours than I am. Plus, they are getting to work Memorial Day, with holiday pay .. which I feel I should have been offered since I have been there longer.. but was not. (Neither the assistant manager or manager can work holidays, or so I’ve been told.)

1:30am, dog barking constantly at something, I would be curious, with a baseball bat on my hand.

=)

If I lived alone, I think I would be more worried .. but I am sort of used to it. It was probably just a cat or something. lol.

How about you? You sleeping OK?

Idk. Sorta, but not really.
I’ve been having a hard time falling asleep because I have too much on my mind .. but once I actually fall asleep, I sleep pretty well throughout the night.

Ugh.
Today was horrible.
I’m sorry ahead of time for rambling on about it, but goodness sakes.

Yesterday I had been texted multiple times by the assistant manager. She eventually texted me and told me not to forget that I had to work today. I got a little upset because according to both the schedules - The one I copied and the one my boss wrote for me .. I was not scheduled to work.

Oh, and just so you know, we do not get printed copies of our schedules.
Nor have I ever gotten a paycheck stub, which I have already complained about.

I had forgotten that a week ago I told my manager that I would work Sunday (today) if she needed me. She never let me know for sure and she never had it wrote down ..so I assumed she didn’t need me. I got upset and said I wasn’t coming in, she got pissed and said if I didn’t I would be wrote up. (This was still the assistant texting me this.)

I felt it wasn’t fair, so I called the district manager and let her know what was going on.
Well, we had a meeting today and all they both did the whole time was basically talk crap on me, and that they were pissed that I went and contacted someone else ‘above them’.

I also got wrote up..

I am so ready to quit. I think I am putting my two weeks in someday this week. ..Though I personally feel she doesn’t deserve a ‘notice’. I should just quit on the spot.

:’(

Blah.

My ex also kept texting today, to make matters worse.

I hope you’re doing okay.
My neck is killing me .. I think it is the stress.

Let me know how things are going with you, how you’ve been, etc. I’ll ttyl.

=D

“I apologize then.”

About 3+ hugs will do.

=O

“At first it was suppose to be by the end of April, .. now I think it’s the end of June.”

Lets see.

“She has a bad case of pneumonia and was running a fever of 103. “

Thats serious.
Why didnt she stay?
Brother in law was supposed to step up!

“Her and her husband have also been fighting a lot.”

She must be feeling even worse because of that.
I cant imagine.

“Eh..(how are you feeling in your house)”

?

lol

What?

Tell me.

“It was annoying to me, so I never replied back. :S ..Idk if that was bad on my part or not, but I figured if it was serious/important she would have called - like professional people do.”

For 1, im assuming my texts/calls dont annoy you to that extent.

=O

2nd, Yes, she should have called. She will possibly ask you if you received it though.
I dont understand her.

“…I’m not trying to be mean, but that is complete BS. I think I’ve told you that she lives across the street? Well, her sister is completely fine.”

=O

I didnt know that!

lol

Holy crap Tiffany, what kind of boss is that?

“I’m not sure. I think as of right now, just me.”

That sucks.
Im guessing shes taking it out all on you. She is forgetting that pushing you (bothering you so much with her ‘work ethic’ and lies) will be not beneficial for her.
She’ll be screwed if/when you leave.

“She was really dehydrated, plus she had food poisoning they believe.”

Im glad she’s doing better.

“It’s hard telling.
Probably a cat outside or something. lol.”

1:30am, dog barking constantly at something, I would be curious, with a baseball bat on my hand.

=)

“Lol. You’re kidding..
Why?”

No, I am not kidding.

Why? well…do you remember when you talked about the caylee anthony case and mentioned nancy grace?

There you go.

=D

“Yeah, pretty much, but I can’t watch it too often because it’s depressing. “

Me neither.
I dont watch more than a couple of minutes in between channel flips, I have never seen the whole show.

Its sad.

““I have a serious question. If you could find a full time job, would you consider getting a place with me and being roomates?” ..
True story.”

=O
hahaha

I cant believe that sh!t

Wow.

“So, if you could please, update me on how things have been with you. “

Thank you for asking in such a polite and thoughtful manner.
=P

The day was nice. Today was normal yet again, nothing new. Here Im starting to gather up some ‘.gif creating programs’ (reading around and stuff) bc one of my sisters (the one in Miami) has a business plan with a friend of hers and they want me to learn of all that kind of stuff so I can help them out editing/creating animations. So yea, Im sitting in front of the computer at night after I finish what I have to do in the day to keep on ‘expanding the learning curve’.

Im OK overall, last nite I had ‘rushy thoughts’ out of the blue but fell asleep anyways, I went to bed sleepy…so that helped.

How about you? You sleeping OK?

Let me know how your friday goes Tiff. Let me know how you are feeling too.

Stay in touch.

Take care.

:)

Yes Tiffany…I know you are one of a kind, but I will not tolerate “time-indefinite spouse leave”.

Lol, okay.
I apologize then.

That doesnt sound OK.
Didnt they ever get to speak to your sister and hubby about a deadline for
them to get their own place?

Yes. Or that’s what they’ve told me.
At first it was suppose to be by the end of April, .. now I think it’s the end of June.

How is your sister btw?

Horrible.

We all went out to dinner last night together and she seemed to be feeling sick. She had an awful cough and looked to be running a fever. She made an appointment with the doctor today and I took her. She has a bad case of pneumonia and was running a fever of 103. They wanted to keep her in the hospital but she said no. ..So she got like 3 or 4 shots and some medicine.

Her and her husband have also been fighting a lot.

How are you doing there?

Eh..

I really dont understand whats on her mind.
Has she told you why she changes schedules so fast?

Nope.
Today she texted me around noon, asking if I could come in.
It was annoying to me, so I never replied back. :S ..Idk if that was bad on my part or not, but I figured if it was serious/important she would have called - like professional people do.

Then she texted me again around 4 when I was in the doctors office waiting room, and told me that if I could, I needed to go in because her sister and her sister’s friend got in a car wreck.

Now, I’m not trying to be mean, but that is complete BS. I think I’ve told you that she lives across the street? Well, her sister is completely fine.

What a complete lie that was. ..Not a good one either. :/

Who else is left putting up with the crap your boss serves?

I’m not sure. I think as of right now, just me.
She did hire two other girls. However, one of them has another job - which she has to go around her other schedule ..and I’m not sure about the other girl. I’ve never met her.

btw…How is the younger one? She still in and out of the hospital?

Nope. They got that all figured out awhile go, she’s doing better.
She was really dehydrated, plus she had food poisoning they believe.

What was he barking at?

It’s hard telling.
Probably a cat outside or something. lol.

Still the same today?

I did not know you had tornados there.

Nope. It’s just been raining off and on. It sucks. :/

Im OK, not feeling down, and happy to hear from you.

:)

Im reminded of you everytime I come across Nancy Grace’s Show.

Lol. You’re kidding..
Why?

Have you seen her show and whats shes been talking about lately?

Yeah, pretty much, but I can’t watch it too often because it’s depressing.

Tell me more about whats going on with you Rene’e, how you are feeling, how your day went (wednesday). I hope your work place doesnt get worse.

Eh, Wednesday went okay.
I was so tired I took a nap after I got home, which I never do.

Today was blah.
With her texting me, it just was annoying. Not a very good day.

Funny thing happened.
As much hell as my boss has been giving me, she texted me yesterday evening and said “I have a serious question. If you could find a full time job, would you consider getting a place with me and being roomates?” ..
True story.

..She is insane.

Eh. That’s basically about it. I’m just enjoying every last minute of my days off. Ugh. I do not want to go back to work. Ever.

So, if you could please, update me on how things have been with you.

I’ll ttyl.

“I’m just completely exhausted. :( “

I just read that right now (friday almost 1 a.m. my time!)
=O

I hope your day (thursday) went OK.

Thank you for letting me know.

=D

I just wanted to let you know I’m going to reply to your shout tomorrow. :O
Pinky swear.

I’m just completely exhausted. :(

“Hey! :O”

Why the face?

hahaha

“Why do I not believe you?”

=O

Why not?

Yes Tiffany…I know you are one of a kind, but I will not tolerate “time-indefinite spouse leave”.

“Lol, yes. Be patient. :P”

Only if you can make me.

=D

“I’ll tell her if she’s in the wrong. Not disrespectfully of course, but
sometimes I just let her know she needs to realize how she says things sometimes..”

Thats OK. I see no wrong in that.
Your mom also has someone to talk to (you).

“I definitely agree. (parents need vacations)”

Have you told her about it?

“I thought maybe their marriage? Everything.”

=O

“Sometimes she just gets really upset ..usually by something my
brother-in-law is doing (or not doing) ..and takes it out on my dad.”

That doesnt sound OK.
Didnt they ever get to speak to your sister and hubby about a deadline for
them to get their own place?

I still cant believe how your bro-in law can be so ‘parasitic’.

How is your sister btw?

How are you doing there?

“Nobody should constantly live in a stressful situation, but with my dad
having a triple bypass ..he was actually ordered by his doctor to basically try and avoid stress at all costs.”

I agree. What I find misplaced is the fact that, IMO, your mom and dad would not be in this situation if it werent for your brother in law and sis’ living somewhat off them. I believe they (sis & hubby) should’ve tried a different, more positive, approach.

“..It worries me because I worry about his health constantly.”

=(
I can imagine.

“She either asks me to come in early or calls to let me know about a schedule change.”

I really dont understand whats on her mind.
Has she told you why she changes schedules so fast?

“Haha. Okay.That is what I was referring to. “

=P

“well, um, I had the freaking day off. So, she got upset with me I think.”

>=(

She would have no right to get upset. Let her get all pissed off.

“the assistant manager texted me and told me I need to be more open with my schedule and that when I was hired I knew I had to work weekends.”

They are acting as kids. Damn Rene’e…thats no easy crap you have to put up with. One thing is being OK with working on weekends, another thing is changing around the damn schedule so abrubtly.

“It’s just bullshit.”

Yes it is.
Smells like horse poo.

“I just said I wouldn’t work them ALL. “

Exactly. But they, being so ignorant, dont give a flying crap and dont see your piont.

“:/ Sorry, I’m just so frustrated.”

I understand. Nothing to be sorry about Tiff. Im listening.

“Idk. I think I’m going to try and go with #1 unless she tries to pull anything else. I need the money + ..I wouldn’t be able to find a job at this point in time that would probably allow me to still go on vacation with my family in June.”

Only about a month to get to june, so thats something to look forward to. Try and make it Tiff, you can do it.
What you are planning to do sounds OK to me.
I just hope your boss and asskisser stand back a bit.

“Hers were different because she had another job and was only available on the weekends. “

Ah…

Who else is left putting up with the crap your boss serves?

“Which reminds me, how is work going for you?”

