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Hey ¡ʎuɐɟɟıʇ just happen to come across your profile and you seem like a sensible person that isn’t judgemental but can provide honest feedback. Can you please read my post and provide some feedback? Thanks!

Here is how it starts off…
PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!! I REALLY NEED SOME ADVICE…
So here is a little background on me… I am a woman in my late 30’s. I grew up in a house with my mother, father, sister and brother (I am the oldest). My dad always took care of everything but he was the kind of father that felt like as long as he kept a roof over your head, food on the table and provided things we needed that was all he had to do. We wanted for nothing except a true example of what a man should be like.

hope you r better

hope ur ok .

Its been a llooong since i sent a shout to you……i almost forgot you ^^”…..well…hope you are okay!!
tc!!!

hi how ru ??

tiff!

How are you feeling?
Whats up?

=/

“It got worse as the day went on and by the time I got off of work I felt like I was going to die.”

Whoa…
Whats up with that?

If you are eating right, then you may be having migrain side effects? Idk..

“When the heck are you taking me to the doctor?!”

You dissappear on me for almost a month and now its my fault? =(

And to answer your question…you should take those vacations and stay here. I can help with a stress free enviornment. =P

btw..didn’t you make a dr’s appointment for that? (w/mom)

“More text/calls from the ex. Ugh. ..Plus, my dad has been feeling sick. He’s been having trouble with chest pains/breathing. Also, the other day he fell outside, so a lot has been going through my mind. I worry about him 24/7.”

I can somewhat imagine Rene’e…bc I don’t ’see’ you often anymore. I hope your dad is doing OK.

Ex wont leave you alone tiff. He probably will (maybe) the day you meet someone new and actually start a relationship with that ‘new’ Mr. Fortunate.
If you do keep on answering and stuff…he will less likely go away.

On my side, I havent heard from my ex in more than month. I hope it stays like that because communication in those type of situations confuse me, time makes it die down.

“How’d that go?
I hope she enjoyed her visit.”

Went well, pretty fast.

“Okay. Will do. Lol. ” (jokes)

Where did they go?

“Just about the same. I freaking never work though, hardly.
It sucks.”

Crap.

How is your sleeping schedule?

“I need a new job badly, I want to move out, I have to (literally) buy a car”

That sucks.
How can I help?
Any chance of borrowing a car (moms’, dads’)?
Are you always stressed at home?

“It now seems as though my brother-in-law has lost all respect for my parents. He’s doing what he wants around here with no regards to them.”

God.

He’s strecthing out his limits even more. Idk what to say, I feel sorry for your parents.

“It was fun but we had car trouble on the way there, which was scary. Lol.”

you took the risk! lol
I would have been pretty concerned too…

“I hope you’ve been doing okay, let me know. How’s work, life, etc? And how are you feeling? “

Eh…more less the usual.
Getting some training for that new federal contract stuff at work and not much more. Basically the same routine.

Thanks for asking.

Gimme the latest of how you have been feeling, let me know how things are going..

when is it that you are going on vacation? June what was it?

Take care Rene’e.

aww, too bad, but I still think its awseome :D

I love your quotes :) Especially this one - “Remember - you are worth not for what you have, not even for who you are, but for what others are because of you.” Who said that?

=)

“Now I get shaky at least every few days.”

=(

“Lol, both I think..”

=O

I thought so but wasn’t sure…I do remember that I did say once that a massage (for the neck) was what you needed.

And of course I didnt mind.

Still.

=P

“Her last day was Thursday, so she’s been out for a couple days now.”

Nice.
No early waking up. No home work crap. Time to chill with ‘awesome aunt tiffany’.

“I guess maybe take him to the vet (a different one) and see what they say. “

Yes. Thats a good idea, you can even discuss whatever options the new vet brings to the table (as to what you have tried, what tests have been done already).

“.. And where were you?”

Waiting for you to pick me up, (I’d drive).

=O

“Gosh, it’s been that long? :/

Kinda, but I did text you thursday (I think) and did recieve your text back. So its not since monday per’se.

=)

“I’ve sorta told you about my ex calling/texting.”

Yep.

“I’ve been getting bad headaches, Tylenol isn’t helping. I think my mom’s going to take me to the doctor here soon. My neck has been killing me as well. :(”

=(

Migrains?
=O

Sounds crappy Tiff, I hope you get better soon…you should go to the doctor. Last time I heard from you (text) you were not feeling good either, so its been quite some time now. As I told you before, Id take you to the doc and wait with you there..Id even ask him about your condition.

You are eating, right?
You feeling stressed out?

Tell me.

“How’ve you been? ..Feeling okay?”

All normal. Nothing new either. But happy to hear from you.
My sister (from Miami) is staying for the weekend (memorial day weekend). My family gets together whenever a close family member visits from out of state so we’ve been having gatherings and stuff like that these past days.

Emotionally…eh…I’m still deep down kinda sad, downish, etc…you already know. Trying to distract myself from the usual crappy thoughts.

You can send me your jokes anytime Rene’e.

Work is boring and sucks, they recently landed a contract with a federal agency (not sure what). Now we (the six of us) are required to clear a background check…so Ive been running around looking for addresses, people, phone numbers, etc. within the past 10 freaking years (info they require)…wasnt easy and it pissed me off a bit bc I lived in PA and Miami plus they ask when, where, who,…I have all I need (dont know if its enough), now I need to fill out their paperwork on tuesday.
Crap.
Especially ‘feces’ when (in my understanding) no change will reflect in my check.

How is your work going?
How are you feeling?

Your mom OK? Dad?

Nice to see your shout tiff.

Take care, and let me know how things are going. You know the rest.

=D

“Well, I woke up like 30583 times during the night and I was thinking we were late for school.. and I had dreams that her dad was like upset with me because she was late for school. Lol. :/”

=/

Heart racing and all?

“If you were meaning any dreams about you ..well, I can’t tell.”

=O

“Yes.”(Boss/assistant sounding pissed)

bah…
her bad.

“I know the basics of it though, and it’s because my sister and brother-in-law buy tons of crap ..(waste their money) and don’t help out, and don’t have money to save.”

Your dad has all the right to be mad.
IMO, as long as mom and dad dont put a ‘pushed down’ stop to it (or work something out with your sis and bro-in law) then your parents relationship is going to keep on taking the hits.

I feel bad for them (your parents), they seem to be taken advantage from. All they wanted was to genuinely help.

“Sounds good to me. (Carry out dinner and a movie)”

Consider it done.
All we need now is a rainy day and a time.

“My mom got me some vitamins today, not sure if that would help anything ..but maybe. “

How often do you have them? (shakyness).
=(

“Just deal with it, I guess.”(neck pain)

No.
I still owe you a massage…wait…or was it you that owed me one?

=S

Care to clarify?

“I try and talk to my mom about her beliefs without making her feel as though I’m attacking her or something? Idk.”

Yea, its the same with that co-worker I talked to you about. Whenever there is a discussion, we (the rest of us) just look at each other and let her talk away. Eh…its no use arguing w/her.

“Sunday was good.
I was busy. My oldest niece and I went to the park for awhile, hung out, etc. “

Thats nice. Keep on doing that stuff, its good for you.

When does your niece finish the school year?

“I didn’t get much sleep last night .. because I couldn’t fall asleep and then had to wake up early. ..”

Did you wake up cranky?

=O

Any thoughts bothering you that couldnt let you sleep?

“How’d your day go?
How about work?”

The day was rainy, pretty crappy weather.
Work is boring.
=)
Nothing new.

“But within like the last two weeks, he’s been really itchy. Idk what else to do anymore.”

Poor chico. I dont know what to suggest anymore either…

Has pedro ever had that?

“Today it was in the 80s and tomorrow it’s suppose to be around the same.

So, ..you can’t use that as an excuse anymore.
:P”

I won’t argue with you.
I’ll have to admit, beyond a reasonable doubt…you’re right.

And I add:

“I’d drive to Missouri on friday, come back late sunday, work during the week, wash, rinse, repeat.”

=P

“Btw, I just realized there is a way to text my phone that would probably be easier.”

Have you been recieving the recent ones I have sent?

=S

Anyways, I will use your suggestion now.
Thank you Tiff, you do know you can text me anytime, so I wont say it.

I hope your neck is doing fine right now and things at your work ease up a bit.

Let me know how you are feeling Rene’e, and how your tuesday rolls. Stay in touch.

Take care and thanks again.

=)

“I slept in late and honestly didn’t even hear my phone.”

That made me ask…Any dreams?

“Probably pissed them both off, because seeing as how I didn’t go in .. the main manager did. “

Did she sound pissed?
She has no right to get upset. Its her own decisions that get her pissed off then, not your fault.
She’s not organized.

“He gets upset/frustrated because my sister or brother-in-law won’t watch the kids ..and they’ll be tearing up the house or whatever ..and once my mom gets off work - he’s grouchy, she’s grouchy, etc. It just crazy around here. :(”

It makes sense. Did they ever get to talk to your sister and husband? I dont remember you telling me…I do remember something about your mom feeling bad about making them move out, but that was when your bro-in law was not working.

Its either working something out with them seriously, or your mom and dads escalating arguments.
That sucks. Are your brother and law and sister there when your parents argue?

“I hate getting out when it’s raining and stuff.”

I agree.
Carry-out dinner and a movie?

“if it keeps happening or if it gets any worse, I will make an appointment with my doctor.”

?
I thought you were having them everyday…
It still is (in my eyes) something to worry about.

“Eh. Yesterday it was hurting a little, and when I woke up today it hurt more. :( I took some Tylenol earlier .. but I don’t think it has helped much.”

What are we going to do about it Rene’e?

“he transmission in my car is going out ..so I might be getting a new car soon.”

I had that happen to my previous car… That sucks.

“Today (Sunday) is my mom’s birthday, but since she is a Jehovah’s Witness, she doesn’t celebrate it anymore, which sucks ..”

I never agreed with that religion, one of the girls at work is in that, and it kind of bothered me everytime she started talking about her beliefs. Some things dont make sense to me either =/

“Let me know how things with you are going, and how you’re feeling. “

I just finished watching this movie called “Defiance”…drama/Nazi era….I recommend it.
Mowed the lawn today but was sort of pissed while working at it cause I did not want to do it. Today I hated the lawn.

=D

I was relieved when finished.
Im glad I took that out of the way for at least 3 weeks.

