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Don’t read it if you don’t , i jst feel ok, if i just let it out….

…I’m just faking it :/….the happiness i told you…i am just faking it myself…and hiding my own feelings against myself…..just darn hard….
…i don’t know why…no matter how i try to stop thinking of you…..i…i couldn’t…..everything i see and hear reminds of you…..i ..i don’t want to push you again…so, do wht u want too :/……
i always say u r the one…..i still feel the same,but,now……hurt a lot….but the feelings never goes way…..coz i knw its the true one.. that is you!!
so…i’m not going to say anything….until i can come to you or you start to feel the same abt me…..to feel wht u r heart says and not ..anythin or anyone else….i try not to shout you unless u reply..
i just don’t want my shouts to get erased by myself….i wish you could one day read everything and reply to me..and i hope you could find your feelings and look for me…true loves finds the one no matter what or where……if you are my true love and if you feel the same….if you love me…i know you would find me…..until then, see you later…
take care………my princess….

i know you can’t take too much emotions …. so i am not mad, i just sad without you….
just take your time, as much you want too……i trust you with all my feelings and emotions….take care and take your time….don’t get worried after reading this……it looks like pushing you again,but, its not……just letting it out to you…..

MyPrincess wrote:
I do love u so much and love u so much tht u r the most important thing to me tht sometimes my heart cant stop beating at normal speed again when I think of u tht I cant imagine my life without u….. I love u so much ^_^

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the things you said to me……….No one can ever erase it or replace it…those days and memories…. i wont forgot it…… i won’t forget you….i won’t ever or never will.
*watches the star*
Good night!!!
xx

seriously….I’m not going to get worried again!!
Its a beautiful like everyday…i just going to be me…thats how i am always ^_^
I am going to be happy….
and i hope you are happy too…or try to be…:P

……..i guess….only time will tell!!
i don’t knw whether you are facing some problems(may be worse)…or, you just want to focus on your life……and things going on……..
i know you are not showing you are true feelings to me…..you’re just hiding it….that’s how i believe..and i don’t want you to think ” i am not understand you”
thats how you felt with everyone…and i don’t want you to think me as them….
and….i am not going to push you again and make you remember the days we had……..not this time, coz you really need time out from me……atleast for a while , atleast within a month or so…or i really dont know what to think right now…and not going to expect anything anymore untill things changes…and i wish we could get our days back……i just hate myself crying often….
…i just going to find myself again…first i need lots of things i need to do…..well…..don’t stress yourself much and i hope everything gets alright for you….
and i hope i get to see your text soon..
take care!!
c u soon!..

soz for the mail, if i hurted u again…..i..i just though..thougt ..ii…i ..i ..just wantt sa..yy my feel..igs tooy ou…..ho..ww…mu..c.hh u mean to me …..cozz u r thee onllly one understood me …and…i want to bee/ wthh youuuu…becauseee..you loved me whenn everyone leftt me alonee….
i’m sorrry……..i..i…..justt…need u so mucchhh thats all…….this is my feelings i’m having now….jst wannt to say that to yu……hoppee…its not what vamp said…. i jst believe u r words and no one else………jsttt..i ….i…..

^_^
;(((

;)))))))

jst say my thx to vampress ;)

Miss you…. ;(….
hurts being this way……
whyy.y…why did sayy something like that …on skype that dayy….it hrted me a lot…n nn…i thought u will look for meee…..only the days we had …reading those days..those memories makes me keep on going…. i believe those days are real…and i will wait for you…….and i hope you will..and you are going understand my silence……going to disappear again ;(( and get lost again…..n waiting for u to find me…when noone did…….
see u soon!
miss u….and i still love you my princess ;….

Dont act like you dont see my shout
Talk to me.
We need to talk please.

hey
can we talk!!

Good morning…

How are you today??

Hope your fine…

I will be happy if I see a respond from you…
Dear…

….pls don’t make fun of my love to you… ;((….

xx

I never thought you will say something like that ……….but, ….
you will feel it, when the dust settles,….
may be someday you will……next day, don’t say it anything if u don’t….. take u r time……take u r time!….
if u still love….find me..
xx

now what happen??? skype dead??

jessh! I LOOK STUPID!!