All normal. A lot of cases coming in, a lot of scanning documents and crap.

eh…

“I’m assuming you mean the older one? ..She’s doing good. She’s glad school is almost out for the summer. We have a lot of plans. Lol.”

Yes.
Glad to hear that.

btw…How is the younger one? She still in and out of the hospital?

“Chico is getting on my darn nerves. Lol. He’s downstairs and it’s 1:30AM and he’s barking like crazy. Pedro’s asleep right here beside me. ..But that’s about it.”

=O
What was he barking at?

“We’d been getting a lot of rain and the tornado sirens were going off a lot.”

Nasty weather.
=S

Still the same today?

I did not know you had tornados there.

=O

“and wanted to make sure I was okay. He kept sending more texts asking if I’d moved on. I never responded. “

you feeling OK?

“Blah. “

blah.

“I have to wake up early and I know I’m going to have a hard time getting up.”

How was it?
=P

“Please let me know how you’re doing. :)”

Of course Miss Sweets.
Nothing new here, got me some oreos and bought me another bag of Party Mix chips…I forgot I already had one!
=O

Im OK, not feeling down, and happy to hear from you.
Im also waiting on a part I ordered from ebay for a ‘clients’ laptop. I say ‘client’ because its a friends friend laptop…i dont know the guy (owner), but I already called and told him what my diagnostic was…Im hoping Im right so that can be another ’satisfied customer’ and hope for more people to give me their computers to work on.

You know what else sweetie…this might sound corny lol but whenever I prepare myself something to eat and sit in front of the TV flipping channels, Im reminded of you everytime I come across Nancy Grace’s Show.

Yep.
Thats whats crackin’.
lol

Have you seen her show and whats shes been talking about lately?

So yeah, thats basically whats been goin’ on on my side as of now.

Tell me more about whats going on with you Rene’e, how you are feeling, how your day went (wednesday). I hope your work place doesnt get worse. I would be pissed.

Keep me posted, and lets hookie.

Hey! :O

Next time I will ask you for a divorce. Hands down.

Hahaha.
Why do I not believe you?

you coming or not?
=S

Lol, yes. Be patient. :P

How do you react to that?

Idk. I usually just try and stay out of it, but if my mom gets talking about it too much, I’ll voice my opinion.
I’ll tell her if she’s in the wrong. Not disrespectfully of course, but sometimes I just let her know she needs to realize how she says things sometimes..

She seems over her limit of stress Rene’e…your parents need alone time and vacations. Maybe that would help.

What do you think?

I definitely agree.

btw, when she said “she’s about to give up”…what did she mean by that?
“give up” what?

Honestly, Idk.
I thought maybe their marriage? Everything. Sometimes she just gets really upset ..usually by something my brother-in-law is doing (or not doing) ..and takes it out on my dad. He’s already stressed and can’t take it, so they just go back and forth.

Nobody should constantly live in a stressful situation, but with my dad having a triple bypass ..he was actually ordered by his doctor to basically try and avoid stress at all costs.

..It worries me because I worry about his health constantly.

Just to chat or
does she ask you to go in?

She either asks me to come in early or calls to let me know about a schedule change.

btw, play hookie with me if its definition #1 you refer to:

Haha. Okay.
That is what I was referring to.

>=O

what!?

Yep.
.. But it gets worse.

I went in at 9:30am today. I got off at 1:45.

After I had got off, I’d received 4 text messages from her, two from my assistant manager and 1 call.

Basically, last weekend (when my boss called to tell me about schedule changes that didn’t even start until May) she told me that until the 30th, the schedule was EXACTLY the same. No changes.

When she (my boss) called me earlier, she wanted me to come in Saturday. I politely told her that I had already made plans because ..well, um, I had the freaking day off. So, she got upset with me I think.

After that - the assistant manager texted me and told me I need to be more open with my schedule and that when I was hired I knew I had to work weekends.
It’s just bullshit.

I never ever said I wouldn’t work weekends. I just said I wouldn’t work them ALL. My boss is the one who has been scheduling me off on the weekends, I have nothing to do with that. But I’ll be damned if I’m just going to go in every time they don’t feel like working once they say the schedule is ‘final’.

:/ Sorry, I’m just so frustrated.

Whats the plan tiff?
Anything on your mind?

Yes.
I have two different options on my mind right now.

1) I can suck it up and try and deal with their shit until I leave for vacation. (June 19th) that way I would have more money.

or 2) I can just call it quits and leave right now.

Idk. I think I’m going to try and go with #1 unless she tries to pull anything else. I need the money + ..I wouldn’t be able to find a job at this point in time that would probably allow me to still go on vacation with my family in June.

Did that girl have the same type of hours as you?

Nope.

Hers were different because she had another job and was only available on the weekends.

Tiff, let me know how you are doing. Keep me updated on whatever goes on at work too.

Lol, well, I pretty much just told you everything.
Very crappy.

Which reminds me, how is work going for you?

How is your niece?

I’m assuming you mean the older one? ..She’s doing good. She’s glad school is almost out for the summer. We have a lot of plans. Lol.

Your neck OK?

Yes, thank you for asking.

How are the dogs?

Good.
Chico is getting on my darn nerves. Lol. He’s downstairs and it’s 1:30AM and he’s barking like crazy. Pedro’s asleep right here beside me. ..But that’s about it.

Ugh.
My ex also texted me today and yesterday. We’d been getting a lot of rain and the tornado sirens were going off a lot. He said he heard on the news that it was storming bad and wanted to make sure I was okay. He kept sending more texts asking if I’d moved on. I never responded. (Idk if I told you he moved about 3 1/2 hrs away?)

Blah.

I guess that is enough for tonight. I have to wake up early and I know I’m going to have a hard time getting up.

Please let me know how you’re doing. :)

Ttyl.

“Sorry for such a long delay on replying back to your shout.”

=/

Next time I will ask you for a divorce. Hands down.

=O

“Here lately I’ve been pushed to the point where I may just leave any second .. “

you coming or not?
=S

“I just wish I didn’t live here because usually once the fight is over, my mom tries to make me pick sides.”

?
How do you react to that?

“But, to be honest, the majority of the arguments are caused because she is too quick to yell and makes a big deal out of small situations.”

She seems over her limit of stress Rene’e…your parents need alone time and vacations. Maybe that would help.

What do you think?

btw, when she said “she’s about to give up”…what did she mean by that?
“give up” what?

“I used to LOVE going in to work ..”

I know. Thats how I sensed it from you. You seemed to enjoy it very much.

“Even on my days off, she calls and says something ..or texts me.”

Just to chat or
does she ask you to go in?

“In fact, I am playing hookie tomorrow. Lol. :S .. Sad thing is, I don’t even care if she finds out. It’s not even worth it. “

But do you work?

btw, play hookie with me if its definition #1 you refer to:

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define…

“she did tell me (when I worked on Thursday) that I am now being given the crappy hours because the last two times I have worked my sales have been crappy.”

>=O

what!?

“When she told me that, she went on about how she doesn’t like working in the middle of the day (from like 1-5pm, for example) ..because it ruins her whole day and she has no time left to do anything she wants.”

Jesus, she’s ignorant. She is clearly contradicting herself.

Whats the plan tiff?
Anything on your mind?

“..Guess who now has to work those shitty hours?”

I know who…The best employee the store has to offer.

I can understand how pissed off you felt Rene’e. Its like she’s rubs her pride on your face.
You are better than that though. Dont let it get you too down.

“One girl quit last weekend actually. I can’t remember if I had told you that or not. But it was over the immature notes that the manager was leaving..”

I didnt know that.
Did that girl have the same type of hours as you?

“Blah. It’s just ignorant.”

I agree.
Too immature.

“I can’t just easily quit .. or I’d be depressed + broke, like before.”

I know.

“I hope you’re doing okay, feeling good, etc. Let me know if you don’t mind.”

Im good. Glad to see your shout and hear from you actually. Things have been going normal here, nothing new. Supermarket, work, home,…the usual.

Tiff, let me know how you are doing. Keep me updated on whatever goes on at work too.

How is your niece?

Your neck OK?

How are the dogs?

Let me know tiff, thanks for the shout. Take care.

Hey. :/

Sorry for such a long delay on replying back to your shout. Lol. Things have just been crazy. It doesn’t seem like there is enough time in the day to do everything.

Idk if I should actually believe you on that one tiff…

=S

Why not?
Here lately I’ve been pushed to the point where I may just leave any second .. if I had the option to be at the beach and lose my job OR be at work and get a raise.. I’d still choose the beach. Lol.

Mom and dad still arguing?

At times, yes.
Today they got in an argument ..Idk. I just wish I didn’t live here because usually once the fight is over, my mom tries to make me pick sides. It’s dumb.

I’m not sure if it has to do with my sister and them all too, but my mom said she is about to give up. She said she is tired of fighting.

..I think she means with my dad too. :/
But, to be honest, the majority of the arguments are caused because she is too quick to yell and makes a big deal out of small situations.

Maybe your dr sucks?

I’ve thought that before, seriously.

I didnt know that.

Whats up with that crap?
Is this her new ‘trend’?

Idk. She is so ridiculous. I used to LOVE going in to work .. now I absolutely hate it.

Even on my days off, she calls and says something ..or texts me.

She called me Saturday (my day off) and was telling me about a schedule change that didn’t occur until the 3rd of next month. I am curious as to why she couldn’t just WAIT and tell me when I went in to work the next time?

In fact, I am playing hookie tomorrow. Lol. :S .. Sad thing is, I don’t even care if she finds out. It’s not even worth it.

Has she given you a reason for her being so irresponsible?

Anything she has said for her changing things so unnoticed?

No.
However, she did tell me (when I worked on Thursday) that I am now being given the crappy hours because the last two times I have worked my sales have been crappy. That is complete BS. She has given me the crappy hours ever since I’ve started, just because she doesn’t want to work them.

When she told me that, she went on about how she doesn’t like working in the middle of the day (from like 1-5pm, for example) ..because it ruins her whole day and she has no time left to do anything she wants.

..Guess who now has to work those shitty hours?

Yep. Me.
..I’m sorta pissed. :/

How the hell is she a “manager”?

I don’t even know.
My mom is making me write down all the times she screws up, changes the schedule last minute, etc .. just in case she tries to ‘pull’ something so that I have evidence she has no idea what the hell she is doing. One girl quit last weekend actually. I can’t remember if I had told you that or not. But it was over the immature notes that the manager was leaving..

I don’t blame her.

Blah. It’s just ignorant.

Besides that, things have been going okay. I’m trying to not let all that work stuff get to me, but it’s kind of hard because I can’t just easily quit .. or I’d be depressed + broke, like before.

I hope your cousin had a nice visit.

I hope you’re doing okay, feeling good, etc. Let me know if you don’t mind.

P.S. No, I do not mind you calling. If so, I never would have given you my number.

I’ll ttyl. :)

You ok tiff?