Im OK right now.
Hoping to get better but idk how I will feel tomorrow…eh…you know, the usual. Im also involving myself more in helping out my sister (the one that lives in Miami) in showing her how to use some computer programs. She’s coming this next weekend, we joke a lot too, so that’s gonna be nice.

Other than that…nothing else is new.

Let me know how your sunday goes Rene’e…let me know how you feel.

Whatever happened to chico’s allergy? Still the same?

btw…How’s the temperature there?

Thank you Tiffany, your second name is one of my new favorite words as of 5 months ago, and dont tell me that you did not know that.

=P

Take care.

Wink wink
=D

“She was extremely nice to me tonight, which was weird .. but I guess I’m not complaining.”

eh..probably because she “needs” you to cover some work for her or something?

?

Lets see.

“Hahaha.(Joey FTW!!)”

Aww yea.

“I just sort of figured since you don’t text me, I shouldn’t text you.”

Key word = “shouldn’t”

OMG What!?

=O

“Nope, I’m not taking anything ..except Tylenol when my neck starts hurting really bad.”

Idk Tiff, that may be something your body is low on?

=(

I’d take you to the doc and wait there.

“Lol, no. That is incorrect.(”Hot” Red)”

Exactly…”pink” is incorrect.

=D

“But now it seems as though my mom has just given up and doesn’t care sometimes. “

=(
why do you think they are arguing a lot now? ‘Cause what?

“It’s basically the same with you. I do tell my niece some stuff, but I don’t want to overwhelm her with my crappy problems, so I try and not mention things. I know she has her 15-yr-old problems to deal with, lol.”

lol

I have spoken to close relatives, one of my sisters, mom, and a friend of mine…but I dont get into details as how I feel too much because of the same reason you just mentioned.
I dont want to worry them that much. Its not that Im going to hurt myself y’know?

I am working on myself again though(excersisng, trying to think differently).

“Why is everyone around you so negative?”

Its not that people are negative around me (my close family members aren’t).
I was referring to the atmosphere…much of society, the news, that kind of stuff. There are good people, but they arent easy to find. I can say that Im one thats pretty much trying to look the other way and stop focusing too much on those type of surroundings.

“You should text me when you are feeling crappy. I will send you a joke! :D”

Go ahead.
Share some sugar.
I
dare
you.

=P

“Lol. I know, I am lazy. ..Feels sort of like I waisted today though, because then I went to work and now all of a sudden it’s almost 1am. :(”

hahaha
Its funny how you described all that.
You know, that happens to me too…that feeling of “wasting a day”. But what else would’ve you done?

If its raining a lot, I do barely anything.

“Well, I didn’t know that, but I’m glad. :)”

What?
How could you not know that?

“How’s work been going?
How are you feeling? :/”

Work is crap, boring.
lol

Im feeling OK.
Thanks for asking. I felt better after writing my previous shout.

Guess what?

I have to mow some lawn here at my house. Its been more than a month.
=O
Its been raining these past weeks so its kinda high.
=S
thats going to suck.

lol

Today was some supermarket and ‘nada’ else.

Let me know how your day goes (saturday) rene’e, keep me updated on that shakyness you are having, its doesnt sound OK to me.
How has your neck been doing?
Heart still OK?

Let me know.

=)

=D

“okay.I can do that.”

=O

=P

“Like she will leave those little rude notes or do whatever, but when she actually sees me, she is completely fake acting.”

She’s confusing, i understand what you mean. She’s basically a hypocrite. Ha!
Do what you plan to do, its up to her whether she will talk trash or not about you if she were to be contacted as reference.
There is not much you can do on that, I guess.
=/

“I gave her all of my info at the beginning, and now she really doesn’t like me. Who knows what she could do..”

I dont think she will do anything to you.
The only thing she might do, is in regards to that reference thing in the resume.
She probably wont even be contacted.

“If I enjoy whoever I see in the morning, I won’t be cranky. “

Joey FTW!

=D

“I didn’t know if it will still cool to text you or not, so I just haven’t been.”

Where did that come from?

=S

“I swear, one day I will get you on one.. :O”

“No neck pain though, ..well, not at the time when I feel shaky anyway.”

Idk tiff, that shakyness deosn’t sound good to me. You should get those blood/urine tests dr.’s do to see if somethings below normal level. If you do go, tell him your symptoms and plls you are taking (if any). Maybe its a side effect?

“:(
You okay?”

Idk. I dont think Im feeling “normal”, its more like too unmotivated, and working on trying to better my positive thinking about my own self (all around).

“You should go.”

Thats what my mind tells me, but I cant find that “push”. Today I was going to go but I thought about the traffic to get there. Its hell at 6pm from where I live at that time, plus it would take me almost an hour w/o traffic, imagine with it.
‘Service’ starts at 7:15pm, I would not make it in time, plus it was raining today all day, (all week basically).
So I stayed home. I noticed they transmit their messages live via internet (their website), but I know its not the same.

“My pastor was so worried about talking of other things and singing instead of actually going there to help us learn about God. I know that probably sounds awful, that’s just my opinion on it though.. :/”

I know what you mean, nothing wrong.
The church I want to go to is the only one that has captured my attention except for that other one I went a couple times with my ex to. That ‘other one’ is close to where she lives, to where I will not go for obvious reasons (her parents never miss a date there, she’s not much of a regular but her mom usually takes the kids with her). I dont want anybody to think Im going for the wrong reasons.
And I dont want to put myself close to them again. Its not that they (parents) have a problem with me, its that it wouldnt be healthy for me.
NO.

I’ll watch the televised version on monday (its at 11pm-mondays) and see if I give it a shot next wednesday. They give services on sundays, but I wouldnt go on sundays. I prefer a day of the week.

I dont like the one my sister attends on sundays. Good people, but I dont feel comfortable there.

“The pink one? :/”

Pink? Let me get this straight…to me its “Hot” Red.
I was calmly “wowed” by that one the 1st time I saw it.
I have been ‘wowed’ a couple of times already, your fault though.

=X

“I don’t like that one much. Lol.”

Well, its only one of my personal favorites and I liked the sunglasses-hair and color combo.

2nd row, 3rd pic…Thats another one.

Yes.
Buy a ticket, get here.

“My mom and dad have been fighting a bit. I honestly think they are going to get divorced.”

Sad.
I felt bad when I read that.
Tiff, did they always have arguments like those before your sister moved in?

I do remember what you told me about your dad and how much you care for him. I hope it all goes well on the stress test eventhough I believe doc is going to tell him to take it easy, which is a little difficult seeing how things are in your house.

“Let me know how you’ve been doing. I hope you’re still not feeling all crappy-ish.”

Eh, more of the same. Nothing new, rain, and a little more afternoon rain.
Idk Rene’e, I was thinking yesterday about the fact that you are actually the only person I talk about ‘how I feel’ to.

Yea, people around me assume Im “OK” or “normal”, “a little depressed” or just a little “reserved”.
But I dont feel like I used to…I would say: I dont feel “as OK as before, emotionally” (years back).
Unmotivated, feeling useless, feeling that “all that for what?” and I take it on myself, its like my mind is wired to think pessimistic and I consciously know I shouldnt…so its like a battle, and the pressure heats up.
To summarize, I would say: How can i feel better when I have no positive input from around me (words, eh…crappy thoughts, actions?) and most of what I “hear” (news, mind chatter, etc…) is negative/pessimistic.
Eh…sometimes Im OK, other times my days just suck and I feel I waste them.

Something like that.

I usually dont talk about how I feel when I feel like this. I always try to “walk it off”.
Thanks for caring.

Now…
Let me know how you are feeling and how your day goes rene’e.

btw…just so you know…You make me laugh sometimes and there is always something you write that makes me smile, be it something funny or something sweet you write, you know that?

Take care Rene’e. I appreciate the time you take to shout back.

Keep me posted.

=)

“:O”

hahaha

=O

Yea. You know.
No hard feelings btw Rene’e.

“But .. when I log onto Help.com through her computer, it’s extremely slow and it freezes sometimes, so it’s a pain.”

Ew…I know how much a freezing computer sucks.

“So. What do I owe you? Lol.”

Chapter 3 second paragraph states that you owe me “Phone answering”.

AND! I’ll have to check the what other chapters on the “Book of Justice” apply on this one, to see what extra violations ocurred.

=O

“Maybe that might not tick her off as badly? Idk.”

Sounds OK to me.
But how is the tension at work? Does she look at you bad and stuff or does she treat you “normal”?

“My mom said we will go and talk to the school sometime soon and see what they say about how much it will cost and see if I really think I would enjoy it, and we will go from there.”

Go for it, check it out and let me know.
That way when I get like 65 y/o, you can take extra care of me WITHOUT having to clean up my crap, plus I’ll share my social security.

Awesome.

“She also didn’t even graduate HS,…”

There you go.

>=(

She has no idea how to differentiate personal feelings vs work.
She seems to not know how to treat employees and encourage them in the workplace.

bah…

Someone should re-assign her to another position and get her out from being a ‘boss’.

“She called and asked where I had put it and I lied saying I left it in her folder at work “

That means she has lost “important” things before and has not cared enough to look for them.

“and if I don’t get 8 hrs of sleep, I am cranky. Lol.”

=O

Should I make a note of that?

“Next week I am only scheduled 6 hrs all together. It was the same for this week until she changed it last minute. It sucks.”

Damn right it sucks.
To me its her fault it does.

“I just try and hurry when I haven’t replied in a few days .. :/”

Hurry on what?
If its to reply back, a text is fine, its all about knowing you’re doing OK Tiff.
I understand.

“One of them because last time I went on it, I got a huge bruise on my knee. It’s a wooden roller coaster and it jerks a lot.”

=O

Now Im even more afraid of ‘em.

“We were there for about 13 hrs. Lol. It was soooo fun though. :)”

Awesome.
Im glad you had fun and enjoyed it Rene’e. You deserve more happy moments like those.

“? Lol. (Id do more but you live out of state [meaning far from PR])”

What?

lol

“but for the last two days it’s been more noticeable .. I’m really shaky. I have no idea why. :/”

Anything specific triggering it? Thoughts? A habit? When does it happen?

Does your neck hurt when it happenes?

Thats curious.

“How’s work? How are you feeling? How are you sleeping?”