ok… just shout me when u feel it ok?
i’m messed up here……jst like u….
sorry, if i ever made u feel lik ‘ i didn’t understood you’…
u need to understand….this relationship we have is somewhat different…… we…we need to let us knw each other whts going on….
if u can’t show up online for a week, pls say it…atleast i’m not asking u to show u r feeling if u don’t want too .. at least explain it to me……
you know how silence hurts me, you know it, right?? I don’t know what goings on, but, i knw you are facing some serious problem…
atleast u could say just a little, can u??
i mean, can’t u???
everytime i see u popin, i thought you will shout me now ….but, you didn’t, its ok! i understand ur thinking something else…..so u don’t want my thoughts to get in and confuse you!
but, you could atleast say something , right?
Just think abt this….
well, what if u r in my place’s and everytime i popin and don’t mess you,…..don’t it hurt you??
whatever the problems i have ,…even if i can’t think shout you for a week or so, atleast, i will let you know…..so, i want the same from you…..
i knw you don’t have time, but, atleast…let me know ok?.. can u???
I knw you have problem in showing u r feelings, but, you can say anything…… even shout me if u want too, but, i need to whats going on…..
This..this relationship we both have…we bth knw it hurts a lot in waiting for each other and miles apart from each other…but,…only way to let us both have strong in this relation is..let both of knw each other whats going on…at least something…..
we both did say, don’t we,…when tough time come, we both remind each other… (:,
I’m sorry again for the tons of shouts below….after reading it, it feels, i losed confidence on our relationship….i’m so stupid sometimes!…
Ok …… well, princess, i’m not ask u too reply me…but, make one for me tonight…just one tiny !!..it will do lot grt to me…or i could help u …

take care!

whhhy r u making me cryy….what i do????????? plsss respond me….i can’t take itt…….hey….plsss say sometthing…..don’t …plss….i can’t help it…

…..hdddddddddddddddddddcg

..heyy…..coommo n

;( u there?

hey…come on………..come in skype just for a min or 2…or shout me now….jst spare a min for me….

shout me …pls……i need to talk to you…..

I really don’t know how to be with you again….
I never said this to anyone…but, only you,…
please forgive for being what i am…..i can’t live without you, you’re the only one i have now…..
i knw i’m not the best nor perfect nor anything, i’m just what i am…. if u ever think i hurted u in anyway or made u worried by staying too far away from you……
I’m sorry…..i knw i can’t heal you right now, as i did before, as you said before,…
but, i will try my best…..
please forgive me….i know a reason you’re not shouting me and i feel the reason why you’re not shouting me….but, i want you…..atleast a lil presence of you,…
i don’t think i can breath anymore …. and i’m losing away….fading away slowly to somewher i wanted to go a long time ago…
Understand me , that i need you with all the difference we have and all the problems which we are going to face when we get together……i knw, if we are together , i’m sure we can face the problems……all i need is you and no one else , this is what you said…and it still its true…….
i need u……i need u……and i’m sorry for making u crying,…please forgive me, i need u back…

;(( pls say something ;(( what happen? I’m worried about you a lot….are you okay? Pls say ;(

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…Positive ;)…

…. I just don’t know why it happens to me always…the things i want to be with…the people i want to be with…..couldn’t understand me…My family…..my best friends….and now…You…..
Is it something wrong with me?? or do i don’t deserve to see and feel the happiness…why can’t anyone see my tears and feelings…why there is no one when i need em……..they always see the mistakes i have done……why can’t anyone….*sign*
huh…Its one of the biggest and grandest festival tomm like xmas to western people n aldy startd…everyone celebrating so happily with their family..together as a family..with loved ones…their best friends….people are so together today…atleast today they are….And here i am ..lying in the roof of 5th floor…watching them, fireworks everywher…people smiling laughing everywhere..its so beautiful to watch….its so hard to feel….huh, mom and bro fighting even today ……dad, supposed to come for today atleast ..but, didn’t….i suppose to goto my hometown where my 6 bff will be joining from differ place expect me ..stuck here with stupid work….and ….now YOu….the only one who never made me feel that i am not lonely…finally made me feel it…..I guess, this is want i called loneliness …Its so dark here ….huh..just like my life i guess…this feeling is so familar….just like me…just like me before i met you….the only one understood me ….its so funny to see me like this….like everydoes…..My Av just looks like me now, except for the hair and color… Problems are everywhere…and everyone does have…so do me and so do you…just not showing u rfeelings to me for some other reason..or something else or dont know what……i got a feeling lik i don’t deserve to know or something…or i don’t knw whts with you……this silence hurts more than you think….jst ONE shout…one shout..is that much to except …. from you…from the one i love …is that …wrong……i really don’t knw whts going on with u unless u tell me…
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wll,…i guess….i’m getting slp here…..hate to go home…shessh..fighting in such a beautiful day… damn ..
well….i guess, i never did expected anything from anyone, jst action happy and expecting people to see me…..i guess they didn’t…but, you ..you are lot different to me…i showed each and every bit of my feelings to you……i showed as much as i can…..hear me ………..atleast you won’t leave me like everyone did….. i knw you don’t…but…this silence from you….its so hard and you know it!! …
I guess, tomm going to be one lonely day…. without my dad or my friends and you…yea….i guess….i need to overcome it..huh….yea…..overcome it…atleast .. wish i never think lke this….i hope i won’t fade away……i knw….i play games tomm…..those monster killing games are really great…..^_^….and lil bit of LP…..adds the taste of my life..^_^……….y cant anyone see my tears…. even my neighbour stndin nxt blck….i…i….guess….they are happy with their lofe…..an. i….
…..i ned u …….hw lng should i be lik ths …….pls….say smething……..i need to hear somethn frm you….y r u dng this….one sht is big thnk 2 ask or expect…..not evn a smll txt say.hw u r……
arggg….here goes the charge…..better close skpye….i thnk my mobi gnna cry nw..bett cls it…
wll….c u then! ….n knw tht i still n alwys love u…..the one showed who loved me and still loves me…the words u siad to me frm the our begin till now..all those sweet words….its onlt thk makes me feel i’m not alone………..nght princess…..have a swt drms..and hapy diwali!..
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m….
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:(( hey……still mad at me…… ;((