=/

“But then again, would I really even care if I were at the beach somewhere?

I think not. :O”

hahaha

that face!

I agree!

“Really.”

Idk if I should actually believe you on that one tiff…

=S

“I don’t want her to think I’m trying to get all into her business.”

True.
I didnt see it that way.

“Not as bad as they have been in the past.”

Mom and dad still arguing?

“It’s been fine.. I honestly don’t know why it does that. (Hurts once in awhile and sometimes is completely fine.) It’s strange.”

Maybe your dr sucks?

=O

“Is he having a nice time?.. Are you enjoying the company?”

Pretty much yes. He doesnt want to leave.
He leaves wednesday afternoon.

“At work it has been crazy. My manager hasn’t been keeping things organized and whatnot ..and she changes the schedule more often than I know.”

=O

“..I did work until she changed it, and forgot to inform me. I got there and wasn’t suppose to be there.”

What?

I didnt know that.

Whats up with that crap?
Is this her new ‘trend’?

“Today I didn’t go in, and on her schedule ..she had me down to work ..so I was 30 mins late.”

wtf tiff.
Has she given you a reason for her being so irresponsible?

Anything she has said for her changing things so unnoticed?

“It’s not professional. She doesn’t give us a printed out schedule .. she writes it down and expects us to copy it. I’m just tired of it..”

Id be pissed.
How the hell is she a “manager”?

“Waitressing sucks, but I guess I have to do what I have to do.”

Yes, like maybe paying me a visit.

Try out the waitressing then, Re’.
You can always leave it and I will most likely be here anyways.

=)

“Sorry for rambling on. :(”

Thats the type of “rambling” I have been trying to listen to by cel phone the days I have had no internet (including these past ones). You don’t have to feel sorry for that, because believe it or not…I give a crap.

=/

“I still don’t know all of the details but she was really sick and really dehydrated. :( Poor girl. (It’s my niece who is 9.) She was here earlier and seemed to be feeling better.”

=(
Sad to her that.
I hope she stays getting better.

“He’s stressing out because I’m stressed out, basically. (Work stuff.)”

He cares.

“I apologize I didn’t answer your call yet again.”

Im going to say something here Re’….Im not angry, nor pissed btw…:

Im starting to think its that you prefer to talk by shouts only. BUT! If it does bother you in some way that I call…I wont Rene’e. Im dont want you to feel uncomfortable, its not the type of person I am. I instantly drop it (the calling).

I actually was calling to see how you have been doing since there was some days where I was not able to ‘hear’ from you..

“Hopefully things are good with you and you’re feeling okay. Let me know. “

Im OK, thanks for asking. Ive been distracted and spending some time with my cousin. Nothing else…except expect tiff to call from the airport.

=O

=D

I did get to take some random pics but not enough to more or less show you the type of area I live at. So Im at it.

Keep me posted on how you are doing and how the work situation goes. I want to hear it, its not a mere “ramble”.

Stay safe Rene’e.
Let me know.

Hi. :/

What would she (your boss) say?

=O

Idk. ..But then again, would I really even care if I were at the beach somewhere?

I think not. :O

Really?

Really.

Is she OK now? or does she still feel down?

Idk. I don’t try and talk about it too much.. I don’t want her to think I’m trying to get all into her business. They haven’t been arguing as much, or so it seems.

btw, how are things going at your house?

Not as bad as they have been in the past.

=(

How has your neck been now?

It’s been fine.. I honestly don’t know why it does that. (Hurts once in awhile and sometimes is completely fine.) It’s strange.

My days have been pretty normal except for not having freaking internet for almost 3 days and my cousin being here w/his kid.

Is he having a nice time?.. Are you enjoying the company?

At work they finally bought me a desk, it turned out nice looking.

Good! :) I’m happy to hear that.

Let me know how you are feeling (physically/emotional). Is your heart OK?

Yep, my heart is okay.
I actually haven’t heard from my ex since that day he went rambling on about how he has a new job, house, etc .. but it’s not complete without me.

Idk. I haven’t even thought about it until just now. It’s sort of sad in a way, but I think I can honestly say I don’t miss him anymore..

At work it has been crazy. My manager hasn’t been keeping things organized and whatnot ..and she changes the schedule more often than I know.

Thursday I accidentally went in (because I had wrote down that I worked) ..I did work until she changed it, and forgot to inform me. I got there and wasn’t suppose to be there.
I can’t remember if I told you that or not.

Today I didn’t go in, and on her schedule ..she had me down to work ..so I was 30 mins late.

Idk. It’s getting to the point where I don’t even care. It’s not professional. She doesn’t give us a printed out schedule .. she writes it down and expects us to copy it. I’m just tired of it.. and tomorrow I’m going to go apply for a waitressing job I’m almost 100% sure I will get.

Waitressing sucks, but I guess I have to do what I have to do.

Sorry for rambling on. :(

One of my niece’s were also in the hospital .. She went in Thursday, they fixed her up .. and she had to end up going back to the ER on Sunday night. I still don’t know all of the details but she was really sick and really dehydrated. :( Poor girl. (It’s my niece who is 9.) She was here earlier and seemed to be feeling better.

How is yur dad doing?

Good, but worried.
He’s stressing out because I’m stressed out, basically. (Work stuff.)

I apologize I didn’t answer your call yet again.

Gah. Just so much stuff was going on this weekend, it was insane.

Hopefully things are good with you and you’re feeling okay. Let me know.

I have to get up early tomorrow :( ..so I guess I’m going to go lay down.

I’ll ttyl.

Hey..

Don’t whoop my butt.

“That was the plan. Lol. (at the beach in PR)”

What would she (your boss) say?

=O

“I’d leave my job in .5 seconds if it means I could be on a beach somewhere. :O”

Really?

“I just didn’t want to get in her business and make her feel any worse. I’ve told her multiple times that she can come to me anytime she needs to talk. ..And she does.”

Is she OK now? or does she still feel down?

btw, how are things going at your house?

“Good! Lol. :P (we could drive around too)”

=O

=D

“It made me laugh so hard when I seen that.”

Holy crap those pictures were funny! He looked like wanting some “privacy”.
hahaha

Nice.

“Why? Lol. (the emoticon face “:O” that gets me when you use it)”

Because its kind of unexpected when you use it, its funny, i can sort of imagine you doing some similar gesture.

“Sort of how I laugh every time I read about you mowing lawn? “

nah.
Now that you mention it, its been almost a month since I have cut some grass at any house

=O

“You have a nice voice, I told you that. But the way you talk is cute.”

Thank you cutie, now say it to my face.

=P

“Yeah, but I told you I didn’t mind. Call whenever you feel like it.. “

I will.

“But if I’m asleep, sometimes I don’t hear my phone ..or sometimes I’m just too tired to answer.”

Know something Rene’e?..I would like to hear your voice.

“Yeah, I hoped I didn’t sound mean when I said “oh it didn’t matter because I couldn’t talk anyway” “

You did not sound mean, dont worry about it.

“I can go all day without really coughing but when I lay down to try and go to sleep I can’t stop.”

Are you taking something for that?

“Haha.
Why the ” =O ” face?
I care too.”

lol

because I wanted to make it mean: “did he just say that??”

“How are you feeling now?”

Im still OK. Havent heard from her since. Its always like that (sporadic calls, in between weeks)

eh.

“You’re gone, that’s why he doesn’t bother her now.”

Yes.
I believe that.
That is what keeps me distant.

“I had to get up early again today, so I’m sort of exhausted. My neck has been bothering me today too. Idk why all of a sudden it’s starting to hurt .. but it gave me a headache. :/”

=(

How has your neck been now?

“I still disagree.
.. And I’m right. :O (you sweeter than me)”

No.
Well I dont agree with you, you are Tiffany Rene’e aka ‘Sweetness’ aka ‘Lil’ Lady Sweets’.
You dont have to disagree on that because its the truth.

…

My days have been pretty normal except for not having freaking internet for almost 3 days and my cousin being here w/his kid. Its been pretty busy since he’s staying downstairs and I have to be close to take him to buy things that the baby would need. The kid is like 1 y/o and is pretty hyper. lol runs around and does his baby things.
Its all OK though. If I recall correctly he will be here until next wednesday.

At work they finally bought me a desk, it turned out nice looking. They also bought new ‘cushioned seats’ and everyone’s happy. That actually helped me feel better there. What I had was flat out crap.
My job sucks, but you know…

Rene’e…let me know how your days have been, since as you know…someone tried hearing it straight from the source but lil lady sweets is not answering…

Let me know how you are feeling (physically/emotional). Is your heart OK?

How is your dad doing?

PS: My internet sucks.

:)

Yes!
“At the beach in PR.”

Yes.
That was the plan. Lol.

But i don’t want you fired from your job Rene’e.

=S

So what days?

Like I said.. whatever days you’re free.
I’d leave my job in .5 seconds if it means I could be on a beach somewhere. :O

..I guess that’s terrible. Lol.

=(

Do you two get along well (sister)?

Oh, yeah. We get along great. Just sometimes she does stuff like that (the job thing) but I know she does it because she cares .. not because she’s trying to insult me or anything. ..The whole reason I didn’t talk to her or ask her what was wrong that night on their anniversary when she was crying was because of a couple of reasons.

..I already knew the basic reason on why she was. (I heard them arguing downstairs.) I knew they’d been arguing prior to that anyway, and him not being there made it worse. I just didn’t want to get in her business and make her feel any worse. I’ve told her multiple times that she can come to me anytime she needs to talk. ..And she does.

We are close, but with my other sister, it’s the complete opposite.

Nobody.
lol

We could drive around too.

Good! Lol. :P

Thank you.
I would like to see it.

It’s sort of odd looking ..
But imagine out of nowhere, looking over to this:

http://i44.tinypic.com/6r390z.jpg
http://i39.tinypic.com/efi24l.jpg

(Sorry, they aren’t the greatest photos..)

He was sleeping halfway inside the pillow case. ;P Crazy dog. It made me laugh so hard when I seen that.

That emoticon face is funny, it gets me every time you use it.

Why? Lol.
.. Sort of how I laugh every time I read about you mowing lawn?

you still had the effects of the sleeping pills during the day?

A little bit I think.. Just because the pills took forever to kick in .. and they’re suppose to work for like 8hrs.

btw, how many did you take?

Two.
Just the recommended dose.

Tiff, as you may have noticed in past convo’s…I struggle a bit with my “conversational english”. lol

Well maybe, but I don’t mind it, if that’s what you think?
That’s probably half of the reason I like hearing you talk anyway. You have a nice voice, I told you that. But the way you talk is cute.

Thing is that since you started to work, I have no idea if you are sleeping or still awake..especially on weekends.

Yeah, but I told you I didn’t mind. Call whenever you feel like it..