Eh..
Bah..
and face up, with anything covering most of my face except for my mouth and nose. Sometimes I sleep totally “comforter covered”.

lol

Na, Im still kinda sad Tiff. Its deep inside me, I got emotional crap along with crappy sporadic thoughts sometimes.
Today I was thinking about going to a church which I see on TV, but its at another city like an hour or so away. Idk exactly.
I like their televised messages, the pastor says his church is one of no specific religion, they are just christians. I like his messages, they ‘tear (watery eyes) me up’ when they get me, idk.

But Id have to basically drag myself, since I have been losing (if not lost already) interest in a lot of things. Im looking for motivation basically.
Sucks.
The times I feel OK is when Im distracted or I feel something good from whatever is close to me at the moment, or be it something I can do for someone else.

So yea.

Thank you for letting me know how you have been Rene’e. Its always nice to hear from you.

The dogs doing OK?

btw, did your niece enjoy the amusement park too?

Let me know whats up and tell me more about that ’shakyness’ you are having.
Also about how your day at work goes and how you are feeling too, Tiff.

Keep taking care of yourself.

PS: I know I told you already but…43things, 1st row, 2nd pic =

Flirt.
=P

Someones bill is going up.

=O

“Why’s that?”

Because IMO it wouldn’t help you feel better. And I would feel better making someone feel better.

Win win?

“If I don’t, it will look as though I haven’t had a job for a year and a half. So, that’s even worse. :/”

Crap.
So its a definite ‘go’?

“The assistant manager (who is friends with her outside of work) even said that she will only hire someone who she likes.”

=O
Its like as if she ‘owned’ the store.
Are her parents the presidents or something?
How did she get there?

“Man, I can totally see how he has ‘changed’.”

I saw it coming rene’e. Expect more sporadic crap like this from him.

Listen…if he were to care about you he wouldv’e left you alone by now.
Why?
Because when you love someone truly…you want whats best for them. So he should have accepted “you not wanting to be with him” as “you knowing whats BEST for you” and left you the heck alone the moment you seriously made your decision clear to him.

As you can see, someone like him is someone selfish, insecure, and immature (to say the least). HE is the example of the typical “guy” who really wants what they want no matter how much they negatively effect the other person with their cussing, cursing, guilt crap, manipulative intentions, etc.

I know you know this, but I had to get it out again. I dont like it when supposed “men” act like this, and I dont like it when you have to be putting up with that crap. Especially you being the nice and ’sensitive hearted’ person you are.

“?(you missed my last question)”

The question was at the end of a shout (2 shouts ago), it stated:

“By what times (your time) are you more less going to sleep btw? “
(As in off to bed.)

The “take it slow with me” that I mentioned was meaning: “You still multitasking on me?”

=O

That was it.

“We are going to go to an amusement park on Saturday which should be exciting ..and hopefully relaxing. I’m just a bit scared about the drive.”

Nice.
Have fun Rene’e, let it get your mind off things and enjoy it.
You gonna ride the rollercoaster?
=O
Dont worry about the driving Tiff, you will be OK.

“Let me know how work has been going for you, how you’ve been feeling and sleeping, etc. The usual. Lol.”

Im OK, excersisng and working myself up again. Nothing new has happened, no ex callin’, nada, all is normal. Im sleeping with a messed up schedule, but these past couple of days Ive been falling asleep pretty good.

Thats about it from here.
I’d do more, but you live out of state.

Let me know about your emotions tiff, how are you feeling?
Heart OK?
Let me know how things at work flow and how the amusement park day turns out.

Thanks for the shout.
Take care Rene’e.

=)

Hi Tiff.

“I’m just not that happy.. :/”

Im not that happy, but honestly, I cant put a sad nor worried face when I see you are sad or worried.

“What do you think it will be then?”

I’ll let you know when the plane lands.

“what if they call her and she gives me a bad reference? Or even if I do actually put in my two weeks notice, she could still say bad things..”

If she calls and says something just to make you look bad, then she’s a bad person. What I do is not include jobs where I have lasted very little or left, (in my resume).
Idk if you would include the one you are at right now.

What do you think?

With the two weeks notice…she’ll can probably say crappy things too (regardless), since she will just maybe voice her opinion on how you were as a employee (her point of view) if the company that were to hire you decided to give her a call.

Crap.
You dont deserve that.

“..Sorry, maybe I seem paranoid, but I do not trust her. “

And to top it off, she’s a “manager”. What the f$%K.
Im sort of pissed because it bothers me the way she treats her employees…the way she ‘manages’ the store. She seems to do things in a more ‘personal’ than ‘professional’ manner.

“He’s still been texting and even called earlier today and woke me up.”

He’s not over you Tiff.
He doesnt take you seriously.

eh…
Not surprising.

“How was your day?
I hope you’re feeling okay. Lemme know. “

Day was rainy.
All else is normal, nothing unusual.
Trying to fonish up…whoops!…I meant ‘finish up’… =) the laptop Im working on, the keyboard I ordered arrived today and the laptop is working fine. Im in the process of formating and configuring the whole thing to see if I give it back by wednesday.

Besides that…Im OK, starting to excersise again, 20 -30 min workouts. Nothing major, but idk…I used to work out more before…Im trying to get back at it.

Rene’e…you missed my last question on my previous shout. Take it slow with me.

=P

Let me know how things go. Dont get to worked up on whats going on at work Rene’e I know its unfair…something better should come up.

Tell me more.
Take care Tiff.

“Hi.
:(”

Hi tiff,
but…the sad face?

=O

“Maybe add one more because it took a couple days for me to reply again this time? :/”

Nopey can do…with all do respect Miss Missouri, I decide what the cost will be.

=)

“That would leave either my mom or me to take care of the kids. “

True.
I actually thought about that after I replied. Kids!

“My brother-in-law doesn’t watch the kids unless he is ‘told’. Seriously.”

what?!

>=(

Thats “how much he cares for them”?!

Opportunist.

Im pissed.

“She said that her and my brother in law were looking at those, but couldn’t afford it because you had to have one thousand dollars for the deposit or something ..and they didn’t have that kind of money. Sorry, but wtf!!!”

I dont get it.

I dont want to say what I thought,
maybe the day we join accounts … i will.

But I get your “wtf?!”

lol

“They have been living here OVER a year, they pay no bills. How do they not have that money!?”

=O

Only she/him can answer that question.

“There are a few days when I had received like 6 or 7 texts in only a few hours.”

Thats almost harrasment.

Im starting to get a clearer pic of why you feel so frustrated.

“She has already hired someone in my place, I believe. “

Crap.
She’s probably pushing you out, its an emotional thing now. She’s kind of pissing me off too.
So immature, no work ethic.

Keep doing your thing Rene’e, try and not make her see your are frustrated or pissed, and leave when you feel you cant take it anymore.

“I’m sorry ahead of time for rambling on about it, but goodness sakes.”

Im listening.

“Oh, and just so you know, we do not get printed copies of our schedules.
Nor have I ever gotten a paycheck stub, which I have already complained about. “

OMG.

“I felt it wasn’t fair, so I called the district manager and let her know what was going on.”

You did good.

I cant believe this crap.

“..Though I personally feel she doesn’t deserve a ‘notice’. I should just quit on the spot.”

I dont think she should be noticed either. I dont do that.

=S

Even though some people ‘require it’…yeah right.

I’d do it if its a place where its all good and Im the one thats just leaving because of a better opportunity. Only if its a place Id use as reference.

“Let me know how things are going with you, how you’ve been, etc. I’ll ttyl. “

First of all, you need a more than 30 sec hug Tiffany. One of those “you will be OK Rene’e” reassuring hugs, Id say it to your face with a smile. Yes, to make all that negativity around you slip like butter. Then id invite you to some ice cream and late afternoon beachfront.

=)

Me…eh…Im in the usual, apparently hating the xtra time I have alone on the weekends, trying to work with that. Im also having a lil trouble closing my eyes when laying in bed too, but Im sleeping OK.

Let me know how you do these upcoming days Rene’e. Keep me posted on all whats happening.

Take care.
Let me know.

By what times (your time) are you more less going to sleep btw?

=D

“I apologize then.”

About 3+ hugs will do.

=O

“At first it was suppose to be by the end of April, .. now I think it’s the end of June.”

Lets see.

“She has a bad case of pneumonia and was running a fever of 103. “

Thats serious.
Why didnt she stay?
Brother in law was supposed to step up!

“Her and her husband have also been fighting a lot.”

She must be feeling even worse because of that.
I cant imagine.

“Eh..(how are you feeling in your house)”

?

lol

What?

Tell me.

“It was annoying to me, so I never replied back. :S ..Idk if that was bad on my part or not, but I figured if it was serious/important she would have called - like professional people do.”

For 1, im assuming my texts/calls dont annoy you to that extent.

=O

2nd, Yes, she should have called. She will possibly ask you if you received it though.
I dont understand her.

“…I’m not trying to be mean, but that is complete BS. I think I’ve told you that she lives across the street? Well, her sister is completely fine.”

=O

I didnt know that!

lol

Holy crap Tiffany, what kind of boss is that?

“I’m not sure. I think as of right now, just me.”

That sucks.
Im guessing shes taking it out all on you. She is forgetting that pushing you (bothering you so much with her ‘work ethic’ and lies) will be not beneficial for her.
She’ll be screwed if/when you leave.

“She was really dehydrated, plus she had food poisoning they believe.”

Im glad she’s doing better.

“It’s hard telling.
Probably a cat outside or something. lol.”

1:30am, dog barking constantly at something, I would be curious, with a baseball bat on my hand.

=)

“Lol. You’re kidding..
Why?”

No, I am not kidding.

Why? well…do you remember when you talked about the caylee anthony case and mentioned nancy grace?

There you go.

=D

“Yeah, pretty much, but I can’t watch it too often because it’s depressing. “

Me neither.
I dont watch more than a couple of minutes in between channel flips, I have never seen the whole show.

Its sad.

““I have a serious question. If you could find a full time job, would you consider getting a place with me and being roomates?” ..
True story.”

=O
hahaha

I cant believe that sh!t

Wow.

“So, if you could please, update me on how things have been with you. “

Thank you for asking in such a polite and thoughtful manner.
=P

The day was nice. Today was normal yet again, nothing new. Here Im starting to gather up some ‘.gif creating programs’ (reading around and stuff) bc one of my sisters (the one in Miami) has a business plan with a friend of hers and they want me to learn of all that kind of stuff so I can help them out editing/creating animations. So yea, Im sitting in front of the computer at night after I finish what I have to do in the day to keep on ‘expanding the learning curve’.

