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• My mother was just recently diagnosed with a rare kind
  

  Two afraid people push against each other. The more each of you acknowledge your fear to each other, the less you will take it out on each other through lack of connection, whether that is anger or avoidance.
  - written 1 year ago

• I want to die but I can’t do that to my kids.
  

  I totally understand how you feel!!! Sometimes it is only our kids who keep us alive and kicking.
  
  My advice is don’t think about how your kids would feel, think about some adorable, funny thing about one of them that just happened recently. You know, like when it became s joke of some sort.
  
  Last time I did this, I was smiling in no time, even though when I am actually with them, they are a lot of work and often emotionally draining, especially if we are in a place where we need to take care of ourselves, first. Don’t worry, you *can* take care of yourself, and your kids will be alright, even better for it. You are wonderful for them, as you are, even if you are not caretaking them every minute of the day as portrayed by media images of perfect mothers. Oh, and news flash, even if there are parts of you which are ugly and non-perfect and just plain horrible and angry and hateful, your kids will survive that, too. Because all people have those things inside them, and I (personally) don’t believe we need to protect our kids from everything. We simply do the best we can, and that is plenty fine in 99.9 percent of the cases, and if it weren’t, you’d be the last person who cared, anyway.
  
  Think about love and peace and finding that little space in your heart which is soft and tender and think of breathing in just a tiny bit softly, like a baby’s breath on your cheek, but it is within you.
  - written 1 year ago

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