It’s not like I get mad over stuff like that. Sometimes I’m just half out if it. Lol. But if I’m asleep, sometimes I don’t hear my phone ..or sometimes I’m just too tired to answer.

did take a chance that other day (missed call/you were showering + sore throat)

Yeah, I hoped I didn’t sound mean when I said “oh it didn’t matter because I couldn’t talk anyway” ..or whatever I said? I didn’t mean it that way.

I couldn’t really talk for like a week, it was awful. I still have a bad cough sometimes, but it’s weird because I can go all day without really coughing but when I lay down to try and go to sleep I can’t stop.

Yes. I care.

=O

Haha.
Why the ” =O ” face?
I care too.

I feel Ok right now but Im not sure if todays convo with ex will backfire later on.

How are you feeling now?

she told me that he’s in his own world, hasnt bothered her.

Hadn’t I told you my thoughts on that before?
It doesn’t surprise me. That’s just the way those type of situations sort of work. He doesn’t really care or want to be with her, yet he still feels like he can control her. (And with all respect .. he still is.) :/
He knows that.

You’re gone, that’s why he doesn’t bother her now.

Idk, I think Im fed up with it already. Crap.

:(

Let me know how your day goes tomorrow (wednesday). Thanks for taking the time out to shout Rene’e…i appreciate that everytime I see it. Always nice.

My day was good.
I had to get up early again today, so I’m sort of exhausted. My neck has been bothering me today too. Idk why all of a sudden it’s starting to hurt .. but it gave me a headache. :/

Besides that, pretty much the same as any other day.

You are still sweeter than me!
=O

I still disagree.
.. And I’m right. :O
Well, if you would please .. let me know how you’re feeling and how your day went.

I’ll ttyl.

Miss Cool.
=P

“I need some really good excuse to not be available to go .. like “Oh, I’m sorry, I’ll be in PR that whole weekend.””

=O

Yes!
“At the beach in PR.”

“Any days you’re free.. “

But i don’t want you fired from your job Rene’e.

=S

So what days?

“I was just concerned that maybe they weren’t being fair.”

eh…its a suckie job, but its what is paying the bills right now.

“I’ve saved almost every dime I’ve made so far .. other than small things I just rrrrreally wanted or gifts. I love to shop, but I’m not stupid about it.”

Thats good to know.
Thank you.

“But my sister has a bad habit of telling me I need to go do this or that, but she won’t give me details or anything on how to. (If that even makes sense.)”

Yea, I understand. Thats the kind of crap my sister did. It makes me feel uncomfortable.

“. I know they fought on their anniversary (later that evening, after he had got home) ..I’m not sure why, all I know is that she was crying.”

=(

Do you two get along well (sister)?

“It makes me feel bad in a way that things turned out like they have, but all that was his doings. “

I know it can bum you out sometimes.
Rene’e, IMO he didnt treat you like you deserved to be treated.
You are too nice for him. You care a lot, you are not a bad person. You are super sweet too.
He does not know how to reciprocate without involving his pride/ego.

“My thoughts on going back with him haven’t changed. Nothing has really changed.”

Happy to hear that.
Thats something I respect you for too.

“Hahaha.
Who said that was a bad thing? (yap the night away hanging out)”

Nobody.
lol

We could drive around too.

“I sort of do like working the evening shift but it was sort of nice going in early today and then getting off with plenty of time still left in the day.

But.. Idk. I still don’t like mornings.”

Thats exactly how I think.
hahaha

“Speaking of which, I have this really super funny picture of Chico. I’ll upload it and send the link in the next shout. :)”

Thank you.
I would like to see it.

“It went by a little slow, but I think that’s because I felt so tired all day. Those sleeping pills took forever to ‘kick in’ and I ended up falling asleep around 2. :O”

That emoticon face is funny, it gets me every time you use it.

you still had the effects of the sleeping pills during the day?

btw, how many did you take?

=O

“It’s nice. I like it. ..However, I haven’t heard it in awhile. :P”

I get it.

=P

lol

Tiff, as you may have noticed in past convo’s…I struggle a bit with my “conversational english”. lol

Thing is that since you started to work, I have no idea if you are sleeping or still awake..especially on weekends. I did take a chance that other day (missed call/you were showering + sore throat), I didnt insist because I thought you were in dreamy land and I didnt want to wake you up.

=)

Yes. I care.

=O

“I hope your day went good. ..Are you sure you’re okay?
Lemme know.”

I feel Ok right now but Im not sure if todays convo with ex will backfire later on.

Thank you for asking.

Yea, we spoke today..she was ‘happy to hear me’ and so as the convo moved on I asked why did she call yesterday (monday) she said that ’since we havent spoken in a while, she wanted to know whats been going on’…you know tiff, the usual. She’s been at doctors offices (doing some tests on her health) and was even at the hospital.
I asked if she wanted me to call everyday or every night, asked what she wanted (in a subtle, jokingly way - she knows its serious anyways) and she said in like a soft bummed out voice “I dont know”…and I told her “you know what a idk means to me…she said yes.

To me its like a eh…dont do it. She knows…

Anyways she also told me her aunt (who’s visiting from New Jersey) was asking about me and wanted to see me (I know her) I asked if she (aunt) knew about the situation and she said yes.
So I said, ‘well you can tell her to call me if she wants. I dont mind talking with her, she knows Im an approachable guy.’

I got along with all her family.
I also went to the point and asked about the kids dad (if he has been bothering her or what) she told me that he’s in his own world, hasnt bothered her.
I told her that this whole thing is kinda hard sometimes because I couldnt ‘be there’ even if I wanted and everytime we spoke I usually ended up bummed out, hence why I didnt call back or call much and kept some distance.
She said she knows.

Chat continued a bit more and that was about it.

Overall it was nice, I wont lie, not what I expected.
But Im OK.

On the other hand, work sucks. I cant seem to feel comfortable anymore.
Its like I stay silent most of my shift and dont joke around as much anymore.
Idk, I think Im fed up with it already. Crap.

My cousin gets here by 5pm wednesday, so Ill see how that goes. He owed my youngest sister and husband some money from like 3 years ago, and he basically failed to pay back or give them an explanation.
So Im guessing thats gonna be a little tense.

Back to you, please and thank you.
=P

Let me know how your day goes tomorrow (wednesday). Thanks for taking the time out to shout Rene’e…i appreciate that everytime I see it. Always nice.
You are still sweeter than me!
=O

Take care and let me know whats crackin’.

=D

;)

Thats awkward.

Yes, even more so because I’m unsure of a good response . ..’No thank you’? ..Because then I sound ungrateful .. or ‘Sure’ but then I either sound like I’m sucking up or something. Idk.

I need some really good excuse to not be available to go .. like “Oh, I’m sorry, I’ll be in PR that whole weekend.”

..Kidding. :P

But what days then?

Any days you’re free..

Besides that they wanted me to do all I did plus that, for basically the same “price”. I declined. I figured it would be too much stress for 1 to 2 bucks more an hour.
And here I am.

Oh, I see.
I was just concerned that maybe they weren’t being fair.

Thats no problem.
You dont seem as a “compulsive shopper”.

Haha.
Nope. I’ve saved almost every dime I’ve made so far .. other than small things I just rrrrreally wanted or gifts. I love to shop, but I’m not stupid about it.

What do you think?

I think no.
..Only because it seems unfair. :P

I dont like someone to tell me something I know Im struggling with already unless they want to freaking help.
That was a long time ago though.

Yep, I agree.
My mom does try and help out a bit. If she finds out places are hiring, she’ll let me know or something.. But my sister has a bad habit of telling me I need to go do this or that, but she won’t give me details or anything on how to. (If that even makes sense.)

Yikes.

How is she doing?

I’m not sure really. We haven’t saw a lot of each other lately, and when we do everyone is around so there is no ‘personal’ conversations. I think their relationship is still a little rocky though. I know they fought on their anniversary (later that evening, after he had got home) ..I’m not sure why, all I know is that she was crying.

and how does that make you feel?

Idk.
It makes me feel bad in a way that things turned out like they have, but all that was his doings. I put forth 100%, even when I felt like I couldn’t ..and I felt like he didn’t deserve it.

My thoughts on going back with him haven’t changed. Nothing has really changed.

I didnt call bc I know it will make me feel sad again. I struggled with that crap last time we spoke. Its like a rollercoaster ride for my emotions and you know I dont like ‘em.

I know. :/

Because you would not let me go downstairs since we would be yapping the night away?

Hahaha.
Who said that was a bad thing?

Unless its something after 9:30am more less and its still ‘ew’.

I agree, lol.

Basically all the jobs that i have had have been afternoon crap or nights.

Yeah. :/
I sort of do like working the evening shift but it was sort of nice going in early today and then getting off with plenty of time still left in the day.

But.. Idk. I still don’t like mornings.

How are the dogs?

Good.
Speaking of which, I have this really super funny picture of Chico. I’ll upload it and send the link in the next shout. :)

I think you will laugh.

I hope your tuesday turns out alright Tiff, let me know how it goes.

It was okay, not too bad.
It went by a little slow, but I think that’s because I felt so tired all day. Those sleeping pills took forever to ‘kick in’ and I ended up falling asleep around 2. :O

btw…You have a sweet voice, you know that?
I remembered that.

Thank you.
You have a sweet voice too. It’s nice. I like it. ..However, I haven’t heard it in awhile. :P

If it were something super important I think she would have “insisted”.

I think so too.

I hope your day went good. ..Are you sure you’re okay?
Lemme know.

Ttyl.

“Yes, but it’s weird because she asks me to hang out outside of work. Movies, concerts, etc.”

=O

Thats awkward.

=S

“I mean I know I’m super cool but gosh. (Jk, jk.) Lol.”

You are “chill”, cool of course. Thats why I would invite you to hang out.

=P

“Idk what the deal was, but for the last two days I’ve worked, her whole attitude has completely changed. She’s like being extra nice.”

Idk Rene’e.
Sounds kind of shady, she already was a lil bitchy with you out of nowhere.

“Sounds good to me. :O”

That made me laugh.

But what days then?

=O

“I already told you, lol.”

?
In PR?

lol

“So how long have you been working at that place? I am wondering .. because if it has been awhile and you’ve seen new people get hired, I would be upset. ?”

Almost 3 years, when I started I started full time but as ‘professional services’, then they said that they had to lower the hours (recently) because of the “economy” and the fact that I wasnt doing much for so many hours (which was true). I (last year) did get to have a second job and had this one as secondary, but then that primary job was over (bunch of people layed off becuse the business/company partners sued each other) and now it sucks.

They (where I work at) did have an opening but it was for a person who would be in charge of calling offices and doing follow-ups on medical reports, plus attending the calls of insurance agents. I suck at too much customer service, most are aholes.
Besides that they wanted me to do all I did plus that, for basically the same “price”. I declined. I figured it would be too much stress for 1 to 2 bucks more an hour.
And here I am.