Im OK overall, last nite I had ‘rushy thoughts’ out of the blue but fell asleep anyways, I went to bed sleepy…so that helped.

How about you? You sleeping OK?

Let me know how your friday goes Tiff. Let me know how you are feeling too.

Stay in touch.

Take care.

“I’m just completely exhausted. :( “

I just read that right now (friday almost 1 a.m. my time!)
=O

I hope your day (thursday) went OK.

Thank you for letting me know.

=D

“Hey! :O”

Why the face?

hahaha

“Why do I not believe you?”

=O

Why not?

Yes Tiffany…I know you are one of a kind, but I will not tolerate “time-indefinite spouse leave”.

“Lol, yes. Be patient. :P”

Only if you can make me.

=D

“I’ll tell her if she’s in the wrong. Not disrespectfully of course, but
sometimes I just let her know she needs to realize how she says things sometimes..”

Thats OK. I see no wrong in that.
Your mom also has someone to talk to (you).

“I definitely agree. (parents need vacations)”

Have you told her about it?

“I thought maybe their marriage? Everything.”

=O

“Sometimes she just gets really upset ..usually by something my
brother-in-law is doing (or not doing) ..and takes it out on my dad.”

That doesnt sound OK.
Didnt they ever get to speak to your sister and hubby about a deadline for
them to get their own place?

I still cant believe how your bro-in law can be so ‘parasitic’.

How is your sister btw?

How are you doing there?

“Nobody should constantly live in a stressful situation, but with my dad
having a triple bypass ..he was actually ordered by his doctor to basically try and avoid stress at all costs.”

I agree. What I find misplaced is the fact that, IMO, your mom and dad would not be in this situation if it werent for your brother in law and sis’ living somewhat off them. I believe they (sis & hubby) should’ve tried a different, more positive, approach.

“..It worries me because I worry about his health constantly.”

=(
I can imagine.

“She either asks me to come in early or calls to let me know about a schedule change.”

I really dont understand whats on her mind.
Has she told you why she changes schedules so fast?

“Haha. Okay.That is what I was referring to. “

=P

“well, um, I had the freaking day off. So, she got upset with me I think.”

>=(

She would have no right to get upset. Let her get all pissed off.

“the assistant manager texted me and told me I need to be more open with my schedule and that when I was hired I knew I had to work weekends.”

They are acting as kids. Damn Rene’e…thats no easy crap you have to put up with. One thing is being OK with working on weekends, another thing is changing around the damn schedule so abrubtly.

“It’s just bullshit.”

Yes it is.
Smells like horse poo.

“I just said I wouldn’t work them ALL. “

Exactly. But they, being so ignorant, dont give a flying crap and dont see your piont.

“:/ Sorry, I’m just so frustrated.”

I understand. Nothing to be sorry about Tiff. Im listening.

“Idk. I think I’m going to try and go with #1 unless she tries to pull anything else. I need the money + ..I wouldn’t be able to find a job at this point in time that would probably allow me to still go on vacation with my family in June.”

Only about a month to get to june, so thats something to look forward to. Try and make it Tiff, you can do it.
What you are planning to do sounds OK to me.
I just hope your boss and asskisser stand back a bit.

“Hers were different because she had another job and was only available on the weekends. “

Ah…

Who else is left putting up with the crap your boss serves?

“Which reminds me, how is work going for you?”

All normal. A lot of cases coming in, a lot of scanning documents and crap.

eh…

“I’m assuming you mean the older one? ..She’s doing good. She’s glad school is almost out for the summer. We have a lot of plans. Lol.”

Yes.
Glad to hear that.

btw…How is the younger one? She still in and out of the hospital?

“Chico is getting on my darn nerves. Lol. He’s downstairs and it’s 1:30AM and he’s barking like crazy. Pedro’s asleep right here beside me. ..But that’s about it.”

=O
What was he barking at?

“We’d been getting a lot of rain and the tornado sirens were going off a lot.”

Nasty weather.
=S

Still the same today?

I did not know you had tornados there.

=O

“and wanted to make sure I was okay. He kept sending more texts asking if I’d moved on. I never responded. “

you feeling OK?

“Blah. “

blah.

“I have to wake up early and I know I’m going to have a hard time getting up.”

How was it?
=P

“Please let me know how you’re doing. :)”

Of course Miss Sweets.
Nothing new here, got me some oreos and bought me another bag of Party Mix chips…I forgot I already had one!
=O

Im OK, not feeling down, and happy to hear from you.
Im also waiting on a part I ordered from ebay for a ‘clients’ laptop. I say ‘client’ because its a friends friend laptop…i dont know the guy (owner), but I already called and told him what my diagnostic was…Im hoping Im right so that can be another ’satisfied customer’ and hope for more people to give me their computers to work on.

You know what else sweetie…this might sound corny lol but whenever I prepare myself something to eat and sit in front of the TV flipping channels, Im reminded of you everytime I come across Nancy Grace’s Show.

Yep.
Thats whats crackin’.
lol

Have you seen her show and whats shes been talking about lately?

So yeah, thats basically whats been goin’ on on my side as of now.

Tell me more about whats going on with you Rene’e, how you are feeling, how your day went (wednesday). I hope your work place doesnt get worse. I would be pissed.

Keep me posted, and lets hookie.

I’ve been mostly pretty good. How are you doing?

Hi, Tiffany.

“Sorry for such a long delay on replying back to your shout.”

=/

Next time I will ask you for a divorce. Hands down.

=O

“Here lately I’ve been pushed to the point where I may just leave any second .. “

you coming or not?
=S

“I just wish I didn’t live here because usually once the fight is over, my mom tries to make me pick sides.”

?
How do you react to that?

“But, to be honest, the majority of the arguments are caused because she is too quick to yell and makes a big deal out of small situations.”

She seems over her limit of stress Rene’e…your parents need alone time and vacations. Maybe that would help.

What do you think?

btw, when she said “she’s about to give up”…what did she mean by that?
“give up” what?

“I used to LOVE going in to work ..”

I know. Thats how I sensed it from you. You seemed to enjoy it very much.

“Even on my days off, she calls and says something ..or texts me.”

Just to chat or
does she ask you to go in?

“In fact, I am playing hookie tomorrow. Lol. :S .. Sad thing is, I don’t even care if she finds out. It’s not even worth it. “

But do you work?

btw, play hookie with me if its definition #1 you refer to:

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define…

“she did tell me (when I worked on Thursday) that I am now being given the crappy hours because the last two times I have worked my sales have been crappy.”

>=O

what!?

“When she told me that, she went on about how she doesn’t like working in the middle of the day (from like 1-5pm, for example) ..because it ruins her whole day and she has no time left to do anything she wants.”

Jesus, she’s ignorant. She is clearly contradicting herself.

Whats the plan tiff?
Anything on your mind?

“..Guess who now has to work those shitty hours?”

I know who…The best employee the store has to offer.

I can understand how pissed off you felt Rene’e. Its like she’s rubs her pride on your face.
You are better than that though. Dont let it get you too down.

“One girl quit last weekend actually. I can’t remember if I had told you that or not. But it was over the immature notes that the manager was leaving..”

I didnt know that.
Did that girl have the same type of hours as you?

“Blah. It’s just ignorant.”

I agree.
Too immature.

“I can’t just easily quit .. or I’d be depressed + broke, like before.”

I know.

“I hope you’re doing okay, feeling good, etc. Let me know if you don’t mind.”

Im good. Glad to see your shout and hear from you actually. Things have been going normal here, nothing new. Supermarket, work, home,…the usual.

Tiff, let me know how you are doing. Keep me updated on whatever goes on at work too.

How is your niece?

Your neck OK?

How are the dogs?

Let me know tiff, thanks for the shout. Take care.

When I was kid with my school, I think I had 16 ^^

It was for a convention, we went to the Columbia University Campus, it was pretty cool =D

hi tiffany it has been a long time hope all is ok

You ok tiff?

=/

“But then again, would I really even care if I were at the beach somewhere?

I think not. :O”

hahaha

that face!

I agree!

“Really.”

Idk if I should actually believe you on that one tiff…

=S

“I don’t want her to think I’m trying to get all into her business.”

True.
I didnt see it that way.

“Not as bad as they have been in the past.”

Mom and dad still arguing?

“It’s been fine.. I honestly don’t know why it does that. (Hurts once in awhile and sometimes is completely fine.) It’s strange.”

Maybe your dr sucks?

=O

“Is he having a nice time?.. Are you enjoying the company?”

Pretty much yes. He doesnt want to leave.
He leaves wednesday afternoon.

“At work it has been crazy. My manager hasn’t been keeping things organized and whatnot ..and she changes the schedule more often than I know.”

=O

“..I did work until she changed it, and forgot to inform me. I got there and wasn’t suppose to be there.”

What?

I didnt know that.

Whats up with that crap?
Is this her new ‘trend’?

“Today I didn’t go in, and on her schedule ..she had me down to work ..so I was 30 mins late.”

wtf tiff.
Has she given you a reason for her being so irresponsible?

Anything she has said for her changing things so unnoticed?

“It’s not professional. She doesn’t give us a printed out schedule .. she writes it down and expects us to copy it. I’m just tired of it..”

Id be pissed.
How the hell is she a “manager”?

“Waitressing sucks, but I guess I have to do what I have to do.”

Yes, like maybe paying me a visit.

Try out the waitressing then, Re’.
You can always leave it and I will most likely be here anyways.

=)

“Sorry for rambling on. :(”

Thats the type of “rambling” I have been trying to listen to by cel phone the days I have had no internet (including these past ones). You don’t have to feel sorry for that, because believe it or not…I give a crap.

=/

“I still don’t know all of the details but she was really sick and really dehydrated. :( Poor girl. (It’s my niece who is 9.) She was here earlier and seemed to be feeling better.”

=(
Sad to her that.
I hope she stays getting better.

“He’s stressing out because I’m stressed out, basically. (Work stuff.)”

He cares.

“I apologize I didn’t answer your call yet again.”

Im going to say something here Re’….Im not angry, nor pissed btw…:

Im starting to think its that you prefer to talk by shouts only. BUT! If it does bother you in some way that I call…I wont Rene’e. Im dont want you to feel uncomfortable, its not the type of person I am. I instantly drop it (the calling).

I actually was calling to see how you have been doing since there was some days where I was not able to ‘hear’ from you..

