Mini-Profile
Hi. Thank you for reading this. It is comforting knowing someone cares. I am 27 years old and fell in love with a wonderful gentleman who cares about everything I do when I was 15. We have been together for 11 years now. We both have so much potential but are still struggling to reach it. My parents dissaproved of our love for eachother and havn’t helped us grow into functional, thriving, self supporting adults as I always dreamed they would. Instead we both need more help than I feel comfortable asking for. We want to have children one day but first need to secure ourselves with land and a house and help our parents stop struggling as well.
I have become allergic to all food except for sugar, milk, meat and mushrooms. I think from all the stress I have been under. My boyfriend needs a lot of dental work, help with his bipolar and insomnia. My dad who raised 6 girls needs a hip and knee replacement and needs to stop working so hard and retire from restoring log homes. My mom needs a finished house to live in, my dad never finishes his remodeling projects he starts. No time, money or energy. she also needs to stop restoring log cabins with my dad. They are both approaching 60 years old and should not have to do physical labor any more. Especially when my dad has needed a hip replacement for 4 years. My soon to be mother inlaw needs NAET treatments for her allergies and arthritis, a good doctor for her other health issues, a car to get to her appointments with and materials to paint. She is a wonderful artist. We really want to have a wedding now that my parents have finally accepted our relationship and for the two sides of the families to meet eachother and celebrate our love for eachother. My boyfriend and I are both working on the road restoring cabins for my parents so they don’t have to work so hard witch is very strenuous on our relationship because he is an artist, musician, writer, poet… He writes his own music no one has ever heard before. He creates new music for sound healing. He expresses his emotions and experiences through his music. It is very therapeuitc and necessary for him to play for his own sanity but it is nearly impossible while we are working and staying in hotels. He calls himself a cognitive scientist. always thinking and solving the worlds problems. He cares more about me, the earth, children and animals than himself. All he wants to do is create art and music to help people make sence of their pain, problems and confusions, to filter out the negative, chaotic energies of the world. He bounces back and forth from suicidal urges but knows it wont solve his problems. We are working on the road so I can sleep at night knowing I am doing what I can to help my parents not have to do as much physical labor and still pay their bills. While I know it is slowly killing my boyfriend. He NEEDS to write and record his music. It is hard for me not to be able to give him what he needs. Although my parents did everything in their power to keep us from loving eachother. I still need to help them right now. I had to live on my own at 16 because they said they were gong to put me in fostercare if I didn’t break up with him. But it’s soo hard to abandon someone you love and who needs your love to dull the pain in his childhood. Horrible pain no child should ever experience. We were both preschool teachers once. We respected those children so much. Encouraged the other teachers to maintain possitive interactions with the children at ALL times and enjoyed creating a healthy environment for those kids. We can’t wait to raise a family and protect our children from stress. And so on and so on. I just want everyone I love to have what they need. It is hard to know how to conquer all the mountains we face in life. I start one at a time and never expected to ask strangers for help. But here I am. I wonder if there is anyone out there who can absorb what I just wrote. I need to write a book about all the things that have led up to this point. All I can think of that could help is national health coverage. Come On President Obama! and money or land if we had land we could ask our uncle to help us drill a well. Myboyfriend and I could cut down the trees to build our house with and once we finished it. He could write his music and be at peace. I could have children grow a garden and visit and spend time with my grandma, parents, sisters, nieces and nephews. I miss my cats so much. They are in new york right now and we are working in florida. We have to travel where the jobs are and don’t have a RV to bring them with us. If we had an RV we could continue working in the road, I could cook my special food on the stove or grill and our cats could be with us and my boyfriend could work on his music while we both woked for my parents. I think the RV is the simple soulution to all of our imidiate needs. Please I know I am really confusing and probably don’t make any sense to anyone I know I need psychotherapy but It seems like an RV would be a usefull tool for us to use to solve all our problems right now.
I will re write this clutted mess to make more sence in a few hours.
Where did you grow up?
Syracuse
Where do you live now?
Syracuse
What is the highest level of education you have attained?
massage therapy school
What subjects did/do you enjoy the most at school?
chemistry
What's your favorite sport or sports?
martial arts
What kinds of jobs have you held? Industries too!
massage therapist, preschool teacher, log cabin restoration
What hobbies are you into?
music
What causes are you concerned about today?
global warming, child abuse, human rights
Which religion (if any) do you follow?
antithiest