“That’s what I’m trying to look for, a job with benefits. Idk, it doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen though.”

=(

“I guess so.. but it doesn’t really make much sense in doing so, seeing as how I get paid little to nothing. :P”

Thats no problem.
You dont seem as a “compulsive shopper”. I dont think you would be spending around like crazy. We just have to at least discuss on what we would be spending.

What do you think?

“..Like she just wanted better for you or something? Idk. What do you think?”

Maybe.
But Im somewhat like you, I dont like someone to tell me something I know Im struggling with already unless they want to freaking help.
That was a long time ago though.

“My cousin is an RN.. Has a really good job, but she’s still in debt thousands of dollars from going to college. It’s ridiculous.”

=O
The most I was in debt was about a thousand bucks which was a federal loan I took at college. I did pay it once I graduated. But one of my sisters (the one in miami) was paying a lot of loans for studying at an art institute down in florida.
I agree, its ridiculous.

“Crappy thing is, he was gone all weekend and my sister didn’t go along because she had to work. Sunday was their anniversary and they didn’t get to spend time together.”

Yikes.

How is she doing?

“I did text back. :/ .. He was going on about how he has the things he’s been wanting - a new house, a new job, etc .. but isn’t happy because he doesn’t have me. He misses me and wants me to come back.”

and how does that make you feel?

You know…my ex called I think twice today, but I didnt call back.
Weird. Idk why she would call.

I didnt call bc I know it will make me feel sad again. I struggled with that crap last time we spoke. Its like a rollercoaster ride for my emotions and you know I dont like ‘em.

=S

“Hahaha. :P

..And what are you rolling your eyes about? Lol.”

Because you would not let me go downstairs since we would be yapping the night away?

=O

“I’m actually suppose to be in bed already, I have to get up early tomorrow, which sucks. I’m not a morning person at all. I took some sleeping pills a little while ago because I didn’t think I was going to be able to sleep .. but I don’t think they’re working. Lol.”

Sleeping pills?
lol
Im not a morning person either. Never been.
Unless its something after 9:30am more less and its still ‘ew’.
Basically all the jobs that i have had have been afternoon crap or nights.
……….
Im glad your neck is better.
How are the dogs?

I hope your tuesday turns out alright Tiff, let me know how it goes.
btw…You have a sweet voice, you know that?
I remembered that.

“Well, let me know how you’re doing and how your day went.”

Im OK…was a little surprised to see my exs’ missed call, it did get me a little, but I was determined to let it pass for a change. If it were something super important I think she would have “insisted”.
I cant keep on feeling the convos turning “one sided” and me being the one that “wants and wants” and blah…nothing.

Right now its all normal, I was sleepy at work. My shedule was crapped out beyond normal this last week.
=P

Its raining a little bit right now, which is not bad…but dont think I have forgotten about some more random pics.

PS: Someone by the name of tiffany is looking pretty good at 43 things.

=O

Later Rene’e, take care and keep me updated.

Hey.

by hypocrite I mean : “keep distance”.

Yes, but it’s weird because she asks me to hang out outside of work. Movies, concerts, etc.

I mean I know I’m super cool but gosh. (Jk, jk.) Lol.

Today she actually asked me to go on a small vacation type of thing for 3 days with her.

Idk what the deal was, but for the last two days I’ve worked, her whole attitude has completely changed. She’s like being extra nice.

How?
As in: “sending you a round trip weekend ticket”?

Lol.
Sounds good to me. :O

Where am I?

=O

lol

I already told you, lol.

…my job is 20-25 hrs week plus mileage and computer related side jobs within the company.

I didn’t know that.

They cannot give me a full time per’se (which sucks) because there is no opening and they “cant compromise to it”.

Hmm.
So how long have you been working at that place? I am wondering .. because if it has been awhile and you’ve seen new people get hired, I would be upset. ?

The positive side of it is that I do have medical insurance and they pay part of the social security they take from the check.

That’s good then, at least.
That’s what I’m trying to look for, a job with benefits. Idk, it doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen though.

Join accounts then?

=P

Lol. I guess so.. but it doesn’t really make much sense in doing so, seeing as how I get paid little to nothing. :P

my older sister once asked me if I was going to get a better job and started yapping about me making too little, I just got up the chair and left, I didnt bother to respond. She has not touched that subject since.

:( Maybe she meant it in a different way? ..Like she just wanted better for you or something? Idk. What do you think?

any course that interests you in any of those schools?
They seem pretty nice. Especially the short completion ones.

It’s not really that nothing interests me, it’s just that nothing interests me to the point where I’d pay $20,000 + to go to college for it. ..Maybe I just don’t have enough motivation, I don’t know.

My cousin is an RN.. Has a really good job, but she’s still in debt thousands of dollars from going to college. It’s ridiculous. I just don’t see the point really.

Thats good.
How far does the brother-in law family live?

I’m not sure really. I’ve never met them. I think maybe an hour or two away.
Crappy thing is, he was gone all weekend and my sister didn’t go along because she had to work. Sunday was their anniversary and they didn’t get to spend time together.

He will keep on trying Tiff. He aint giving up.

I know.
He texted me today.
I did text back. :/ .. He was going on about how he has the things he’s been wanting - a new house, a new job, etc .. but isn’t happy because he doesn’t have me. He misses me and wants me to come back.

Buy a cheap ticket to here for a weekend, stay upstairs (i’ll be downstairs) *rolleyes*, when he calls I’ll answer in spanish.

Hahaha. :P

..And what are you rolling your eyes about? Lol.

One of my cousins is coming on wednesday with his kid (supposedly) from Pennsylvania so I’ll see how that goes.

Well, I hope that turns out fun.
It’ll get your mind off stuff, hopefully.

Ah..i wish you were here to chill/hang out.
=P

Ha. Me too.

There you go. Now let me know how your monday goes. How is your neck?

Monday was okay. It went by too fast. Work was boring.

My neck hasn’t been hurting too bad. Thanks for asking.

I’m actually suppose to be in bed already, I have to get up early tomorrow, which sucks. I’m not a morning person at all. I took some sleeping pills a little while ago because I didn’t think I was going to be able to sleep .. but I don’t think they’re working. Lol.

Rene’e = pure sweetness walking around a store in them dressy shoes.”

Awe. :)

Well, let me know how you’re doing and how your day went.

I’ll ttyl.

Finally!
=D

“I’m trying. She’s just so weird. One minute it’s like she hates me, and she’s complaining about everything I do .. and the next she is the opposite.”

eh..she sucks…id go with the :
“do your job, get paid, be a hypocrite to them (for the sake of not getting fired for something stupid she might come up with), and go home”.

=)

by hypocrite I mean : “keep distance”.

“The girl she originally wanted to hire didn’t pass the assessment test. ”

=O

“If they have a problem with something I’m doing, I’ll leave. Idk. I just don’t do that.”

Yea, I know you don’t. But some people do it, in this case I think the assistant manager does.

“Easier said than done. :P”

Yes.

“Well.. you should have been more clear. Lol.”

How?
As in: “sending you a round trip weekend ticket”?

“.. Did you want me to take some pictures of a few places around here? .. You won’t be a bit impressed, but I didn’t know if you still wanted to check them out.”

You could. Just whatever you want to take pictures of. I will most likely be doing the same then.
=)

“I think it’s different because you already are at least somewhere. You’ve been to college. You have a stable job.”

Where am I?

=O

lol

Rene’e…my job is 20-25 hrs week plus mileage and computer related side jobs within the company.
They cannot give me a full time per’se (which sucks) because there is no opening and they “cant compromise to it”.

The positive side of it is that I do have medical insurance and they pay part of the social security they take from the check. All Im left is enough for the apartment and cel phone bill, and a few groceries. The rest is me mowing lawn or repairing someones computer.
It sucks because I basically live check by check and as you know…finding a more stable job is not easy. I do have some savings from previous jobs but barely touch them.

Join accounts then?

=P

“:( ..Has anyone said anything like that to you?”

more less…
my older sister once asked me if I was going to get a better job and started yapping about me making too little, I just got up the chair and left, I didnt bother to respond. She has not touched that subject since. I think she thought I was living or free or something.

“There are a few.. these would be the three closest ones;”

any course that interests you in any of those schools?
They seem pretty nice. Especially the short completion ones.

Pharmacy technician?
no?
They get paid pretty good (at least here).

“I disagree.(you sweeter than me)”

You are sweeter.

“Taste me, and see for yourself.”

=O

Oh
no
he
di’int!

Oh
yes
he
did.

“:O
I would tell you to clean that up! Lol.”

Exactly. Thats why you would not get to see it.

=D

“The kids were gone this weekend to go see some of my brother-in-law’s family. It was quiet .. and relaxing for a change..”

Thats good.
How far does the brother-in law family live?

“because the one in the privnote didn’t work. It was just a bunch of letters and numbers, no website.”

=O
Really?

Crap.
Maybe it expires or something. idk.

“Do I need to remind you again how lucky you are? .. I’m jealous. Lol. ”

Ive gone there a lot in the past that I dont even find it appealing anymore (when going alone).
There are more pretty interesting spots around Puerto Rico but I have not much of an idea on how to get to those places.
=O

I will take some random pics like streets on my way to work, palm trees and stuff like that around my area. idk.

But yea, I would’ve enjoyed taking those pics joking and walking around with you. I wouldve invited you to have a pizza when I took the picture of the pizza cart. I thought about it.

There were also many tourists that day.

“I’ve been going crazy these last few days without internet, lol. ”

I understand. I go wild when I have none for a couple of hours.

“I think next weekend I’m going to take my niece shopping, because her birthday is on the 22nd. I was thinking about taking her to a bigger mall about an hour away, but I’m scared of driving there.”

That sounds nice.

“Idk. Don’t ask. I have this weird fear of getting lost. Lol.”

hahaha
i was going to ask!

=P

“He left a voicemail, but I haven’t heard from him since..”

He will keep on trying Tiff. He aint giving up.

=S

Buy a cheap ticket to here for a weekend, stay upstairs (i’ll be downstairs) *rolleyes*, when he calls I’ll answer in spanish.

“How’ve you been?
How are you feeling? How was your weekend? ..Let me know. :)”

Eh..mine was blah too, no early sleep, bored and not much to do. Tomorrow (monday) i start work again and I dont even know if its better to stay home or go, home sucks sometimes. lol and work does too!

But yea, Im feeling kinda down, isolated I guess. Idk Rene’e…it sucks.

One of my cousins is coming on wednesday with his kid (supposedly) from Pennsylvania so I’ll see how that goes.

Ah..i wish you were here to chill/hang out.
=P
There you go. Now let me know how your monday goes. How is your neck?

Glad to hear from you Tiff.
“Rene’e = pure sweetness walking around a store in them dressy shoes.”