“Hopefully things are good with you and you’re feeling okay. Let me know. “

Im OK, thanks for asking. Ive been distracted and spending some time with my cousin. Nothing else…except expect tiff to call from the airport.

=O

=D

I did get to take some random pics but not enough to more or less show you the type of area I live at. So Im at it.

Keep me posted on how you are doing and how the work situation goes. I want to hear it, its not a mere “ramble”.

Stay safe Rene’e.
Let me know.

Hey..

Don’t whoop my butt.

“That was the plan. Lol. (at the beach in PR)”

What would she (your boss) say?

=O

“I’d leave my job in .5 seconds if it means I could be on a beach somewhere. :O”

Really?

“I just didn’t want to get in her business and make her feel any worse. I’ve told her multiple times that she can come to me anytime she needs to talk. ..And she does.”

Is she OK now? or does she still feel down?

btw, how are things going at your house?

“Good! Lol. :P (we could drive around too)”

=O

=D

“It made me laugh so hard when I seen that.”

Holy crap those pictures were funny! He looked like wanting some “privacy”.
hahaha

Nice.

“Why? Lol. (the emoticon face “:O” that gets me when you use it)”

Because its kind of unexpected when you use it, its funny, i can sort of imagine you doing some similar gesture.

“Sort of how I laugh every time I read about you mowing lawn? “

nah.
Now that you mention it, its been almost a month since I have cut some grass at any house

=O

“You have a nice voice, I told you that. But the way you talk is cute.”

Thank you cutie, now say it to my face.

=P

“Yeah, but I told you I didn’t mind. Call whenever you feel like it.. “

I will.

“But if I’m asleep, sometimes I don’t hear my phone ..or sometimes I’m just too tired to answer.”

Know something Rene’e?..I would like to hear your voice.

“Yeah, I hoped I didn’t sound mean when I said “oh it didn’t matter because I couldn’t talk anyway” “

You did not sound mean, dont worry about it.

“I can go all day without really coughing but when I lay down to try and go to sleep I can’t stop.”

Are you taking something for that?

“Haha.
Why the ” =O ” face?
I care too.”

lol

because I wanted to make it mean: “did he just say that??”

“How are you feeling now?”

Im still OK. Havent heard from her since. Its always like that (sporadic calls, in between weeks)

eh.

“You’re gone, that’s why he doesn’t bother her now.”

Yes.
I believe that.
That is what keeps me distant.

“I had to get up early again today, so I’m sort of exhausted. My neck has been bothering me today too. Idk why all of a sudden it’s starting to hurt .. but it gave me a headache. :/”

=(

How has your neck been now?

“I still disagree.
.. And I’m right. :O (you sweeter than me)”

No.
Well I dont agree with you, you are Tiffany Rene’e aka ‘Sweetness’ aka ‘Lil’ Lady Sweets’.
You dont have to disagree on that because its the truth.

…

My days have been pretty normal except for not having freaking internet for almost 3 days and my cousin being here w/his kid. Its been pretty busy since he’s staying downstairs and I have to be close to take him to buy things that the baby would need. The kid is like 1 y/o and is pretty hyper. lol runs around and does his baby things.
Its all OK though. If I recall correctly he will be here until next wednesday.

At work they finally bought me a desk, it turned out nice looking. They also bought new ‘cushioned seats’ and everyone’s happy. That actually helped me feel better there. What I had was flat out crap.
My job sucks, but you know…

Rene’e…let me know how your days have been, since as you know…someone tried hearing it straight from the source but lil lady sweets is not answering…

Let me know how you are feeling (physically/emotional). Is your heart OK?

How is your dad doing?

PS: My internet sucks.

Hey Missouri is pretty cool, i’ve been there! Loved it! Hope to go there again ^^

Hehehe!… Summer is allmost over here in Peru. I love summer!… We actually had a prolonged summer this year. It was the hottest to date! You guys are probably gonna have a lot of sun too. Where do you live?

hehe, well… just here, killing time while I listen to a song list I made for this girl! ^^

How is life?

Hi, wassup! ^^

Miss Cool.
=P

“I need some really good excuse to not be available to go .. like “Oh, I’m sorry, I’ll be in PR that whole weekend.””

=O

Yes!
“At the beach in PR.”

“Any days you’re free.. “

But i don’t want you fired from your job Rene’e.

=S

So what days?

“I was just concerned that maybe they weren’t being fair.”

eh…its a suckie job, but its what is paying the bills right now.

“I’ve saved almost every dime I’ve made so far .. other than small things I just rrrrreally wanted or gifts. I love to shop, but I’m not stupid about it.”

Thats good to know.
Thank you.

“But my sister has a bad habit of telling me I need to go do this or that, but she won’t give me details or anything on how to. (If that even makes sense.)”

Yea, I understand. Thats the kind of crap my sister did. It makes me feel uncomfortable.

“. I know they fought on their anniversary (later that evening, after he had got home) ..I’m not sure why, all I know is that she was crying.”

=(

Do you two get along well (sister)?

“It makes me feel bad in a way that things turned out like they have, but all that was his doings. “

I know it can bum you out sometimes.
Rene’e, IMO he didnt treat you like you deserved to be treated.
You are too nice for him. You care a lot, you are not a bad person. You are super sweet too.
He does not know how to reciprocate without involving his pride/ego.

“My thoughts on going back with him haven’t changed. Nothing has really changed.”

Happy to hear that.
Thats something I respect you for too.

“Hahaha.
Who said that was a bad thing? (yap the night away hanging out)”

Nobody.
lol

We could drive around too.

“I sort of do like working the evening shift but it was sort of nice going in early today and then getting off with plenty of time still left in the day.

But.. Idk. I still don’t like mornings.”

Thats exactly how I think.
hahaha

“Speaking of which, I have this really super funny picture of Chico. I’ll upload it and send the link in the next shout. :)”

Thank you.
I would like to see it.

“It went by a little slow, but I think that’s because I felt so tired all day. Those sleeping pills took forever to ‘kick in’ and I ended up falling asleep around 2. :O”

That emoticon face is funny, it gets me every time you use it.

you still had the effects of the sleeping pills during the day?

btw, how many did you take?

=O

“It’s nice. I like it. ..However, I haven’t heard it in awhile. :P”

I get it.

=P

lol

Tiff, as you may have noticed in past convo’s…I struggle a bit with my “conversational english”. lol

Thing is that since you started to work, I have no idea if you are sleeping or still awake..especially on weekends. I did take a chance that other day (missed call/you were showering + sore throat), I didnt insist because I thought you were in dreamy land and I didnt want to wake you up.

=)

Yes. I care.

=O

“I hope your day went good. ..Are you sure you’re okay?
Lemme know.”

I feel Ok right now but Im not sure if todays convo with ex will backfire later on.

Thank you for asking.

Yea, we spoke today..she was ‘happy to hear me’ and so as the convo moved on I asked why did she call yesterday (monday) she said that ’since we havent spoken in a while, she wanted to know whats been going on’…you know tiff, the usual. She’s been at doctors offices (doing some tests on her health) and was even at the hospital.
I asked if she wanted me to call everyday or every night, asked what she wanted (in a subtle, jokingly way - she knows its serious anyways) and she said in like a soft bummed out voice “I dont know”…and I told her “you know what a idk means to me…she said yes.

To me its like a eh…dont do it. She knows…

Anyways she also told me her aunt (who’s visiting from New Jersey) was asking about me and wanted to see me (I know her) I asked if she (aunt) knew about the situation and she said yes.
So I said, ‘well you can tell her to call me if she wants. I dont mind talking with her, she knows Im an approachable guy.’

I got along with all her family.
I also went to the point and asked about the kids dad (if he has been bothering her or what) she told me that he’s in his own world, hasnt bothered her.
I told her that this whole thing is kinda hard sometimes because I couldnt ‘be there’ even if I wanted and everytime we spoke I usually ended up bummed out, hence why I didnt call back or call much and kept some distance.
She said she knows.

Chat continued a bit more and that was about it.

Overall it was nice, I wont lie, not what I expected.
But Im OK.

On the other hand, work sucks. I cant seem to feel comfortable anymore.
Its like I stay silent most of my shift and dont joke around as much anymore.
Idk, I think Im fed up with it already. Crap.

My cousin gets here by 5pm wednesday, so Ill see how that goes. He owed my youngest sister and husband some money from like 3 years ago, and he basically failed to pay back or give them an explanation.
So Im guessing thats gonna be a little tense.

Back to you, please and thank you.
=P

Let me know how your day goes tomorrow (wednesday). Thanks for taking the time out to shout Rene’e…i appreciate that everytime I see it. Always nice.
You are still sweeter than me!
=O

Take care and let me know whats crackin’.

=D

“Yes, but it’s weird because she asks me to hang out outside of work. Movies, concerts, etc.”

=O

Thats awkward.

=S

“I mean I know I’m super cool but gosh. (Jk, jk.) Lol.”

You are “chill”, cool of course. Thats why I would invite you to hang out.

=P

“Idk what the deal was, but for the last two days I’ve worked, her whole attitude has completely changed. She’s like being extra nice.”

Idk Rene’e.
Sounds kind of shady, she already was a lil bitchy with you out of nowhere.

“Sounds good to me. :O”

That made me laugh.

But what days then?

=O

“I already told you, lol.”

?
In PR?

lol

“So how long have you been working at that place? I am wondering .. because if it has been awhile and you’ve seen new people get hired, I would be upset. ?”

Almost 3 years, when I started I started full time but as ‘professional services’, then they said that they had to lower the hours (recently) because of the “economy” and the fact that I wasnt doing much for so many hours (which was true). I (last year) did get to have a second job and had this one as secondary, but then that primary job was over (bunch of people layed off becuse the business/company partners sued each other) and now it sucks.

They (where I work at) did have an opening but it was for a person who would be in charge of calling offices and doing follow-ups on medical reports, plus attending the calls of insurance agents. I suck at too much customer service, most are aholes.
Besides that they wanted me to do all I did plus that, for basically the same “price”. I declined. I figured it would be too much stress for 1 to 2 bucks more an hour.
And here I am.

“That’s what I’m trying to look for, a job with benefits. Idk, it doesn’t seem like it’s going to happen though.”

=(

“I guess so.. but it doesn’t really make much sense in doing so, seeing as how I get paid little to nothing. :P”

Thats no problem.
You dont seem as a “compulsive shopper”. I dont think you would be spending around like crazy. We just have to at least discuss on what we would be spending.