Sending all my love to you ^_^ …..

i love you my lil meany :P

Great, i got afternoon off after the big thing went yesterday*phew*
Anyway, i really don’t knw whether u r coming online today…but,…Tomorrow ..is One of teh biggest and superb festival in our country. Lots of firecrackers and sweets :D
And i already got loads of firecrackers to burst tommm..(ok, i knw… I’m a kid still :P)
but..most of all, i just want to hear your shout ….. it won’t be no happy or no best festival if you are not there …atleast your shout :P ….
Well, have a great day …miss u and waiting for you..

Celebrating the festival with my gf^_^ for the first time…..at least, wishing you ^^”

Sending my love to you…i love you!

Hi….
um….uh….how are you?..r u still mad at me for saying something like that….and u still can’t forgive me….i said i am sorry…..
if u r busy..stil…..or mad at me..still…
whatever it is…can you leave atleast single shout for me??? can you?? its been 2days since u r last shout, i’m missing you so much….i really couldn’t stay off from this site, not even a week^^’…..i miss you so bad……i understand you have so many problems …you can share with me, i am always here to hear from me….
whatever you are feeling…say it to me….i’m here only for you…
i just want to hear something from you…how you are doing…anything..i miss you so much…….i miss u….

Hi,
how are you?
how was you’re birthday?

*sign*…………..I’m sorry, if i shouted at you,…….Its just, i felt bad when u got time for some post and not a lil time for me……..i…sorry!
I don’t knw why you said this

My princess wrote:
really right now I cant show it

i understand…..and i don’t understand…..i just don’t get it……….
…..if u feel everything is overflowing ……take u r time…..take u r time, i will be waiting……i just don’t knw how long u gonna make me wait…or…whatever it is…..jst knw that i’ll be waiting……
…………..I don’t want to be emotional and teary……i guess too late to say that…u r the one i could show….well,….its midnight…..i guess u don’t show up and i need to leave …..
see u ………
good night, sleep well!! luv u a lot❤!!!
xx

I waited for these days…so longing for you……..just you….i watched everyday for your shout…and i still keep on waiting…..u have time to reply to a post and no time for me???? u knw how it feels????
u could have at least said something……..*sign*…..
but…yea…..don’t worry….. I’m not going to get worried ^__^..i not going to…
just…*sign*….yea, ^_^ c u soon!
xx

Yeaa….U don’t have time…..yea..u don’t….
…
xx

Read my last post… If u have time …

:/ miss u… .
Miss u…
…need u..
I love You..good night…
Its not the same without seeing your shout…

…..miss u
Sleep well,
I’m sure you will be exhausted after u r tough day in military camp, …….., i guess, i shouldn’t expected u today :/…
Sweet dreams ..

Princess….. {.}_{.}….wher r u ;_;

;_;

Don’t tell me you dont have time to shout ;((
…you went without saying and now you came and haven’t said anything….what are you thinking??
don’t you miss me ;(

HEY 0_0
you are back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When did ya came ?????
I missed u so bad ;(((
…wher are you????? :(

Anyway, i have a good news, my company not going to close ^_^ so i’m not going 2 lose by job.(atleast for now:P)
And bad news, my pay still remains worst :’( and great news, its finally here, the biggest festival in our country on saturday ^_^ tons of fireworks and crackers. I already got loads of fireworks :D ,..going 2 be great ^_^
And sad news, …i hurted my arms ._.
And painful news….i’m so hungry and no mid night snack :(
And one cute and sweetest news, i love you ^_^ love you much..
Waiting 4u princess^_^

…:…you went without saying a word to me…..
…i don’t feel the same without you….i swear…i don’t think nothing will be same or good without you…
This one day…made me love more than ever…still hard that i need to stay alive tomo without you….do you feel the same… ? I need u..

…hey ..i’m missing you a lot! ..come back soon ok …i…i need a hug….i miss u…my love..
Sweetest and loveliest dreams.

Leaving tomm i guess…
Well, take care and i going to miss you like everyday ;(….but, i’m sure i won’t worry too much…coz you will be back ^_^ for me..and i will be waiting for you ^_^…
2dayss…huh..:/…its soooo long…;(…come back soon or atleast txt me, if u …
well,….see you ;)
I miss you…and i love so much….
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

I tried to call you from 7pm to 9pM(my time)
but…..i couldn’t get you…
it says, ‘the number is not available at this moment’…..and another russian voice …
i really wanted to hear u r voice …but, no luck ;((
..
guess, someother day!!

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