Thanks.
Take care.

lol

=D

Hiiiiiiiii. :D

.. Long time no shout. (Haha.) Okay, I know that was lame.

I hope one of your applications come through.

Me too.

Stay there until you can’t take it anymore.

I’m trying. She’s just so weird. One minute it’s like she hates me, and she’s complaining about everything I do .. and the next she is the opposite.

is the new girl thats coming going to have the same hours as you?

Maybe sometimes, during the weekends. During the week days we work alone. Idk. The girl she originally wanted to hire didn’t pass the assessment test.

Many people are like that, especially when trying to ’shine’ at their job. Its called “asskissing”.

lol

Yeah, lol. .. Well I don’t kiss people’s ass. If they have a problem with something I’m doing, I’ll leave. Idk. I just don’t do that.

Well, so you can stop feeling all stressed out and come and relax a little.

Easier said than done. :P

what?

A gazillion times I did…but yea, I never said anything specific about you picking me up to go to the movies.

Well.. you should have been more clear. Lol.

Idk..I didnt go anywhere to take nice pics…i will take the camera with me and maybe take random pics to later show you..

.. Did you want me to take some pictures of a few places around here? .. You won’t be a bit impressed, but I didn’t know if you still wanted to check them out.

How is my situation (the way I feel) super different than yours?
=S
You are pressuring yourself too.

I don’t think so.
I think it’s different because you already are at least somewhere. You’ve been to college. You have a stable job.

I didn’t even attempt to go to college and I’m stuck at a part time job at which I make little to nothing.

Plus, other people are starting to comment on how I need to get my life together.
:( ..Has anyone said anything like that to you?

I think that’s what gets me the most, is that they’re right.

Could you tell me whats the name of a school or community college around your town? And if they have a website?

There are a few.. these would be the three closest ones;

http://www.hillyardtech.com/index.php
http://www.missouriwestern.edu/
http://www.vatterott-college.edu/

Why?

Im not sweeter than you.

I disagree.

I had a mess here, what would Rene’e say if she saw that?

:O
I would tell you to clean that up! Lol.

what Im trying to see is “the bourne identity” series (the three movies that came out a long time ago, I never saw them).

I’ve seen the first two, though I can’t remember much of anything.

Btw, your parents OK?

Yeah. They do seem to be doing a little better here lately. The kids were gone this weekend to go see some of my brother-in-law’s family. It was quiet .. and relaxing for a change..

I hope you enjoyed the concert!

Omgsh, I did. It was AMAZING. :)

…I received a email stating that someone clicked on the “privenote” link

Yep, I’m guilty.

We finally got internet back today and I went to Help, but couldn’t remember my login .. and so I did a search and found my name and read my shouts. It’s good that you texted me the link though, because the one in the privnote didn’t work. It was just a bunch of letters and numbers, no website.

Those pictures were gorgeous.

Do I need to remind you again how lucky you are? .. I’m jealous. Lol.

I hope you are doing OK.

I’m doing fine..
I’ve been going crazy these last few days without internet, lol.

This weekend was sort of blah. I had to work Friday and Saturday .. and today it was all rainy. I think next weekend I’m going to take my niece shopping, because her birthday is on the 22nd. I was thinking about taking her to a bigger mall about an hour away, but I’m scared of driving there. :/

Idk. Don’t ask. I have this weird fear of getting lost. Lol.

My ex tried calling Saturday afternoon, but I didn’t answer because I was at work. He left a voicemail, but I haven’t heard from him since..

Anyway,

How’ve you been?
How are you feeling? How was your weekend? ..Let me know. :)

I’ll ttyl.

…I received a email stating that someone clicked on the “privenote” link therefore whatever message i wrote is erased (its a one time read)…let me know if it wasnt you, so I can send the link to your e mail then.

I hope you are doing OK.
=)

I hope you enjoyed the concert!

https://privnote.com/n/meajfmbvygpszm…

Let me know how you are feeling and how your day went.

See ‘ya.
=P

hi,

“But I don’t think many other people think like that. It’s not enough hours to make much of anything..”

I agree.
I hope one of your applications come through.

“Just quit on the spot or put in a two weeks notice?”

On the spot.

“I guess I just didn’t expect it .. because I do work hard, I don’t slack off and I was doing great. I never thought they’d pull something like this. .. But, maybe it’s a sign.”

Stay there until you can’t take it anymore.
Is the new girl thats coming going to have the same hours as you?

“I can usually get a pretty good idea of how a person really is, not too long after meeting them. The ‘vibe’ they put off, I guess. But I was totally wrong about these two.”

I know…
it sucks, they failed. Now you know what type of people you are dealing with. Many people are like that, especially when trying to ’shine’ at their job. Its called “asskissing”.

lol

Something like that.

“:P
What does that have to do with anything? “

Well, so you can stop feeling all stressed out and come and relax a little.

=O

“I don’t.
Then again, I don’t trust anyone. Lol.”

hahaha
true…
i almost forgot!

“.. I just thought she was cool at first. Guess not. ..What a shame.”

yea, she’s probably too into herself. Maybe she felt “threatened” by you. Sometimes being too good at something can be perceived as a threat by another person.
Who knows?

“Hahaha. You make me laugh. :P”

=P
Thats one of my specialties.
=O

“You never asked me to come.”

=O x2

what?

A gazillion times I did…but yea, I never said anything specific about you picking me up to go to the movies.

“I haven’t even heard of it..”

you dont have to see the trailer…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4blSr…

I cant even remember when it came out nor if its still at the movies.

=O

“And why not? :O (camera)”

Idk..I didnt go anywhere to take nice pics…i will take the camera with me and maybe take random pics to later show you..

“You are putting too much pressure on yourself though. ..”

How is my situation (the way I feel) super different than yours?
=S
You are pressuring yourself too.

“I think what sort of makes it worse for me is that not only do I think that way but now I see other people think that way of me too. (Me waisting my life, etc.)”

What?

Rene’e…dont pay attention to that crap.

Could you tell me whats the name of a school or community college around your town? And if they have a website?

“I appreciate that, you’re sweet.. but I guess I just have to deal with it. Hopefully things will work out. Idk. Really sort of sucks though .. because besides not having that many hours, I really enjoyed that job.”

Im not sweeter than you.

On a sidenote…go to your job to work and get paid, forget about that double-faced assistant and the manager. Lets see what the new girl brings (the one thats coming in summer).

“.. And, weren’t you suppose to give me a massage? Lol.”

Yes…with some personal flair.

=P

“But, yeah. That’s pretty much it. I’m extremely excited for tomorrow night. “

Aww yeah!

A night to sing’ out loud.
Enjoy that Rene’e.

“How about you? How are you feeling?

Guess.

lol

ah, nothing new. I shorted one of the computers I was working on last night, this afternoon. =S

Something made contact with the “printed circuit board” while I was moving some cables and ZAP! a little smoke with that burning smell and “Sayonara”…to the trash can. It was my bad, I was never supposed to move cables while the computer is powered on…eh…live and learn the hard way.
It was an old computer board though, made up of different spare parts, nothing major…but the feeling sucked for a while.

While at it, I got rid of some crap I had laying around and cleaned up a little. I had a mess here, what would Rene’e say if she saw that?

=O

I dont like to having a mess in my house…if someone comes, Id be embarrased.

Besides that, nothing else is happening. Silent day, silent night, as usual here. Gonna finish up a movie I started to see two days ago.

=S

Btw, what Im trying to see is “the bourne identity” series (the three movies that came out a long time ago, I never saw them).

Tiffany,
Let me know how your day goes tomorrow (wednesday), have fun at the concert. Take care of yourself and thanks. I know I say this a lot but its nice hearing from you.
Don’t stress out much, you will be fine.
Somebody is going to be looking extra attractive wednesday night!

Btw, your parents OK?

Let me know too.
=D

Hey there. :P

Does she work on saturdays?

Only sometimes I believe, and when she does it’s only for like 3 hours or so. I mean I completely understand she is the manager and should get the better hours, but she’s being too selfish, IMO. Any time she wants to take off, she does .. no matter how short of notice it is.

Even my mom said earlier that she is pretty much screwing herself over. I bring in tons of sales and she is going to have a hard time finding someone who will willingly take the hours I work. (5:15-9:30PM or 6-9PM - 4 days a week) I don’t mind the hours though, because seriously .. what else do I have to do? But I don’t think many other people think like that. It’s not enough hours to make much of anything..

The next day I quit.

Just quit on the spot or put in a two weeks notice?

I worked for 3 and so years there.

That is shocking..
I guess I just didn’t expect it .. because I do work hard, I don’t slack off and I was doing great. I never thought they’d pull something like this. .. But, maybe it’s a sign.

Yep. One thing Rene’e…dont trust anyone there, be as hypocritical as they are with you. Ass-istant manager = Ass.

Yeah. Idk. I can usually get a pretty good idea of how a person really is, not too long after meeting them. The ‘vibe’ they put off, I guess. But I was totally wrong about these two.

They are showing their true colors.

I know. I agree.

I understand.
let me see if I can get a better paying job so you can come here.
=P

:P
What does that have to do with anything?

Yep. Its the way aholes and companies work.
They usually see what they want, they see you as ‘replaceable’.

That’s very true. A few times I have even questioned if maybe they were intentionally doing things that would make me upset just so that I would end up leaving? Idk. They don’t appreciate me, I know that for sure.

Just dont trust her.

I don’t.
Then again, I don’t trust anyone. Lol.

.. I just thought she was cool at first. Guess not. ..What a shame.

No.
You never came.

Hahaha. You make me laugh. :P

You never asked me to come.

I want to see “watchmen”.

I haven’t even heard of it..

I took the camera with me but didnt take pics.

And why not? :O

Guess what…thats how I feel.
Ive been telling you that for ever now
lol

Well, I know. You are putting too much pressure on yourself though. .. But you know. I’ve been telling you that for forever now ..

I think what sort of makes it worse for me is that not only do I think that way but now I see other people think that way of me too. (Me waisting my life, etc.)

Give it some time.
Rant, ramble or vent. Let me hear it.

Thank you.
Same goes for you, because I don’t mind listening.

idk Rene’e…I wish I could do more and try and make you focus on something beyond that crappy feeling.

I appreciate that, you’re sweet.. but I guess I just have to deal with it. Hopefully things will work out. Idk. Really sort of sucks though .. because besides not having that many hours, I really enjoyed that job.

Let me know how your tuesday goes. Take it easy…apply to yourself what you tell me: “Dont pressure yourself”.

It was okay, not too bad.
I didn’t work today, so I tried to just relax and not think of all the stuff that’s stressing me out about work. My neck has been killing me since yesterday. It’s awful. .. And, weren’t you suppose to give me a massage? Lol.

I didn’t get much sleep last night either, so I’m already a little tired. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to sleep though.

But, yeah. That’s pretty much it. I’m extremely excited for tomorrow night.