What do you think?

“..Like she just wanted better for you or something? Idk. What do you think?”

Maybe.
But Im somewhat like you, I dont like someone to tell me something I know Im struggling with already unless they want to freaking help.
That was a long time ago though.

“My cousin is an RN.. Has a really good job, but she’s still in debt thousands of dollars from going to college. It’s ridiculous.”

=O
The most I was in debt was about a thousand bucks which was a federal loan I took at college. I did pay it once I graduated. But one of my sisters (the one in miami) was paying a lot of loans for studying at an art institute down in florida.
I agree, its ridiculous.

“Crappy thing is, he was gone all weekend and my sister didn’t go along because she had to work. Sunday was their anniversary and they didn’t get to spend time together.”

Yikes.

How is she doing?

“I did text back. :/ .. He was going on about how he has the things he’s been wanting - a new house, a new job, etc .. but isn’t happy because he doesn’t have me. He misses me and wants me to come back.”

and how does that make you feel?

You know…my ex called I think twice today, but I didnt call back.
Weird. Idk why she would call.

I didnt call bc I know it will make me feel sad again. I struggled with that crap last time we spoke. Its like a rollercoaster ride for my emotions and you know I dont like ‘em.

=S

“Hahaha. :P

..And what are you rolling your eyes about? Lol.”

Because you would not let me go downstairs since we would be yapping the night away?

=O

“I’m actually suppose to be in bed already, I have to get up early tomorrow, which sucks. I’m not a morning person at all. I took some sleeping pills a little while ago because I didn’t think I was going to be able to sleep .. but I don’t think they’re working. Lol.”

Sleeping pills?
lol
Im not a morning person either. Never been.
Unless its something after 9:30am more less and its still ‘ew’.
Basically all the jobs that i have had have been afternoon crap or nights.
……….
Im glad your neck is better.
How are the dogs?

I hope your tuesday turns out alright Tiff, let me know how it goes.
btw…You have a sweet voice, you know that?
I remembered that.

“Well, let me know how you’re doing and how your day went.”

Im OK…was a little surprised to see my exs’ missed call, it did get me a little, but I was determined to let it pass for a change. If it were something super important I think she would have “insisted”.
I cant keep on feeling the convos turning “one sided” and me being the one that “wants and wants” and blah…nothing.

Right now its all normal, I was sleepy at work. My shedule was crapped out beyond normal this last week.
=P

Its raining a little bit right now, which is not bad…but dont think I have forgotten about some more random pics.

PS: Someone by the name of tiffany is looking pretty good at 43 things.

=O

Later Rene’e, take care and keep me updated.

Finally!
=D

“I’m trying. She’s just so weird. One minute it’s like she hates me, and she’s complaining about everything I do .. and the next she is the opposite.”

eh..she sucks…id go with the :
“do your job, get paid, be a hypocrite to them (for the sake of not getting fired for something stupid she might come up with), and go home”.

=)

by hypocrite I mean : “keep distance”.

“The girl she originally wanted to hire didn’t pass the assessment test. ”

=O

“If they have a problem with something I’m doing, I’ll leave. Idk. I just don’t do that.”

Yea, I know you don’t. But some people do it, in this case I think the assistant manager does.

“Easier said than done. :P”

Yes.

“Well.. you should have been more clear. Lol.”

How?
As in: “sending you a round trip weekend ticket”?

“.. Did you want me to take some pictures of a few places around here? .. You won’t be a bit impressed, but I didn’t know if you still wanted to check them out.”

You could. Just whatever you want to take pictures of. I will most likely be doing the same then.
=)

“I think it’s different because you already are at least somewhere. You’ve been to college. You have a stable job.”

Where am I?

=O

lol

Rene’e…my job is 20-25 hrs week plus mileage and computer related side jobs within the company.
They cannot give me a full time per’se (which sucks) because there is no opening and they “cant compromise to it”.

The positive side of it is that I do have medical insurance and they pay part of the social security they take from the check. All Im left is enough for the apartment and cel phone bill, and a few groceries. The rest is me mowing lawn or repairing someones computer.
It sucks because I basically live check by check and as you know…finding a more stable job is not easy. I do have some savings from previous jobs but barely touch them.

Join accounts then?

=P

“:( ..Has anyone said anything like that to you?”

more less…
my older sister once asked me if I was going to get a better job and started yapping about me making too little, I just got up the chair and left, I didnt bother to respond. She has not touched that subject since. I think she thought I was living or free or something.

“There are a few.. these would be the three closest ones;”

any course that interests you in any of those schools?
They seem pretty nice. Especially the short completion ones.

Pharmacy technician?
no?
They get paid pretty good (at least here).

“I disagree.(you sweeter than me)”

You are sweeter.

“Taste me, and see for yourself.”

=O

Oh
no
he
di’int!

Oh
yes
he
did.

“:O
I would tell you to clean that up! Lol.”

Exactly. Thats why you would not get to see it.

=D

“The kids were gone this weekend to go see some of my brother-in-law’s family. It was quiet .. and relaxing for a change..”

Thats good.
How far does the brother-in law family live?

“because the one in the privnote didn’t work. It was just a bunch of letters and numbers, no website.”

=O
Really?

Crap.
Maybe it expires or something. idk.

“Do I need to remind you again how lucky you are? .. I’m jealous. Lol. ”

Ive gone there a lot in the past that I dont even find it appealing anymore (when going alone).
There are more pretty interesting spots around Puerto Rico but I have not much of an idea on how to get to those places.
=O

I will take some random pics like streets on my way to work, palm trees and stuff like that around my area. idk.

But yea, I would’ve enjoyed taking those pics joking and walking around with you. I wouldve invited you to have a pizza when I took the picture of the pizza cart. I thought about it.

There were also many tourists that day.

“I’ve been going crazy these last few days without internet, lol. ”

I understand. I go wild when I have none for a couple of hours.

“I think next weekend I’m going to take my niece shopping, because her birthday is on the 22nd. I was thinking about taking her to a bigger mall about an hour away, but I’m scared of driving there.”

That sounds nice.

“Idk. Don’t ask. I have this weird fear of getting lost. Lol.”

hahaha
i was going to ask!

=P

“He left a voicemail, but I haven’t heard from him since..”

He will keep on trying Tiff. He aint giving up.

=S

Buy a cheap ticket to here for a weekend, stay upstairs (i’ll be downstairs) *rolleyes*, when he calls I’ll answer in spanish.

“How’ve you been?
How are you feeling? How was your weekend? ..Let me know. :)”

Eh..mine was blah too, no early sleep, bored and not much to do. Tomorrow (monday) i start work again and I dont even know if its better to stay home or go, home sucks sometimes. lol and work does too!

But yea, Im feeling kinda down, isolated I guess. Idk Rene’e…it sucks.

One of my cousins is coming on wednesday with his kid (supposedly) from Pennsylvania so I’ll see how that goes.

Ah..i wish you were here to chill/hang out.
=P
There you go. Now let me know how your monday goes. How is your neck?

Glad to hear from you Tiff.
“Rene’e = pure sweetness walking around a store in them dressy shoes.”

Thanks.
Take care.

lol

=D

…I received a email stating that someone clicked on the “privenote” link therefore whatever message i wrote is erased (its a one time read)…let me know if it wasnt you, so I can send the link to your e mail then.

I hope you are doing OK.
=)

I hope you enjoyed the concert!

https://privnote.com/n/meajfmbvygpszm…

Let me know how you are feeling and how your day went.

See ‘ya.
=P

hi,

“But I don’t think many other people think like that. It’s not enough hours to make much of anything..”

I agree.
I hope one of your applications come through.

“Just quit on the spot or put in a two weeks notice?”

On the spot.

“I guess I just didn’t expect it .. because I do work hard, I don’t slack off and I was doing great. I never thought they’d pull something like this. .. But, maybe it’s a sign.”

Stay there until you can’t take it anymore.
Is the new girl thats coming going to have the same hours as you?

“I can usually get a pretty good idea of how a person really is, not too long after meeting them. The ‘vibe’ they put off, I guess. But I was totally wrong about these two.”

I know…
it sucks, they failed. Now you know what type of people you are dealing with. Many people are like that, especially when trying to ’shine’ at their job. Its called “asskissing”.

lol

Something like that.

“:P
What does that have to do with anything? “

Well, so you can stop feeling all stressed out and come and relax a little.

=O

“I don’t.
Then again, I don’t trust anyone. Lol.”

hahaha
true…
i almost forgot!

“.. I just thought she was cool at first. Guess not. ..What a shame.”

yea, she’s probably too into herself. Maybe she felt “threatened” by you. Sometimes being too good at something can be perceived as a threat by another person.
Who knows?

“Hahaha. You make me laugh. :P”

=P
Thats one of my specialties.
=O

“You never asked me to come.”

=O x2

what?

A gazillion times I did…but yea, I never said anything specific about you picking me up to go to the movies.

“I haven’t even heard of it..”

you dont have to see the trailer…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4blSr…

I cant even remember when it came out nor if its still at the movies.

=O

“And why not? :O (camera)”

Idk..I didnt go anywhere to take nice pics…i will take the camera with me and maybe take random pics to later show you..

“You are putting too much pressure on yourself though. ..”

How is my situation (the way I feel) super different than yours?
=S
You are pressuring yourself too.

“I think what sort of makes it worse for me is that not only do I think that way but now I see other people think that way of me too. (Me waisting my life, etc.)”

What?

Rene’e…dont pay attention to that crap.

Could you tell me whats the name of a school or community college around your town? And if they have a website?

“I appreciate that, you’re sweet.. but I guess I just have to deal with it. Hopefully things will work out. Idk. Really sort of sucks though .. because besides not having that many hours, I really enjoyed that job.”

Im not sweeter than you.

On a sidenote…go to your job to work and get paid, forget about that double-faced assistant and the manager. Lets see what the new girl brings (the one thats coming in summer).

“.. And, weren’t you suppose to give me a massage? Lol.”

Yes…with some personal flair.

=P

“But, yeah. That’s pretty much it. I’m extremely excited for tomorrow night. “

Aww yeah!

A night to sing’ out loud.
Enjoy that Rene’e.

“How about you? How are you feeling?

