Okay, so I’ve been thinking about that shout you sent me. Read I John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
Note that it says ALL! If we confess, He forgives EVERYTHING! Praise God! Apart from that, none of us would make it. In relation to the unpardonable sin, do you feel guilt when you sin? Did the thought of eternity bother you before you became a Christian? If so, that is none other than the Holy Spirit speaking to you, sure proof that you are not permanently cut off from God!
We all have done things that later we wish we hadn’t, but God forgives through Jesus Christ!
I opened my email to you. You will find it on my profile page. Feel free to use it if you want. Meanwhile I will try to come up with some thoughts on the things you mentioned. I will be away for a long weekend so it may be next week till I get back to you.