Just because you get all pissed off does not mean you are not cute anymore.

Hahaha.

I was going to reply to your shout last nite, but my internet connection failed me while in the process.

Lol, well thank you for letting me know .. but don’t worry about it.

SO.
How about you? How are you feeling?
Lemme know how things are going, if you don’t mind.

I’ll ttyl.

“Nice avatar..”

=)

“.. Since then, she has been pissed off at me. I can tell because now she’s treating me differently. (The notes at work, her attitude towards me, etc.)”

Does she work on saturdays?

“It was saying that she doesn’t mind us having visitors come in and chat with us, but it is unacceptable on weekends because we need to be paying attention to work.”

i know how that feels. That happened to me once on my first job. All was done and a friend of mine unexpectedly stopped by, i was alone so we chatted a bit (it was not like I stopped doing whatever i was. Crap was that another dept. manager spoke crap about me and the next day the store manager tried to pull BS on me. The next day I quit. The mofo and the district supervisor then wanted me to “rethink” and so did my immediate boss, I said “that sort of disrespect I do not tolerate”, gave them the letter I wrote the previous day and left…I worked for 3 and so years there. They knew I busted my butt off countless times alone (3 time employee of the month, never missed a day, trusted me enough to let me “in charge” so they can take their long ass breaks, etc…). It was at a supermarket, while attending college, basically my first job.

That was crap.

“There is no possible way my manager would have known I had a ‘visitor’ unless someone said something.”

Yep. One thing Rene’e…dont trust anyone there, be as hypocritical as they are with you. Ass-istant manager = Ass.

They are showing their true colors.

“I loved that job and now I’m getting to the point where I just want to walk out.”

I understand.
let me see if I can get a better paying job so you can come here.
=P

“She told me I could go to that concert with my niece and then texted me today and said she wasn’t sure if I could go. “

=O

“They always want me to come in early or come in last minute and I ALWAYS do, but if I ask a small favor it’s like I’m asking for too much.”

Yep. Its the way aholes and companies work.
They usually see what they want, they see you as ‘replaceable’.
That type of crap was similar to what happened to me the other day.
I know how irritating it is.
Awful.

“She now even wants me to come in on the 19th for a few hours. I mean, honestly .. wtf. “

=O

“I’m beginning to wonder.. :/”

Just dont trust her.

“I’ve already been putting applications in. I think once I get another job, I’m going to put in my two weeks notice.”

Good.

“Did you go?
If so, what movie did you end up seeing - how was it?”

No.
You never came.

I want to see “watchmen”.

I got carried away going to walmart and a computer store to buy a computer case i needed for one of my sisters old computer. I was spray painting some small fans too.
Today was pretty distracting, I took the camera with me but didnt take pics.

“I’ve told you in the past that I feel like my time is running out and that I need to get my life together.. But him saying that makes it seem true. I have no damn direction in life and it feels like I’m failing, slowly. It sucks .. badly.”

Guess what…thats how I feel.
Ive been telling you that for ever now
lol

“Sad, .. maybe even pathetic.. but it’s all already sort of gotten to me.
Idk, I know I shouldn’t let it. “

Give it some time.
Rant, ramble or vent. Let me hear it.

“I knew my happiness wouldn’t last too long. Sucks.”

That made me laugh, but not as in ‘making fun’.
I identify with that.

“I hope you’re doing okay, feeling okay, enjoying your vacation. Lemme know.”

Days are the same except for work. I am hungry right now.
This week is pretty short, a lot of shcools close for the week and so do some offices. So there is some traffic whenever I go out somewhere.

Im cleaning up a mess I have here and once I finish I will see what I can eat. I want a chicken sandwich…
You should stop by.

idk Rene’e…I wish I could do more and try and make you focus on something beyond that crappy feeling.

Thank you for the shout.

Let me know how your tuesday goes. Take it easy…apply to yourself what you tell me: “Dont pressure yourself”.

Let see how things go.

Keep taking care of yourself.
Just because you get all pissed off does not mean you are not cute anymore.

Let me know.

=)

PS: I was going to reply to your shout last nite, but my internet connection failed me while in the process.

:P
Nice avatar..

ah…seems non-considerate from her.
I hate that childish crap. What would it cost her to alternate the Saturdays?

I doubt it. I never once said I wouldn’t work Saturdays at all .. I just politely said not every single one of them .. Since then, she has been pissed off at me. I can tell because now she’s treating me differently. (The notes at work, her attitude towards me, etc.)

She left another note today..

It was saying that she doesn’t mind us having visitors come in and chat with us, but it is unacceptable on weekends because we need to be paying attention to work. My niece was there last weekend. She walked around a bit .. but for the last hour or so, she stayed at my counter and just talked to me. It was completely dead though and we had no customers.

The assistant manager was working with me that night and was saying she didn’t mind and wasn’t going to say anything .. because we didn’t even have customers. I mean it sounds crazy, but I think they are both against me. There is no possible way my manager would have known I had a ‘visitor’ unless someone said something.

:( Sorry. Ugh. It is just so annoying. I loved that job and now I’m getting to the point where I just want to walk out.

She told me I could go to that concert with my niece and then texted me today and said she wasn’t sure if I could go. I do get to go .. but it’s just the point.

They always want me to come in early or come in last minute and I ALWAYS do, but if I ask a small favor it’s like I’m asking for too much.

yes, its irritating. Id be pissed off too. Seems like she’s mad at something else and doesnt care I guess.

Idk.

You remember how I told you I am going on vacation the 19-22? She now even wants me to come in on the 19th for a few hours. I mean, honestly .. wtf. That is suppose to be my vacation and 4 days isn’t even much as it is. (Not that I’m really complaining, I’m glad I get any vacation .. but goodness.)

Let see what she does on your schedule the next time. Idk now…but maybe you can ask her later on if she can sort of alternate the saturdays or something.

That’s the thing though .. I told her I would work some Saturdays .. the only reason I don’t really want to work Saturdays right now is because Ciera is still in school and Saturdays are the only time we really get to hang out.. I have never asked for a weekend off or even a day off, except for the days of my vacation.

I hope she doesnt turn out to be a b!tch.

I’m beginning to wonder.. :/
I’ve already been putting applications in. I think once I get another job, I’m going to put in my two weeks notice.

lol
Tomorrow I might go to the movies in the afternoon…not sure yet.

Did you go?
If so, what movie did you end up seeing - how was it?

I understand how it makes you feel.
He took it a little over the limit, just enough to hurt, actually.

Well, a lot actually.
Because it does make me think like that. I’ve told you in the past that I feel like my time is running out and that I need to get my life together.. But him saying that makes it seem true. I have no damn direction in life and it feels like I’m failing, slowly. It sucks .. badly.

Nickleback yes, the other 2 bands Im not sure about, maybe I have heard a song about them (Seether and Saving Able) but idk by name.

Lucky you.

:)
I’m sure you may have heard one or two songs from the other two;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpr7Kq…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZENfH…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oq3MK8…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dFs7f2…

Gosh, I love them all. :P Lol.
They have some amazing songs..

As the days go by you might feel more stressed out. Dont let it get to you Rene’e. Keep on moving. You will be fine.

Sad, .. maybe even pathetic.. but it’s all already sort of gotten to me.
Idk, I know I shouldn’t let it.

Keep me updated on how you are feeling. Let me know how your monday goes too Tiff.

Sorta crappy.

I knew my happiness wouldn’t last too long. Sucks.

I hope you’re doing okay, feeling okay, enjoying your vacation. Lemme know.

Ttyl.

=D

“I figured it out earlier.. Just send the e-mails to this:”

Thank you.

“.. I did not know that.”

You learn something new everyday eh?

“When I went in to work the next day (which would have been Saturday) there was a note written supposedly to all of us, that said if we were going to complain about working the weekends we need to put in our two weeks notice.”

ah…seems non-considerate from her.
I hate that childish crap. What would it cost her to alternate the Saturdays?

“I said no problem. But when I went in, she had already changed my schedule (without notice) and I am now working both days next weekend too.”

Yes, its irritating. Id be pissed off too. Seems like she’s mad at something else and doesnt care I guess.

Let see what she does on your schedule the next time. Idk now…but maybe you can ask her later on if she can sort of alternate the saturdays or something.

I hope she doesnt turn out to be a b!tch.

“I do sometimes..”

Don’t.

“Are you relaxing and enjoying yourself? “

Trying to.
lol
Tomorrow I might go to the movies in the afternoon…not sure yet.

“Saying he has changed and that he hopes I can give the ‘new him’ a chance.”

Ah…
I think he will keep on insisting.

“He says he doesn’t want me wasting my life; that I basically need to get a good job and move out, support myself, etc. He also says I need to go to college.

I just don’t even want to talk about it anymore. It made me feel like shit.”

I understand how it makes you feel.
He took it a little over the limit, just enough to hurt, actually.

“The only good thing about today was that I found out I’m going to be able to go to a concert on Wednesday with my niece. Her dad bought her an early birthday present (the tickets) but he bought her two so she could have someone go, and she wanted me to. It’s for Nickelback, Seether and Saving Able. Idk if you listen to any of those bands..”

Nickleback yes, the other 2 bands Im not sure about, maybe I have heard a song about them (Seether and Saving Able) but idk by name.

Lucky you.

“I definitely hope your day was better than mine.

I have a headache and my neck is seriously killing me. :( ..Blah.”

eh..
I have a headache too. Tonite I drove to a McD’s and bought me some nuggets. haha
That was it.

Its been raining sporadically at night lately…I start to think the power is going to go out each time.
Im going to go and finish watching some movies in my room later on.

“Also, I apologize for not answering last night, I was in the shower .. But, it honestly wouldn’t have mattered because my throat is so sore and swollen that I can barely talk. :( I appreciate you calling though, it was nice.”

No problem.

As the days go by you might feel more stressed out. Dont let it get to you Rene’e. Keep on moving. You will be fine.

You are not crap.

Keep me updated on how you are feeling. Let me know how your monday goes too Tiff.

Take care.

:)

you gotta’ let me know.

Okay.

I figured it out earlier.. Just send the e-mails to this:

8163832612 @ mobile. mycingular .com
(without the spaces, of course.)

And my phone will send the message directly to my phone.

:)

“You should be here”, is what I was referring to.
=O

Oh, lol. :P

You can be so “adorably irresistible” and ‘huggably sweet’ with things you say Rene’e, did you know that?

.. I did not know that.

=O

What?

Just a bunch of retarded stuff.
There is a new girl going to be working soon .. because someone else is going to take a 2 month trip over the summer and is basically leaving for good.
Anyway, my boss asked if I would work weekends instead of Tuesdays. I said I didn’t mind working Fridays at all .. But I did mind working Saturdays a bit. However, I would .. I would just prefer not to work them all the time.