Guess.

lol

ah, nothing new. I shorted one of the computers I was working on last night, this afternoon. =S

Something made contact with the “printed circuit board” while I was moving some cables and ZAP! a little smoke with that burning smell and “Sayonara”…to the trash can. It was my bad, I was never supposed to move cables while the computer is powered on…eh…live and learn the hard way.
It was an old computer board though, made up of different spare parts, nothing major…but the feeling sucked for a while.

While at it, I got rid of some crap I had laying around and cleaned up a little. I had a mess here, what would Rene’e say if she saw that?

=O

I dont like to having a mess in my house…if someone comes, Id be embarrased.

Besides that, nothing else is happening. Silent day, silent night, as usual here. Gonna finish up a movie I started to see two days ago.

=S

Btw, what Im trying to see is “the bourne identity” series (the three movies that came out a long time ago, I never saw them).

Tiffany,
Let me know how your day goes tomorrow (wednesday), have fun at the concert. Take care of yourself and thanks. I know I say this a lot but its nice hearing from you.
Don’t stress out much, you will be fine.
Somebody is going to be looking extra attractive wednesday night!

Btw, your parents OK?

Let me know too.
=D

yea,well…nothin’ good and nothin’ bad…just same old story for me…

“Nice avatar..”

=)

“.. Since then, she has been pissed off at me. I can tell because now she’s treating me differently. (The notes at work, her attitude towards me, etc.)”

Does she work on saturdays?

“It was saying that she doesn’t mind us having visitors come in and chat with us, but it is unacceptable on weekends because we need to be paying attention to work.”

i know how that feels. That happened to me once on my first job. All was done and a friend of mine unexpectedly stopped by, i was alone so we chatted a bit (it was not like I stopped doing whatever i was. Crap was that another dept. manager spoke crap about me and the next day the store manager tried to pull BS on me. The next day I quit. The mofo and the district supervisor then wanted me to “rethink” and so did my immediate boss, I said “that sort of disrespect I do not tolerate”, gave them the letter I wrote the previous day and left…I worked for 3 and so years there. They knew I busted my butt off countless times alone (3 time employee of the month, never missed a day, trusted me enough to let me “in charge” so they can take their long ass breaks, etc…). It was at a supermarket, while attending college, basically my first job.

That was crap.

“There is no possible way my manager would have known I had a ‘visitor’ unless someone said something.”

Yep. One thing Rene’e…dont trust anyone there, be as hypocritical as they are with you. Ass-istant manager = Ass.

They are showing their true colors.

“I loved that job and now I’m getting to the point where I just want to walk out.”

I understand.
let me see if I can get a better paying job so you can come here.
=P

“She told me I could go to that concert with my niece and then texted me today and said she wasn’t sure if I could go. “

=O

“They always want me to come in early or come in last minute and I ALWAYS do, but if I ask a small favor it’s like I’m asking for too much.”

Yep. Its the way aholes and companies work.
They usually see what they want, they see you as ‘replaceable’.
That type of crap was similar to what happened to me the other day.
I know how irritating it is.
Awful.

“She now even wants me to come in on the 19th for a few hours. I mean, honestly .. wtf. “

=O

“I’m beginning to wonder.. :/”

Just dont trust her.

“I’ve already been putting applications in. I think once I get another job, I’m going to put in my two weeks notice.”

Good.

“Did you go?
If so, what movie did you end up seeing - how was it?”

No.
You never came.

I want to see “watchmen”.

I got carried away going to walmart and a computer store to buy a computer case i needed for one of my sisters old computer. I was spray painting some small fans too.
Today was pretty distracting, I took the camera with me but didnt take pics.

“I’ve told you in the past that I feel like my time is running out and that I need to get my life together.. But him saying that makes it seem true. I have no damn direction in life and it feels like I’m failing, slowly. It sucks .. badly.”

Guess what…thats how I feel.
Ive been telling you that for ever now
lol

“Sad, .. maybe even pathetic.. but it’s all already sort of gotten to me.
Idk, I know I shouldn’t let it. “

Give it some time.
Rant, ramble or vent. Let me hear it.

“I knew my happiness wouldn’t last too long. Sucks.”

That made me laugh, but not as in ‘making fun’.
I identify with that.

“I hope you’re doing okay, feeling okay, enjoying your vacation. Lemme know.”

Days are the same except for work. I am hungry right now.
This week is pretty short, a lot of shcools close for the week and so do some offices. So there is some traffic whenever I go out somewhere.

Im cleaning up a mess I have here and once I finish I will see what I can eat. I want a chicken sandwich…
You should stop by.

idk Rene’e…I wish I could do more and try and make you focus on something beyond that crappy feeling.

Thank you for the shout.

Let me know how your tuesday goes. Take it easy…apply to yourself what you tell me: “Dont pressure yourself”.

Let see how things go.

Keep taking care of yourself.
Just because you get all pissed off does not mean you are not cute anymore.

Let me know.

=)

PS: I was going to reply to your shout last nite, but my internet connection failed me while in the process.

hi ya tiff…how are ya?

=D

“I figured it out earlier.. Just send the e-mails to this:”

Thank you.

“.. I did not know that.”

You learn something new everyday eh?

“When I went in to work the next day (which would have been Saturday) there was a note written supposedly to all of us, that said if we were going to complain about working the weekends we need to put in our two weeks notice.”

ah…seems non-considerate from her.
I hate that childish crap. What would it cost her to alternate the Saturdays?

“I said no problem. But when I went in, she had already changed my schedule (without notice) and I am now working both days next weekend too.”

Yes, its irritating. Id be pissed off too. Seems like she’s mad at something else and doesnt care I guess.

Let see what she does on your schedule the next time. Idk now…but maybe you can ask her later on if she can sort of alternate the saturdays or something.

I hope she doesnt turn out to be a b!tch.

“I do sometimes..”

Don’t.

“Are you relaxing and enjoying yourself? “

Trying to.
lol
Tomorrow I might go to the movies in the afternoon…not sure yet.

“Saying he has changed and that he hopes I can give the ‘new him’ a chance.”

Ah…
I think he will keep on insisting.

“He says he doesn’t want me wasting my life; that I basically need to get a good job and move out, support myself, etc. He also says I need to go to college.

I just don’t even want to talk about it anymore. It made me feel like shit.”

I understand how it makes you feel.
He took it a little over the limit, just enough to hurt, actually.

“The only good thing about today was that I found out I’m going to be able to go to a concert on Wednesday with my niece. Her dad bought her an early birthday present (the tickets) but he bought her two so she could have someone go, and she wanted me to. It’s for Nickelback, Seether and Saving Able. Idk if you listen to any of those bands..”

Nickleback yes, the other 2 bands Im not sure about, maybe I have heard a song about them (Seether and Saving Able) but idk by name.

Lucky you.

“I definitely hope your day was better than mine.

I have a headache and my neck is seriously killing me. :( ..Blah.”

eh..
I have a headache too. Tonite I drove to a McD’s and bought me some nuggets. haha
That was it.

Its been raining sporadically at night lately…I start to think the power is going to go out each time.
Im going to go and finish watching some movies in my room later on.

“Also, I apologize for not answering last night, I was in the shower .. But, it honestly wouldn’t have mattered because my throat is so sore and swollen that I can barely talk. :( I appreciate you calling though, it was nice.”

No problem.

As the days go by you might feel more stressed out. Dont let it get to you Rene’e. Keep on moving. You will be fine.

You are not crap.

Keep me updated on how you are feeling. Let me know how your monday goes too Tiff.

Take care.

=D

“but sometimes you get what you pay for. I get excellent signal, etc. so It’s worth it all IMO.”

True.

“I got the black one.
But I got a cover earlier today and it’s black and pink.. “

“Girly nice”.
Cute.

=)

“I think there may be some way where I can have it alert me through text message when I do get a new e-mail, that way I will know.”

you gotta’ let me know.

“? “

“You should be here”, is what I was referring to.
=O
You can be so “adorably irresistible” and ‘huggably sweet’ with things you say Rene’e, did you know that?

“Same with you. .. I wish I still felt good. Some crap happened today and yesterday and ugh..”

=O

What?

“I don’t ever have anyone to usually talk to things about .. then when I do I either don’t want to burden them with my problems or just don’t want to talk about it all..”

You have someone here who does not mind listening to you. I hope you dont think its a ‘burden’ for me.

You know what? I was going to call you last nite but I didn’t, because I was not sure if you were asleep or not, I decided to not text you either because I remembered you wouldn’t receive the text as an instant message.

“I suppose not. :O”

=O

Now get over here.

“I’m having a few problems at work now. It’s a long story. ..And it’s retarded. So, I’m not even going to bother.”

Im shocked.

“I think I need to start looking for a new job.”

What the hell tiff…whats up?

“I at least hope things are going well with you. How was your day today? How are you feeling?”

Im feeling like crap, but its because loneliness drives me nuts sometimes. Ah…the usual.
I went to the supermarket like at 11pm or so…got my mind off stuff. Drinking some lemon juice as I write.

Besides that I did basically nothing today (its the first day of my week vacation)
=)

Helped my bro-in law with some computer stuff, that was it. Stayed home, and it rained a lil bit.

Rene’e…let me know whats up. Im honestly eager to know whats going on, you were so happy a couple of days ago.
Come here, gimme a hug (text me, I’ll call if you dont want to write it down)…I will say it to your face.

..Oh, and I forgot to say that my ex texted me earlier.”

who?

=O
lol

Let me know how you are doing tiffany, Im serious. I do care, so take care.

Freaking crap, i hit a key and my shout erased.

CRAP!

hahaha

“Do the majority of people you know have T Mobile?”

Nah..it varies here, AT&T to me has the best signal, they are expensive..Sprint is super expensive too. Tmobile is pretty decent I cant complain, I only know 2 people that use it. Verizon is also good. My sister, mom and bro-in law are with a company called Centennial.

“Aw. :(
Lol. I’m trying to figure this phone out .. but so far I don’t think it has like a personalized e-mail type of thing. I’ll let you know once I find out for sure.”

Thank you.

“..This is the phone I ended up getting:”

Awesome, but dont drop it!
What color are you getting the phone?

“You sure? :/”

Yep. The only downfall would be you not instantly receiving them, for example…if I send you a sweet dreams one…you might be getting to read it the next afternoon?

hahaha

=S

“If you never ever talk to strangers, how are you suppose to ever meet new people? :P :O”

I guess I was supposed to ask my first grade teacher that.

