Mini-Profile
So much stuff has been going on in my life. I don’t know how to respond to anything anymore. I feel like i’m going crazy. And maybe it’s because i can’t handle life and because i can’t handle the hardship and the success. I feel like im too scared and feels like there’s no cure for what i’ve become. Im scared of people judging me, im scared of people hurting me, im scared of myself. Im scared of being honest. Im scared of being myself. Everything scares me away. I can’t stand my mom. My best friend just betrayed me. Im bisexual. Im in love with a girl no matter how badly i want to get over her. She doesnt feel the same way. Sometimes i just look at some people who are so nice to me and wish i had feelings for the and that they felt the same. I wish someone understood me instead of judging me. I can’t trust my mom, she ..really doesnt help. I think i’m going crazy. There are so many things going on in my head. I wish i could prevent those reactions that are going on in my body from producing these inevitable and aggravating thoughts. Why don’t some people leave me alone. Why don’t my friends let me be who i am. Why? Why? Why? Why are they trying to change me??? Why if i’m not doing any harm. Yes. I Smoke!!! But maybe it’s because no one would understand me. But wait …maybe it’s my fault! Maybe i don’t make sense. And maybe that’s because im too scared to!! Maybe thats why guys want to go out with me because of my looks only. That hurts! That REALLY hurts. To have the people like you only because you look nice. That fucking hurts! I’ve never met a guy who would love me for who i am. But maybe im so selfish that i don’t want to like them because the ones that like me don’t look nice. Ok!! now i know what i need to change in myself!! I found one solution. But do i really need a relationship?? Do i really want to have feelings for someone else if i already love someone… ? Maybe im just seeking for help. Im seeking for solutions maybe… The best solution i could think of was the beautiful suicide that could save my life!! I know now you will go on and judge me thinking that im a fucking emo girl always talking about committing suicides but never does it. Go On and Judge me! Maybe i should care less. Maybe thats another thing i should change about myself if i’m really scared to die. But it’s not like i’m scared to die! I’d LOVE to die! But i’m scared of the pain it’s going to cause. And i’m scared of being caught and “saved”. Im scared of everything. And No! I’m not talking about “supernatural stuff” they show in the movies. But i’m scared of every little positive and negative aspects in my life. I know what you think now! You think i have issues! And guess what? I think you’re right! Because i still keep worrying of what you’ll think after what i write. I still need to work on changing that. I just have serious issues. I’m a hazard to myself. But i do seek for some help…
Where did you grow up?
Don't remind me please...
Where do you live now?
LA
What is the highest level of education you have attained?
Still in High School
What subjects did/do you enjoy the most at school?
all
What's your favorite sport or sports?
don't like sports
What kinds of jobs have you held? Industries too!
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What hobbies are you into?
a lot
What causes are you concerned about today?
going crazy, people dieing, animal abuse, and many more...
Which religion (if any) do you follow?
Agnostic
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