I think she got pissed off.. Because she called me and said I am required to work when she needs me, because I put on my application weekdays, weekends, and holidays. When I went in to work the next day (which would have been Saturday) there was a note written supposedly to all of us, that said if we were going to complain about working the weekends we need to put in our two weeks notice.

I just feel it was BS and targeted at me. She had also just changed my schedule. I wasn’t suppose to work this weekend or next weekend. I ended up going in Saturday because she needed me. I said no problem. But when I went in, she had already changed my schedule (without notice) and I am now working both days next weekend too.

Ugh.. Idk.
I’m sorry to ramble on, it’s just irritating. :(

You have someone here who does not mind listening to you. I hope you dont think its a ‘burden’ for me.

I do sometimes..

Now get over here.

Hahaha, :P

Besides that I did basically nothing today (its the first day of my week vacation)
=)

How’s that going?
Are you relaxing and enjoying yourself?

who?

=O
lol

Lol. He was telling me that he’s leaving Tuesday and he has a duplex down there and a job already. Idk. Saying he has changed and that he hopes I can give the ‘new him’ a chance.

Let me know how you are doing tiffany, Im serious.

Ugh. Today was crappy too.

It was all actually going good until my uncle started getting on to me about how he doesn’t want me to ‘waste my life’. (According to him, I am now because I’m only working about 12 hrs per week with minimum wage.)

It all started because he wanted me to get an application for the place his girlfriend works at. She’s a waitress and I politely told him multiple times that I don’t want to do that again. It was miserable.

Well, he didn’t seem to understand that ..and kept going on about how I’d make excellent money and that I need to get my life together because I’m 20 years old. He says he doesn’t want me wasting my life; that I basically need to get a good job and move out, support myself, etc. He also says I need to go to college.

I just don’t even want to talk about it anymore. It made me feel like shit.

The only good thing about today was that I found out I’m going to be able to go to a concert on Wednesday with my niece. Her dad bought her an early birthday present (the tickets) but he bought her two so she could have someone go, and she wanted me to. It’s for Nickelback, Seether and Saving Able. Idk if you listen to any of those bands..

But yeah.
I definitely hope your day was better than mine.

I have a headache and my neck is seriously killing me. :( ..Blah.

Let me know how you’re feeling and how your day went.

Also, I apologize for not answering last night, I was in the shower .. But, it honestly wouldn’t have mattered because my throat is so sore and swollen that I can barely talk. :( I appreciate you calling though, it was nice.

Ttyl.

=D

“but sometimes you get what you pay for. I get excellent signal, etc. so It’s worth it all IMO.”

True.

“I got the black one.
But I got a cover earlier today and it’s black and pink.. “

“Girly nice”.
Cute.

=)

“I think there may be some way where I can have it alert me through text message when I do get a new e-mail, that way I will know.”

you gotta’ let me know.

“? “

“You should be here”, is what I was referring to.
=O
You can be so “adorably irresistible” and ‘huggably sweet’ with things you say Rene’e, did you know that?

“Same with you. .. I wish I still felt good. Some crap happened today and yesterday and ugh..”

=O

What?

“I don’t ever have anyone to usually talk to things about .. then when I do I either don’t want to burden them with my problems or just don’t want to talk about it all..”

You have someone here who does not mind listening to you. I hope you dont think its a ‘burden’ for me.

You know what? I was going to call you last nite but I didn’t, because I was not sure if you were asleep or not, I decided to not text you either because I remembered you wouldn’t receive the text as an instant message.

“I suppose not. :O”

=O

Now get over here.

“I’m having a few problems at work now. It’s a long story. ..And it’s retarded. So, I’m not even going to bother.”

Im shocked.

“I think I need to start looking for a new job.”

What the hell tiff…whats up?

“I at least hope things are going well with you. How was your day today? How are you feeling?”

Im feeling like crap, but its because loneliness drives me nuts sometimes. Ah…the usual.
I went to the supermarket like at 11pm or so…got my mind off stuff. Drinking some lemon juice as I write.

Besides that I did basically nothing today (its the first day of my week vacation)
=)

Helped my bro-in law with some computer stuff, that was it. Stayed home, and it rained a lil bit.

Rene’e…let me know whats up. Im honestly eager to know whats going on, you were so happy a couple of days ago.
Come here, gimme a hug (text me, I’ll call if you dont want to write it down)…I will say it to your face.

..Oh, and I forgot to say that my ex texted me earlier.”

who?

=O
lol

Let me know how you are doing tiffany, Im serious. I do care, so take care.

:)

Nah..it varies here, AT&T to me has the best signal, they are expensive..Sprint is super expensive too.

Yeah, I suppose AT&T is expensive.. but sometimes you get what you pay for. I get excellent signal, etc. so It’s worth it all IMO.

What color are you getting the phone?

?
I got the black one.
But I got a cover earlier today and it’s black and pink..

Yep. The only downfall would be you not instantly receiving them, for example…if I send you a sweet dreams one…you might be getting to read it the next afternoon?

hahaha

Lol, yeah.
I do know that my phone has a button I can click on that instantly connects me to my regular e-mail. It’s not like one set up with my phone, but it’s better than nothing. I think there may be some way where I can have it alert me through text message when I do get a new e-mail, that way I will know.

I guess I was supposed to ask my first grade teacher that.

=O

I guess so..

I will search for a nice one this next week and let them know where to buy it.
They said they didn’t mind.

That’s good at least.

Are you coming or not?
haha

?

Compared to the times I have noticed you feeling so down sometimes..I like it when you feel good.
=)

Thank you. Same with you. .. I wish I still felt good. Some crap happened today and yesterday and ugh..

Yea, its difficult when you are all alone and you have to basically pick yourself up everytime.

But Im better today.

I know what you mean, sorta. I don’t ever have anyone to usually talk to things about .. then when I do I either don’t want to burden them with my problems or just don’t want to talk about it all..

yea…
and Im talkin’ bout hugs and sweets.

I hope you dont mind though.
=O

Hahaha.
I suppose not. :O

I havent done much today, only the usual,
you know, chill, wait for Tiff to drop by, etc…

:P

Im glad you feel good Rene’e…let me know how friday goes.

Sorry I didn’t get to reply to your shout yesterday. A lot was going on and by the time I got ready to, I was exhausted.

Yesterday wasn’t bad. Today sort of was.

I’m having a few problems at work now. It’s a long story. ..And it’s retarded. So, I’m not even going to bother.

I think I need to start looking for a new job.

I at least hope things are going well with you. How was your day today? How are you feeling?

..Oh, and I forgot to say that my ex texted me earlier.

Blah.

I’ll ttyl.

Freaking crap, i hit a key and my shout erased.

CRAP!

hahaha

“Do the majority of people you know have T Mobile?”

Nah..it varies here, AT&T to me has the best signal, they are expensive..Sprint is super expensive too. Tmobile is pretty decent I cant complain, I only know 2 people that use it. Verizon is also good. My sister, mom and bro-in law are with a company called Centennial.

“Aw. :(
Lol. I’m trying to figure this phone out .. but so far I don’t think it has like a personalized e-mail type of thing. I’ll let you know once I find out for sure.”

Thank you.

“..This is the phone I ended up getting:”

Awesome, but dont drop it!
What color are you getting the phone?

“You sure? :/”

Yep. The only downfall would be you not instantly receiving them, for example…if I send you a sweet dreams one…you might be getting to read it the next afternoon?

hahaha

=S

“If you never ever talk to strangers, how are you suppose to ever meet new people? :P :O”

I guess I was supposed to ask my first grade teacher that.

=O

“I know it’s probably stupid, but when you are miserable at work ..it does effect your whole life. It’s just not worth it IMO ..”

i agree. I have done that before (quitting bc of not feeling at ease at work) but nowadays I feel its been harder to find a job one would enjoy.
Plus I have to pay some stuff.

Are you coming or not?
haha

“That’s all you can basically do in those type of situations. ..They have it coming. “

Yes, I told them too. Today..in a calm manner.

“If you don’t mind me asking .. how long has it been like that?”

Well…we moved to this new place in the beginning of march, so almost a month. I have been waiting for “new desks” since forever…the last ones were thrown away while moving because they were already broken (their support), they fell forward if they had no boxes underneath them.
So yea…its been like more than 6 months…but this last month its been worse bc I dont even have the desk that was thrown away.

=O

I will search for a nice one this next week and let them know where to buy it.
They said they didn’t mind.

“I remember once I worked with my sister at a daycare a LONG time ago. I hated it. ..I just don’t think work + family mix.”

In my almost three years, this was the first “misunderstanding” i have had with them. What basically caused it was my sisters comment. But she spoke to me today, we chatted and cleared things up.
I dont mix family and business..I wouldve been gone by now.

lol

“it’s probably nothing compared to all the long, complicated stories you listened to about my ex. Lol”

I dont mind listening to you Rene’e, I enjoy it. You are sweet…you shouldve told me you lived here so I couldve personally listened.

=P

“..Sounds lame, but I’m pretty proud of myself. :)”

Not lame to me. Im actually happy for that.
Compared to the times I have noticed you feeling so down sometimes..I like it when you feel good.
=)

“My mom gave me some medicine and I’ve been putting a heat wrap on it, but it’s doing absolutely nothing.”

=O

That doesnt sound good.

“You’re being way too hard on yourself. Stop thinking so negatively.”

Yea, its difficult when you are all alone and you have to basically pick yourself up everytime.

But Im better today.

“I was actually going to send you a random joke through text last night to at least make you smile .. But, I figured it was childish. SOooo, I didn’t.”

=(

Now that will cost you…
For not sending the text, now you owe me an unlimited amount of sweetness you give.

lol

yea…
and Im talkin’ bout hugs and sweets.

I hope you dont mind though.
=O

Thank you for thinking about me
=P
Feels good.

“I’m assuming you mean the two little ones that live here?”

Yep.
=)

“He drew an Easter bunny, eggs, and a tree. Then he also drew a photo of Pedro and Chico. Lol”

Thats so freaking sweet. Melts a heart everytime.
I used to draw with one of my nieces a lot. Way back when she was like 10, shes almost 15 now and lives in the states, It took my mind off a lot of things. We used to put cartoon network on and draw characters from there. I was impressed on her skills.

Ah…good times.
lol

“So when are you going to be here exactly? :O Jk..”

I will be there by the time you get out of work, pick me up in them dressy shoes!
=P
But remember, you will most likely want to come back with me when the weeks over.
So keep that in mind.

=D

lol

“How’d your day today go? (Besides what you told me already about work.)
You still feeling crappy? “

Im better. Im glad things at work got cleared up cause today i woke up tense. I havent done much today, only the usual,
you know, chill, wait for Tiff to drop by, etc…

Im glad you feel good Rene’e…let me know how friday goes. Thank you for the shout.

Keep me posted, you look attractive and nice, take care.

=D