=O

“I know it’s probably stupid, but when you are miserable at work ..it does effect your whole life. It’s just not worth it IMO ..”

i agree. I have done that before (quitting bc of not feeling at ease at work) but nowadays I feel its been harder to find a job one would enjoy.
Plus I have to pay some stuff.

Are you coming or not?
haha

“That’s all you can basically do in those type of situations. ..They have it coming. “

Yes, I told them too. Today..in a calm manner.

“If you don’t mind me asking .. how long has it been like that?”

Well…we moved to this new place in the beginning of march, so almost a month. I have been waiting for “new desks” since forever…the last ones were thrown away while moving because they were already broken (their support), they fell forward if they had no boxes underneath them.
So yea…its been like more than 6 months…but this last month its been worse bc I dont even have the desk that was thrown away.

=O

I will search for a nice one this next week and let them know where to buy it.
They said they didn’t mind.

“I remember once I worked with my sister at a daycare a LONG time ago. I hated it. ..I just don’t think work + family mix.”

In my almost three years, this was the first “misunderstanding” i have had with them. What basically caused it was my sisters comment. But she spoke to me today, we chatted and cleared things up.
I dont mix family and business..I wouldve been gone by now.

lol

“it’s probably nothing compared to all the long, complicated stories you listened to about my ex. Lol”

I dont mind listening to you Rene’e, I enjoy it. You are sweet…you shouldve told me you lived here so I couldve personally listened.

=P

“..Sounds lame, but I’m pretty proud of myself. :)”

Not lame to me. Im actually happy for that.
Compared to the times I have noticed you feeling so down sometimes..I like it when you feel good.
=)

“My mom gave me some medicine and I’ve been putting a heat wrap on it, but it’s doing absolutely nothing.”

=O

That doesnt sound good.

“You’re being way too hard on yourself. Stop thinking so negatively.”

Yea, its difficult when you are all alone and you have to basically pick yourself up everytime.

But Im better today.

“I was actually going to send you a random joke through text last night to at least make you smile .. But, I figured it was childish. SOooo, I didn’t.”

=(

Now that will cost you…
For not sending the text, now you owe me an unlimited amount of sweetness you give.

lol

yea…
and Im talkin’ bout hugs and sweets.

I hope you dont mind though.
=O

Thank you for thinking about me
=P
Feels good.

“I’m assuming you mean the two little ones that live here?”

Yep.
=)

“He drew an Easter bunny, eggs, and a tree. Then he also drew a photo of Pedro and Chico. Lol”

Thats so freaking sweet. Melts a heart everytime.
I used to draw with one of my nieces a lot. Way back when she was like 10, shes almost 15 now and lives in the states, It took my mind off a lot of things. We used to put cartoon network on and draw characters from there. I was impressed on her skills.

Ah…good times.
lol

“So when are you going to be here exactly? :O Jk..”

I will be there by the time you get out of work, pick me up in them dressy shoes!
=P
But remember, you will most likely want to come back with me when the weeks over.
So keep that in mind.

=D

lol

“How’d your day today go? (Besides what you told me already about work.)
You still feeling crappy? “

Im better. Im glad things at work got cleared up cause today i woke up tense. I havent done much today, only the usual,
you know, chill, wait for Tiff to drop by, etc…

Im glad you feel good Rene’e…let me know how friday goes. Thank you for the shout.

Keep me posted, you look attractive and nice, take care.

=D

just to let you know…(in regards to my previous shout on how work was doing)…today the boss and I spoke and got things cleared up, they payed me for the computer work.
She basically apologized and suddenly I didnt feel so stressed out anymore. I forgot to mention…next week I finally get my ‘one week vacations’.

=D

Awesome.

Now let me know how you been.

Jewelry store eh? awesome, i bet you handle some expensive rings and such. do you get a discount? That’s important having a job you can stand.

Yeah about not going to college, as long as your happy, who cares? and if you ever change your mind..you can always go ya know..im not exact on my major as of yet..im just taking all the minors that are required for pretty much any major..kinda leading towards a english or history major atm..but not truly sure..haha its frustrating.

=D

“Hahaha. You are crazy. :P”

I know.
=P

“For me, I think for both unlimited text + internet is $30. I don’t think it’s too bad considering how I text. I remember once I checked .. and I’d used 529 text messages in only 6 days. Lol.”

Damn thats a superb contract!
I pay almost 40-43 bucks (sometimes)- no internet nor texts included
=O

I think my contract ends in july so Im going to maybe change to another company, Im still unsure about it.

“I’m checking into things tonight, but if the new phone I’m getting has that whole e-mail thing I’ll set it up and let you know the new e-mail. If not, you can just send messages to my regular e-mail, if you don’t mind doing that.”

=D

I dont think there will be many #5’s (of your 43things page) for you then.

=O
=(

I dont mind sending messages to your regular e mail “in the meantime” btw.
=P

“I guess it never got through to him that once you get older, you eventually have responsibilities and you have to grow up. Idk.
I guess that sounds mean..”

I doesnt sound mean. I agree to what you say.

“There is no fake one either. Lol.”

=O

hahaha

“I talk to strangers all the time. :P”

Then your momma didn’t teach you right.
=O

lol

“:(
Are you alright?
How was today?”

Crap.
Work is starting to suck lately. Its basically feeling as if Im putting up with things that bother me just for the sake of not losing the damn job bc of the bills I have to pay.
It sucks.
Today when i get my check, I noticed they didnt pay me for some computer related work.
They didnt want to pay me some upgrades I did on the office’s computers plus some server backups bc the boss told me the labor was “something stupid” (she’s not a computer tech!), I got instantly really pissed and let her know how her choice of words felt. From there she started to bring up how they’ve helped me be in a better position in the company blah this and that and I said that one thing is getting paid for what I was brought to do, and another thing is being paid for computer related services (which is not in the initial agreement). I told her, I studied (took computer courses) for me not the company.
So that went kinda crap. I just told them to get some third party company/person from now on for that sort of technical stuff and that I will stay doing my main BS: Data entry, courier BS, etc.
They will get financially screwed (as I have already seen) by any other technician, and they know it.
So I will let them feast.

Ah…so freaking frustrating. There are more things that everyone else consider “little” but to me are a huge daily issue. Like not having yet a desk in my workspace, I improvised some freaking boxes to put the servers monitor on and made some other work as support for my arms. There is no desk so the keyboard is right in front of the monitor and the mouse is on top of a box (for better height) on top of the server. But everyone else (we are a total of 6 people) has awesome, nice, and clean spots. Their excuse? “We didnt find a desk as you asked for” (L-Shaped, to be able to have more space for papers and crap they need too). Its not a priority for them.
How the f’ am i supposed to feel when you cannot avoid looking around other peoples workplaces.

Go figure.

To top things off, one of my bosses is my youngest sister. So she’s not very good at splitting business and family.

I was pissed today.

But don’t worry about it.
Glad i could vent. And thank you for listening. Im just starting to feel fed up by all that.

“Today when I went in for my shift at work, she was there. She played an April fools prank on me. She was telling me she had to write me up for something I supposedly did. Once you get written up three times, you get fired.
So, she had me all freaking out .. and she was like “April fools!””

hahaha
Mega uncool!
Thats would crap me out too.

“I’m catching on pretty fast and currently I’m like the top sales person in the store. Lol. “

Damn! That sounds nice Rene’e. Keep it going, who knows?, when you least expect it you might get a better position or something good.

Im happy to hear that.

“Oh. I also found $20 in my car! :O :D”

=O

“It was bothering me pretty bad last night though. :(”

=(

“Let me know how things are with you, if you don’t mind.
I hope you’re not feeling as stressed. “

Sure, thanks for asking.

Besides what I described earlier I feel as if Im emotionally worse than ever before, since these feelings cause something like “a negative chain reaction of thoughts” in my mind. Im at the point where i feel nothing is nor will go right for me. I can physically feel some lil bit of weight on a side on my head, its like a “pissed off’ish” feeling, like being mad at whats going on in my life right now, but on the outside Im just serious, focused on whatever Im doing.
I do know I have to control and channel my emotions, its not like I blow up unconsciously and take it on people…its just that I shut down and I block whatever I feel its no use of having close to me until i get to feel at ease again.

Thats about it. Im telling God everyday to change my life ‘drastically positive’ in a instant, cause this crap sucks too much.

You help keep my mind off crappy things tiff, so let me know how you are doing and how your thursday goes. Its always nice to hear from you. Thanks again.
Let me know if your neck lets you sleep too.

Your niece and nephew OK?

Keep me posted.
Take care.

=)

same ol same ol, having fun in college ;) haha, i forget are you in school atm or naw?

who you sticking that tongue out to?

=O

=P

“.. now that my phone is sorta crappy, everything on it is a million times slower, so it just sucks. “

lol

My phone is superior crap, but gets the job done. I dont use it for internet though, I’d have to pay an arm and 4 toes in charges.
=O

“When I get my new phone though, you won’t be able to send anything to my blackberry e-mail account. “

What?

=(

“I don’t know if ’stuck’ is the correct word to use to describe him.
But yeah, I suppose it’s something like that..”

Stuck as in being the same type of guy?
ah..
idk..
lol

“No real reason.. “

Then whats a fake one?
=P

“Haha. Thank you.
She was really happy about how it turned out.”

You are welcome, and yes, I can imagine she was excited, showin’ em off.
=D

‘Did watching that seem to help anything? “

I saw the last 20 minutes or so, I came across the program while channel surfing and I felt as if it was for me. Kind of deep those couple of minutes.
Today was not my day though, a lil’ sad.
Work was kinda crap too, a lil stress today (tuesday).

I hope tomorrow is better.

“Well, that was nice of you. :)”

“Momma always said: never talk to strangers” and I did.

=O

Thanks.

‘Maybe it’s weird that we’re now hanging around each other outside of work? But we get along really well. She’s only like 24.”

Nah..I dont think its weird, I actually thought she was older (30half’sih?) =P
Its fine you get to hang out with her, does you some good too.

Im glad your day went well, keep me posted on your wednesday.
Let me know how your neck has been doing.

“I hope your day went well.
How are things going? How are you feeling? “

Im OK. Today was rainy and sunny and cloudy and rainy…yea, it was kinda ugly. I didnt do anything except go to walgreens after I came home from work. That was it.
lol

Thank you for asking.
=D

Keep me updated.
Take care Rene’e.

hows life been treating ya? anything new or exicting?